Lysander is back

A day by day fanfiction, to allow Lysander to come back in town and have a happier ending ~ Masterlist

[lysanderisbackbitches]

Day 6 - 9:57

Alie woke up and realised she was burried in Chani's arms. She felt empty, probably because of all the tears she had left out the night before, but seeing Chani sleeping in such a cute way made her smile a little.

She went out the bed and checked her appareance in the mirror, arranged her hair a little. Then she found her clothes that she had exchanged for Rayan's oversized shirt for the night, her friend not wanting to let her sleep in dirty clothes. Dressed, she went to the living room, and found two other sights that made her feel slightly more whole; Rayan was making pancakes, apparently really focused on his task, his eyebrows furrowed and his hands moving with precautions. On the other side of the room, Hyun was laying on the couch, his hair going crazy, his shirt half raised and the lower part of his body covered by a blanket.

She greeted Rayan, who answered by a huge smile, slightly exaggerated but nonetheless showing his relief. He did not ask how she was feeling, guessing by himself, and instead asked her to wake up their two fellows, showing proudly the pile of pancakes that were already ready.

Hyun woke up as soon as she touched him but grabbed her sleeve and stared at her with sleepy eyes for a moment, before releasing her - she seemed fine enough and he felt reassured just by seeing her awake, standing, and not so sad-looking. Sleeping Chani was another problem, and clung to the bed for a moment.

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Day 5 - 23:27

A police siren echoed through the night. The gang members, as if they were a unique entity, clicked their tongue, probably frustrated to give up the beating of an easy prey. They ran back to the darkest spots and disappeared.

Castiel muted his phone and noticed Lysander and Hyun that were looking at each other as if they had found a new opponent.

- Okay, everyone calms down. Also "wow Castiel thanks for being such a preventive and intelligent being". You're welcome.

Hyun turned to him, not impressed.

- I could have dealt with it alone.

- I tend to like optimistic people, but you're just being plain stupid here. Lys, come on, there is nothing to do outside.

But Lysander just approached Hyun, who tightened his defensive pose, ready to bite. However, Lys's face softened at once, surprising him.

- Are you her... boyfriend ? (This word felt heavy on his tongue.) Just... tell her I'm sorry please. I just want her to know.

Hyun stared at him.

- Don't get close to her. Never again.

Lysander looked down, with a look that was screaming pain to the point it even triggered some pity in Hyun.

- Listen I'm just her friend. But I'm not sure she could bear to see you again. Not anytime soon at least. You did her dirty.

Lysander felt contradictory feelings raise in him.

- What can I do ? For it to be sooner ?

He was clutching to a tiny hope and his trembling voice betrayed all of his emotion. He felt a unique tear rolling down his cheek and insisted :

- Please...

Hyun, who had never been too good dealing with people in general, felt uneasy. On one hand, Alie was so dear to him, and she was apparently suffering just by thinking about this guy. And on the other hand... he doubted that the situation would improve with the help of time only, and the man in front of him seemed as broken as Alie was.

- I'll tell you if I get any clue. Just... don't come at the café for now.

He did not really want to help him. But he knew it was probably for the best, and that him alone wouldn't be able to do anything. He turned away and walked back to Rayan's apartment.

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Day 5 - 23:10

They were sitting in Castiel's appartement in silence when Lysander suddenly stood up.

- I can't stay here anymore.

- Lys wait- fuck.

Castiel followed him, more worried than ever. His friend was in shock, filled with sadness, and the city by night was ruled by stupid but dangerous gangs, probably drunk or high by now.

Lysander did not know, nor would he have cared. He only wished he could hurt himself like he hurt her. He knew by heart what sadness was, but he had never faced such anger and will to destroy, even less directed against himself. As soon as he reached the main street, he looked for a darker one. He continued to walk at a fast pace in this maze, ignoring Castiel that had gave up on reasoning him but would not let him alone. He did not know what he was looking for, not consciously at least, but he soon found it. Castiel swore one more time seeing the group of men right in front of them, apparently focused on something on the ground. He reached for Lysander in order to stop him and caught a glimpse of what was entertaining them that much.

