——————◦°•✩•°◦ ——————⋆ ☆General☆ Name (Rëdãçtêd) Sexuality ✦omnisexual and whatever the fuck else because there’s a whole lot more in the closet. Birthday ✦ October 30 Gender Who cares? My gender is nonexistent. My gender is the vøîd. (Please kindly use he/him or they/them.) I can literally hear a cricket now and I’m not sure where the hell it’s coming from. So I look around and wonder if I’m playing an ambient soundscape but no, deadass there’s a fucking cricket next to my ear inside the mouth of the headphones like wtf ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ Dead ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ☆Likes ♡ Photography ♡Music freaks, feel free to share your music tastes. ♡my friends ♡ Cuddles.. am lonely man. ✦ Dislikes Myself And other shit. ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ You matter. ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ☆recent favourite songs☆ (Outdated but just to give you the basics) Level of concern- Twenty one pilots Space land- Chloe moriondo Ghost choir- Louie Zong Something easy- in love with a ghost Creve Coeur 1 - Hobo Johnson Stay - lamjakehill If I were you - Claud Gomi- uutubo Aoitoge- Yoh Kamiyama Quiet room, self cover- ewe For the temporary and forgotten - GOBSMACKED. ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ Fuck ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ☆Ways to my heart☆ Being kind Listen to me because I will listen to you Accept me for who I am Just be yourself no matter what Not being afraid to be honest with me Not minding I can be childish sometimes and over affectionate ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ He/Him ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ☆Fears☆ Losing the people I care about ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ Please stay alive ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ☆Hobbies☆ Reading Listening to music Ehhhh that’s it I have more but you probably don’t want to be reading for ages. Oh yeah being a liquidy alphabet soup mess That was spilt earlier on the floor. hehe. Goodbye message: Twas nice meeting you, I haven’t a clue why I’m here on earth or existing in this app but feel free to stop by and say hi, leave a meme or we can chat and be friends? anyway, have a good day. -from a random chill trans boiyo Bai ~ ଘ(੭ ˘ ᵕ˘)━☆゚.*・。゚ᵕ꒳ᵕ~
Dude.. it’s 2024 and I’m still here.. running away from responsibilities but they keep catching up. I hate this repetitive cycle of doing great, but then an unexpected inconvenience pops up, and BOOM all my progress goes out the window and I just can’t cope.
I hate this.
I’m stupid.
WELL, YES, HELLLLL -OOOO HUMANS AND NON-HUMANS ON THIS APP TALK TO ME, I’m SO FUCKING LONELY FUCK
Wow, I know it’s been a while but a year? My sweet gremlin followers, why has this not been addressed ? You should pester me more often to give you random content and updates about my little hobbit-like behaviour and antics. Whatever did you do without me.~ <3
so much is going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s too much!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to sleep in the forest for 190 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m tired leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please let me go on as a sacred sturdy old tree infused with happy memories of kids growing together, learnin new skills, maybe make a tire swing and make it a safe place for them and newer generations who need time to sit back and watch it go by..
...in the middle of a nice little grove for picnics in my lovely concealed tree top. For first kisses, seein a squirrel, hidin from your mean olded bro and pretending nothing else really holds anythin
Did I wait til 12:17 am to be early to say HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERY FUCKIN ONE WOOOOOOOOO *vibing that it’s finally June 1st* *jazz music stops when corporations are going to give you loads of adverts* https://www.instagram.com/p/CPim4dpLiswe1VRtyyV4ynDjiPjXuMxfFAX4TM0/?utm_medium=tumblr
Trigger warning: crisis implied and unaliving mentioned!!!!!!!!
How do humans of modern times say “No doy “
Meaning “no duh” or some sort of lame phrase? Even the term lame is lame so what am I saying I love all transgender and nonbinary and beyond any sort of societal binary genderqueer gender flux whatever ! You do you and don’t you forget you’re you. No matter how much you wish you weren’t you. Is that just me personally? I’m sorry I’m a highly caffeinated tranny at 4:40 in the morning who hasn’t slept for days on end because I can’t turn my brain off without um.. let’s just put this in dark humour terms.
If I could shut off my brain my last meal, my very last choice..
Would be to eat a gun. simple. Just me? Of course not. Stay safe I’m sorry- fjekdjdjjd
This is a scheduled post. It is 6:00 as I write this in a metaphorical and physical dark room.
Hey. So you’re seeing this. Dont waste your time if you’re triggered easily. This post consists of real shit and genuine feelings. Not appropriate content for people who enjoy turning blind eyes and wishing they didn’t see this so i give you a fair warning. Please note a couple of things: I’m not responsible for peoples reactions. I’m not responsible for your triggers. Whereas I’m responsible for the things I’ve done. I may regret them but I don’t care anymore. I’ve cared to much.
I’ve already done enough damage, what’s one more thing? At least the hurt, lies, deceit that I’ve committed against loved ones will be ended. So have fun! 😌✨
Something is falling outside and smashing onto the deck. Sounds like rocks. The room is dark and feels cramped and tight, my lungs are constricting and my anxiety is rising and the mood dropping as I spiral into a pit of depression. I’m going to relapse. I’m going to do shit I’ve done before and have the same outcome, or hopefully different so I can finally be free from the boundaries of mortality. I don’t care if this gets taken down. I honestly couldn’t care less. I don’t care if none of the people I care about do not see this. Random strangers can see this for all I care.
What would it matter to a dead teenager? However I am not dead as of now. But i may be whenever this gets posted. If not I’ll just be severely injured or put away in a psychiatric ward, making it three times. I’m ready for it. I don’t care . I want to binge and purge , I want to flush my pills, I want to run away, I want to burn something, I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to throw things. I want to do things I haven’t done or have done but haven’t done it for a while. I’m relapsing. I don’t care. I don’t. Or maybe I do care and I’m just trying to convince myself otherwise. But whatever. I want to cause trouble, whether that be with parental figures or authority figures such as the law. I dont care anymore, I want alcohol again, I want to purge and throw up every meal I want to exercise constantly so I wither away into a skeletal form. I want my heart and my lungs to fail, I want my liver to fail, I want every single organ, bone, muscle, cartilage, tendon, nerve, and cell to fail me. I want to go and die. I want to drown in the neighbours pool. I want to cease to exist. I tried to express my feelings to one of my friends, and they said to talk to professionals. Like they’ve done anything but waste mine and their own time. Never asked for help. Never asked to be “lucky” to have so many resources and opportunities yes I know I’m lucky but doesn’t mean that my life doesn’t suck because of those lucky things. I never asked for any of it. If someone creates technology to transfer a life to another, then I’ll happily give them mine. They’d live it much better than me. I’m not worth anything to myself. People think they’re doing me favours but all it is is inconvenience. I never asked to be found in that state, I never asked to be hospitalised, put on drugs, put in the medical ward then the psychiatric ward where they monitored me day and night? No. I never wanted any of that. I never wanted to cause pain for people I love but now I do. Because all I care about is leaving me behind. Becoming a different version of myself by erasing the me from his own existence.
Below is some of my all time favourite novels explaining some of the pain I feel.