Just letting you guys know that I'll probably be a lot less active in the fandom for a while. I just... I can't do it anymore. I'll be honest with you guys, I've been dealing with major depressive disorder and mental illness pretty severely for these last couple of years, and Byler has been such a source of comfort for me during dark times. Just looking at theories, analyses, headcanons, getting excited to see it be endgame and whatnot. But man all of the shit that Noah has pulled has soured it for me in a big way. I'm so upset and disappointed with him that right now when I think of Byler or Stranger Things, I just think of him and how low he continues to go.
Part of the problem I think is that it's new, worse shit like every couple of weeks. I just want to move on and forget about him honestly but I can't do that when he refuses to shut up. And the fandom space gets toxic and negative as a result. Every time we start to have fun, it's like he ruins it. We got crumbs for Stranger Things day and then he went and liked that racist video. And then we were all getting excited that the actor's strike was over and he pulled that bullshit yesterday. I want so badly to separate character from actor and just enjoy the show and the ship but Noah is making it so that we are unable to look away and must address the harm he is causing. It's just... so emotionally exhausting. The very thing that is supposed to be a source of comfort (Byler) is coincidentally my biggest source of anxiety rn and is legitimately worsening my depression lmao. Imagine that.
And the vibe is just sort of gone tbh. These creators were people I looked up to and respected because of their artistry and how carefully and intricately they crafted the Byler storyline, but like, no I don't even respect the Duffers or Shawn Levy anymore. And I'm not excited to see behind the scenes photos or get updates about production anymore. Because I can only imagine how tired like everyone involved in this must feel and how they probably all desperately want it to be over so that they (and we) can move on. It's just a shitshow. It's like watching a trainwreck. Not to mention how many people are boycotting the show and now even watching it or giving it any kind of attention is turning into a moral dilemma like Harry Potter or something. And ofc we have antis infiltrating the Byler tag who are criticizing us for shipping Byler bc of Noah. The vibe is just so all around ugly and bad. And I can only imagine it'll get worse as Noah continues to sink lower and lower. Idk guys. I love these characters and this story but I have to prioritize my mental health and right now I know for a fact that all of this shit is making it worse. Not to mention David giving me a warm slice of Byler doubt yesterday (thanks David lmao). Like, I might just have to see where we are closer to time of release. Maybe when we get a trailer or something. Like I know things change but it's so hard for me to foresee the future. Maybe Noah shuts up a bit and gets moderately less awful. Or maybe he gets even worse and gets fired and replaced. Or the entire production shuts down or M*leven is endgame like I genuinely don't know anymore lol. I can't predict the future and that's part of what gives me anxiety. Anyways... yeah I'm sure I'll drop by to offer headcanons and whatnot but ya I cannot be in this space or thinking about Byler or Noah everyday. I just cannot for the sake of my mental health. Hope you guys understand. <3
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