a kingdom, or this

he spit in god's face and walked backwards into hell

[fyi-emerson]

April sat in a booth of the bar.The table cluttered with three empty mugs of coffee, four five hour energy shots, six empty glasses of water, one half full, and a freshly opened beer bottle. She mumbled about doing things herself as she rewrote patient forms that a nurse screwed up.

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Jesus Christ.” Lucas stumbled over to the booth uninvited, a beer in one hand and an eyebrow raised. “Not sure what you’re doing, but I’m sorry you have to do it.”

[rikkie-jpg]

lucas-harmon:

“You’ve been standing there for quite a while –– you got somethin’ to say?”

“ can i bum a smoke off you ?? ”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

"Sure thing. Don't think we've met."

[hheralien]

[almeiidas-deactivated20160729]

Her eyes flashed dangerously. “He, like so many others, would not pronounce my name correctly. But that was not all. He was also the most irresponsible man I have ever had the misfortune to meet. The headaches he brought me…” She shook her head. “And the paperwork. I hate paperwork. I’m glad he is dead.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

Raising his hands in the air, Lucas shook his head. “God damn. Alright, I’ll be sure to pronounce your name correctly.”

[jeremyhales]

Jeremy grinned. “Much appreciated, thanks. So, uh, why are you standing there?”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Don’t know –– doesn’t really matter.” Lucas chewed a bit on his fingers, then crossed his arms. “Sometimes I wait here.”

[mxrcelinefink]

“I mean, have you seen your face? Nothing else really needs to be said.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“I’d make a bet that yours is nicer.”

[jeremyhales]

“A relative, actually. And no, they’re not exactly pretty. But don’t tell them I said that.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Oh, yikes! I was a bit off.” Lucas took a sharp inhale and shook his head. “My lips are sealed, don’t worry.”

[almeiidas-deactivated20160729]

She laughed. “It is not disappointing that you are not him. Far from it. I would kill him if ever I saw him again. It is lucky that you are not more like him.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Now I’m curious though.” He leaned back against the couch and crossed his arms, raising an eyebrow. “What’d he do?”

[marilynisims-blog1]

‘ Well…for starters… ‘ She kept her head down. ‘ When we first met I went to your room with you to…relax a bit and I took a note of your small collection of counter drugs…so I figured you might have dabbled a bit in em’ ‘ She felt pretty bad for having that as a mental note…she felt as though she overstepped boundaries. ‘ Which I owe you an apology…I shouldn’t have let my mind remember that. ‘ Glancing up his way she gave a small smile. ‘ Yes, yes sir I was an actress, some tell me I was the best in my day…I don’t think so. ‘ She shrugged once more. ‘ The worst I’ve done? Oh dear…well you see… ‘ She leaned over to him moving her hand up to cover her lips as she told him a secret. ‘ I stole a magazine once…the first magazine I had been on…Vogue. ‘ She smiled remembering it. Sitting back up properly she gasped. ‘ In a band? Oh Golly Gee…you must play something…sing me a tune, if I know it I’ll sing with you. C’mon…it can be fun. ‘ She encouraged lightly. She giggled softly in the silence, it was comfortable for her. As he shot up she squeaked toppling over slightly from the slight shock. ‘ Oh dear…S…sure! Just hold on…you gave me such a fright. — ‘ She lightly clutched her chest. 

[lucas-harmon-blog]

Lucas laughed, shrugging off her minuscule observation. It wasn’t like he had tried to hide his problem –– even in death his nightmares always ended in a drug induced haze. The prescription bottles in his bedroom, stacked and lined up like something out of a white trash comedy, reminded him of when the high actually hit his bloodstream. Sentimental. “You’re not wrong. I probably would’ve put them aside had I known we weren’t going to hook up.” He shot her a wink. “I’m half kidding, I probably wouldn’t have put them away.” Going out of his way to step on cracks in the sidewalk (something his mother had always snapped at him for), he shook his head. “Don’t apologize. You apologize for the littlest shit.” Lucas grinned. “I bet you were pretty good. But I don’t think stealing a magazine really qualifies as anything astounding. And no,” he violently shook his head. “I will not sing. I can’t, never have been able to. You’ll be happy I didn’t, believe me.” The cracks in the sidewalk grew more spaced out, and he made an effort to stop his childhood game. “Didn’t mean to scare you. Where do you wanna go? There’s a little bakery down there, I think. At least, there was twenty years ago.”

[marilynisims-blog1]

‘ Indeed I would. ‘ She nodded once with a smile on her lips confirming. She kept her hands under her small frame. She needed to keep them at her sides or she would probably reach out and touch him, more specifically his hand. ‘ I know a decent amount…and well, you see, the things you don’t tell I know from observing. Observing and memorization. I was an actress once you know…memorizing is what I ddi for a living. ‘ She winked with a smile. ‘ Say, that’s a good thing you know, me rubbin’ off goodness on ya. I will take credit for that any day you hear? ‘  She blushed once more. ‘ Anything you wanna know…I’ll tell ya, I swear I will, you name it and I’ll lay it on you…just hope you’re ready. ‘ She lightly tapped the heels of her Mary jane’s on the street as she sat in thought. ‘ I’d like to know…what you wanted to be if you were still livin’, what your aspirations and dreams were…share a few? ‘ She lightly nudged him again. With his compliment about her being adorable she couldn’t stop the grin that set on her features. It was wide enough to show her deep dimples. ‘ Oh stop it you…you’re flattering me too much I tell ya. — ‘ 

