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[15:41]
The phone rang, yet again. Varré picked up the receiver — the cord stretched, the telephone box shifted, threatening to edge closer to the edge of the desk and making the doctor click his tongue.
“Yes?”
“A double or a latte?”
Well, yes, of course. Of course, you’ll be standing by the coffee machine instead of doing something useful.
“Varré, get a move on; there’s actually a queue at the machine.”
He rolled his eyes, wishing you could see him.
“A double. And press—”
“Sugar, yes, yes, i remember, see ya.”
A long beep, and you’d already disappeared. He sighed, slamming his work phone back into its cradle.
[18:37]
“A mouse with a fish.”
You held out your hand, the mouse resting in your palm; the liquid inside slowly slanted to one side, but the little red fish inside didn’t sink.
“Really?”
“Dopamine.”
Varré gave the mouse another sceptical look, but said nothing more — instead, he reached into the bag hanging from the back of the chair and pulled out a heavy lighter.
“This,”he said, pointedly holding it face-up between his index and middle fingers. You spotted the rose hidden on its side. “is dopamine.”
The cap clicked, the button clicked, and then a blue flame flared up.
“Uh-huh. According to the packaging, smoking causes blindness, lung cancer, impotence, heart attacks, strokes, tooth decay…”
Varré closed the lid, then opened it again and pressed the button once more. This time, the flame was green.
“Give it to me.”
“You have a gambling addiction, my lambkin.”
[20:42]
“Can a fish think?”
You tapped the aquarium with your fingernail. The fish got scared and hid inside its sunken ship.
“Have mercy on the poor fish.”
“It used to live with you in the office. It’s already been spared by being put in here.”
Varré snorted, crumpled up the glass and threw it away in the bin. You watched the hole where the fish had hidden.
“You look just like it right now.”
“Varré…”
The experiment
Dottore x f! reader
Warnings: MDNI, pwp, injections, restraints, masturbation
Working as Dottore's assistant, you have become accustomed to participating in his experiments. This time, answering his late call to the laboratory, you do not expect the outcome you receive.
“Are you ready for the final experiment?”
Dottore's voice rang out above your head like thunder from a clear sky. The sky, however, was far from clear; through the haze and dizziness brought on by the last injection, you vaguely saw the outlines of a dark laboratory and the occasional glimpse of the Doctor’s face above you, or rather, his unchanging mask.
How many times had you already lain on this cold metal table? It seemed like dozens, if not hundreds.
“Dot... tore...”
“Quiet, quiet. You're doing great, my little bird,” something like the sound of glass cracked in your ear. Your weakened, overexcited brain reacted as if it was very close, although in reality Dottore was already standing a little away, stirring a bright liquid inside a test tube. The syringe lay nearby; you only hoped it was sterile. The Doctor always gave you special privileges, however — he must have been satisfied with the quality of your assistance, which is why the conditions pf the experiments were... somewhat different.
You couldn't move; your arms and legs were tightly bound by cast restraints screwed to the table. Even turning your head was difficult; your body seemed to refuse to obey you. The nature of today's experiment was unclear to you; in the past few days, you hadn't seen a single new journal, which Dottore kept in abundance with details, nor any new entries or other notes carelessly left on one of his desks. His summons was quite sudden, considering the late night hours.
“Maybe this will warm you up a bit,” the Doctor said as he put on gloves and, holding a syringe filled with a mixed substance, approached your fragile body. You looked at him sluggishly, and, staring at the bright purple liquid that easily caught your scattered attention, for some reason, one after another, you recalled the formulas of all the compounds you had prepared for several operations on Balladeer. None of them was something you would want in your blood.
You tried to croak something out, but the words came out as an indistinct mush. Dottore whispered a prolonged “shhh” in an attempt to quiet your feeble efforts, then brought the needle to your forearm. Quite an unusual spot, you thought, choosing the bright earring in the man's ear as your focus.
The injection was painless, but its effects were immediate. Heat spread throughout your body, your temperature soared at an incredible speed. It was comparable to how intensely you feel it during illness. Sweat appeared on your skin, your limbs tingled, and sensations returned instantly, with such force that you wanted to scream from the sudden pain. Dottore's hand, still gripping your shoulder near the reddened puncture, now felt burning cold. Goosebumps ran over your body, a slight tremor of overexcitement made the Doctor watch you with interest; he immediately noticed how your already intermittent breathing quickened, how heavily your chest began to rise, how your pupils dilated, and how your gaze darted around the ceiling. A firm hand reached out to your face, fingers touched your chin and turned your head so that you looked only at him. Thin lips stretched into a smile.
“Tell me, do you feel it?” He took off one glove, reached out with his palm to your neck, and lightly ran his nails over the wet skin. You knew he didn’t like to touch any secretions with bare hands. What had changed?
You didn’t just feel the touch. It was so vivid that you opened your eyes wide and took a deep breath. An involuntary amazed moan escaped from your tightly pressed lips. God, how awkward you felt; not even from the thought that you were lying naked on the table, but from the realization that he could play with you like a toy, and you had agreed to it yourself.
“I expect a clear answer. At least nod, for the record.”
You quickly nodded, feeling a surge of strength and regained control over your body, though not complete. Still unable to do anything about your sensitivity, you prepared for what would come next.
“All right. How about this?”
His fingers slid further down, to your collarbones and the hollow between your breasts. You closed your eyes in embarrassment, unable to resist the growing arousal. Was he deliberately tormenting you? What kind of experiment was this?
“Well? Don’t test my patience.”
“Y-Yes…”
With his other palm, he leaned on the table and slightly bent over it. It seemed now he was not only observing but also enjoying it, which was an unusual for him during experiments. Dottore guided his fingers. He squeezed your chest, running his index finger over the hard nipple; you arched toward this incredibly pleasant sensation, restraints digging into your hands but not blocking the flash of pleasure. A loud moan escaped your lips. What the hell was in that vial?
His figure, bent over you, didn’t move an inch. Dottore continued to caress your chest, and you didn’t understand what motivated him — it didn’t really matter. It wasn’t important. You wanted more. More of his hands on your body, more pleasure. Desire burned between your legs.
