LIVING MY BEST LIFE

LUCAS LALLEMANT DE SKAM FRANCE / selective & private – canon compliant & headcanon based.

[danslafin]

                                          but if you’re broke, i can pay for it.

[lullemant]

alterlovetm said:       ❝ did you just google that ? ❞ -   from eliott   @cestlemoment​

he  might  have  become  that  specific  person  who   worries  so  much  when  the  moving  aspect  kicks  in .    “ okay  ─ google  a  toutes  les  réponses... “  almost  all  of  the  answers .   lucas  stops,  closes  the  laptop  and  tries  to  move  this  conversation  to  something  serious  ─ but  he  can’t  with  the  way  eliott  is  looking  at  him  ─  nor  the  topic  of  interest .     “  j'étudiais  pour  le  BAC,  et  j'ai  bu  beaucoup  de  boissons  énergisantes  ─  mon cœur battait trop vite. “     leaned  against  the  sofa,  the  waves  of  exhaustion  go  through  him  in  sequence .  head  tilts  to  lean  on  his  boyfriend’s  shoulder .   he  nearly  feels  guilty  because  eliott  has  told  him  in  the  past,  too  much  is  bad  ─  and  yet .    lucas  wants  to  bring  up  arthur  and  how  he  felt  something  was  wrong  but ..  the  sudden  topic  change would  make  it  obvious  lucas  was  avoiding  something  himself .    “ je  suis  tellement  fatigué  maintenant  -  je  ne  veux  pas  penser  à  un test  de  plus “

[leneemusing]

more misc memes

“  change isn’t easy.  ” “  i just wanted to say i’m sorry.  ” “  i guess being angry was/is just easier than being sad.  ”  “  what did you want to tell me?  ” “  it was supposed to be simple.  ” “  you’ve got blood on your shirt.  ” “  you can stay with me.  ” “  what did you want to show me?  ” “  i miss ____ more than i thought i would.  ” “  i don’t like to talk about it, but i wanted you to know.  ” “  shut up. please.  ” “  fuck off.  ” “  hush, i’m trying to kiss you.  ” “  you’re lucky you’re cute.  ” “  i fucked up.  ” “  i just want to take it all back.  ” “  i can’t sleep.  ”  /  “  can’t sleep?  ” “  we should get a pet.  ” “  if you have something to say, spit it out.  ” “  i’m allowed to be angry.  ” “  she/he aint even that cute.  ” “  just hold me.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ”   “  i just need time.  ” “  i already made my decision, you’re not going to change that.  ”   “  nothing you can say will surprise me.  ” “  everyone leaves, eventually. either they move on or they die. they leave and i’m left behind.  ” “  death is a part of life. i accepted that a long time ago.  ” “  i don’t fear death. i fear anonymity.  ” “  listen to me, please.  ” “  i’m not even sure what to say to that.  ” “  that should probably shock me, but honestly it doesn’t.  ” “  am i supposed to care?  ” “  i do care.  ”   “  you make me happy.  ” “  you look beautiful like this.  ”   “  if this is your idea of fun, i don’t know what to say to you.  ” “  it terrifies me.  ”   “  just let me show you how i feel.  ”

[lullemant]

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[outofthewood]

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[bassiter]

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Visions of Gideon except echoing throughout a church that’s empty but for you, and as the wind shakes the trees outside.

[lullemant]

❛ Is it me you were talking about? ❜ - from Eliott (cestlemoment) give me ‘man of my life’ content pls    //  @cestlemoment​

     “ euh ─ “     lucas feels his face heat up,  like he’d been drinking even though he’s aware he’s not shit-faced,  he knows he didn’t smoke that much . nearly fell off the kitchen countertop when eliott approached him.   he was talking to manon ...  who was seeing very clearly  his shocked expression through facetime on his phone .  fuckfuckfuck.  ‘ he’s the man of my life. eliott, ‘   rings loudly in his head, repeating seconds after he’d told manon .    “ euh manon... manon au revoir ─ à  plus tard  manon,   “      it leaves him in a speedy relay,  he ends the call but his gaze never leaves his boyfriend . they’ve been through it .  lucas, has some choices and the one he wants to stray from is that of feeling embarrassment .  they were living together.   that means a lot,  it means everything to lucas ─ who ─ eleven months ago was in a place so dark and terrible ... in the closet,  he couldn’t imagine anything like this .  the very thought makes him catch his breath . 

                      lucas is staring so fiercely,  so lovingly at the man of his life . 

  “ ouais ,  “  he pauses,  he’s about to breathe words to life again and again and again .              “ eliott ─  tu es l'homme de ma vie. mon rêve, mon ... tout.  “   it’s all such an intensity,   one lucas hasn’t experienced at all . not until his world tied in with eliotts .    “ c’est  toi et moi, mon mec. “ 

[lullemant]

                                                     jamais   perdu   .                               lucas       lallemant      of   #SKAMFR   .     cared  for  by  bria .                                 est .  1 / 19 .   private  /  selective  /  mutuals  only . 

[suprnovas-moved-deactivated2020]

𝐊𝐍𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐒  𝐎𝐔𝐓  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.    🔪

spoiler  free  dialogue  from  rian  johnson’s  2019  murder  mystery,  KNIVES  OUT.   feel  free  to  change  pronouns  or  edit  as  found  necessary  !

