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@lustful-lana
corbininman:
“Fine,” Corbin replied with a scoff, glancing up from his work on unscrewing the worn engine hose from Lana’s car. “I deserved that. Go ahead. Give me another one. I know you’ve got a few.”
“You’ could kill ‘em with your misdirected anger. Like you’re doing to me. When I haven’t done anything to ya..”
harleebecks:
“Some people are just like that. Like Corbin. And Oliver. But people like me an’ you, the fuckups, we owe it to them to be the best we can and be deserving of even a little bit of them. Not that I’m the best example of that, but. You get the idea.”
“I get it. At least when we fuck up, though, it’s just... expected at this point. I dunno. Maybe I’ll surprise her, right? She deserves it.”
corbininman:
“I guess. But outside of that specific scenario, what are you gonna do?” Corbin replied, ducking his head underneath the hood. “Talk them to death?”
“I s’pose I’d just die, then. I had a good run, at least. If I die, whatever.” She shrugged it off, “Though, my talking them to death may be better than your sulking them to death.”
harleebecks:
“Yeah, it does suck. Which is why you really hafta want it. If you don’t want it enough, you’re not gonna put up with how much it sucks fucking ass.”
“Honestly? You probably don’t. But that just means you should try harder to be someone who does deserve her.”
“Probably why it hasn’t worked the last... fifteen times I’ve tried.”
“Does anyone deserve to be her friend? She’s too good for everyone here.”
corbininman:
“Your story doesn’t really go along with that statement,” Corbin replied flatly, getting on his knees in front of Lana’s car to slide a drain pan underneath it.
“But, it does! If you think about it. I’m the danger to hitchhikers. Not the other way around.”
“Thought I’d get a little more of a laugh out of ya. You must be deeply immersed in my piece of shit car.”
tianasong:
“Steak!”
“Shit, alright. Steak is fine.”
“Know any good steakhouses we can go to? And how come you haven’t been eating? Are you... okay?”
agentfalke:
“So, are you going to go away on your own anytime soon, or do I have to arrest you?”
“I’m going.”
corbininman:
“Smart. Hitchhiking is dangerous.”
“Especially around these parts.”
“Don’t gotta tell me twice. This one time, this guy thought he’d get a free ride, if you know what I mean, and I had to knife his legs a few times to get him to leave me alone. I’m a danger to all hitchhiking acceptors.”
“You don’t like it over here? C’mon, it’s great.”
harleebecks:
“It’s not gonna stick unless you really want it. That’s what I’ve learned.”
“For people like Shani, it’s always gonna be enough if she knows you’re really trying your best. She’s good like that.”
“I mean, I want it to, I guess. Just sucks.”
“She is good. Don’t really deserve her as a friend, to be honest.”
corbininman:
“It’s nothing; don’t worry about it.”
“You need an oil refill. New wipers. Wiper fluid. A new hose if you can afford it.”
“Alright... if you ever need to talk, I owe ya one.”
“Okay, I can afford all of that... Just need a better means of transportation than hitch hiking.”
agentfalke:
“After seeing your style choices, I dread your matchmaking skills, so… I’m afraid I’ll have to turn you down.”
“You’re right. You’re too boring to be able to keep up with my matches. You don’t always have to be so frown-y though.”
corbininman:
“Apologies…”
“’Better late than never’, is that the philosophy?”
“Honestly? Kind of. I was a piece of shit. You didn’t deserve that, and I was too high to give a fuck.”
“You - what’s wrong? Bad day at work? I can bring my car back another time..”
– SIGN OF THE TIMES
shanidevx:
Afterwards, Shani didn’t remember how they got to the car. She remembered that Lana had been in the driver’s seat. She remembered the bumpy, twisting road as she sat curled up on the passenger side with her forehead against the window, crying. She remembered the black, unforgiving night, and the sound of Government engines in the distance.
But she did not remember leaving her father.
Shani sporadically seized up in fits of panic and tears for the remainder of the night and well into the morning, weeping silently in between the fits when she got her breath back. Lana stayed in bed with her, holding her still, letting her cry in her lap… Just like Shani had when the older girl was detoxing.
Sleep came over her some time before noon, when she was so exhausted from shock and grief that she couldn’t keep her eyes open anymore.
The next few weeks would be the hardest of her life.
Lana dragged her - she pulled the brunette’s body to the car with every ounce of strength she had. And, time felt as if it were standing still, as if Jimmy would pop out at any moment to murder them as well.
Lana just kept telling herself to push forward, that maybe no one would care if she died - but a bunch of people would if Shani died.
Hell, the whole world would lose a bright light.
She held Shani through the night, clinging on tightly, even when it wasn’t wanted. She held her through every moment and occasionally would hum a sweet tune into the girl’s ear - her best attempts at comfort. She remained in place while Shani slept, tirelessly watching over her to try and pull her out of a bad dream, should they come, and to be there when she awoke.
She knew now wouldn’t be the time to leave her one friend alone.
harleebecks:
“It took me a lot of tries, too. I’m hoping this one sticks, honestly, but sometimes I’m still scared it won’t.”
“The only thing you can do is keep trying your best. That’ll always be enough.”
“Well, just don’t keep cash on you. If you can’t buy the product, maybe it’ll help. I dunno. I’ve never had a huge desire to quit. Honestly, Shan kind of coerced me into it, but the used condoms she found on my floor probably twisted her arm.”
“And what if it isn’t?”
agentfalke:
“Awfully nosy.”
“If this is your attempt at asking me out I’m afraid I’ll have to disappoint you.”
“Why on Earth would I ask you out?”
“That’s...absolutely disgusting. You’re so below my personal level... ugh. I figured I could find you someone more your speed, though.”
corbininman:
“I like it. Congratulations.”
“I thought you might. Thanks. I honestly thought for a few weeks I might turn into a murderer, but... I got through the worst of it. You know it’s been like... almost a decade since I’ve been sober?” She paused, “Sorry - you know, if I ever mistreated you.”
harleebecks:
“A lot of people say you’re supposed to stay sober for yourself but I’ve always found it easier to do it for other people. Like I’ll think about Oliver and how I know he wants me to be happy and take care of myself and live a really long life. Or I think about Bambi’s daughter, Bunny, and how I can’t be a good caregiver if I’m fucked up. That’s why I bother.”
“You just have to find your reason why.”
“Does it stick that way? I mean, every time I’ve tried to sober up, it’s never worked. For me or anyone else. I think drugs are like in my DNA.” Lana smiled sadly, looking at her hands, “He was a great guy. Shame. But, hey - I’m glad it works for you. I really am.”
“Sucks that when I can’t find that reason, Shan’s gonna be disappointed. Don’t want her to feel like she’s done nothing,, but I’m afraid I don’t know if it’ll be enough.”