“As I suspected.”
His hand slowly withdrew. You whimpered, protesting this.
“Dottore…” You trembled with excitement. Anything…
“My poor little bird,” he smirked. “Perhaps the dose was too much?”
You looked like a mess. Soaked, flushed, confused. He had never seen you like that before. Something inside him enjoyed such a beautiful sight probably a bit too much.
“My poor little doll... You work so well," his palm returned to your stomach. You sighed. “Good assistants deserve a bonus.”
With a quick movement, she found herself between your legs. Her fingers pressed firmly between your lower lips, sinking into the hot slit; you felt as if you were about to explode from the overwhelming sensations flooding you. The smirk never left Dottore's face, and you were almost certain that there was no experiment at all to begin with — this cruel man had only decided to play with you, and the worst part was that if he offered to do it all again, you would agree at that very moment. The feeling of his fingers on your clitoris made you impatiently raise your hips to meet the rhythmic movements and moan loudly, forgetting about embarrassment and any hints of self-control. You wanted to grab his hair and press him hard against you, to feel him with your whole body, so that his hands would continue moving over it until this incredible sensitivity evaporated from your body. You never wanted him. Until tonight. Now, tangled in this injection, you saw him as the most desirable person in your life; now his hair seemed beautiful to you, his biting smile was the target of your desire to kiss him, his hands — God, his hands, his fingers — became the object of your violent obsession.
The orgasm gradually approaching. You wished you could see the Doctor's eyes... To find out what was hidden in them. What was he feeling right now? Did this segment even feel anything at all?
One finger easily slid inside you, pleasantly filling you, followed by a second, slightly stretching you and adding that necessary feeling, almost untying the tight knot in the lower part of your abdomen. Dottore sighed contentedly, feasting on your lust-driven expression. You noticed that his own breathing had barely faltered — so, after all, he wanted and enjoyed it just as much? The second hand, still gloved, rested on your chest, gently squeezing and caressing it. All his movements, as if perfectly honed, quickly brought you closer to orgasm.
“My dear bird, tell me...”
He leaned toward your face. His breath was hot, probably as hot as you yourself.
“Are you willing do anything for me?”
Swallowing hard and ignoring the thin stream of saliva running from your mouth down your cheek, you blinked several times to realize what he was asking you. Anything for him?
“Yes... yes!”
God… God, you must have loved him! No, no, you didn’t love him, you were simply obsessed with him, and all these years working with him you ignored it, but now, now you understand it.
Dottore laughed, then, sharply nodding his head to slightly shift the mask to the side, kissed you. His tongue slipped through your lips, caressing yours in a wet union, and you moaned again, eagerly responding to him in this shameless dance. If your hands weren’t tied, you wouldn’t have let him go, you would’ve held him tightly that his skin would sting.
Excellent, Dottore thought. He had his own special plans for you.
A few more movements of his fingers, and a wave of pleasure washed over you completely, making you tremble violently. The orgasm overwhelmed you with a force you had never experienced before — it was something impossible, incredible, hot, and very, very intense. Your body froze while you were experiencing these emotions. Breathing was difficult.
Dottore broke the kiss, and after a few moments you no longer felt the weight of his hands on your wet body.
You lay on the table in shock, staring at the ceiling in a daze. You still wanted him. Perhaps even more than before.
“Let’s consider the experiment a success. You did great, little bird.”
You never fully understood him. But you didn't care how he treated you — as long as his hands rewarded rather than punished, you decided you would dive into any experiment for him.
Fragments
Happy New (almost) Year :) (shits upcoming but still). I wanted to gift you guys something to lift up the mood a little before the winter break. I hope you enjoy.
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While snow fell outside the window, Callista still couldn't decide which ornament to hang in the foreground of the tall Christmas tree; the scent of pine filled the room, and she gazed thoughtfully at the branches and the bows adorning them. This spot is filled. Here, they need to be switched. Or maybe they shouldn't be? Perhaps the white bows should be replaced with red ones… The white was as delicate as her dress. The red was... special. It reminded her of the color of her addiction.
When the curtains fluttered, bringing with their movement the cold air from outside, Callista, turning around in surprise, was about to hasten to close the window, but her gaze met the tender scarlet roses lying on the windowsill. They were delicately wrapped and tied with a white ribbon, which resembled one of the ribbons from her corset that she had lost long ago — so it wasn’t really lost, was it? The petals of the flowers still held remnants of melted snowflakes.
Callista approached the windowsill. She took the bouquet of flowers, expecting to see a revelation written in blood on it, but this time it seems the person decided to meet face to face. Or so one could say.
Hands embraced her waist. The chin, hidden behind the mask, rested on her shoulder. She didn’t hear Varré’s footsteps, but as soon as he was behind her, she saw his reflection — there was no usual fabric carelessly thrown over his clothes, no gloves, only cold porcelain, burning-cold against her skin. Normally, she would have expected to feel a playful blade near her body. This time, the object of her adoration showed her mercy.
“I didn’t expect to see you today,” the girl said quietly. This time he approached from the side of her healthy eye, rather than as he usually did, appearing out of her field of vision.
“Well, It is supposed to be a holiday today. Usually, one would spend it with family,” his hands released Callista’s waist. She felt with disappointment how the warmth quickly faded away. “But since we have some issues with our families, I thought — why not visit my dear little lamb?”
Callista smiled. Pleasant. She approached the Christmas tree and, finally deciding where to hang the ball framed with scarlet drops, which had long been waiting for her on the miniature table, carefully took it by the ribbon and hung it almost in the middle of the branches. Varré watched the girl closely; now, in the light of the fireplace, she was even more beautiful to him than the first time she took off her mask that day in Liurnia.
Varré had prepared a special gift for Callista. A thin chain, carefully hidden in a neat case, rested safely awaiting its moment. Varré knew; it would look like an exquisite cut adorning delicate maiden skin. As if a needle had traced over the lovely collarbones.
There was no one in the kitchen except for silence, Remus, and King Morgott. A fire burned beneath a nearly boiling pot, and Remus was thoughtfully, yet effortlessly, working on a pleasantly fragrant drink. His thin figure was framed by an apron; such a cozy, homely scene had not been noticed by Morgott before, but today something stirred in his heart once again.
