ryujin x reader; slightly suggestive; angst;
"we can't do this" you whisper against her lips, this was so wrong, all of this. your thighs trembling around ryujin's fingers, her hands in your hair, her mouth steadily making its way down your collarbone to your hardened nipple. all of this was so wrong.
but the fire in the pit of your stomach when she placed another kiss on the side of your neck spoke otherwise.
"why?" ryujin asks, making you shudder when she pulls away, lust-filled eyes boring into yours.
"w-we're girls." you say weakly, "i-isnt this—" ryujin sighs pulling away from you. "so what? y/n. i've already told you that you aren't going to hell for loving another woman." you shrink back at her words. "i-i know but-", "then why are you so scared?" ryujin asks gently, "y/n, do you love me?"
you cannot respond to that, looking away from her intense eyes. "i do, but i just..." your voice trails away, thinking about all of the times you've been taught about how two women loving eachother was wrong, how two women being intimate with eachother is disgusting. above all, you can't stop thinking about what everyone would say if they found out about you and ryujin.
"y/n, i don't know how else to explain this to you. you're allowed to love whoever you want, man, woman, anyone in between, above, below and beyond. if this feels right to you, then don't fight it because..." ryujin's voice trails off lightly, "if you pull away from me one more time, i will have no choice to end it right now." you gasp at her words, "ryujin, what-" youre cut off by her, "i love you, i really do but i cannot do it anymore. not if you dont want to."
"ryujin..." you say gently, watching her stand in front of you with her beautiful eyes now glassy with tears. those eyes which you aren't allowed to love. you gulp slightly, "i want this, i want you." and thats all the confirmation she needs.
— tagging @hooniesiceprincess, @hoonculture @nishimochas
