we'll be glowing in the dark

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rock a bye baby; remi & simba

[expectopafuckno]

Simba contemplated the statement for a moment before he looked up from his dazed focus on Yezi. “Maybe they’ll look identical even though they’re the not-identical kind,” Simba mused, humoured by the concept. “That’d definitely make our life interesting. I hope they’re just as annoying as we were when we were kids. You’re on lecture duty whenever they get in trouble, just saying.” He chuckled as his gaze met Remi’s eyes. “I’ll never tell, you know that,” he responded cheekily even though he knew that the answer was probably kind of obvious by this point. Simba had known that Remi’d wanted kids, but he also knew that the man was scared of passing his traits on to their children. It was something that had Simba content at first because he didn’t want to raise any children and actually have to play a parent role. Simba couldn’t resist letting Remi have this moment, and honestly, he wasn’t too bad at parenting, even if he pretended to be. “You know we won though, even if there may or may not have been a competition occurring.”

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Remi rolled his eyes and looked down at Roial who was fully asleep in his arms, cute little snuffling noises escaping her lips. “I think that goes without saying. You’d try to lecture them, but give them cookies as soon as I’m out of the room,” He laughed softly, pushing back a soft lock of hair from Roial’s forehead. “Oh, we definitely won,” Remi agreed. He wasn’t the sort to claim a baby was cuter over the other, but of course he thought his babies were the cutest in the world. Yawning, he rested his head against the back of the rocking chair, eyes fluttering a little from exhaustion. “I always wonder what they’ll be like when they’re older. I don’t want them to grow up, but I still think about it, like whether they’ll look alike or not. Will they like books or be models? Maybe, Roial will like football and Yezi will want to be a ballerina. It’s mental that one day they’ll be their own people,” He mused tiredly before giving Simba sleepy smile. 

[luminoussandwired]

rock a bye baby; remi & simba

[expectopafuckno]

“I mean her own gorgeous dark brown eyes,” Simba said with a soft chuckle as he looked at Remi. “I’d be more than happy to see her have my eyes, but there’s that whole genetics thing that plays into it as well, yes?” He shook his head, smiling. “So I just hope that she has beautiful eyes, even though we can see that happening already.” He shook his head in response to Remi’s words, unable to resist the urge to hide a smile. “Babies do like being rocked to sleep, but it’s easier to walk around and rock them to sleep,” he told the man as he let Remi twine their hands together. “Even if it means that we can’t hold hands while we do that.” Simba couldn’t help but look at his daughter clinging to Remi’s shirt. It was so sweet, something that he almost wished he would be able to take a photograph of, even though he knew that he’d remember this forever. “It’s hard to believe that just a few months ago these tiny rebels weren’t in our lives,” he mumbled as he carefully adjusted his grip on Nkanyezi to make sure that he was holding him securely. The boy was drifting off rather easily in his grip, but Simba knew that the slightest thing would cause him to wake up and start crying or screaming again. “You’re right,” he told him. They’re damn adorable.”

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Remi laughed softly and shook his head, “She will, I’m sure.” He looked over at Nkanyezi in Simba’s arms, the baby almost asleep like his sister. “I wonder how much they’ll look alike when they’re a bit older--if they’ll look like twins.” Right now, they looked similar because they both looked like little babies with chubby cheeks and button noses. Brushing his thumb over the back of Simba’s hand, he nodded as he looked over at the picture frame on the babie’s side table, which was a picture of the four of them on the day they were born. “I still can’t believe you wanted them,” He gave Simba an amused look. “I think you were initially just trying to compete with Jay for cutest kids.” He sort of figured when he and Simba got engaged that it would just be the two of them, which was fine then, though Remi always wanted kids.

[luminoussandwired]

rock a bye baby; remi & simba

[expectopafuckno]

Simba nodded as he focused his attention on the baby in his arms. They’d only had them for a few months but he was already so attached to both of the twins that he couldn’t imagine not having them in his life. Now he only had to get to the point where he would be able to convince Remi that he could take the babies with him when he went abroad for photo shoots. Simba lightly tickled the baby, smiling as Nkanyezi’s tiny hand wrapped around his finger, holding it in place. “Maybe,” he said softly. “Or maybe they’re developing the same and Roial is just going to have those gorgeous dark brown eyes in a few years. It’s only been a few months, yeah?” He lifted his gaze up to Remi, unable to resist smiling as he looked at the werewolf. “I can’t believe you convinced me to buy two of these things,” he said softly as he stepped over to Remi and sat down in the chair next to him. “I mean, normal chairs would’ve been just fine, Moony.”