“Where dost thou learnt a recipe from?”
Remus smiled slightly, not turning his face toward the Omen. Morgott watched the neat shoulders of his partner move, this time not hidden behind the locks of his hair; neatly tied in a ponytail, they revealed the beautiful curve of his neck. It was easier for Morgott that Remus did not see his embarrassed face.
“From my mother,” Remus replied briefly, putting on gloves and taking the pot off the stove. The strong smell of wine and spices filled the room, and it was hard not to admit that he wanted to pour the drink into glasses as soon as possible and go relax.
Morgott got up from his seat and moved closer to Remus. He had never cared about holidays or some strange human customs, but with Remus, such simple things as... coziness had come into his life.
“Dost thou… require any kind of assistance?”
“Perhaps. Could you take the glasses off the shelf?”
The glass warmed and took on a rich crimson hue. The wine bottles, long unused and matured over time, finally came to good use. Sitting by the hearth, Morgott sniffed the drink with a hint of curiosity.
“What is this called?”
The glass looked amusingly small in his hand. Remus watched with interest as the Omen assessed how much he wanted to try the drink. It didn't take long to see his satisfied reaction — after a brief pause, he touched the drink to his lips and then took the first sip. Remus did the same, smiling contentedly at the pleasant warming sensation. Morgott took a forgotten warm blanket from the back of the carved sofa, unfolded it, and gently covered his partner's legs.
“Glögg. How do you like it?”
“Quite a great much. I thank thee, my heart.”
The snow creaked under the hooves, the cold chilled her cheeks, barely touched by a blush. Snowy winters in the Lands Between were quite rare, and Morigan involuntarily shuddered as the snow from the branches kept trying to get down her collar. Torrent was excitedly galloping forward, clearly pleased with the weather and the interesting crunch beneath him. The girl squinted, trying to ignore the glare of the bright sun, blinding her with reflections off the white natural blanket.
In the distance, the familiar church appeared. They couldn’t set an even simpler meeting point, though what difference did it make if their feet would bring them there anyway?
Liurnia had turned into one big skating rink. The shallow water had completely frozen, becoming a lake of endless ice. Torrent did not expect the change to such a slippery path. One second, two, three, and Morigan, unexpectedly even to herself, screamed as the horse, panicking from slipping hooves, sent her flying back first to the ground.
“Torrent—!”
Only a fading ghost remained of her horse. Struggling to recover from the heavy collision that had knocked the wind out of her, Morigan was in no hurry to get up; large flakes of white snow were falling from a clear sky, and the snowflakes that landed on her cheeks quickly melted, leaving shiny drops on her skin. She lay there, staring at the endless blue sky, watching the steam from her hot breath rise up to the branches of the trees. Her hair was tousled. Something made her sink deep into thought.
“You know, treating colds isn't really my specialty.”
The girl looked away. She didn't need to see the person to know who it was. She sat up, shaking out her wide sleeves.
“I wouldn't trust you with my health anyway.”
Varré chuckled. He crouched behind her. Morigan raised her eyebrows in surprise when she felt soft fur. Varré carefully wrapped a warm scarf around her slender neck, which was barely protected from the cold by anything. What an unexpected kindness...
“Let's go. You don't have to lie in the middle of a field to enjoy the weather.”
“Hmm,” Morigan snorted. Varré brushed off her back and legs as she stood up. “Let's see if you can offer something better.”
Varré gently took her hand. This time the girl did not resist. Beckoning her to follow, he headed towards the picturesque gazebo.
“May I entice you with gifts?”
“It depends on how much effort you put into the packaging.”
Melody
The long-awaited journey to Inazuma brings not only inspiration for your new music but also an unexpected encounter with your new muse. Who would have thought that you would dedicate so many future melodies to such a human-like doll?
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Warnings: none so far
ch. 1 | The Doll
Finally, after a long time, you were able to set foot on the hostile lands of Inazuma. It was spring then, and the sakura was beginning to bloom; you had always wanted to see its beautiful petals, which were depicted in so many paintings hanging in various exhibitions and described on the fragile parchment of hundreds of books that cherished Inazuman culture. You jumped on the first ship you could get on — cargo ships rarely sailed towards the islands cut off from the rest of the world, leaving behind the possibility of getting there at any time.
You were driven by the opportunity to be inspired. Having barely finished settling into the culture of Liyue and giving a small concert at a local teahouse, you didn’t stay here long — there were still so many melodies to hear, and just as many you longed to compose. You didn’t know what to expect from the lands ruled by the Electro Archon, and even natives who had long since moved to other countries couldn’t give you any advice; the situation was changing rapidly and unpredictably, so many acquaintances didn’t know whether to twirl their fingers near their temples or praise you for your courage.
The zither, traveling with you for many years, was your only faithful friend. It visited as many places as you did and saw as many thousands of faces as you saw through your delicate mask; it was also your inspiration to travel to Inazuma to learn the origins of your instruments creation. People remembered you as a nameless bird; indeed, you never revealed your name, and you didn’t plan many concerts either, and you were probably called a bird because of the embroidery on the intricate fabric of your cloak — whether it was a heron or not was left to the imagination of the casual audience. Along with the instrument and the mask, your path was accompanied by the melodious sound of heavy bells sewn onto the edges of your garments.
Acquaintances were not a priority for you, as you moved through the world quite chaotically — wherever your finger landed on the map, or from where interesting events blew, or where a new musical concert was announced. Music was indeed your everything.
On the day of your arrival in Inazuma, it was raining heavily. The deck's wooden planks creaked plaintively, provoked by the stormy waves, and the sailors expressed their sympathy about the unfriendly first meeting, but you paid no attention to the cold drops flying onto your shoulders and piercing through the fabric of your clothes, nor to the menacing arches of Tenshukaku looming far, far ahead.
“The Shogun must be in a bad mood,”muttered the captain, gritting his teeth around his pipe. The smell of tobacco was barely noticeable due to the gusts of wind. “This damn weather always acts up whenever the lady is angry. And now they'll probably hold an inspection for another two hours...”
