â pairing jj x fem!reader | wc 0.1k | song + lyrics âi wanna kiss you, but if i do then i might miss you, babeâ (lovegame by lady gaga) | note i am SO SORRY for posting this HELLA late...but luvsellie comback?!?!?!?! | also requested by @angelusaurorae
you could feel the way his eyes drank in your dancing figure, always observing, but never gathering enough courage to approach you amidst your group of friends.
while he was with a group of his own, you noticed that he never paid them much mind, too busy making fleeting eye contact with you. and, as appeared by their entertainment, they giggled and whispered when he finally decided to grow a pair and make his way through the crowd of sweaty bodies.
âheâs staring right at you,â one of the girls said, her gaze flickering between you and the blond boy.
you nodded, absentmindedly listening to her statement. having not noticed his hasty movement, you continued to sway to the music, enjoying the song and atmosphere, taking the time to capture this moment in your memory. but the euphoria was short-lived, interrupted by a hand on your hip and a mouth to your ear.
grinning, you had an idea about who had started grinding against your ass, a blur of tan skin and yellow hair taking up your peripheral. so, with heavy eyes and a damning mentality, you turned and pressed your lips against his.
the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.
this is an old draft that i wrote a long time ago, about ellie using the strap on you for the first time. âĄâ§âË
warnings: strap on sex (r!reciving) , first time , praise kink (for both) , soft and loving dom top!ellie , sub bottom!reader , cock grinding , thumb sucking .
âââ we have to make it clear on the fact that ellie was so unbelievably thrilled, yet so incredibly tentative when she first fucked you with her strap on. sheâs been waiting for it, waiting to be the one claiming you from inside. sheâs had it sitting snuggly in a box tucked below her bed for a while now, and sheâd always eye it, have some sort of stare down with the black box. should she? or should she not? she wondered, but when three of her fingers were scissoring inside of you and you muttered that âplease, d- deeperâ she knew that fuck it â she should.
âââ so expectably, the first words that came out of her quivering lips when she aligned the silicone shaft with your sopping entrance, were âare you sure? i need to know you want this, pleaseâ, and you â being so eager yet so timid, only responded with two fervent nods. clearly, it wasnât enough for ellie, in fact, it wasnât enough at all, so her voice got very stern all of a sudden. it was that tone she only uses when sheâs commanding someone to do something on patrol, when sheâs directing someone on where to go, or showing them how to polish a precious weapon. it carries a deepness to it, raspy, itâs strong and forceful, nothing that falls short of intimidating. it's a different side of ellie, one that you don't know quite as well. âuse your words, mânot doing this unless you use themâ, and when she notices how you thickly gulp, huffing out a shaky breath from your nose, she soothes you with a delicate kiss on your temple. you whine, that kiss makes you want more. as soft as it may be, it makes you buck your hips inwards and let go of a needy high pitched moan. ellie shushes you with her sweet âi know babe, i knowâ â and you know that she knows, so why wonât she just put it inside?
âââ perhaps itâs the need to affirm herself that you do want this, or maybe itâs this greed she holds and the yearning to hear you say it. sheâs looking deep into your blown out eyes, your dark irises, nods her head twice and waits for your words. meanwhile, whilst she waits, she slides her thumb down to caress just above your clit. sheâs circling your skin with a touch to soothe, or perhaps signaling you what sheâll do when itâs inside, she'll never neglect your little button. when you look down, she hums. âwords, mhm?â she murmurs. you can tell sheâs all tensed up, fighting the urge to just slide it inside because she knows she can, she knows you need it by the way your chest heaves up and down, and by the way thereâs a small puddle of slick that formed on the flimsy bedsheet below. moreover, she has prepared you for it, first with her skilled tongue, then with her skilled fingers. âwant it, i needâŠâ you whisper, voice airy yet cracking. ellie removes her finger from your pelvis, brings it up to your cheek and caresses softly. âneed what, pretty girl, huh? need what?â
âââ truthfully, you donât really know how to call it, sheâs never really referenced it by itâs name, just called it a âthingâ you âmight needâ when she realized how eagerly your hole pulls her fingers inside, and squeezes like she might run away if you donât. so when you see the deep, dark purple shaft (with two distinct veins on the side) you simply giggle out of inexperience, and a tinge of embarrassment. ellie smirks, looking down at you, then grins with her eyebrows arched up in amusement. âellie⊠i dunno, uh, how to call it⊠i mean ââ and she stops you mid sentence, smacking your lips softly with hers. she chuckles, matches your giggle even, a deep blush appearing on the apples of her cheeks because fuck â what if you laugh, what if you donât like it, or what if you donât want to use those dirty words she likes calling her silicone buddy by. âuh⊠shit babe, itâs, well you can call itâŠâ she stammers, now attempting to stifle her laugh. you look up at her and form a tight line with your lips. your chestâs heaving and stifling giggles because fuck it, sheâs cute when sheâs embarrassed, and how fucking precious is it that you can laugh with her even in a moment like this. you cunt can ache for her and you can still be silly together and giggle like kids because you trust her and she trusts you.