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Then tell me –– what do you observe about me?” The prospect of Marilyn more or less studying him was amusing; he had always liked to be the center of attention, even as a young child. Maybe his therapist would tell him it was a way of subconsciously seeking emotional validation (from an absent father, perhaps?) but Lucas had always liked the feeling of eyes on him, watching. “An actress, huh? I think you told me that once. You look the type –– small and bubbly and that.” Lucas feigned deep thought, rubbing at his chin. “I wanna know... what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? And I don’t mean little shit, like lying to your mama or something, like something really bad.” Even though he assumed he knew the answer, he asked anyway, a part of him longing for her to surprise him. “I mean,” he laughed, looking down at the cracks in the sidewalk. “I always wanted to be in a band, ever since I was little. I’m not very talented, mind you, but I always wanted to be. I liked –– still like music. A lot.” Silence. Just for a moment, something he rarely let happen. Silence made him uncomfortable, silence meant thinking but not saying it out loud. He shot up. “We can keep talking, but let’s walk somewhere, yeah?”

[jeremyhales]

“No, actually. I’m waiting for someone.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Let me guess –– pretty girl?” He shrugged. “Or boy. I don’t discriminate.”

[almeiidas-deactivated20160729]

She shook her head. “Nothing.” But she’d been staring; she couldn’t pretend it hadn’t been for a reason. “You looked familiar, but I can see now that it was only the light playing a cruel trick.”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Huh.” Lucas cocked his head to the side, lips curling at the sides. “That’s a shame, I sure hope I didn’t disappoint.”

[tulsahill]

“If you’re trying to get me drunk you’re going to need something a little stronger than this. I have martinis everyday, kind of tradition.” she offered a smile “So when did you pass?”

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“I thought this was pretty strong, must be mistaken.” It would take bit for the whiskey to hit his bloodstream, but he anticipated it with the same longing for release he always had. “1990... something. Three I think?” He took another swig before adding: “Could be wrong though –– kinda tried to forget.”

[fuckyeahhleonardo]

[marilynisims-blog1]

‘ We’ll see. ‘ She commented back at his remarks of no one stopping him and such. She liked to think she would have that much of an effect on him, even if it wasn’t the one she particularly wanted. She gave him a look of mock shock, then scoffed as the words fell from his lips. ‘ I would in fact…anything you have to say I’d listen, don’t you know. ‘ She blushed once more, her worlds holding nothing but the truth. ‘ Look here slick, I know you aren’t that bad…I spend the most time with you in this hotel…I’d like to think I know ya pretty well, I do. ‘ She smiled before nudging him again. ‘ But…I’ll hold ya to that offer…to ask you anything I want…I suppose i’d only be right to give you the same courtesy, right? ‘ As he let the fabric go, she scooped the remaining bits back under her, lightly placing her hands in her lap. One thing he said particularly caught her attention. ‘ You think I’m cute huh? — ‘

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Oh, would you now?” He joked, the weight of her words bouncing off him like he allowed so many other things to. It wouldn’t be until later, after many pills and drinks, that what she said would really have any impact at all. “You might spend a lot of time with me, yeah, but that doesn’t mean you know everything about me. But you’re partially right –– I’m not too bad anymore. Maybe you’ve rubbed off a bit on me.” He feigned a sigh. “I’ll let you hold me to it. But you better believe I’ll hold you to it too. So tell me, what’s it you’re dying to know?” Smirking, he ran a hand through his hair. “You just fishing for compliments now? Really though, ‘course I think you’re cute. Look at you, you’re adorable.”

[tulsahill]

“Cause then you’d be lying” Alice chuckled. She scanned the room before sitting on the floor next to him. “Buy me dinner first” She winked back playfully “thirty years in may” Alice groaned taking a larger swig than before

[lucas-harmon-blog]

“Oh, I see.” Lucas chuckled, then morphed his expression into a look of sympathy. “God damn. That’s longer than me, feel free to drink as much as you’d like. You know,” he said, swallowing hard, “for someone who ultimately died of an overdose, I cannot handle my liquor.”

[marilynisims-blog1]

As he laughed, she just sat back with her lips parted. His laugh was infectious and within seconds, she too was in a fit of laugher. Even if she didn’t even know what it was they were exactly laughing at. She then shook her head as he said the words again. Using a free hand she lightly covered his mouth so he wouldn’t say anymore. ‘ Nope…nu uh! ‘ She giggled moving her hand slowly. His second comment on the matter made her raise her brows. ‘ Now you’ve gotten me curious….I’ll lend you my ear to tell me a thing or two and I promise not to judge. ‘ She lightly leaned in bumping her shoulder to his. The blush on her cheeks wasn’t going anywhere anytime soon, so she embraced it the best she could. Feeling the light tug on the fabric of her skirt she picked up a small side rubbing the pads of her index and thumb fingers along it as she sat in thought. ‘ Say…it did cost a pretty penny..30 bucks exactly I remember. ‘ She then leaned in to whisper. ‘ 25 because I was the store owners best customer. — ‘ She winked sitting back up right. 

[lucas-harmon-blog]

As soon as her hand left his mouth he rolled his eyes, a smile still in place. “Listen, I’ll say what I want, when I want, and no one can stop me.” He shot her a look and raised his eyebrows. “Not even you.” At her request Lucas simply shook his head, reciprocating her nudge. “Nope, no way. I don’t wanna corrupt you –– you’re too good. Besides, you wouldn’t be interested in the misadventures of a drug-induced sex addict, would you?” Feigning seriousness for a moment, he studied her expression, cocking his head to the side. “Nah, I’m just kidding. I was bad, am bad, but not that bad... But feel free to ask all the questions you want.” He let the fabric fall to the ground and attempted to listen intently, despite his disinterest in clothing. “Oh I don’t doubt you were the best costumer. Probably thought you were cute too.”