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“You mean your gorgeous dark brown eyes?” Remi smirked over at his husband, and held the dozing baby close to his chest. “She’ll be gorgeous, that’s for sure. I hope I didn’t curse Yezi with my less desirable looks,” He added playfully, although it was a genuine worry of his, just like the werewolf thing. As Simba joined him, he reached over to ruffle Yezi’s little tuft of hair before grabbing his husband’s hand and giving a squeeze. “Babies like being rocked to sleep,” He stated matter-of-factly. “With two rocking chairs, we can rock them at the same time, while doing this,” He lifted their intertwined hands. There were a few times where he fell asleep in the rocking chair while caring for the babies, so exhausted that he couldn’t make it back to their room. Roial stirred in his arms, making a cute little cooing noise before yawning. It was hardly anything, but it made Remi’s heart melt all the same. “They’re nightmares, but they’re so bloody cute,” He said lightly, and kissed her forehead, her little fist gripping at his jumper. 

[luminoussandwired]

rock a bye baby; remi & simba

[expectopafuckno]

Simba couldn’t help but laugh a little bit at the statement. “I hope not,” he chuckled as he gently soothed their son, his fingers lightly ruffling the little bit of feathery hair that the boy was sporting. He almost missed Remi’s words and probably would have if it weren’t for the fact that his hearing was a heightened ability that he possessed. “No one,” he responded honestly as he rocked Nkanyezi in his arms. “Especially Simba Bahari. I thought I’d be a bachelor forever, and here we are.” He looked up at Remi. “i wouldn’t trade it for anything.” Sentimentality wasn’t something that Simba was good at displaying, nor was it something that he expressed often, but when he did, he wanted his husband to know that he did mean it with every fibre of his being. “Yeah?” he said with a small smile. “Well Yezi looks just like you, minus the eyes.” He looked down at his son, shaking his head slightly as he did so. “Why you have blue eyes, tiny human, I’ll never understand.”

[luminoussandwired]

Remi grinned in response, wishing he could go back and tell his teenage self that one day Simba would love him back, save him a few years of all that hurt and anger. He didn’t want to dwell on the past thought, not when everything was brilliant at the moment. “Me neither,” He whispered in response, keeping his voice quite so that Roial would drift off to sleep, her little eyes drooping already. He looked up at his husband and their son, smiling a little in amusement. He couldn’t help but worried for his little boy’s future, being part werewolf. Being a hybrid was much easier than being a  full werewolf, but it still wouldn’t be a walk in the park. “Maybe, he’s developing slower,” He laughed softly as he rocked in the chair. “Some babies take a while to develop their eye colour. I read it in one of my parenting books.” He patted the rocking chair beside his, gesturing for Simba to join him in rocking the babies to sleep.  

[luminoussandwired]

rock a bye baby; remi & simba

[expectopafuckno]

“Of course we did. Double the trouble, right?” Simba lifted a fist to his face, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes as Remi’s hand slipped into his. “One little version of each of us, and plenty of headache to go around.” He lightly kissed the top of Remi’s head as he followed his husband into the nursery. When Remi made his way over to their daughter, Simba took the opportunity to check on their son. Nkanyezi was the most precious little boy that he’d ever known, despite the fact that his nephew had held that position just a few years back when Jay and Hale had adopted him. “And I have the cranky one,” Simba responded with a soft chuckle as he lifted Yezi into his arms, doing a quick check to make sure that he didn’t have a soiled nappy. “Looks like I’m the one who lucked out.” He didn’t mean it. Despite the fact that he really didn’t like changing their diapers, he didn’t mind doing it to make sure that his kids were alright. It was just that he enjoyed watching Remi take care of their babies in a manner that made it seem he’d been doing it his entire life. “Think we’ll ever get a full night’s sleep again?” Simba asked as he appeased the crying baby with a dummy, pleased that Yezi stopped crying in favour of sucking on it.