âââ she buries her face in the crook of your neck, groaning yet giggling and nearly falling on top of you. when her hips slightly buck down, in result of her laughs, the silicone shaft grinds itself up against your slippery slit, and you whine her name so loud her giggles stop like sheâs been hit on the face with a rock. now, you can hear her harsh breaths in your ear, loud with anticipation and want, lips resting on the pulse of your neck. she realizes you must fucking love the grinding of it all, so she moves her hips back and forth to grind up against you some more. âuh huh, like that?â she murmurs, and to every whimper she responds with a groan like she can feel it, like she can actually feel your greedy wet lips wrapping around her. she nibbles on your earlobe, making you shiver, and breathes deeply before speaking into your ear. âfuuuuuâ she gasps and itâs breathless, like sheâs trying to form actual words but they only come out as muffled gibberish. she breathes again, gaining her courage. âmy cock⊠say you want my cockâ.
âââ it really is lewd, âher cockâ â as if itâs hers, attached to her, as if she can feel it. it makes your tummy tie in knots, makes your throat feel clogged, your breaths come out harsher and bordering on wheezing before you murmur those words. when the mushroom like tip bumps up against your clit, itâs oh so delicious and fuck it â you want, as lewd as may be, you need her cock. âi want your cock, ellie, insideâ you cry for her, and she nearly growls in your ear. although itâs bordering on perverted now, she asks you a simple âinside where?â, it makes you hiccup against her skin, and you donât even realize sheâs smiling so bright inside the crook of your neck. she understands that if she eggs you on, you will fucking say it, so she repeats with a raspy; âc'mon, where?â
âââ when it becomes crystal clear to you that unless you voice everything out; she wonât give it to you, and youâre practically clenching in and out over nothing â you whisper âneed⊠ellie, i need it in my pussy, please, please, pleaseâ and god, she nearly regrets making you say it because she might burst inside her boxers if you keep begging for it like such a needy girl. she takes a moment to think about it, needy, needy, needy, needy for her, for her cock â needy for her to fuck you, needy for her inside and christ sake youâre begging and she didnât even ask you to. youâre feeding her ego with every plea, with every quivering breath and you donât even know it. meanwhile, whilst sheâs busy thinking about how to pull back on her goddamn nearing on untouched orgasm, she doesnât even realize your hand is wrapped around her dick and youâre nearly pushing it inside. when she sees it, she nearly goes cross eyed. she grabs your hand and pushes it up, chasing your eyes with hers. âwhat are you doing, huh?â she drawls, affirming her dominance with an iron grip on your wrist. youâre actually helpless, caught in the act, wiggling your hips and rolling them upwards. âp-please, ellie!â you beg, and the knots inside ellieâs own stomach feel like theyâre tightening more and more they might break like glass. she wraps her own hand around the shaft and nearly pushes the tip in. you wince â and to that ellie shushes. âlook at me, jusâ look at meâ, and how can you not? she looks so adoring, a squiggly smile on her lips when she realizes the tip damn near slipped from how soaked up you are. the actual noise it makes, moist and sticky, makes ellie whimper out your name. âyâhear that?â, she murmurs and of course you can, in fact it makes you embarrassed but she praises you once more, making the embarrassment nothing but a fleeting little feeling. âsounds so good baby, sâall for me?â â all for her.
âââ she pushes the tip inside, no longer gripping your wrist above your head, intently guiding it to hold her wherever you want. you decide on one hand on her bicep, the other one on the back of her neck. thereâs a pinching pain inside of your cunt, but itâs so fucking delicious because itâs her thats creating it â that when you wince it comes out as more of a blissful moan and a gasp. she wonât let you suffer, not for one second more, so she slides her hand down to caress your clit as she pushes more inches in. âmhm, âs, âso good baby⊠youâre so good, doinâ so good for me, you got this⊠yeah? i got youâ sheâs rambling, searching and scanning your face for any sign of pain or regret, and when she catches that youâre smiling, actually smiling with a tear shedding from your eye, she moans so loud you have to seal her lips with yours or else the whole town of jackson might hear.
