my little diary

using this page to spam my thoughts (all pics are from pinterest)

[lunarveinnexus]

all i do is study study study read watch movies contemplate daydream and disappear mysteriously whenever a chance occurs

cause what else is there for a girl like me to do

[lunarveinnexus]

see the thing is i can’t take any nudes or softs because what if i post them on my public story or send to someone else by accident and find out a few hours late

unfortunately im the type of person that shit would happen to

so sorry babe i can’t

[thispoetisdead]

you seem pretty average for a girl who's teachers said she was gifted as a child

[hexdgirl]

How I’ve been walking around this summer bc I did not lock in but I also do not gaf

[lunarveinnexus]

[lunarveinnexus]

hard decision ahead of me: should i play sdv, read or watch a series

[meluneira]

[lunarveinnexus]

so little of me seems to be known to my very self. the sense of identity i’ve been forming since birth seems so weak and unstable i often catch myself feeling invisible and unable to speak for myself.

have i been lazy or has a third person make me feel like i don’t exist without them

my mind and body doesn’t feel like mine i’ve lost it a while ago or maybe i never really felt truly myself

is there a way to shift my focus onto who i am and is there a way to fall for who i am and could be as much as i find myself fallin for others

[strawbewiebaby]

[madi-xx-digidiary]

[fawnangeldarling]

skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny skinny

[lunarveinnexus]

i made a new friend you all

unfortunately it’s a man. no offense boys i just wish i had more close girl-friends

the thing is girls are so intimidating i genuinely shit my pants whenever i try to become friends with one

i can get to a point where we hang out in a group but god only knows how much i struggle to get past that point

anyway i hope he doesn’t just want to fuck me

[lunarveinnexus]

maybe i’m missing something but why the hell is the internet so full of hate for gracie abrams and her songs 😭

her music isn’t revolutionary - sure - but it’s not outstandingly bad, there are so many other artists making songs like this and no one hates on them as much as on hers

the girl is nice, pretty, gives credit to her collaborators and acknowledges her privilege

she said one stupid thing when she was a kid and that’s her biggest if not the only controversy

yet you all hate on her more than actually problematic people smh

[lunarveinnexus]

you confuse me. you confuse my sense of self, my desires, my goals and my identity.

not always but sometimes i find myself feeling as if i have none of my own. as if my being was just a compilation of different pieces of you molded into a woman.

i also see it in a different way at times. i initially liked you, and i still do because i’ve recognized myself in you. there are moments when i see you as some isolated part of me whom i can consult once in a while. who accepts me as i am because we’re one being, split into two parts that need to coexist.

but isn’t it just so selfish of me? you are your own independent being after all. i hate to put such pressure on you even if you’re not aware of it

[lunarveinnexus]

u all i need to glow the fuck up (once again)

[meluneira]

[lunarveinnexus]

ive never felt more dumb and purposeless in my life