You thoughtfully raised your head towards the distant temple towering in the fog. Thunderclouds thickened around its beauty, overshadowing all admiration for its structure.
The inspection was indeed long. No one was allowed to leave the pier until all documents and cargo were checked; fortunately, the captain had kindly added you to the lists in advance. The guard protecting the port scrutinized you suspiciously, and in the thickening clouds, his gaze seemed especially sharp.
“You don’t look like a part of the crew,” he barked at you critically, nodding towards the team behind the captain. “Purpose of arrival?”
“She came with us. She’s on the list. What’s the problem?” The captain took the pipe from his mouth and nervously tapped his finger on its sturdy wooden surface. Furrowed brows distorted the old scar on his forehead.
“If she is part of the team, then she will go back with you tomorrow. However, she does not look like a sailor, so she plans to stay. This is how I see it. Currently, Inazuma is not accepting guests. You will have to sail back.” The guard folded the documents and tucked them behind his belt; his words were final. A sudden disappointment flickered deep inside you — no matter how much you prepared yourself for rejection, hearing it was still unpleasant.
“She has documents and no weapons. Who is she going to harm here, children?”
The guard clicked his tongue irritably and nodded to his assistant toward your case and the bag standing next to it, which contained your few belongings.
“Search it. What are you carrying?” The expectant look was directed at your mask. “And take off the mask. We need to know your face.”
His assistant opened the heavy case, and the guard glanced briefly at its contents.
“A musical instrument, sir,” you said, not rushing to comply with part of his order and reveal your face, which clearly displeased him. “I am a musician. I came here to...”
“Musician, huh?” You were cut off mid-sentence, “A commendable hobby, I admit, but there’s no place for you to perform a concert. Sorry, but entry is closed to outsiders. Things are strict here right now. You can have lunch in that house, but you won’t be allowed further.”
The ships captain spat somewhere toward the water and was about to pat you on the shoulder, calling you back on board.
The wind brought with it a gentle scent, playfully highlighted in the rainwater. Its owner appeared no less graceful; she carried with her the confidence and calm with which a martial arts professional holds a sword. The sound of her heels on the wet stone of the pier almost disappeared into the tense silence. When the fabric of her garments stopped rustling with her steps, the guard turned around, and something barely noticeable changed in his face before he bowed, tightly gripping the hilt of his katana in his palm. You looked at her captivating figure and didn’t know what impressed you more: her incredible hair, reflecting the spring colors from those very paintings, or the gaze of thunderous eyes? The long hems of her garments were slightly soiled from the wet dust, but her image was not tarnished by dirt. She must be an important person, you thought, clenching your fists and not taking your eyes off the arriving woman. She, having briefly assessed the guard, looked at your mask with mutual interest, occasionally unable to resist evaluating your musical instrument, still openly displayed and gradually getting wet in the rain.
“Miss Guuji,” the captain of the guards bowed politely.
“Oh, what’s the fuss? Isn't it wonderful that a person of art has come to us?” The rhetorical question was directed into the air; she clearly did not expect an answer. “Why don't we let this beautiful girl through?”
You watched the unfolding events with distrust. Had you known things would get this serious, you would have tempered your zeal back in Liyue.
“Lady Yae, with all due respect… We have orders from shogun. And it’s not like I want to be the one losing my head over this.”
The priestess smiled.
“The lady shogun won't concern herself with an ordinary musician. And I wouldn't mind spending the evening with some music. What do you say, lady musician?”
You approached the zither case and snapped it shut, irritably fastening the carved clasps — you would have to spend time thoroughly drying and wiping the instrument. The ship's captain, the guards, and the guuji looked at you expectantly, intrigued to varying degrees by your response; the captain of the guards nervously fiddled with the belt where he had previously tucked some documents, while the ship's captain twirled a heavy pipe between his fingers, not bothering to refresh the tobacco since it would get wet anyway.
You pondered your answer. In an unfamiliar country, an offer from a person clearly not insignificant in relation to the shogun seemed ambiguous. You knew she already wanted something from you, but you couldn't understand what exactly this lady might need from a completely unknown musician.
“Your name is heard a lot over here,” the priestess drawled, shrugging off the cold drops. “I think we'll have enough audience for your notes.”
In the distance, lightning was flashing, mingling with flying cherry blossom petals. The air smelled of spring.
“Thank you, Lady Guuji,” you raised the case. Your posture did not falter under its weight. “I would be happy to have the opportunity to travel across Inazuma.”
The priestess clapped her hands, fairly covering her eyes.
“Wonderful!” she giggled, waving off the guards to release everyone from the team. “In that case, you should stay at the guesthouse until morning. I will see you there.”
“Lady Guuji,” the captain of the guards hurriedly addressed her, stopping the woman halfway. She turned, looking at him over her angular shoulder. “With all due respect, ma'am. But how am I to report if suddenly...”
“If you don't end this drawn-out scene, it will definitely be found out.”
“Understood.”
You approached the ship's captain, thanking him for his help. He just waved it off as if he had done nothing; you made sure to remember him for a long time.
The road to the teahouse was silent, and it seemed to you that Guuji was testing you, but you found no reason or circumstance for conversation, politely walking a little behind the woman leading you. The houses around the square on Rito Island, where you had just arrived, seemed empty. Perhaps it was the weather, which cast them in a somber light, but despite the dark facades, they were still unusually beautiful.
“Do you know that your image was captured in a book?” the priestess suddenly asked, still walking forward with her hands folded behind her back. You looked up, breaking away from examining the houses.
“Excuse me?” you asked in surprise.
“A new novel was recently published. About a group of travelers who hunt for ancient scrolls. An engaging read, although written very primitively,” the priestess stopped by the door of one of the houses. The windows glowed with a soft warm light, inviting you inside. Next to the door hung a sign with the name of the place and visiting hours. “Never mind. I immediately recognized your image. It was described in the smallest details. Apparently, the author of the novel attended one of your concerts in Fontaine.”
You stood next to her under the awning, hiding from the rain.
“I didn't know about that.”
“That's a pity. I would like to hear your music. Lately, our lands have lacked such refinements,” she opened the door for you, inviting you into the guesthouse.