[luminoussandwired]

“I hope when they’re eighteen, they’re not still crying for us in the middle of the night,” As Remi began changing her nappy, he watched his husband with their son, smiling softly as he took care of them, his heart doing little flutters in his chest. “You look good with him,” He murmured as he wiped down their daughter. “Whoever thought Simba Bahari would be soothing crying babies.” Laughing quietly, he finished up with putting on a clean nappy before taking their whimpering baby in his arms, rocking her slightly as he made his way to one of the two rocking chairs in the room. He cradled her as he rocked, his finger brushing over her baby soft cheek. Wide, watery brown eyes stared back in wonder. “She looks just like you,” He marveled before kissing her little nose. Remi still couldn’t believe that he had a family. He managed to marry the love of his life and have two perfect little babies with him. For once, it felt like his life was where it should be, and he was happy.

[luminoussandwired]

rock a bye baby; remi & simba

Remi should’ve known that having babies would mean that he would be doing all the dirty work, like waking up at three in the morning to feed them or change the dirty diapers. The fact that there were two babies made the whole thing only that much more humorous. As expected, shrill cries sounded through their baby monitor at four in the morning, causing Remi to stir. The twins already woke him up two hours ago. Groaning, he went to roll out of bed before changing his mind. He deserved a break. Kicking his husband’s leg, he grumbled, “Your turn.” It would take more than a kick to wake up Simba though. “Simba, I’m serious. Get your arse out of bed. It’s your turn,” He demanded as he shook his husband’s shoulder.

[expectopafuckno]

If Simba hadn’t known what to say before when Remi wasn’t explaining why he’d slept with his sister in full detail, he definitely didn’t know what to say now. A large part of the shifter was still fiercely filled with anger to the point where it probably wasn’t smart to stay around the werewolf, but at the same time, Simba could understand the feeling of not believing you fit in. He’d felt it at home when his parents would switch him to different schools because of his attitude, and he’d felt it even more when they’d given up on him completely, leaving him with nothing. It wasn’t the same type of situation, but Simba could understand the idea of feeling like an outsider looking in. “You’ve never been a third wheel, not even back in your first year when Jay and I tried to prank you like mad. You’re both my family, but right now I can’t say you’re my favourite. When this all blows over though, you’re still going to be bloody fucking important to me. You are right now, even if I’m pissed at you. If you weren’t, I wouldn’t have spent so much time trying to make sure you were alright before all of this.” With that, Simba shrugged before gesturing lightly for Remi to come over to him. “I’m pissed to death with you right now, but c’mere and let me hug my best mate before I change my mind.”

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Remi sighed in relief, stilling feeling bloody terrible, but reassured Simba would forgive him eventually. "I know that, Padfoot. I was being ridiculous," Remi responded. It helped a bit, knowing that Jay and Simba weren't really together, but he still felt very hurt and betrayed, but that wasn't Simba's fault. It wasn't Jay's fault either. Simba wasn't Remi's property, and Jay had no obligation to not act on certain desires for Remi's sake. That didn't mean it didn't hurt though. A shy smile reached his lips when Simba gestured for him. He was grateful for the hug, but unsure it was the right move. "Gods, I don't deserve a hug, but I'll take it," Remi moved in and wrapped his arms around Simba's middle, burying his face in his neck. "You two were my first friends," Remi murmured against his skin. "I'm so grateful you two ever gave me the time of day. I would never forgive myself if I did anything to permanently ruin that." Stepping back, he gave Simba a sad smile. "I know I keep saying it, but I really am sorry. Now, go on. I really will be okay going it alone this moon." 

[expectopafuckno]

SImba had had all plans on just walking away from Remi without another word. He needed to go blow off some steam, run around in dog form for a good bit before he even went back to the dorms. Unfortunately, it didn’t seem like he was getting out of there soon, not when Remi was trying to apologise. Only when Remi asked him about him and Jay, the boy stopped. “Why does that matter?” he asked, turning back around. “We were drunk, and we do that now and then. It’s got nothing to do with anything, and it’s not like I went and slept with him behind your back or anything.” Simba paused. “That sounded wrong, but it’s not the same as your best mate sleeping with your sister. That’s a hell of a line to cross.”

