MOVED - Ask off anon for new url

Hey, I'm Théo, and I'm literally the moon, and a huge gay nerd who gets really passionate about a lot of things. This has mostly turned into an aesthetic blog, but I vaguely participate in a number of fandoms, and get really angry about people being...

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Okay, so this is the last post I'm going to make on this blog, and then I'm done here. Most of this post is just something a need to get out of my system and off my chest because seriously, it's fucked up what he did to me. Trigger warning for rape. I know there's a way to put things under a cut on mobile but I'm not sure how. Zenith, Remember that time when Biker and Arthur were fooling around and Arthur accidentally switched back? And then Biker didn't want to leave so you came and demanded I have sex with you? And didn't give me the option to say no? You're a fucking rapist. Fuck you. You can claim I abused you all you want, you fucking RAPED me. Burn in hell. -Your fucking victim, Théo Topside Jay, Good luck. -Gather

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Okay but you know what I don't get? You're trying to tell me to leave you alone but. You're the ones stalking me and harassing me? Because I wanted /you/ to leave me alone?????? I remade my blog so that there wouldn't be any potential for us to come in to contact again, and you're. Telling me to leave you alone. What?

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Okay, actually you know what? I'm just gonna block you Jay. I know it won't keep you from viewing my blog in the browser and sending me anons, but I'll see your ip address and know what you've looked at. Shrugs. Honestly it'd be best if you just left me alone and stopped making this worse and wasting both of our time. Go have fun with your boyfriend on blogs I dont look at and I'll go have fun with my blog that you don't know the url to and hopefully we can just move on with our lives and never cross paths again. Deal?

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You know, I thought you'd be above anon hate, tbh. Shrugs. Whatever. It's not like I didn't know anyway.

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Oh and I don't have you number. Even if I did, I'd still rather live with my mother than you.

Fair enough. The offer stands, if you decide you need it. I honestly hope you don't, for your sake, but do what you want, really. It's not my business what you do with your life, I just want your boyfriend to stay out of mine. That's ALL.

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Oh and nice try trying to guilt trip me for being with him. Real classy. Talk about cutting support to your victims eh?

*offers support**gets accused of cutting off support*???????????????That's kinda a bit of a reach, Jay.

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No hard feelings. Right. I was checking in on you not him. Way to be a dumbass honestly. Thanks for nothing. Please just fuck off and leave us alone.

I'm???? Trying?????? Y'all are the ones who keep checking my blog. I didn't even know you changed your url until you messaged me. So uh. Take your own advice buddy.And just because you harbor I'll will towards me doesn't mean I do towards you. I hope you have a nice life, and I hope he isnt treating you like he did me. Have fun, be safe, make good choices. Other than that, fuck off.

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Are you dense? I told you it was fucking me. I was checking for a response. My IP address is Lansing dumbass

Um? No? You didn't? "so, you enjoy acting like a victim? like it was you that was abused? did you ever stop to think that it was you that was the abuser and the only reason they were keeping tabs on you was for their own safety? Alienation is a massive tool in an abuser's arsenal. Take a step back and look at yourself before claiming others are being abusive."Where are you claiming you did, in that ANONYMOUS message? And checking for a response doesn't involve going through several of my tags and being on page fucking 40 of my blog. You DO realize I can see every page you visited, right? You were looking for information, plain and simple. And I KNOW your ip address is Lansing, that's how I knew it had to be one of the two of you. Congratulations, you're an asshole, now leave me alone.

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Hmmm, I wonder who in Lansing Michigan is on my blog?

Hey, Zenith. Fuck off, you abusive, toxic piece of shit and leave me alone. You’d think gaslighting me, isolating me from my support network, treating me like a walking wallet, and making me feel so unwanted that I slept on the couch in my own house while you were on my bed was enough. Oh! And let’s not forget all the times you made me apologize for having a panic attack every time you repeatedly aggravated something you KNEW to be a huge trigger for me!

Leave. Me. Alone.

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No, you know what, Jay? I honestly wish you the best. I hope that this doesn’t destroy you. I hope you’re able to live a long happy life. I don’t really harbor any ill will against you, even if you HAVE been an asshole. And if the worst comes to pass, you have my number. 

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Hmmm, I wonder who in Lansing Michigan is on my blog?

Hey, Zenith. Fuck off, you abusive, toxic piece of shit and leave me alone. You’d think gaslighting me, isolating me from my support network, treating me like a walking wallet, and making me feel so unwanted that I slept on the couch in my own house while you were on my bed was enough. Oh! And let’s not forget all the times you made me apologize for having a panic attack every time you repeatedly aggravated something you KNEW to be a huge trigger for me!

Leave. Me. Alone.

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LEAVE. ME. ALONE.

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so, you enjoy acting like a victim? like it was you that was abused? did you ever stop to think that it was you that was the abuser and the only reason they were keeping tabs on you was for their own safety? Alienation is a massive tool in an abuser's arsenal. Take a step back and look at yourself before claiming others are being abusive.

Yeah! You’re right! It WAS abusive when Zenith made me feel guilty for attending my support group!! It WAS abusive when he alienated me from every single friend I had and made me feel like shit any time I even MENTIONED having a friend that wasn’t him!! And lets not get started on how much he HATED the fact that I had a qpp who he repeatedly attacked and tried to turn me against!!!

Not to mentioned all the times he screamed that he was going to kill me! And then blamed me because I just “made him so angry!” And then made me comfort HIM for it even though I was having a fucking panic attack because being threatened like that is a MAJOR trigger for me because of the time someone actually DID try to kill me, and he knew that!

And then he just straight up started ignoring me and made me feel so unwelcome in my own home I spent two months sleeping on the couch while he had my bed! And then tried to convince me not to break up with him by threatening suicide!!

And any time I tried to tell him “hey, this really hurt me, can we talk about it?” it ended one of two ways. Either he claimed that my memory was bad and I obviously didn’t remember that right because OBVIOUSLY that never happened, which is, you know, textbook gaslighting. Or he spent the next hour telling me I had no right to complain because his problems were worse and completely invalidating me and any very real pain I felt.

But, you know. Obviously I was the one abusing him. Right. And given that I’m not even in the same state as him, I dont see how checking my blog could be for his “protection.” No. The only reason you check up on someone after you’re completely through with them is because you want information to hurt them more. Which, you know. Is why I HAVEN’T been checking his blog, like he’s obviously been doing to me. I moniter the ip addresses that visit my blog, because I want to feel safe, but I don’t need to know any more about him.

Given that I have proof that an ip address in Lansing, Michigan is visiting my blog, and this doesn’t sound like Zenith, I’m going to assume this is Jay. Fuck off. You don’t need to be 40 pages into my blog. Leave.

@carlyquinn you wanted to know what happened. 

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Okay so Ive remade to escape my abusive ex who I know has been visiting my blog. Message me off anon and I’ll give you the new url.

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Okay so Ive remade to escape my abusive ex who I know has been visiting my blog. Message me off anon and I’ll give you the new url.

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Okay so Ive remade to escape my abusive ex who I know has been visiting my blog. Message me off anon and I’ll give you the new url.

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Okay so Ive remade to escape my abusive ex who I know has been visiting my blog. Message me off anon and I’ll give you the new url.