CJ!

he/they, trans ftm, bisexual<3

[m0nsterqzzz]

about me:

my name is CJ!!

I am a transgender man :)

pronouns: he/they

cabin 13 baby!!!

my favorite music artists are: Taylor Swift, Lana Del Rey, Olivia Rodrigo, Nirvana, Guns and Roses, TV Girl, Dolly Parton and more!!

current read: Five Survive

thank you for reading my stuff!!

my masterlist

requests are: open!!

(art by @thedelicatearcher)

[m0nsterqzzz]

ngl I'm tired of life 😜😜 gonna take a break yall peace out (this is not a suicide not if that was not clear I'm just gonna take a break from most socials for a bit)

[twiilys]

tagged by @themarydragon 🥰

9 people you want to know better tag

Three Ships: Zelink (Zelda/Link, Legend of Zelda), Shirbert (Anne/Gilbert from Anne of Green Gables or Anne With An E) and Locklyle (Lucy/Lockwood from Lockwood and Co)

First Ship: i joined tumblr in 2017 for BoTW Zelink and all of my fandom experience spiralled from here. i started playing LoZ games before that though, maybe 2008? and there was a fanfic tab (though it wasn't called like that) on the help website i used

Last Song: ......... "Last Night - Official Madison Song" by Chris Anderson and DJ Robbie (it's on my summer playlist bc of childhood nostalgia, i don't go out of my way to listen to it usually 😂)

Last Movie: Maze Runner: The Death Cure (justice for Newt)

Currently Reading: book wise, I just finished The Two Towers (and am not so patiently awaiting Return of the King to, well, return to the library so i can borrow it)

Currently Watching: Once Upon A Time (nearly done with S1)

Currently Eating: waiting for my dinner to cook (ratatouille and semolina and eggs)

Currently Craving: CHEESE. my kingdom riches gratitude for a scrap of french cheese!!!!

tagging: @js589 @ohmyoverland @hailqiqi @unnamednarrator @practicallyasleep @cateringfears @applesjuice @redplaidjacket @beckybubbles would love your thoughts on this if that's something you're up to :)

[unnamednarrator]

9 people you want to know better tag :)

three ships: everlark (breathe if ur not surprised), shirbert (anne with an e), olive & adam from the love hypothesis (my red flag is that i loved that book idc that it’s cringe, i loved how cringe it was! sue me!)

first ship: everlark (reading the hunger games aged 12 did irreparable damage to my neurons)

last song: tough love by gracie abrams (her whole new album is ON REPEAT in this house)

last movie: pride & prejudice (2005 ofc bc im not an animal, on the plane bc it’s my plane comfort movie)

currently reading: juno loves legs by karl geary (it’s like a mashup of the book thief and sing street, which are both some of my fav pieces of media so it’s safe to say i’m loving it)

currently watching: lauren louise/big book lady’s youtube videos! and taskmaster reruns all day everyday

currently eating: ive been travelling so my food situation has been very different than normal but i’ve been loving this vegan cream cheese from an irish brand called hungry soul

currently craving: the end of late stage capitalism!

tagging: @skylightangels @bbrooklynbabe @baby-girl-aaron-dessner @petruchio @purple-cube @katnissdoesnotfollowback @thedelicatearcher @thesweetnessofspring @thesunpersists

[thedelicatearcher]

9 people you want to know better tag :)

three ships: anthony and kate from bridgerton, katniss and peeta from thg, and quinn and rachel from glee. (i also want to say arthur and eames from inception)

first ship: my first ship (non-book) was kendall and joe from big time rush. i was INVESTED

last song: my kink is karma by chapell roan!! (going on a mini road trip tomorrow and the rise and fall of a midwest princess will be my personal soundtrack)

last movie: i'm currently watching theater camp, but the last one i finished was may december. honestly the whole movie felt so sinister, my skin crawled at every julianne moore's scene (and i had to google the meaning of some scenes lol)

currently reading: mockingjay (i'm only one page in), also where rainbows end (the love rosie book) but i stopped because i got soooo frustrated

currently watching: theater camp!!! it's my second watch, one of my new comfort movies :)

currently eating: a banana shake with oats. i should've let it mix longer...

currently craving: to feel less sad every day or to own a snoopy mug

no pressure tag!!