âââ the more inches she slides inside, the more ellie lets loose of her gritted teeth. her mouth goes slightly agape, âstay open for me, jusâ like that, fuckyouâresogoodâ she croons, still circling and toying with your puffy clit from below. your thighs are nothing but trembling and shaking like jelly, body, flesh and brain turning into mushy pink and ellie shaped goo, and the fact that she doesnât stop with her praising and sweet nothings, repeating how good you are, how brave, and tight â makes your heart flutter inside of your chest. when all of itâs length is finally inside of your gummy walls, she lets it sit there for a few faint moments before she begins thrusting. âjust for me, got that? just for me, this is mine, all mineâ she murmurs more to herself than to you, but you make sure to affirm her nevertheless. âmâyours, please âmoâ âmoreâ, youâre begging for that sharp friction, for that movement, but ellie needs to treasure this moment so she simply looks down. itâs all inside, itâs her cock thatâs inside â claiming you, so she marvels, examines and thoroughly looks at your pussy clenching on her dick like itâs a goddamn work of art. if you squeezed down on her fingers like they might run away, the squeeze you have down on her cock â âgod damnâ she whispers, might need to take a picture and fucking frame it. finally, she catches your pleading gaze. âgonna move now, babe, câ can i move?â, and you whine, because itâs beginning to feel unfair, so she connects her lips with yours and slides her hot tongue inside. she breaks the kiss, grinning like she won the apocalypse lottery. âmhm, gonna move, gonna give you what you wantâ
âââ at first, she thrusts agonizingly slow like a snail. moves her hips backwards and doesnât slam it fully inside, lets the tip hang nearly outside of your entrance and then slowly but deliciously slips it in again. you wail, actually wail for her to go deeper, and it clicks in her head when you scratch her back in a way that makes her hiss. she bottoms out fully, moving backwards and then slides inwards again. she wonât stop looking into your goddamn eyes, then stares into your lips that are now âoâ shaped. sheâs flushed and sheâs biting her bottom lip so hard it might draw blood, but then she asks you âtâfeels good?â and doesnât add that cocky âhuh?â that she loves to murmur when her fingers are the ones your cunt is hugging, because she actually needs to know. âmhm, good ellie, youâre so good to meâ you praise, which sends ellie into a goddamn frenzy â eyelids fluttering and falling heavy as a deep, throaty chuckle escapes from within. âgod fuckinâ damn, how did i evenâŠâ then she slams it again, which makes both of you gasp. her right thigh shakes, âfuckinâ get so fuckinâ lucky with you?â, she wont stop cussing, slurring up her words and misplacing her âfucksâ and her âfuckingâs. the louder your moans get, the braver ellie grows, pumping her cock harder now, milking every thrust and every whimper, âwhoâs f-f fucking you, hm?â she asks, and her thumb neglects your clit but you donât even need it anymore since sheâs giving it to you so good from within. her digit meets your face, caressing the corner of your lip, which makes you take your tongue out and ellie realizes you want it inside as well. you seem to want everything inside, huh? she thinks. her cock, her fingers, her tongue, her goddamn thumb. she complies out of want, curiosity, how slutty would you look sucking on her finger. admittedly, sheâs had dreams about it, about you; bent down on your knees sucking on a popsicle in july, sucking a lollipop as she watches from above. she gazes at your cheeks hollow in as she slides her thumb in and out, but you bite it and she gasps â keep it inside cause youâre about to suck it, then she loses it entirely. âyouâre fuckinâ gonna make me fuckinâ cumâ she whimpers, she says it like she's scared, like she's surprised or confused because heavens how could it be possible?
âââ knowing that you were about to make her cum untouched makes the coil in your stomach nearly snap. you're prideful now, but your pussy feels like itâs quivering so much you simply don't know and can't grasp on how to be cocky about it like she does. another praise escapes your lips, "love your dick s-s- so so much", and ellie growls, she feels depraved and sick, absolutely pussydrunk and on the verge of a heart attack. her rule, however, is that she cannot under any circumstance come before you do, so she speeds up. grabbing both of your cheeks with her hands, she squeezes them together and coos. "you're gonna cum for me" she commands, so your eyebrows furrow together and your eyes close shut. she's dominating you to the verge of tears, so when ellie tells you to cum, you will do as she says. "g, g- gonna cum, itâs, s'-so much" you warn, absolutely breathless, toes curling inside of your socks.
âââ you could call her delusional or crazy, but when you nearly reach your orgasm, she feels your walls hugging her tightly. fortunately for you, ellie is nothing but talkative. it may be odd, because sheâs not much of a blabber mouth, but when sheâs inside and youâre being fucked out on her strap, talking you through it is all she seems to wanna do. âcan f-feel that little pussy hugging me, fuck, gonna give me a big one? pretty girl? give ellie a big one, câmonâ, sheâs relentless with it, fast and chasing her own high, not knowing where to goddamn look â your eyes that scream âi love youâ or your pussy thatâs begging to be filled up some more, or maybe your lips that are covered with drool. she settles however, on your eyes. you nod profusely, âgonna give it to you⊠mhmâ you hiccup, which ellie deems as nothing but so fuckinâ cute, to the point where she wants to break you in half just to hear that âcutenessâ some more. when your eyes roll back to the top of your head, cunt filled to the brim â ellie swears something to herself. sheâs gonna fuck you every day. if humanly possible, she would have fucked you all the time. so you give it to her, a real big one, one that leaves you paralyzed, not even moaning â sweet sticky mouth fully agape with a choked up scream of her name. she wants to warn you that sheâs about to cum too, but youâre too quick to notice. âcum for me, ellieâ you beg in that sweet voice of yours and she cums with a huge , lovey-dovey, cumdrunk smile plastered across on her face.
âââ when youâre done, she cleans you up with a wet towel and kisses you everywhere. then â âi picked up a new book and it has a bunch of pics of cool bugs, yâwanna see?â. youâre fucked and in love.
hi guys :) iâve been super inactive for the past two-three months and i sincerely apologize! finding the motivation to write has been really hard for me lately, as i am wrapped up in the process of moving and starting uni this month.
this is my official announcement that iâll be going on hiatus until further notice. iâll still pop in every once in awhile, but donât expect any fics to be posted anytime soon.
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