Hyun stood up. His elbows and his left cheek were scratched. His eyes were similar to Lysander's ones, as well as his mouth, tightly held in a thin a line.

Castiel shut his eyes and sighed, eyebrows rising in disbelief. He was so tired already.

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Day 5 - 22:16

- She is sleeping.

They all nodded in silence. They were in Rayan's apartment.

- She had not told us, you know, about how she felt.

Hyun was nervously fidgeting. They were all feeling tense. Seeing Alie lost all control like that had been terrifying and terrifyingly worrying.

- You both can stay here for the night if you wish, Rayan offered.

- I will, thanks, answered Hyun. Let me just go out for a bit, I need some fresh air first.

He exited, and Chani finally spoke.

- Do you think they should sort it out ? I'm afraid she doesn't move on if they don't.

Rayan sighed.

- Maybe she will now. She did tell him everything she was bearing.

- It doesn't mean they won't meet again, and that she won't think about everything once more. And maybe he will come back, try to make her forgive him. He seemed really eager to talk to her, so he probably never thought about everything she went through, or he wouldn't have been so naive. From his point of view, everything he did was probably for the best and-

- Which doesn't make it right.

- Which doesn't make it right but-

- Chani, I know you mean well, but she will decide. We can only help her, not decide for her.

It was killing him to remain calm. Alie was the first person he had called a friend for years. She had integrated him to her group without hesitation, had let him have fun again. But he felt powerless, knowing fully he was acting for the best, but angry that doing nothing but stay close was his best.

- Go rest Chani. I'll wait for Hyun.

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Day 5 - 21:07

Lysander was feeling light. Talking with Castiel had been so easy once again that he was simply happy.

Hearing a girl shout Castiel's name, he had a small smirk and almost did not turn around, ready to let them some room. But Castiel poked his back, signifying him to wait and turn.

And she was there. Once again. Sand on her legs and arms, in her hair even, on her neck and chest... He closed his eyes a short moment, embarrassed. Opened them, focused on her face. He found there a form of distress.

He whispered her name. Then he saw the same guy as in the cafe. Boyfriend? Asked the little voice on his mind. His focus shifted to the other man, older, who had stepped in front of Alie. Boyfriend? Said the voice, again, insisting.

He repeated her name, louder, as if to cover the voice. She opened her eyes, attempted a fake smile, failed and rolled her eyes. Enough was enough.

She stepped on the stairs and started to climb, fast. She reached where he was standing and continued straight, ignoring him.

His hand grabbed her wrist. His body had not moved on his own. He deeply wanted her to stay, to talk with her and clear up the situation, whatever was going wrong. She did not even look at him and tried to shook him away, but the difference of strength was too important. She turned to him, distress replaced by anger.

- Let go.

- Alie please, just tell me what is wrong. What did hap-

- You want me to tell you what happened ?

She had screamed. She made a sign to her friends, asking them to remain still.

- I will tell you.

Her voice became cold, venomous.

- You went to the farm. You stopped answering my messages, then you refused when I proposed to visit you. You did not tell me anything about what happened to you, and I had to wait that Rosalya explains me when coming back here. You refused me when I could have helped, and broke with me overnight, with a single message, and never answered anymore. I got sad, I got angry. Then I calmed down and spent days imagining what you were thinking about. If I had done anything wrong. If you had found someone better. If you were in any kind of danger.

Her voice broke and he saw tears coming to her eyes. He let her hand go, not being strong enough to hear anything more nor to see her crying because of him. But she kept going, drying her eyes with rage and frustration.

- I loved you so much but you just... I was just... You just... I thought you loved me too but... I was maybe not enough...