@sparklebear11 @ishouldbepushindaisies @m0nsterqzzz @pinkanon-com @loovely-lilly @finnickodairslut @millie-mei @imreading105 @urfavfairyluvr

[m0nsterqzzz]

thank you baby this made my day!!

three ships: JJ and Emily from Criminal Minds, Katniss and Peeta from thg, anddddd Celia and Evelyn from TSHOEH

first ship: my first ship was 100% clarisse and silena from pjo they were my EVERYTHING growing up

last song: I just finished a 8 hour car ride there and 8 hours back and my whole trip, I had The Tortured Poets Department on REPEATTTTT but my latest one was I Can Do It With A Broken Heart on repeat over and over 😂

last movie: the last one I finished was inside out 2 and it was AMAZING LORD I'LL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT IT AHHH

currently reading: catching fire (only 15 chapters in 😣) but for books outside of a fandom I've been in my whole life, my current book is The Book Thief

currently watching: criminal minds!! (a rewatch because I feel uncomfortable watching new shows for some reason can someone please tell me why because my family is SICK of it)

currently eating: a grape. one single grape. can someone also please tell me why I always grab one grape from the fridge even if I KNOW I'm gonna go back for more???

currently craving: a STRONG drink

this was so fun thank you sweetie!!

tags don't feel any pressure!!

@inconspicuouslesbian @carols-photonblast @cosmopretty @thewidowsledger @l0nelyish

[m0nsterqzzz]

hiii, i really like reading ur pics. ik this is kind of random but, how do you like plot them or in other words actually finish them? (can't finish any wip to save my life)

omg hiiii

i didnt know people still read me I've been so inactive for months T-T

but you're so sweet!!! let me start by saying, finishing a wip is actually the hardest thing ever, so dont ever feel like it's just you, alright? lots of writers out there simply sit and stare at their screens, fingers ready to type but having no clue what buttons to press. it happens to everyone, i promise!!

now, finishing them. god it's so hard. for tips, i feel like im gonna let you down/not help at all, but I'll try!!

music!! music is like ALL of my inspiration. whether it's a song i like, or one that fits the vibe of it, listen to the lyrics and plot ideas will JUMP at you i swear it

if you have a scene in your head your excited to get to writing, dont force yourself to not write it. it'll only make writing it become boring. if you have an idea in your head, write it out, even if it doesn't currently fit in the plot.

reading fics!! i will always preach that reading stuff like you're trying to write is so good to help with the inspo to actually do it. it makes you more confident in your own writing, and more eager to actually write your own

if you're staring at a plot hole you dont know how to fix, one of my favorite things to do is simply open a new doc, and write something else. anything. hell, write paragraphs about what you did that day- in detail. it's so calming to not force a deadline on yourself, but also enjoy your hobby.

pintrest!! pintrest my love. what should i say? you are my sunshineeeee my only sunshine. lol. nevermind. whether you make a board of the fic you're trying to write, or simply scroll through the character you're writing/ things that remind you of your oc, sometimes plot ideas with simply jump out at you when you're not looking

organization. i will admit, my docs are not pretty, but when they are, it is so much easier to separate what i want to write, what i NEED to write, other writing ideas, random phrases I want to use. take the time to organize your thoughts- i promise it will help

lastly, and this is something im struggling with and its why i havent been back in months, is just take your time. even if you promised your readers "oh i'll update tonight", it's all on your schedule. you're the writer. it's your brain. YOU choose when you use it. dont force yourself to stare at a blank screen. write when you feel like it. if you force yourself to write, you'll no longer like doing it, and it'll feel more like a chore.

i REALLY hope this helped, im a little bit worried i didnt answer your question but if i didnt, feel free to simply ask again (im quite slow sometimes i dont process things the way they're meant). im always free to talk, and thank you for reading my stuff lovely!!

i love you so much, take care of yourself <3

[catchymemes]

[raqualswonderfunblog]

[loveridden1999]

[m0nsterqzzz]

I really wanna know if anyone can give me a good answer to this question:

if the events were closer together, and Lucy Gray was still alive during the 75th games, would she have volunteered for Katniss the way Mags did for Annie? Real question yall.

I know its kinda stupid, cuz like that whole point is that Snow wants Katniss dead in the games and thats why she was back in there for the 75th, but like, i just really wanna know anyones thoughts on this PLZZZZZZZZ

[mistynatsfavourite]

Absolutely

[m0nsterqzzz]

thank you i trust your judgement

[m0nsterqzzz]

yall my biggest opp is @inconspicuouslesbian

[m0nsterqzzz]

still my opp. and she's asleep. how does she do it?

[catarsis75]

hhmm fr

[arizonatea-and-nikolatesla]

Worst part is the new story is never fleshed out in the slightest.

[m0nsterqzzz]

yall my biggest opp is @inconspicuouslesbian

[m0nsterqzzz]

i just got called a himbo and i giggled and blushed before five minutes later realizing she was in fact not paying me a compliment.