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Remi regretted it the instant he said it. He sounded like a jealous girlfriend, and it didn't help his case in the slightest. "I know," Remi answered slowly. "It's not remotely the same. I seriously fucked up, I understand that." He paused, biting in the inside of his cheek as he tried to figure out a way to explain himself without giving everything away. "It doesn't matter, I suppose. I just--you and Jay are such good mates, you're practically brothers. It's stupid, but sometimes I wonder how I fit in the whole dynamic--whether I'm just a third wheel or not. When I saw you two like that, it only further reinforced that feeling, because you're literally closer in every sense, and I didn't even know. I guess, I felt...left out," He cringed inwardly at the phrasing. It wasn't untrue; he did feel like the odd one out at times. Jealous best mate sounded better than jealous crush, but either way, he still sounded pathetic.  "So that's when I went upstairs and--well, you know the rest," He sighed. The conversation was one of the worst experiences of his life, third behind witnessing the kiss, and the werewolf bite. "I'm not blaming what happened on you two, that was just how I felt and it led me to make a very stupid decision."

[expectopafuckno]

"Did you just compare my sister to a bloody cat?" Simba snapped, the anger that he’d been trying to hold back flickering into his emotions again as he got past the initial understanding of what Remi had told him. "Listen, I don’t — I’ve got nothing to say to you at this point. I don’t even know if I can deal with any of this at this point. Just — you’re right. I don’t we need to be together this moon. You and Jay can just go on alone this time." Simba didn’t know what else to say at this point, wasn’t even sure how he was still around Remi right now. "I’ll talk to you…whenever…" With that, he turned to go, knowing that if he stayed any longer, he’d be yelling at the werewolf soon.

[luminoussandwired]

"I didn't mean it like that," Remi tried, although he knew it was useless. He knew he couldn't fix what he did, and didn't deserve Simba's forgiveness. The other did so much for him, and to betray him in such a manner wasn't acceptable. "Okay," He whispered sadly, choosing not to say that he really didn't want Jay around him any time soon, because it didn't matter. "I really am sorry," He offered, voice cracking as Simba turned to go. Just like the night with Icici, Remi refused to cry. Crying wasn't something he allowed himself to do in front of people--or at all, but the tears were pooling dangerously in his eyes. Remi sort of wished he could tell Simba everything, like how he was devastated when he caught him and Jay kissing, and sleeping with Icici seemed like the right decision at the time, because it was probably the closest thing he would ever get to having Simba, but that was too pathetic even for him. He started to apologize again, but what came out was the opposite of what he intended, "Why were you and Jay kissing?"

[luminoussandwired]

give me love | remi & icici

[expectopafuckno]

Icici yawned a little bit as she looked at the moping boy. Honestly, she didn’t want to deal with the way that he was reacting to Simba’s existence, but at the same time, it wasn’t really like she had anything better to do. “Yeah, yeah. Don’t start turning into a moping pile right now, wolf. Out of all of the people in the world, my annoying brother is not worth moping over.” She watched in silence as Remi took advantage of the alcohol. In the moments of Remi drinking, Icici dropped down onto his bed, quietly joining the werewolf in his pity. After a moment, she took the bottle back from him, taking her own chug from the bottle. She was going to need it if she had to continue to listen to him moping about her brother. Icici choked on the alcohol when Remi started talking about Jay and Simba. “Please. They’re not going to start dating or anything. Whatever you walked in on, I’m sure it was a drunk thing. If you think Jay’s your competition, sweetie, you’re missing the big picture completely. It’s not about Jay, it’s about getting Simba to want a relationship instead of some casual sex. Again, not worth it.” Icici passed the bottle back to Remi. “Don’t bother waiting for him, wolf. Try and find someone who’s interested in being with you for you, not for the sex.”

[luminoussandwired]

"He's worth more than you and your family think he is," Remi answered bitterly while grabbing the bottle back and taking a long sip. It was too easy to drink with it's smoothness and fruity flavor. Remi could drink the entire bottle if he wasn't careful. "I've never met someone as loyal as him--someone as dedicated to his friends. He's done more for me than most people would," He smiled softly at the sheets and took another swig. "Anyway, it isn't about competition. Simba's not a prize, and if it was I wouldn't have a chance. Simba doesn't want a relationship, I'm very aware of that," He mumbled, the bottle pressed to his lips so he could drink his fill, forgetting that he was supposed to be sharing. "If I could find someone else I would, unrequited love isn't romantic or fun, but getting over him doesn't seem to be happening for me. I'm not waiting for him, and I don't expect anything. I'm not angry that he would choose Jay if that was the case, I'm hurt that Jay acted on it when he knows how I feel," Remi confessed and took another downtrodden sip before finally handing the bottle back to her. Considering the werewolf never drank, the alcohol was hitting him hard and too quick for him to catch up.  

