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🩶 call me Mouse 🩶

Im 26 and suffering from multiple mental illnesses. This blog is just an open diary where I talk about whatever Im feeling.

⚠️ This blog will contain mature/dark themes. All minors will be blocked ⚠️

Official Diagnosis - Persistent Depressive Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder with psychotic features, an unspecified Impulse Control Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder with Agoraphobia

Suspected Diagnosis (take these with a grain of salt but they may still be talked about on this blog) - an unspecified Eating Disorder and Avoidant Personality Disorder

⬆️ I do drugs ⬆️

🩶🩶🩶 Lexapro/Propranolol 🩶🩶🩶

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this binge eating has me fucked up.

no gas in my car

i dont get paid another 3 days

$6 to my name

and im still buying binge food

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Had a sandwich and my mood has stabilized

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i hate that i cant let things go

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why is there nowhere to talk about being a csa survivor

i need to fucking vent so bad and connect with people but the topic is blocked everywhere

i just get punished over and over again for my shitty childhood

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i think lexapro is giving me mood swings but i guess ill take the occassional happy day over no happy days

today isnt one of them though. i want to die lmao

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Born to care and never be cared for

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getting fucking sick of reddit

cant even vent in the venting subreddit anymore because they decided they dont want to see certain topics.

cant vent in the dedicated sub because its restricted access so nobody fucking uses it

fuck me man

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getting fucking sick of reddit

cant even vent in the venting subreddit anymore because they decided they dont want to see certain topics.

cant vent in the dedicated sub because its restricted accesa so nobody fucking uses it

fuck me man

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Being from the south means you know atleast 5 people in religious psychosis

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looking back through my posts is wild cause i feel fine right now but the last few posts were me being angry and wanting to die lol

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Just got my first ticket ever for doing 38 in a 25 on a road with no speed limit signs.

Its hard enough because were already behind on rent a month, behind on a loan, my boyfriend just got out of the hospital and our ac has been broken for a month. Now we have a fucking ticket on top of all that.

Cant even find out how much the ticket is until half way through next month and then we only have the other half of the month to come up with the money

Im just so tired of all this shit and its hot as a motherfucker on top of it

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part of me wants to do the homeless thing but the other part of me is scared to be truly alone

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Im so tired. All I want is to either be fixed or dead. I cant stand being in my brain or body anymore

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Honestly, thank god for lexapro

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How do you deal with the cravings that come from taking ssris and birth control?

Im up 20 pounds and fighting for my life just to maintain

I need to lose 40lbs 🫩

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How do you deal with the cravings that come from taking ssris and birth control?

Im up 20 pounds and fighting for my life just to maintain

I need to lose 40lbs 🫩