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Gem | 39 | She/Her | Small Artist, Mum, Little Bit Crazy

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Refining it on the digital side.

This is the 3rd non consecutive day working on his idea has my pain keeps flaring

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Fine tuning once my tremors died down a bit

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Shaky hands but I got the ideas down before I lost them

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Fooled myself

I was having a "good" day and started to think it was all in my head. Then i reached for something and my knee, foot and ankle popped. My shoulders ached as im brought my arms back down. And my person al favourite - I stood up for 10 minutes and the pain in my back and hips went from annoying to unbearable. The simple movement of shuffling across the room made me want to cry.

Why do I keep doubting myself?

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Is it my chronic illness or?

Playing the have I caught the flu from my family or is it just my chronic illness game? Taking all the vitamins, supplements and cold and flu stuff my stomach can handle just in case.

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Mondays cosy sketch set up. Tuesday I made it to my desk chair (go me) but yesterday was a full day (food shopping, doctors appointment, Hospital appointment) so guess where I am set up today!!!

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You're still young

I'm 40 I left "young" a long time ago.

Also I don't think I was "young" when I was a teen or in my twenties so what the heck does that even mean?

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My crutches arrived

Some major headache worthy complications (pretty sure they forgot about my order) almost from the get go and they've arrived when i am doing a little better and am a little safer shifting around but now I have them when my pain flares and tries to take me down again

I have crutches!!!

Sorry, sorry, go back to your scrolling

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Good days are bad and

Bad Days are awful

That is all

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I dont know if this makes any sense

But when I stop, when I 'listen' to my body and just stop and rest it feels like the fatigue and the pain suddenly double. Its like my body went 'oh yeah great have this too'.

What started as maybe a day becomes two or three with the days after being a literally drag.

Is this just me and my weirdness or do others feel like this?

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I'm a small artist with a small shop. Currently battling chronic illness so print on demand is my friend

New Shop

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Flare Day Autumn Variant

Available in my new shop

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My New Shop

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My brain is too mush for this

So my docs did a blood test (again) and the answer to all my problems is that I am low in iron, folic acid and vitamin d. Ignoring the fact that I have no appetite (and I told them months ago), that the last supplement they gave me had me nauseous for the full 6 weeks and then it never went away, yeah. Its the deficiencies. So now I gotta pay money I dont have for a prescription to have one supplement that will only fix one of the three. And in 3 months I will go back and go hey still ill and they will say "lets do some blood tests". The same blood tests we did last time, and the time before that and the time before that. And somehow expect them to magically tell them something different.

I mean hey lets just do the same thing over and over and over until I stop going because why waste my time getting no where and make their stats look even better. Keep in mind I only found out that I had tonsillitis 20 years ago in February. They never told me. I was just given a prescription and sent on my way.

And none of this helps me with my back and hips which everyone has just shrugged off.

This is too much and I just can't. I want to rest but I can't. I want to work but I can't.

How does any chronically ill person fight doctors? A year and I cant remember not feeling like this anymore.

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Pumpkin Jellyfish

Its spice season and what fits better than a spicy pumpkin jellyfish

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Excuse my moaning and self plug

So I put a lot of my designs up on a sort of print on demand company but they do a thing where you vote for a design and if it wins it goes up for sale for one day. I've had it happen a few times before and it was good, bought food and paid for my prescriptions.

For over a year I've put up one particular design and it gets voted to the top almost every. single. time. Has it gone up for sale with them? Nope. Now I'm not interested in taking away from really good artists that do get printed through the voting system. They are really good designs and I own quite a few of the artists designs myself. I am no where near their caliber of artistry and this design is very basic but it has a good message to it. Or at least I think it does. It's part of a kind of "collection" of stamp style messages that I came up with.

So I've got the design up in different places now and I'm going to plug a little in case someone sees it and actually wants to buy it.

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A simple bagde like design meant to incorporate the mantra I, at the time, of designing, tried to adapt to my life