siwonsays:
The house he was living in definitely didn’t feel like a home. The atmosphere was tense, hostil even. Siwon had figured out that a temporary solution would be to spend more time away. That had been the case that night, the party was a good excuse to avoid all of that. He had sent Lux a soft smile as he looked up at him, happy to spend time with the younger male as always, but it was quickly replaced by a frown at hearing his boyfriend’s reply to his comment. Siwon didn’t mean to upset the other, he just said what came to his mind, if anything he had meant it as a compliment. Sighing, he looked down at his his hands, getting lost in thought for a moment. Hearing what was said next hurt. He knew how much his boyfriend cared about him and that he just probably assumed the taller male was fine since he made it home safely, but in that moment it seemed like Lux was more worried about waking Echo up than about Siwon’s well being. The barista accepted the offered hand and sat down slowly, still not saying a word.
Hugging his knees to his chest, he looked over as Lux came closer and rested his head on his shoulder and sent his boyfriend a small smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “It’s okay. I shouldn’t have gotten wasted and made so much noise, I’m sorry. You should go to bed. I just need a moment to sober up a bit. I’ll be right there.”
lux knew that siwon couldn’t help being loud, as it was obvious the boy was drunk and had a great time at the party. the younger had come home in a similar state many times before, but that was before every small thing that happened turned into a huge argument, for no apparent reason. it felt as if he had to walk on eggshells 24/7 in order to not piss someone off, which was pretty hard when the other boys continued provoking each other, and then expected him to pick a side. choose. every decision he made in life seemed to be the wrong one. it wasn’t fair to be put in a position like this.
“i don’t want to sleep yet,” lux yawned, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes with his fingerstips. the younger boy snuggled up closer, hoping the other would put his arm around him. “maybe later.” he didn’t want to think about the ‘hard stuff’ anymore. no, he just wanted to be happy, and for everyone to get along. why was that so hard? “are you alright?” lux inquired, noticing that the other’s tone of voice had changed slightly. “are you sick, or...?”










