Always feel like Iām begging for the bare minimumā¦. But thatās right, I donāt deserve love until I learn to listen and communicate like the other girls he does so with while I rot in this relationship thinking thereās a light at the end and put on a smile and act so in love in publicā¦ā¦ Itās a facade. Iām here only when he wants to pull me off the shelf and dust me off to use me and then Iām back on the shelf because he found interest in more prettier thingsā¦. This is permanent
I know Iām no beaut or gorgeous girlā¦. I know Iām ugly and Iām fake cause I wear makeup and no one really knows what I look like underneath it all. But itās ugly. But I was also told that even ugly things deserve loveā¦.
Iāve always prayed that one day Iād have a love Iād never have to go through hell for⦠ever since I was a little girl I couldnāt understand why Iām so unlovable and unattractiveā¦.. why did god make me like this? I want to hide from myself too⦠but when someone like you whisper sweet nothings into my ear I wear my heart on my sleeveā¦. And I love hard back. Not realizing itās a joke on meā¦. Iām the joke they donāt actually love or find beautiful Iām a monster and the one thatās there when the ones he wants are busyā¦. Is this how the rest of my living days will be? hopeless no happy ending just misery