She was struggling to speak. Her whole body was shivering. She was crying out of distress, and out of anger against him and against herself for failing to remain composed, to expose so openly what had tortured her for years. She felt a tiny hand take hers, and a deep voice say "That's enough". Her friends all reached for her and helped her walk away.

Lysander remained there, still, and everything in him seemed broken.

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Day 5 - 19:37

Rayan spoke out first.

- So, this ex-boyfriend who broke with you almost four years ago, using distance as an excuse, is back. But now he dares to come back and pretends nothing happened ?

- Don't see him anymore, said Hyun, bluntly.

They all knew about the crush that Hyun had on Alie, that was supposed long gone, but his brusque tone raised a small doubt in Alie.

- Basically that's it Rayan.

She turned to Hyun, hiding a smile.

- I count on you to block him at the entry and explain Clemence why you refuse a client.

Chani soft voice raised ;

- Maybe you should let him a chance to explain, or at least talk a bit. I doubt he came at the cafe just to hurt your feelings.

Everyone paused, waiting for Alie to answer to the wisest of them all. But she shook her head.

- I don't want to see him. I spent four years without a single piece of news, it should just keep going.

They went silent. Eventually, Rayan cracked a joke that was so terrible that they all started laughing, thankful for his attempt. Chani continued, comparing a cloud to a mouse, then comparing Hyun to the same cloud. He acted offended, and they all laughed at his fake outraged look.

The music from the party was still playing, louder now. Chani stood up, took Alie by the hand, and started dancing. Hyun joined, and Rayan, who was trying to stay discreet, was finally forced by his juniors to stand up and join.

They moved this way for half an hour, before falling on the sand. They gathered their belongings and started to head back.

When they reached the stairs, Chani noticed the characteristic red hair and shouted :

- Castiel !

At the mention of his name, he stopped in the middle of the stairs and turned, as well as the other person next to him.

Hyun gasped, recognizing the guy. Chani understood her mistake seeing Alie closing her eyes and clenching her fist.

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Day 5 - 19:13

Alie arrived at the same time as Hyun. Chani and Rayan were already waiting there and waved to them. She looked at their strange group and smiled. She would never have guessed that she would genuinely enjoy to hang out with a teacher, nor that him and Hyun would have eventually got along. Chani wasn't a surprise of course, since she was lovely from the very beginning, and to everyone.

Together, they went down the stairs. Doing so, Alie caught a glimpse of Rosalya's new home and had a little sight. Chani ran her hand across her back.

- It's nobody's fault and it isn't either your responsibility. You did great already, don't feel guilty.

She raised her head to see Chani's honest expression and Hyun warm smile. Rayan had not seen anything, but seeing him so cheerful and excited to hang out was also genuinely comforting. He had changed a lot in few months.

They reached the beach and started to look for a nice, isolated place.

- There is something I would like to ask you about guys...

Hyun tensed a little and his face showed her he already knew what she wanted to talk about. But he was also truly relieved that she was ready to do so and share the weight.

Rayan raised an eyebrow. He sat suddenly, his long legs crossed and a serious look on his face.

- I feel some tension now. What is it all about ?

They all sat next to him and Allie started to talk about Lysander.

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Day 5 - 18:33

He let the music guide him to the beach, enjoying the walk and the wind which was growing colder on his face. Castiel was waiting for him, sat on the wooden stairs that lead to the sand. He did not hear his friend approaching till the last second, focused on his phone, browsing through messages that had the ambition of being a novel.

- Why are you waiting here ?

Castiel jumped, almost dropping his phone.

- I had forgotten how sneaky you are.

Rather than answering the question, he stood up and smiled, walking down the stairs. Lysander smiled too, growing strangely excited. He had never been fond of beaches, but getting an opportunity to see another landscape than the farm or his ceiling had something thrilling in itself.

