“Remember when you were a kid and movies were frightening, beautiful, and transformative? Forget the rest of the world and write for that kid.”
“Cut a scene to its leanest, strongest emotion.”
*These two quotes have been my mottos for the past couple of years. They drive me to create.
Well, interestingly I’ve somehow done a lot this year. As the days of December dwindle down and my birthday fast approaches, I began to think about the year and how fast it has gone by.
This year, my goal list changed a few times. I’m beginning to understand more and more that some things take way more time than I envision in my mind. The ebb and flow of my family life + all the random curve balls, I’ve had to adjust accordingly and be ok with allowing more time for things to progress.
My birthday will be here in about two weeks or something (I should probably check that). My habit is to check my goal list every two weeks in order to see what I have completed, what is in process, what needs major work, and what needs more time. After looking at my list earlier today, I was blown away. I can faithfully scratch off 19 things from my goal list for the year! And I still have a couple of weeks left to finish more. What a blessing and a pleasant surprise!
There were so many setbacks this year. There was even a three month span of being at a stand still emotionally/mentally and feeling deep loneliness and sadness. I’m not sure what I created during this time. It was a time of grieving so many things and it was also an unidentifiable time in my life where I wasn’t sure why I felt what I felt. But Jesus was close as I walked through it.
This year, I found my true niche vs. what I thought I wanted to do with my company. I figured out what I actually LOVE doing instead of what I thought would be a great idea but essentially ended up being stressful and taxing.
The value of building my company slow and steady, has been something I’ve grown to deeply understand and cherish. I realized who my tribe is and how they have been supportive and present every step of the way for this process. I realized the importance of not overlooking them but honoring them as I grow as a leader through trial and error.
I’ve met some of the dopest artists and people this year. Incredible producers and songwriters. I’ve met some awesome mentors and business people. It has been a wild ride.
I know what I need now. Crazy how it all comes together.
I learned to not try to make a thing what it cannot be. Operating in reality is gonna bless everyone involved. The year is almost over but I know I’ll learn so much more. There’s more to write, but I’ll share those things later.
There are still a couple of things on my list I want to challenge myself to knock out before the year ends. And I’m going to do it.