Inside it was as cozy as it seemed from the outside. The priestess asked the owner to provide you with a room for a couple of days and even paid for you herself; you didn't even manage to take your wallet out from under your cloak. After kindly chatting with the owner, the priestess was already ready to take her leave.
“Wait! How about what you stood up for me for?”
The priestess smiled again, but this time her smile seemed sincere.
“I hope to hear news about your upcoming concert soon,” she took an umbrella from the stand near the door, gratefully nodding to the owner. “I'm curious to see how you'll manage to set this up here. And I also hope you know how to fight. That skill will come in very handy here. Especially without the Vision.”
Fight. You didn't even have a weapon... It seems you'll have to look for safe paths or find someone who can at least teach you how to hold a sword.
“At least let me know your name.”
“Yae Miko. Welcome to Inazuma.”
She disappeared as quickly as she appeared on the pier, like a passing fox, swift and silent. Only now did you notice the pleasant but unobtrusive scent of her perfume, which she wore. It lingered here like a reminder of her elegance.
The hostess led you to the room and left you alone with the silence and the sound of rain tapping on the eaves. It was warm and comfortable here; the smell of wooden furniture made you feel safe. After changing into dry clothes, you carefully placed the zither case on the table and opened it. A displeased glance fell on the wet carved base of the instrument — it needed urgent drying.
The evening went on, and you pondered what to do next. For the first time in a long while during your travels, you didn't know where to start — usually, such questions never arose, and the goal was always clear or at least vaguely outlined on the horizon. You couldn't decide between the desire to find out what temple stood atop the mountain, shrouded in storms and petals, and the obviously simple solution of heading straight to the capital.
In the end, your path turned out to be quite winding. You did not follow the obvious plan to head to the capital but instead joined pilgrims and merchants traveling between the islands. You managed to catch a distant view of the formidable Tatarasuna, stand at the foot of the Narukami Shrine, hear stories about the mists of Seirai Island, and catch a glimpse of Sangonomiya’s domain. Miraculously avoiding danger, you played melodies and even managed to write down some pieces on sheets; some were irretrievably lost to water, while others, especially those you soon grew tired of, were used to kindle fires.
Inazuma was amazing. Beautiful, dangerous, and capricious, alluring in its own way. Exactly what you had long sought for inspiration. Contrary to first impressions, the people were very welcoming and expressed surprise at your bravery. You learned about the hunt for the Visions and, although far from such a life and power, were deeply disappointed by the state of affairs. Continuing your travels, you pondered this for a long time and never managed to wrap your thoughts around the Shogun’s decision. It must have been on an entirely different level, one you could not afford as a powerless mortal.
And so, at last, you found yourself in the capital. The islands will deserve a separate notebook for your memories.
It was quiet in the tea house. The case lay next to you. You wanted to give a trial performance, a short one, one that the shogun wouldn’t even notice yet; the idea was idiotically bold, actually, if not insane, but you saw no point in doing it anywhere else but here, at the foot of the city. After all, you needed to show yourself; maybe you could gather at least some people who would come if you managed to organize a small concert. Mora won’t earn itself in the future.
Having paid for the amazingly delicious tea, you went out and wandered around looking for a good spot somewhere near the city exit, where there might still be people, but not an excessively large crowd.
You settled under the crown of a large tree, in the shade of which it was comfortable to study the faces of the people gathered around. Then you decided to take the cittern out of its case. People immediately noticed. Their attention, for some reason, made you awkwardly clutch your instrument in your hands, which was a surprising discovery for you — after so many different concerts, big and small, you had hoped you had outgrown nervousness. Perhaps you were just used to those countries, but here, finding yourself for the first time in foreign lands, you remembered what it means to discover a new audience.
Somewhere behind the backs of the interested people stood two young men. One of them, grabbing the other's hand, kept trying to squeeze into a spot from where they could not only listen but also see your figure.
The heavy instrument was lowered onto the wooden carved stands. The road stone was cold against your knees as you sat down nearby. Taking a deep breath, you once again imagined the bright crown of the temple cherry blossoms and distant flashes of lightning. The melody flowed from the strings almost by itself; without thinking, you gave yourself over to smooth improvisation, skillfully making the instrument sing in time with the breeze passing by. The notes streamed like a brook running through grass filled with electric energy — it seemed it should have clashed with its explosive nature, but in your story, it only harmoniously complemented the picture. You showed the audience your vision of this land, and you felt lighter the moment you realized that, in fact, these people were listeners just like in any other place. You allowed yourself to open your eyes while continuing to play your music, and your heart fluttered with pleasant surprise when you met the enthusiastic gazes of the audience. You inspiredly gave a crescendo.
Your eyes met those of this unusual young man as quickly as a wave hits the shore in a storm. At that moment, you didn’t understand what was so special about him, but a few hours after you finish your little performance, you will still think about it.
After seeing him, the picture of Inazuma seemed to take on a new character. The guy was handsome, even too much so, to the point that it seemed extraordinary; his facial features were overly perfect and sculpted, his posture straight, his clothing simple but shouting of hidden wealth, yet he was not truly rich, wore no luxury, but everything about him hinted that he was not from the same social layer as his friend standing next to him. Something... unexpectedly restless you felt thinking about his gaze. It was both empty and full at the same time, childishly curious, interested in your unusual presence, sparkling with fragments of the storm from Tatarasuna. The white clothing over the lilac shirt was virginally clean.
When you return to your room in the guesthouse later, you will hastily take out your instrument again, but this time, your melody will not be an improvisation, but an attempt to record your feelings on the yellowed staff paper before they — like the melody in your head — slip away. This staff paper will become a page of memories about this person, one of the first melodies connected to his life. In this melody, there will be everything: mysterious quiet minors and unexpected bursts, like sun reflections in his eyes, long notes in the measures accompanying your thoughts about the amulet on his neck.
Somewhere in the distance, on the square where you played, the ruler cast her gaze. In a quiet temple on the mountain top, to calm her, the fox led her ear.
The melody stopped, and the applause was not heard immediately, as if people were still expecting a continuation or were simply impressed. Katsuragi enthusiastically joined in the general praise, while the eccentric stood motionless, merely watching you.
