Enemies will say they're enemies and then proceed to add: "You're the reason I get up every morning just out of pure spite toward you. I hate you so much it consumes me and gives me joy at the same time. You gave a purpose to my life. I live by the sole thought of fighting against you and killing you one day. If someone kills you before me, I'm gonna kill them and then probably myself. My biggest wish apart from killing you is dying by your hands. It'd be the greatest honor and the only death that would make my life worthy. If you don't kill me, I refuse to die. You are perfect. You are stunning. Omg. I can't stand you. I loathe you. Fuck off."
the same eyes that held so much love for you, always looked like you were a star in the sky, like a goddess, like his saving grace.
the same pair of eyes you were trying to avoid now.
but he you knew he would see through your lie if you didn't meet his eyes so swallowing thickly, you forced yourself to meet his.
shit.
as soon as your eyes flicked up to his, you felt the air get knocked out of your lungs. his usually eyes, that held all the sparkles in the world were now just glassy and desperate, begging you for an explanation.
screwing your eyes shut, you shook your head. i have to end this for your sake.
"it's not you." you lied, forcing the corner of your lips up to smile at him. "it's a me problem. i just think i should work on myself because you deserve much better."
"no no no no." he begged, reaching out to hold your hands in his. please don't make this harder. "there's nothing wrong with you. you're perfect the way you are. so damn perfect. i would never change anything about you."
you wouldn't, but you are fated to die if you stay with me so i have to be the one to break your heart.
you removed your hands from his. "but i'm holding you back. i want you to be free."
"y/n." he choked, falling to his knees as more tears flowed. "you're the only one i have. the only one who truly loves me for me. please don't leave me. i love you so much."
your smile softened as tears pricked your eyes now too. "i- i love you too. loving you was like being near a star. but i guess... we were too close to the stars."
leaning down, you slowly brushed your lips against his forehead, and then stood up straight before he could pull you into a hug. he just stared at you, his expression like he his heart had been plucked out of his chest.
you quickly turned back and walked away, desperately trying ignore his choked sobs as he kept calling out your name over and over again. finally, unable to control yourself anymore, you turned back one last time.
"i would gladly burn but i can't let you burn yourself up for me."
aki hayakawa, childe, gojo saturo, sunday, jean kirstein, alhaitham, shinya hiragi, doppo kunikida, chuuya nakahara, obanai iguro, yuta okkotsu, rafayel
chuuya who has a crush on you will def use his ability to make you trip on air whenever he's near so that when you fall, he can catch you and js have an excuse to wrap his arms around your waist or hips. it's not like you will ever know he does it on purpose. it's js gravity malfunctioning anyway.
Hey! so like can you do a dazai Chuuya ranpo Akutagawa with a reader who canât stop talking but they randomly apologize because they think theyâre annoying I sadly donât know when to stop talking;/
TALK SWEET TO ME â DAZAI , CHUUYA , RANPO , & AKUTAGAWA
cw đà§. sfw / not really any warnings actually / gender neutral reader / no use of y/n / reader feels self conscious / can be seen as established relationship or pre relationship, however you'd like / cute nicknames / reassurance / not rly comfort but you can see it as a comfort fic / 800ish words
lylas notes đà§. your girl didn't get any sleep last night :/ me no sleep but me do write <3
DAZAI loves it when you ramble to him. he listens with a lazy grin, chin resting on the palm of his hand whilst he stares at you lovingly, usually responding with soft "uh huh's" and "mhm's" just to get you to keep talking.
he closes his eyes sometimes, not because he's growing bored but he finds your voice calming â you sound like a melody, sung just for him.
when you realize just how much you've been talking you start to go quiet, and dazai notices quickly â "what's wrong bella~ what's with the pouty face, hm?" he pouts himself, playfully mocking you, leaning close across the desk to get a look at you.
this is when you start apologizing for talking too much, and that you're probably annoying him. when i tell you he gasps dramatically, i mean it. hand on chest, a sharp gasp rips through his throat and his eyes widen.
"nonono, bella~ if i was truly annoyed i would have chucked myself out this window long ago! maybe possibly stabbed this very pencil into my ear, you annoyed me so much!" he cups your hands with his and locks eyes with you, all theatrics and teasy pausing for a moment as he spoke, "keep talking, you were just getting to the juicy part~" he winks, leaning back when you smile happily, going back to your rambles.
no matter how much you deny it, your voice comforts him because it fights out all the negative voices and thoughts in his head. you're like his angel, whispering softly into his ear over his shoulder.
