Lucifer x Reader - Scarred (NSFW) (Part 1)
You’ve been dating Lucifer for a few months now, everything has been great!
He’s funny, charming, always making you smile and laugh, gifting you new ducks he creates
Physically though, things have moved fairly slow; a lot of hugs and hand holding (even that you had to work up to), and quick kisses on the cheek and lips…but nothing beyond that
You were starting to wonder if he didn’t find you physically attractive, but you needed to know for sure
After he walked you back to your room and said his goodbyes, you held onto his hand and invited him inside.
“O-Oh! Uh, sure, honey! I can stay for a little bit!”
You lead him to the bed and sat down next to him; he looked at you with a little concern, he couldn’t read your expression
But before he could ask what’s wrong, you kissed him; you kissed him deeper than you ever have before
He didn’t move at first, but after a few seconds, he let his eyelids fall closed, melting into your lips
He cradled your face tenderly as if you were made of glass; he felt so warm
Slowly, you maneuvered your body so that you were now straddling him, your legs on either side of his; and Lucifer froze
“Is this okay?” you asked.
Lucifer swallowed hard. “Y-Yeah, yeah, it’s good! I’m good! All good!”
He was cute when he got nervous; you especially loved his golden blush
You smiled and leaned in to kiss him again, your tongue begging for permission to enter his mouth
He obliged, relaxing his jaw, letting your tongues collide and tangle together in the heat of your passion
Your hands moved to his shoulders, slowly removing his white jacket and letting it fall to the floor; Lucifer didn’t seem to mind
So you decided to go further
Your hands moved further down, toying with the buttons of his undershirt all the while you continued to kiss him with such fervor that you were finding it hard to catch your breath
You undid a button, then another, and another
But then everything stopped
Lucifer’s eyes widened, lifting you off of him and leaping from the bed in a panic
You landed on your mattress with a soft thud while Lucifer frantically tried to re-button his shirt
“S-Sorry!” he stuttered. “I shouldn’t have…I-I didn’t mean to…” His breath was labored as he struggled with his shirt
It seemed like what you suspected was true
You couldn’t stop yourself from tearing up
When you sniffled, Lucifer finally turned around, his face plastered with worry and sadness
“Sweetie, what’s wrong? I didn’t hurt you, did I?” He ran back over to sit next to you and held your hands in his
“It’s nothing, Lucifer,” you lied
You never used his full name; you watched his face drop at the sound of it
“I hurt you…” he whispered.
“I just wish you would have been honest with me from the start.” you choked out through your sobs.
Lucifer looked at you confused, “What? I don’t understand…I would never lie to you!”
You huffed in frustration, tears still streaming down your face. “You just made it pretty clear that don’t find me physically attractive. You threw me off the moment things started to get intimate. I think you should leave, I’d like to be alone now.”
Lucifer’s heart sank; he fell to his knees in front of you
“No, no, no, no! You are the most gorgeous creature I’ve ever laid eyes on, you have to believe me,” Lucifer pleaded. “If I ever made you feel like you weren’t, then I’ve failed as your partner.”
His eyes were full of worry and sadness when you looked back at him
Despite everything, you believed him
“It’s me,” he said, cutting you off. “I know that’s cliché, but I promise you, you’ve done nothing wrong.” He inhaled, then breathed a heavy sigh. “I…I just didn’t know how’d you react…”
Lucifer finally stood up, wrapping his arms around himself as if he was trying to make himself smaller
“You know what happened with me, when Heaven casted me out, right?” You nodded. “Well, when they did, I was…hurt. You could probably guess that my hands and arms weren’t always like…this.”
Is that why it took him so long to hold your hand?
Lucifer never really mentioned his fall much around you, but you knew; everyone in Hell did.
But it wasn’t until now that you realized that he really hadn’t told you anything about it
“The weapons they use on sinners, their angelic steel…it can’t kill me. Nothing can, as far as I know. But…it can hurt me. And Heaven knew that.”
A faint smile fell on his lips when he heard his nickname, but it faded quickly
“They left scars. And I never healed.”
Your heart sank, feeling guilty about how you reacted. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know…I shouldn’t have been so upset…”
Lucifer quickly wrapped his arms around you in a tight embrace. “You didn’t do anything wrong, love, nothing at all. I should have told you sooner. I was…ashamed. The way you look at me, like I’m this perfect being, it made me want to hide myself even more. I wanted to be perfect for you…”
“Lucifer, look at me,” you spoke softly, holding his face in the palm of your hand. “I never wanted you to be perfect, and I never expected you to be. We’re all down here for one reason or another. I look at you the way I do because I love you, flaws and all.”
“Honey…” his voice was barely above a whisper.
You continued. “If you want to stop, that’s okay. I’d never force you into something you aren’t ready for. I’m sorry again, I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did. It was dumb and-MMPH!”
Your apology was quickly cut short by Lucifer lips. It wasn’t forceful, but tender, slow, intimate. Fueled with a hunger that you’d never felt from him before.
“No more apologies. I-I…” Lucifer struggled to find the right words, but the blush in his face was noticeable. “You mean everything to me and nothing would make me happier than to satisfy you in every way that I possibly could. Believe me, I’ve…I’ve thought about it a lot…”
Your own blush began to spread across your face that now felt increasingly warmer. Is he really admitting to what you think he is? Before you could stop your self, you blurted out, “What have you thought about?” Your hand flew to your mouth the instant the question left your lips. “I’m sorry, that was…too bold,” you laughed nervously. “Please don’t answer that.”
Lucifer only smiled and laughed with you. “You know, you’re cute when you’re flustered, sweetie.” Lucifer’s hand began to travel up from your knee to the outside of your upper thigh, stopping just before the curve of your ass. “Instead of telling you, why don’t I show you?”