❝  i  suspect  foul  play.  ❞

❝  how  about  a  glass  of  milk  ?  ❞

❝  maybe  he  left  you  a  cold  glass  of  milk  in  his  will,   asshole.  ❞

❝  you’re  not  getting  bailed  out,   not  this  time.   ❞

❝  who  is  that  guy  ?  ❞

❝  i  read  a  tweet  about  a  new  yorker  article  about  you.  ❞

❝  you’re  famous  !  ❞

❝  are  you  baiting  me  ?  ❞

❝  how  about  some  more  cookies  ?  ❞

❝  this  could  be  the  best  thing  to  happen  to  all  of  you.  ❞

❝  why  are  you  here  ?  ❞

❝  i  have  eliminated  no  suspects.  ❞

❝  you  tell  her,   or  i  will.  ❞

❝  that’s  some  heavy  duty  conjecture.  ❞

❝  i’m  warning  you.  ❞

❝  are  you  goddamn  insane  ?!  ❞

❝  up  your  ass.  ❞

❝  matter  of  fact,   eat  shit.  ❞

❝  definitely  eat  shit.  ❞

❝  i  won’t  eat  an  iota  of  shit.  ❞ 

❝  i’ll  slap  that  smug  smile.  ❞

❝  we  gotta  do  this  more  often.  ❞

❝  when  people  get  desperate,   the  knives  come  out.  ❞

❝  this  is  a  twisted  web,   and  we  are  not  finished  untangling  it.  ❞

❝  i  keep  waiting  for  the  big  reveal.  ❞

❝  i  don’t  feel  like  talking,    i’m  distraught.  ❞

❝  you  vicious  little  bitch.  ❞

❝  in  for  a  penny,   in  for  a  pound.  ❞

❝  you  asshole.  ❞

❝  you’ve  always  been  good  to  me.  ❞

❝  what  i’m  about  to  say  isn’t  gonna  be  easy,   and  you’re  gonna  be  upset.  ❞

❝  you  all  love  twisting  the  knife  into  one  another.  ❞

❝  you  know  something,   spill  it.  ❞

❝  did  you  just  google  that  ?  ❞

❝  i  did  just  google  that.  ❞

❝  don’t  answer  that  if  you’re  gonna  puke.  ❞

❝  what  the  shit  ?!  ❞

[lullemant]

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[lullemant]

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[manondemissy]

   strawberry  lipstick  state  of  mind.

ind. sel.  manon demissy of SKAMFR , revamped jan. 2020  stained by pam. 

[cyborg-oni]

“Remember when we first met? You said «light my cigarette»”

Troye Sivan - Strawberries & Cigarettes

[lullemant]

                             manon.demissy,  lucallemant,  mardi 11h27    @morsurerouge  

lucallemant.       YO   lucallemant.       crémaillère  vendredi.  vous  en  êtes?  lucallemant.        si tu ne peux pas, cool  lucallemant.       si tu peux, LE MEILLEUR !!  lucallemant.      💛💛 lucallemant.        non,  tu  nous  manques  vraiment  tellement, nous  t'appellerons  vendredi  si tu  ne  peux  pas  venir

[lullemant]

               “ tu te souviens quand je t'ai demandé d'étudier des films avec moi?  “   lucas  can  feel  his  cheeks  heat  up  just  remembering  the  time .   he  knew  what  he  wanted  ─  lucas ,  had  firmly  pushed  it  all  to  the  back  of  his  mind ,  because  during  that  time  he  was  so  lost .    he’s  handing  his  boyfriend  a  wrapped  item ,  one  so  obviously  shaped  like  a  vhs  tape ;   if  manon  were  there ,  she’d  take  it  and  make  it  look  like  it  came  from  one  of  those  fancy  wrapping  markets .   it’s  yellow  paper .    he  thinks  they  could  possibly  watch  the  movie ,  since  nobody’s  home  ─   he  also  wants  to  sneak  out  to  that  abandoned  garden  setting  and  look  at  the  stars  with  his  boyfriend .   he  wants  to  ..  ask  if  eliott  has  plans  with  family  too ?   IN  THE  MOMENT  NOW  ...  he’s  awaiting  the  reaction .  stealing  a  kiss  as  he  leans  in  closer ,  resting  the  side  of  his  head  on  the  back  of  the  couch .      “  je t’aime ,  je  t’aime ,  je  t’aime , “   whisper  after  whisper  after  whisper .      //  @cestlemoment​

[shootingxsstarr]

FBI Agent watching me cry over another episode from the same story in a different language for the 47523th time:

[lullemant]

@cestlemoment​    /  lucas’  birthday .  

          he knows he’ll listen to  that record forever. clash.  lucas can’t remember feeling the seconds that passed as he leaned forward and kissed his boyfriend - he stopped counting since this morning, breakfast in bed. coffee, pancakes. waking up and seeing eliott ! sometimes he’ll feel like this is just a really good dream.   but, it’s very real. it’s lucas et eliott.    virginia woolf.  the illiad - it brings back memories of before they were even anything.  watching titanic and, talks of the illiad.   sharing a blanket on the couch and then lucas, that night,  overheating like an old computer from the nineties.  overheating from trying to access what the fuck is happening with his existence.  lucas is going to read those books over and over again, until the pages have little folds to bookmark places because he’s making sure to tell eliott all about a section of the book - he wants to talk about forever.  things he can finally talk about. 

     he brings himself back, fingers brushing against the wall where he’d pinned up all those drawings eliott made for him - wondering, imagining the work behind them. detail and, lucas wanted to find frames because he didn’t want to do damage to any of them.  but all of this, exactly what he needed from the surprise of all of his friends - basille being the most obvious with his gift giving.  yann took a bit of pressure off his chest when he came without his plus one ; the conversation about that was going to be had, or - it was just a quiet understanding between the two.  his heart skips quickly when he turns to look at eliott, piercing gaze right through him.     “ je’taime, “  the words catch in his throat as he’s approaching his boyfriend now, and lucas feels ridiculous for the nervousness he’s feeling intensely now. 

        “ si on avait un piano ici, je jouerais toutes les chansons de ce livre pour toi, “  he pauses.  “ pour ... l’amour de ma vie. “