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I regularly think about if people would actually miss me if I disappeared.

One thing about life I’ve learned is that white girls will ALWAYS be enough. And I will never be.

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I’m so tired.

I’m so damn tired of being tired.

I’m fucking tired of the world.

i’m even more fucking tired of myself

it’s just so much all the fucking time

and nothing at all, at the same time

fuck

i’m one of the lucky ones

i shouldn’t feel like this

i shouldnt complain

but i do

all the fucking time

all i do is complain

i write my shitty little feelings

into shitty little poems

or shitty little stories

as if that’s gonna change anything

i’m just so goddamn fucking tired all the fucking time for no good reason

for no reason at all

and i just hate myself

and i hate everything

it’s not like i wish i was dead

but i fucking wished i didn’t exist

which is practically the same shit

and i know 99% of the time i try to end my things with hope

cause its a fucked up world out there

full of shitty things

so we need hope

i know that

so i try to give that to everyone else even if i dont feel it

i write it down so maybe i will feel it

but i can’t today

i can’t right now

not for any reason besides i can’t

im just tired

Do you ever wonder who will miss you? Like really miss you?

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Do you ever just feel uncomfortable with everything? Laying in bed I’m uncomfortable going out I’m uncomfortable. I’m uncomfortable with my thoughts my feelings. Uncomfortable with being around people I’ve always been around. I don’t know how to handle it anymore. I feel like I prisoner in this uncomfortable feeling not matter what I do.