seventeen years without you, michael jackson ♡
the love i’ve carried for you started when i was just three or four, and it never faded. it only grew deeper as i did, shifting with every year but never leaving my heart. your music has been part of my life for as long as i can remember, like a constant presence that understood me even when i was too young to understand myself. sometimes i think about everything you went through, and my heart aches for you. behind the music, the performances, and the magic the world saw, there was a human being who deserved kindness, understanding, and peace, someone who spent so much of his life giving joy to others while carrying burdens most people could never imagine.
you gave the world your childhood before you even had the chance to fully live it. you grew up under lights brighter than most people will ever know, with expectations placed on your shoulders before you were old enough to understand them. and yet somehow, despite everything, you never lost the softness in your heart. that is what amazes me the most. you could have become bitter or stopped believing in goodness, but instead you continued to speak about love, healing, helping children, and making the world better. there was something so beautiful about the way you held onto wonder when life gave you so many reasons not to. ♡♡
i wish the world had been gentler with you. i wish more people had looked at your heart instead of creating stories about you. i wish more people had understood the loneliness that can come with being seen by everyone and truly known by so few. i wish you had been given the peace you spent your whole life searching for. it still feels surreal that you have been gone for so long. there are moments when i listen to your music and it feels like you are still here, still creating, still giving the world something no one else ever could. your art has that kind of timelessness that does not fade it just becomes more meaningful the longer you live with it. they never deserved you. not the pressure, not the judgment, not the cruelty that followed you. and yet you still gave everything you had. you still gave your talent, your heart, your imagination, and your love to the world anyway. that says everything about who you were.
your legacy is still alive in the strongest way. your influence is everywhere in music, in dance, in performance, in every artist who was inspired by your courage to be different. and even now, new generations continue to discover your story, your art, your brilliance, and your humanity. you are still reaching people. you are still changing lives. i miss you in ways that are hard to explain without emotion taking over, but i am also endlessly grateful for you, grateful for the music that carried me through life, grateful for the joy you brought into the world, and grateful that your existence left something so powerful behind.
you deserved so much more time than this, so much more than the rushed restless life you were forced to carry, and it breaks something deep inside me to think about how you never got the quiet years that should have been waiting for you, the slow mornings without pressure, the soft days without cameras, the simple human moments that should have belonged only to you, because after everything you poured into this world you should have been allowed to finally breathe, to finally rest while still alive, and there was still so much life ahead of you, so much music that lived only in your heart and never got the chance to be born, so many dreams left unfinished, so many places you never got to stand in, so many people who still had love waiting for you that you never got to feel, and you spent so much of your life giving yourself away piece by fragile piece until there was almost nothing left that was just yours, and i wish with an ache that feels endless that you had been given the chance to simply exist for yourself, to wake up without fear, to grow older without being hunted, to find peace without having to earn it, because someone with a heart like yours deserved the chance to stay, deserved the chance to heal, deserved the chance to grow old surrounded by gentleness and safety and love, and what shatters me is knowing you were always reaching for a peace you never got to touch in this lifetime.
you were loved then. you are loved now. and you will always be loved. you were sunshine on earth ♡🪽
rest peacefully, michael ♡ ✧･ﾟ:
“and if there is one insight i’ve had, it is this: wherever you go, in every country, on every continent, people yearn and hunger for only one thing, to love and be loved. love transcends international boundaries and heals the wounds of hatred, racial prejudice, bigotry and ignorance. it is the ultimate truth at the heart of all creation.” — michael jackson ♡ ama '93
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