“Did you like it?” Katsuragi slightly tugged the young man's sleeve to get his attention. The question was rather pointless; the way his companion was mesmerized watching your delicate fingers pluck the strings of the zither couldn't be described with the ordinary word “like”. In that brief time after his awakening, Kabukimono was probably hearing something so tender for the first time. “Kabuki?”
“Mm,” the guy nodded at him without taking his eyes off you, “Yeah...”
Something prickled behind the collar of Kabukimono’s robe, as if sparks were flashing deep beneath the pure skin of his neck. Katsuragi smiled, folding his arms across his chest.
“Ah, it's a pity it was so short.”
You stood up and bowed carefully, thanking the audience for their attention. Maybe something would come of this. People, seeing you start to pack up the instrument, began to slowly disperse. Some approached wanting to chat, and you responded warmly, steering the conversation from your music to Inazuma; gathering bits of information and places worth visiting. All this time, the young men only observed; Katsuragi was deeply lost in his own thoughts, and his unusual companion did not take his eyes off your cloak — he had seen such before, but only on the pages of books he had looked through here and there, wherever he came across them. His curious nature was undeterred by either difficult books or cheap novels, which new acquaintances often tried to slip him out of curiosity to watch his reaction, nor by various cheap fashion magazines.
When he emerged from his thoughts, he realized that just as he was looking at you, you were standing and looking exactly at him; there was no one left around except you, him, and Katsuragi, who kept shifting his gaze from you to his friend and smiling shyly.
“You play amazingly! Can we ask where you are from?” Katsuragi has finally broke the silence.
“Thank you,” you turned toward him to nod, but your gaze kept trying to return to the other. “I can't say I'm from anywhere in particular. I travel all the time.”
“How interesting! We rarely have guests like you lately…” Katsuragi shook his head. “Will you be playing anywhere else? We would love to listen again! Right, Kabuki?”
An interesting way to address someone, you thought. Up close, this strange guy looked even more surprising; not only was his face exceptionally beautiful, but he was also composed very gracefully and elegantly, yet there was no weakness in his slender figure. Were you curious about his opinion? Surprisingly, yes.
“Your music is beautiful. I’ve never heard anything like this,” he noticed the bells on your garment and their pleasant sound each time the light breeze disturbed them. His voice was strikingly even; it had expression, yet it was devoid of the usual emotions as understood by people. You couldn't explain it. Something was off about him... The contrast sent chills running down your skin. You were intrigued.
“Thank you. I hope I can perform somewhere in Inazuma for a longer time.”
“I hope we'll hear about it… Oh!” Katsuragi suddenly snapped back to reality, “We were running late to the master! I’m so sorry this is so sudden…”
You only nodded understandingly, watching Katsuragi urge “Kabuki” to hurry off on his errands. He turned to you one last time but said nothing. The last thing you remembered about him was the beautiful lilac fabric shielding him from the sun's rays. For some reason, you had ignored this elegant detail until now. He was like a beautiful doll… This thought seemed too strange, and you tried to quickly throw it out of your mind.
Kabuki... It seemed you had found a name for the future melody. You needed to hurry back to your room while the notes still formed a complete picture.
“Katsuragi...” Kabukimono quietly called his tired friend. He turned his head towards him, breaking away from his dinner.
“Yes? Is something wrong?”
“Do you know who that lady was?”
Katsuragi leaned back in his chair, rocking on its back legs.
“I asked around a bit after, when I was free. Seems like a relatively well-known girl, over there on the mainland...” He took a sip of hot tea. The Kabukimono hoped Katsuragi wouldn't fall backwards. “Why do you ask?”
“How do you explain this feeling when it seems like something inside my chest started beating faster?”
My head swayed every now and then while I tried not to fall into a dream rolling over me. Hands lay on a soft blanket on either side of a thin book that I could not finish, and the fire crackling in the fireplace did not help me at all in my difficult struggle; my eyes closed, but I opened them back with effort again and again. The soft bed lulled. Outside the window was an impenetrable, dark forest full of dangers and incomprehensible creatures carrying hundreds of yellow eyes, and I peacefully fell asleep behind the thick walls of the once populated estate.
no thoughts. varre x oc x oc triangle. two separate shots
“Sweet wound...” whispered the Lady, pressing her fingers firmly on the fresh deep cut. Varré immediately tensed his stomach in pain, squinting displeased and pressing his lips into a thin line, his palms clenched into strong fists, knuckles pale and white. The girl smiled contentedly, watching how the stranger's warm blood stained her fingers, gathering under her neat nails in a scarlet trail. Varré looked up at her from below, lying on the hard bed on his elbows while she sat on his thighs; his hands trembled slightly from weakness, and he felt his head gradually starting to spin.
«Чики-брики…»
I remember the days before everything fell apart.
«… Пальчик выкинь!»
The game always ended quickly. We always played in a group of four.
«Почему ты никогда первый не вылетаешь?!»
Grisha had a sly smile since childhood, and his eyes sparkled, and his hair was bright-bright; you could see him from a hundred kilometers away.
«Глазками-то не хлопай, медведь.»
We had our own place where adults would never look for us. The steppes were quiet at night, not a place for children, but we still gathered by the rails and listened in the silence; back then, we didn’t yet know that the twyre really speaks. Although, that knowledge was needed only by me now.
We folded our fingers, and Grishka usually won. Lara puffed her cheeks, Stas just grunted disapprovingly and turned away, and then we started over. Somewhere in the distance, a train was rumbling. One day it would come for me too.
And then it would bring me back a different person, and there would be no more chiki-briki, no Grishka’s smile missing one tooth, no sweet Lara, no friendly Stas. Everyone hid like rats in the corners, and I was no better — sitting in factory premises as if I no longer had a home, or maybe I did, but parts of it remained in the hands of each of our little pack. Each of them held a thread, the end of each was a scarlet path leading to my father's house, but I was forbidden to go there.
«Ты больше не медведь, Бурах. Пора взрослеть.»