[expectopafuckno]

Simba wasn’t sure what part of Remi’s statement to address first. His head was still reeling from the knowledge that Remi slept with his sister, but the way he was talking about it, it sounded like he didn’t even want it to happen. “I…don’t even know what to say at this point.” He took a step back from the werewolf, shaking his head. “You keep making it sound like you didn’t even want it. If you wanted to be with my sister, it’d make more sense to me, but if you don’t that then what the fuck. There’s a hundred other girls at this school. I don’t care what happened, you shouldn’t have fucking slept with my sister.”

[luminoussandwired]

Remi felt absolutely miserable. There wasn't a way to properly explain the situation when he didn't entirely understand it himself. "I know I shouldn't have, Simba. I'm well aware of that," Remi murmured dejectedly, head bowed in shame. "It's not an excuse, but I was absolutely pissed off my arse. I probably would have slept with a cat in my state. I told you, I hardly even remember it." The werewolf was desperate for Simba's forgiveness, but what he did was unforgivable. "I'm sorry, Sim. I wish it didn't happen. I shouldn't have lost control like that," He whispered while blinking roughly in attempt to keep the sting out of his eyes. It was silly, but he really did value his virginity, and to lose it like he did was difficult to accept. "I was hurt, and she was there. That's only reason it happened at all." 

[expectopafuckno]

Simba’s jaw clenched as Remi spoke to him. It was taking every fibre of his body not to lash out at the werewolf for sleeping with his sister. “Mate…” he said slowly. “I’m…if you weren’t one of my best mates, I would punch you in the balls so hard — what the fuck were you thinking? You fucked my sister!” He stepped back. “I would’ve expected this shit from Jay, not you.”

[luminoussandwired]

Groaning, Remi buried his face in his hands. He's been miserable about the whole thing ever since it happened. The worst feeling was knowing he betrayed Simba. "I wasn't thinking," Remi sighed. "The night of the party, I was upset about--well, it doesn't matter what the reason was, does it? Either way, I went to our room to be alone, Icici was there. She gave me a drink that looked like it came from bloody space. Everything is a bit blurry after that," He deflated, filled to the brim with self-loathing. "I didn't want that to happen, Simba, I'm sorry."

[expectopafuckno]

"I’m sorry, what? I’m bloody hoping that I misheard you right then.”

[luminoussandwired]

I was upset and so drunk. I hardly remember any of it. Simba, I'm so, very, horribly sorry. If I could take it back I would. I'm so disappointed in myself. I wanted it to be special with someone I cared about, and it was a girl--your sister, nonetheless. Merde, Je ne me pardonnerai jamais.

[expectopafuckno]

"I could never hate you, Remi. You’re one of my best mates. There’s a no-hate clause that comes along with that or something, you know. You can talk to me about anything."

[luminoussandwired]

"Simba, I had sex--with Icici."

[expectopafuckno]

"You’re almost always a recluse, Remi. Jay and I are always dragging you out, so that doesn’t count right now. Come on. You know the whole ‘it’s nothing’ thing doesn’t work with us. Talk to me, mate."

[luminoussandwired]

"I can't talk to you about this, Sim. God, you'll hate me. Don't say you won't, because you don't know what I've done yet. I massively fucked up."

[expectopafuckno]

"I won’t, because now you’ve got me worrying, Rems."

[luminoussandwired]

"I don't fancy being around people now. I'm allowed to be a recluse every now and again, I'm not like you and Jay, yeah? I don't--I just--it's nothing to worry about."

[expectopafuckno]

"Okay, I was trying to be the nice Padfoot, but there’s clearly something going on with you that we need to talk about. I’ve not seen you like this before, Remi. What’s going on? Seriously."

[luminoussandwired]

"Nothing, I've just been out of sorts. I'll be alright in a few days, so please stop worrying."