Reality check.
When you know you are not attractive at all. When you know you can never win those girl out there cause they dress up more feminine & nicer than you, they make up very prettily, they just look pleasantly nice as a girl/woman. They have nice hair-do. When you know no matter how much you make up, how hard you tried to dress up but it will never look beautiful, pretty or stunning... When you know you want that person to take notice of you but you just don't stand out among the crowd cause you look just normal. Nothing attractive as a girl. Not pretty compared to the rest. Not feminine at all. Doesn't even have a middle length hair not to say long hair. Just..... nothing nice to get notice. That's where you only have 1 option. You tried really hard. You do all sorts of shit. You shout, you wave, you do all sort of stupid action just to simply get that attention. You do not have a choice but to just tried realllly very hard..... very hard. Because realization hits you real hard when you know that when you are not doing anything at all, you are just unnoticeable. But people will never understand until they are in my shoes...