They reached the beach and got swallowed by the atmosphere. Some music was playing further away, far enough to be mostly covered by the sound of waves crashing on the sand. They could also heard people scream, probably coming from where the core of the party was taking place. Overall, it was feeling calm. The sun was slowly going down, letting everything and everyone get bathed by a warm light. Lysander felt his muscles relax.

They went to order a drink and sat on the groud. There was no need for words.

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Masterlist

Day 1 - 11:24 // 22:27

Day 2 - 15:36

Day 3 - 00:23 // 10:46 // 11:48 // 11:52 // 11:54

Day 5 - 17:28 // 18:33 // 19:13 // 19:37 // 21:07 // 22:16 // 23:10 

[lysanderisbackbitches]

Day 5 - 17:28

It had been two days, and he was just replaying again and again the scene looking at the ceiling. The way she kept her fake smile, how she stayed so polite and cold, asking news without prying. How little she said about herself. "Last year of studies". At least she knew what she was doing.

His hand reached for his phone, on his own, as if it has decided to help him. It pressed on Castiel name, and put on the high speaker.

- Lys ? How are you ?

Bad. Stupidly, uselessly bad. He probably had no right to feel bad because of Alie's behavior.

- What about going out tonight ? There will be music on the beach.

Lysander mumbled a "why not", far from convinced.

- You know, if you never go out, you won't have any chance to see her again. It's not like you to give up easily.

Lysander had a sigh and a smile. Castiel probably knew that provocations weren't his weakness. Yet, this day, it worked.

- 7pm ?

- Yes! That's better! Don't lose yourself, I don't want to wait the whole night for you.

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Day 3 : 11:54

She is so beautiful, more than in any of his idealized memories. He can see all of her surprise, her shock even. Her questions and quick train of thoughts. But he just feels at ease. Happy, finally at home, finally back to what's normal. Her.

With this contentment also appear the truth; he wants her back. He wants to seduce her again, take her hand, become closer step by step. Or maybe, just kiss her already, tell her that he missed her, and hug her tight.

Then he notices her shivers. Her questions that turn into doubts. The silence around them. He also notices her colleague, approaching the door. Castiel's smile which starts to fade, and hers, fake, coming to her lips.

With a sweet smile, he greets her first.

- How are you? It's been a while.

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Day 3 - 11:52

Alie tied up her hair. The coming storm was making everything heavy and dry, as if the clouds were restraining all of the water. Even her throat was dry.

She made a sign to Hyun, and enjoying Clemence's absence as well as the lack of clients, went to the kitchen to get herself some tap water.

Coming back to the shop, she heard Castiel's voice. "Where is she?", was he saying. She didn't hear Hyun's answer, but decided to step out with a sight, making herself visible from the outside. She had to face him, a day or another. He was probably a bit drunk, that night, probably just following the flow, as always. "Just one night, you and me". She remembered his kissed on her neck and quickly closed her eyes, trying to empty her mind.

They were friends, always had been. They would never been more, and they both knew it. She opened her eyes, to see that he was already inside, almost running towards her.

But her eyes locked with someone else's. Someone slightly taller, with two different, familiar eyes, slightly covered by white hair. Her greetings died in her throat, dry again. She felt herself slightly shaking.

She wanted to yell at herself, for staying here, as useful and talkative as a fish. In the corner of her eye, she saw Hyun with a worried look on his face, ready to enter the shop. She made him understand to stay were he was, and summoned back her smile and her voice.

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Day 3 - 11:48

-We're almost there.

Castiel's voice was almost singing. He hoped for Alie and Lys to reunite since a long time. Since he saw how affected Lysander was by it, by his sudden loneliness. He doubted they would get a happy ending right away, fall in each other arms whispering love words. But it had worked once. It could work again. He would write poetry, and she would patiently wait for him to choose his words, looking at him with twinkling stars in the eyes...

A little voice in his head came to break his story. It could also not work. It could be worse. Lysander could get hurt again, maybe even because of what his supposed best friend did.