I placed my weakened hands on the instrument and gave the last will to my painful consciousness; the melody flowed on its own within the half-ruined walls, and all that was left for me to do was to overcome the stiff resistance of the keys, pressing them hard with my fingers. Somewhere inside me, a poisonous flower was blooming, ready to explode and spill rot outward from my body; it seemed to move its petals in time with the growing melody, cutting off my access to air, which made me gasp for breath, and a lump formed in my throat that I could no longer swallow. My shoulders weakened, the image before my eyes began to blur, but I kept playing — just for myself, speaking the final words into the stale air, all that I held inside along with the ugly stains. The pain intensified, and the melody crescendoed with it.
I felt obsessed, as if in a manic episode. My lungs were burning, my mouth filled with a nasty metallic taste. I felt nauseous. I was devoted to the melody spontaneously arising in my head, so I kept playing to bring it to a logical end. My fingers desperately struck, taking the next chord — the teacher, whose name I had long forgotten, would have been proud of me. She had never had high hopes for me before.
With the chord that seemed to mark the climax, something inside me snapped. A sharp pain gripped my feverishly heated body, and I had to stop this delirious concert without an audience. Taking a sharp breath, I felt like my heart was about to stop beating. I was paralyzed; lowering my gaze to my stomach, I noticed thick rivers of decay binding me, crawling down to the cold floor. My body froze and went numb from shock. My eyes began to close. I no longer felt the collision of my mask-covered face with the piano corner; in fact, I felt nothing at all anymore.
I fell to the floor. Here I will completely rot, and take this place and melody with me.
implied Ram x reader (first person pov)
The cold metal under my palms seemed to pulse with that incomprehensible energy with which he killed those like me — people who carried ideals that clashed with his love for his omnic brethren. I took advantage of the unexpectedly found privileges, bathing in his intense, dangerous attention; I felt like a dog on a chain at the feet of the machine, created by people just like me, but something akin to love had taken root deep in my heart and reminded me of itself every time his presence crossed my personal boundaries.
His heavy hand always rested on my waist as if it was made just for me and me alone; this deadly machine, named Ramattra, excited me immensely, and I couldn't figure out the exact reason — was it his voice? Or perhaps his strength, seeping through a body forged for war? Maybe it was the manner of his speech or the sincere and mysterious interest he showed in our shared evenings when he returned from his destructive missions.
And I always sat on his firm hips, with the metal plates digging into my legs. If he had a gaze, I wonder how he would look at me? Excitement was evident in his movements, just as in mine — I hadn’t suspected that omnics could feel it too. I always knew exactly what turned Ramattra on, determining it by the accelerating ventilation system deep in his chest, and shamelessly used it, pushing his system to overload again and again. I liked that feeling of micro-control when this ravager, who could grab me by the neck and end my life in a single pitiful moment, did not resist his pleasure.
I ran my hands admiringly over his body, whispering in awe. It seemed Ramattra was pleased.
He usually didn’t stay overnight, leaving me alone to ponder the mixed feelings he himself stirred in me.
I wonder… how do you properly kiss an omnic? Not that he would let me.
Wireface x protag kissing. No excuses.
I didn't care whether his mouth was sewn shut or not; I still didn't understand a single word he tried to mutter to me. But I couldn't deny that I liked running my finger over his torn lips, smearing the viscous blood over the stained skin. I didn't even look closely at him to check whether he was a Visitor or not — the way he looked at me at night before sleep, lying on my pillows, attracted me much more. I laid him down on my disliked side, mentally surrendering him to the ravages of my memories fragments, and he didn't mind, feeling no trick behind it — the master's word is law in a stranger's house.
We didn't understand each other through words, but we could communicate through actions just fine; I liked slipping my hands under his shirt, warming my palms on his sides, and I liked pressing my lips fiercely against his in indistinct kisses — I didn’t understand how we ended up in that position, but overall, I was satisfied. He had nice facial features; I guess I’ll remember them for a long time. My touches on his face clearly caused him strong discomfort; he must have still been in a lot of pain from the previously stitched flesh. I felt sorry for him, but I also wanted to kiss him; the feeling seemed almost new, unexplored, even though it wasn’t my first time. I pressed against him on the cold night, ran my tongue over his red swollen lips, grabbed his hair in a desperate gesture, and grunted appreciatively when he did the same.
Oh, it hurt him, but he didn't stop. We were overwhelmed, as if we were possessed by someone or something, or, on the contrary, like schoolchildren kissing a peer for the first time; I just couldn't tear myself away from this guy. I won't give him away to anyone, even if they put a gun in my mouth. This feeling grew especially strong when he started pressing against me at night.
Then I realised that the murder in the next room had ceased to be a priority, because his hands trembling with fear that gripped my shirt while he was asleep aroused a twinge of pity in my chest. I tried to call the embassy. And they wouldn’t pick up the damn phone... Well, it seems I’ll have to resort to the old methods of consolation.
While walking down the corridor, my hands froze; I only realised this when this Wireface guy grumbled discontentedly in a half-sleep because my palm was resting on his stomach.
Whumptober, day 24 | Amnesia
Midra and Nanaya found her after the surf. At that time, the fog lay thick and impenetrable, hiding the entire shoreline; her pale, sickly-thin body lay on the equally pale sand. Her bluish ankles were washed by dark water, slimy seaweed tangled in her hair — who was she and how had she ended up here?
Nanaya covered her naked body with her cloak, then carefully moved aside her dark hair to look at her face: a young girl, completely exhausted, was unconscious, her shoulders occasionally trembling as she tried to breathe.
Midra was not so interested in her face but much more in the particles of grace that stretched from somewhere far away and fell near her palms buried in the sand — they mixed with heavy drops of orange fire dancing in winding patterns along the entire coast. He knew that grace had long left these places and was very surprised by its new appearance. At that moment, he realized that the girl was meant to be in their home, as if he knew she truly belonged to his worldview; he did not yet suspect that he had just decided to take into the manse a clean book that would have to be refilled with knowledge about the most primitive, basic things — the girl remembered nothing, neither her name, nor her kin, nor her past life.
They gave her a name in the estate; she kept trying to grasp it, attempting to fight the unpleasant feeling of oblivion from the absence of memories.