CHUUYA doesn't stop you when you start to talk, honestly enjoying your company whenever you and him interact. he thinks it's cute how you always have something to talk about, and that you want to talk to him out of all people.
your voice is usually always quiet and soft, you're never loud or repeatedly saying the same thing over n over, you actually have interesting things to talk about.
even if you think he's not listening, chuuya will always gesture to you to continue as a way to reassure you he's not ignoring you.
however,
throughout the week he's noticed you become more quiet and drained, like you've run out of things to talk about â which surprisingly or not, baffled him. when you were mid ramble you stopped yourself, muttering a soft, "sorry i'll shut up now, im not even making any sense." or "im being annoying, i'll just shut up." with a awkward chuckle.
he softens, glancing at you with a gentle look â "hey, sense or not, i get what you mean. i wouldn't be here if i didn't want to listen to you, keep talking your story was actually getting interesting."
if you actually seem upset, he'll sigh and ruffle your hair or rest an arm on your shoulder â "you don't gotta worry about me, [name]. talk for as long as you not, i'm here to listen."
even if its you ranting or talking about random stuff, chuuya listens with a soft smile â staying quiet and not interrupting you unless you've stopped talking to give you his input.
chuuya won't put you down if you ever think you're being annoying, he's here with a steady hand to your shoulder and reminds you you're not annoying him at all.
RANPO always perks up when you have something to talk about, whether it be something that happened on your way to work, when out on a case and you and him have partnered up for, some new gossip buzzing around the office â or even when you just need to rant to vent about something. he's always here to listen because what else is he supposed to do here? work?
your funny.
he leans back on his chair, munching on small candies he would toss into his mouth every now and then whilst your sitting on his desk, crossed legged with a beaming smile on your face you talked. he would always nod or respond in single words, not wanting to intrude on your ranting â that is ... until you suddenly went quiet.
"what? what happened next, come one don't leave me on a cliffhanger sugar!!" he whined, tugging on your sleeve like a child begging for more sweets before dinner, however you guys lowered your head and softly spoke, "i feel like i'm talking too much and annoying you, i have to get back to work anywayâ"
ranpo pouts, pulling you back to his desk as you attempted to leave, sitting back on the wood and spun around to face him, "annoy me? are you seriously that dumb to not realize i love it when you talk! ive never been more quiet, listening to you talk is the best part of my day! don't worry about work, atsushi will probably cover for you. now get back to your story, pretty please?!"
he would reassure you that you're not annoying him and he loves it when you have something to say, even if it doesn't make sense, he'll correct you if anything! but never will he tell you to shut up, you're not like anyone else at the agency your ... you! and that's all he ever needs in order to function in this workplace.
as for atsushi? he ended up doing all of your remaining paperwork for the day â saying you owe him a crepe the next day for not just letting it all pile up.
AKUTAGAWA would find you irritating in the beginning â let's be honest, he's not the most talkative guy in the mafia, so when you and him are partnered up by mori for a mission, he can't help but twitch a brow (girl what brow?) when you suddenly get off topic for multiple different things.
of course, because he's akutagawa and you've known him for so long, you never took his rudeness seriously, that is until he suddenly stopped.
there was a time period where he wouldn't shut you up or bark out an irritating groan when you were ranting about something that happened last mission â which of course led you to suspicion. has he got used to it? and how so quickly?
he's so stubborn, you've had no idea what was going on with him. has he finally just figured to ignore you? your mind raced with unanswered questions â so you decided to put it to the test.
one evening your talking to him and he's just sitting on the couch in silences eyes locked on the words in his reading book and occasionally sipping on his warm tea while you're on your floor by his legs and leaning back to the cushions.
you've been rambling for about ten minutes now more then akutagawa would usually tolerate for â and that's when you suddenly rise from the cushions and stare at him.
he realizes you've stopped talking and curiously glances at you, "why did you stop talking?" he asked, voice low as if he didn't want anyone hearing him as such a question.
"sorry, i â i've been rambling for a bit, i figured you'd tell me to shut up sooner or later so i justâ" he interrupted you with a sharp, yet quiet tone. "please, if i was annoyed at your constant rambling i'd simply walk out of this room and leave you be, yet, here i am, am i not? keep talking, i never told you to stop yet."
you blinked. honestly quite surprised how quickly akutagawa changed from barking at you to shut up to suddenly enjoy your rambling. you exhaled, a soft smile on your lips as you got comfortable once again and this time played with the rim of his coat that fell down his leg beside you as you continued your story.
and akutagawa?
well, let's say he wasn't paying much attention to his book, but more on your voice.
end notes. i fear reader is me once i get too comfortable with somebody ehehe đ§đ»ââïž
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