Fuck

He had been so stupid. He was never interested in Alie. Not like that. What was this offer he made ? He couldn't imagine what would have happened if she had accepted. Only to learn the next day that Lys was coming back. It was also why he hadn't told her. Well. He had not talked to her since then.

But... it would be ok, right? She would only see Lys, forget about the bad stuff, and...be happy.

Right?

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Day 3 - 10:46

He woke up on the couch and jolted when he realized he was almost falling. He sat, trying to emerge. The first thing he heard was Castiel's voice, fast and frustrated.

- We'll talk about that later...No...It's his problem...

Lysander stood up, rearranged his loose shirt and tied his hair back. Castiel came back in the room like a tempest, grumbling, but calmed down as soon as he saw his friend awake. He clearly did not want to talk about the call. Instead, he teased Lysander, saying that he went too fast from being a farm boy to being a sleeping princess. He offered him to take a shower and landed him some fresh clothes, taking a special care choosing them. Both of them ended up well dressed, clean, but with empty stomachs, which gave Castiel the perfect excuse.

- Let's go eat outside, half of my food is outdated.

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Day 3 - 00:23

He was talking with Castiel when he realized he was laughing. Not just smiling, because some animal was acting funny, but laughing, a hand half in front of his mouth, with a discreet laugh that meant a lot from him.

Castiel had not changed. The two of them had stayed in contact, even tho they could not meet often, but it was still reassuring to find his old friend unchanged. He wasn't talking about girls, fans nor fame. Instead he was explaining new guitar tips he discovered, accidents, or the time he had to get purple hair because of a bet. He was also genuinely curious and caring about Lysander, happy to see him back, making too many plans at once.

- You missed a 1920's themed party. I'm sure you would have loved it. I was forced to participate, but it ended up being not as cringe as I expected.

- I might have another chance. How did you end up forced to go?

- Well... Alie hasn't changed. She is still quite convincing.

He had said those words with an extra care, trying to gauge Lysander's reaction. But his face remained still. Not that he was insensitive to this name. But did he have the right to ask about her already? To admit out loud that he wanted to see her again? It seemed way too easy, too egoistic.

- She asked about you, you know. When she came back here. Constantly asking about your return, or if I was seeing you.

Castiel could see that his friend was feeling uneasy, rejoiced but conflicted. However, it was hard for him to let the subject go. He decided to mute the biggest news for now, the ones that could have provoked Lysander, or simply make him sad. He just added :

- I know a cafe that may interest you.

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Day 2 - 15:36

As expected, his brother welcomed him. Leigh was shining, and it didn't take long for him to confess that Rosalia was pregnant. Hearing that, Lysander got dizzy ; things really evolved a lot while he was away. However, seeing his brother happy, ready to have a family, he also felt energized. He could have felt left alone one more time. After all, Leigh had not been the best big brother at their parents' death, and now everything was smiling to him. But Lysander had made up excuses for his behavior, learning to forgive him in order to keep his only family. He did not want to resent him more than he already did.

He accepted Leigh's offer to work at his shop. That wouldn't last forever, but his savings weren't infinite either. When Leigh offered to join them for dinner, he made up an excuse to postpone it and went back to the streets. Now, it was time for the real trouble : find Castiel's apartment.

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Day 1 - 22:27

He had spent the day unpacking the only piece of luggage he brought, meticulously placing each item, taking breaks he didn't need just to enjoy the feeling of being back in town. Sure, it wasn't a big city, but it was his, and still better than the farm. He still preferred the park to the fields, the old streets to the absence of houses which was letting him alone.

He was sitting by the window, focused on some lights. His vision was getting blurry, but despite his tiredness he still wanted to stay up a bit more. He passed a hand through his hair, now completely white, longer than ever. The next day, he would go to see his brother. Maybe Castiel. He would start to make plans, focus on trivial matters. For now, he just needed to dream.

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