[thedelicatearcher]

finnick survives the mutt attack and decides to move to district 12

after the rebellion ended, every victor had the opportunity to return to their district, giving them the chance to help rebuild it. but finnick odair decided against it. after many years of suffering from the malicious claws of the capitol, he decided to be selfish. with deep, permanent scars spread all over his body and his mind equally scarred, he chose to take his little family to district 12 and settle down around familiar faces.

they moved right next to katniss and peeta's home, craving the closeness of a family in these confusing times. his initial idea was to build his own home, but with pregnant annie by his side, he chose to postpone it and occupy one of the never-lived-in victor houses.

he wanted to build a house from the ground up right away, putting up every wall, painting every room, and even designing some of the furniture. however, the mental image of him, annie, and their little one doing it all together, replacing the horrifying memories from his past with comforting ones of new beginnings, made his heart flutter and postpone his plans.

months after settling in, the couple had already established a routine. finnick liked to visit the hidden lake very early in the morning, unaware of the stories it held. annie sometimes came with him, though not as often as he would like. she preferred to join him later, enjoying sleeping in and savoring the quiet morning.

one morning, like many others, finnick went to the lake by himself, not before planting a soft kiss on his sleeping wife's temple. lost in his thoughts, he was caught off guard by encountering his neighbors already swimming in the lake. it wasn’t unusual to find them there; he knew perfectly well that the meadow was one of the couple’s favorite places. he always hears stories from them about how they often get startled by squirrels in the little cabin, and he definitely remembers being invited by katniss to several fishing afternoons. 

‘hey,’ he waved back at katniss and peeta after they waved eagerly. reading their body language, finnick noticed the nervous look on peeta's face and the teasing smile from katniss. she was teaching him how to swim, and it seemed it wasn't going great. enthusiastic to join the swimming class, finnick submerged in the water and started to swim towards them.

finnick always felt a sense of liberation in the water. moving with such grace, anyone could guess he had spent his entire life swimming. bodies of water had always been his greatest companion, his greatest comfort. the deep, now maroon-colored scratches on his body stung the first time he got into the water again. however, he fought through it, and eventually, the pain subsided. today, the cool weather lowered the temperature of the water, but finnick couldn’t care less. the cold water woke up his senses and prepared him for the day. 

when he arrived next to his district 12 friends, he couldn’t help but chuckle at the situation. never in his wildest dreams could he imagine this. being away from the cruelty and abuse of the now deceased president, living in one of the previously poorer districts, in a mundane scenario with two very traumatized fellow victors. 

‘are you really forcing poor peeta to wake up early in the morning and have him swim in a block of ice?’ he asked katniss, suppressing another chuckle after closely watching peeta’s shivering body and chattering teeth. katniss couldn’t help but playfully shrug, not before defending herself ‘peeta begged me for days to give him swimming lessons. i’m not to blame for the weather.’ 

finnick turned to peeta, grabbed him by the shoulders, and asked him, ‘is she even a  good teacher?’ totally ignoring the offended gasp from the brunette and her faint push, finnick volunteered himself as his personal teacher when peeta admitted between laughs and shivers that swimming lessons with katniss weren’t the best idea.

that is how they spent many autumn mornings together. at 6 am sharp, finnick was already waiting for peeta in the meadow, towels in hand and a floating belt similar to the one used in the third quarter quell in case of an emergency. the lessons started with the basics, teaching him how to relax and let his body float, giving him many tips for breathing control, recalling what had been taught to him when he was a little kid learning how to swim. 

every mid-morning, in the distance, they could observe a figure in the meadow, placing a chair close enough to the water to submerge her feet. ‘annie!,’ finnick yelled excitedly, feeling a warm sensation in his chest just at her presence. whenever he swam close to her, he couldn’t help but splash water in her direction, gasping when she returned the splash and accidentally splashed water into the baker’s eyes. 

bulding peeta’s confidence was finnick’s main goal in these lessons. some days, they would spend entire lessons floating around or swimming short distances to help peeta feel comfortable in the water. though it took months, peeta eventually grew confident in his newfound skill. feeling grateful, the baker hugged the other blond tightly, appreciating the kind nature of finnick. as peeta rambled about how he couldn’t wait to show off in front of katniss, finnick felt a glimmer of sincere happiness. he had found his family and was willing to selflessly do everything for their well-being.

[m0nsterqzzz]

this is canon because he's alive! <3 hope that helps bestie

(im harshly sobbing)

[m0nsterqzzz]

can someone please explain the science behind why fist bumps from older men make my dysphoria disappear

[m0nsterqzzz]

I really wanna know if anyone can give me a good answer to this question:

if the events were closer together, and Lucy Gray was still alive during the 75th games, would she have volunteered for Katniss the way Mags did for Annie? Real question yall.

I know its kinda stupid, cuz like that whole point is that Snow wants Katniss dead in the games and thats why she was back in there for the 75th, but like, i just really wanna know anyones thoughts on this PLZZZZZZZZ

[strawberrymelllark-deactivated2]

HUNGER GAMES OBSESSED FANS PLEASE BECOME MY FRIENDS!! I HAVE NO ONE TO SEND JAW DROPPING HUNGER GAMES POSTS TO OR EARTH SHATTERING EVERLARK FAN FICS!! PLEASE. (heavy on the obsessed part)

[m0nsterqzzz]

this is my awkward attempt to ask if we can be friends :)