Whumptober, day 22 | Collar
The amulet he gave you without reason always felt like a tightening dog collar around your neck; flickering in the candlelight, its small precious stone weighed down the miniature chain like a lock on a cage. As soon as it first rested on your neck, it became a symbol of your endless imprisonment within the walls of the old palace and in the company of its inhabitants.
This day, Varré sat before the bed at your motionless feet. His hands touched your broken limbs with feigned tenderness — carefully running from your soles up to your knees, they slid under your skirt, slightly lifting the fabric over your velvety skin. “Your day has finally come. We've waited for it so long, haven't we? Let me help you prepare once again.”
He helped you undress; but he didn’t even touch the jewelry. You made no effort to cover your body — he had seen it too many times for you to be shy; on the contrary, you leaned back, revealing your beauty in the light of the candles and the fireplace, letting the flickering flames dance across your graceful curves. You knew that he, as your jailer, would like that.
The dress he brought was sewn perfectly to your size. You wondered how he knew the measurements? Had he measured everything with his palms, which time and again glided over your hips and chest? You watched him as he dressed you. Varré was dressed solemnly, in such a way that you finally wanted to tear off his mask, and if your legs weren't an awkwardly fused mass of crooked bones, to knock him down and squeeze your palms around his neck for everything he had done to you.
But only Varré’s hands awaited you, carrying you to the altar, above which your lord majestically towered. You had long since overcome the fear of death, long since overcome the fear of your own blood. The Lamb was no longer just a victim, but a holy force before which everyone fell to their knees, eager to speak with the Formless Mother.
You never took off that ornament; it was a collar, but it fit your eyes too well to remove it.
Whumptober, day 21 | Brainwashed
From a long-forgotten diary left on the table:
“I remember the day I was lucky to survive only because I was useless. To this day, I see his trident as a reminder that my insignificance was needed for the first time; he took away all the surgeons who touched my body trying to save it. Perhaps if they had tried a little longer, they would have decided to finish me off… those white masks. I don't know what he did to them, but after marking them with that strange sign, something seemed to click in their minds. To be honest, I can't say the outcome is so bad — it's good to have the chance to return somewhere and serve some purpose. I can't say what's special about this Dynasty, but... Their loyalty, those White Masks, and their steadfastness are truly impressive now. Some of them even sound particularly inspired! And somehow I ended up here too... What… What am I doing here?..”
The words beyond are crossed out with chaotic lines. It seems the owner of the pen never managed to decide who they were, why they were in the damp room of the palace, and why there was a mark of a scarlet trident in their eye.
Whumptober, day 20 | Symptomatic
I rarely looked in the mirror because I always felt there was no particular point in it. I didn’t need to care about how I looked when I lived alone, and when they all started coming to me, I remembered my features by looking at their faces; examining their snow-white teeth, I recalled that I hadn’t smoked for a long time, and my fingers automatically reached for the crumpled pack of cigarettes near the phone. At night, I also looked at my hands, but didn’t notice anything special about them — just quite human. My eyes were red because I slept poorly, especially if I accidentally ended up on the wrong side of the bed.
Symptoms, symptoms, lately that’s all they talked about on TV, but wanting to keep my head on my shoulders, I still did as instructed and blended in with them all; I seemed to be sitting on two chairs at once, greeting people with a nod, and the Visitors with a snow-white smile. I never confused the button on the camera with the trigger of a pistol; my intuition helped, but the symptoms, in fact, didn’t let me down either.
Only occasionally did I think about how to hide my own signs and the dirty spots on my aura in the photo taken in the murky, dusty mirror.
I suppose that no, I’m not a human, huh?
Whumptober, day 19 | “You’re on your own. Lost in the wild.”
Cold water caressed her skin. The skirt had long since soaked through. Raindrops mingled with the ocean.
Whumptober, day 18 | Ruins
I looked at his tall figure, unusually uncertainly glancing around; the mossy stones, the high vaults of the mansion, once majestic, like the forest in which it stood — now covered in darkness, it was still visible in the light of thousands of fireflies, drawn to its walls by unimaginable forces. Amadeus, as far as I remember, was never lost, he always knew what he needed, and moved forward confidently, but right now something inside him had broken, something he was unlikely to tell me about. He didn’t like to share, and I didn’t like to insist.
He silently went ahead and climbed the massive steps, designed only for the long stride of the Elders, not for my short human legs; struggling to keep up with him, I also found myself near the large carved doors, and then stepped inside this beautiful, forgotten building.
Amadeus walked forward, occasionally glancing back to check where I was, and all I could do was turn my head to the sides, catching fragments of dusty paintings and crooked tapestries; once new wooden furniture was no longer fit for use. The lantern on his hip swung back and forth, casting wild gleams that lit up the corridor.
We went out into the inner garden. I didn’t pay any attention to how we got here. To be honest, I didn’t intend to — I didn’t have the feeling that we were in danger. Amadeus would say that I had relaxed too much in his hands, but that wouldn’t be true. Maybe I’m just trying to deny it. In the middle, there was an overgrown pond, and around it — shaped flowerbeds that, I’m sure, used to be filled with all kinds of flowers that were surely cared for tenderly. Now they were just dried-up bushes.
“Amadeus…” I wanted to get his attention, but he just walked silently ahead. I don’t think it’s worth trying to ask a question.
In the main building, we didn’t go further than the first hall. This building wasn’t huge; on the contrary — modestly spacious, without unnecessary luxury, but it was beautiful. Not many people used to live here — or rather, the Elders. The dimensions of everything around suited only their size. Amadeus fit here perfectly.
I noticed that he was staring at one point for a long time. Tilting my head back, I felt my heart skip a beat. From the large painting hanging on the wall, eyes just as gray as his looked at me; the same hair color and a sullen expression on the face, not yet marred by a hundred scars, neat clothing that sharply contrasted with what he was wearing now. His brother Deolor was there too, still young and healthy, with a playful spark in his eyes and joy in his smile; even here he held some thick book in his hands. The woman, gently placing her palms on their shoulders, looked tenderly at the artist.
I said nothing, standing in the ruins of his home. Perhaps these were not only the ruins of the home but also the ruins of most of his life, which he still could not let go of.