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is my (15m) best friend (15m) gay and in love with me too??
so basically my best friend and i have been friends since kindergarten. He walked up to ME and asked ME to be his friend. We made two other friends over the years but he always seemed to be closer to me, i thought it was just because we’ve been friends longer. A few years ago when we were 12 some scary shit happened and i was missing for a week, and apparently in that time he looked for me but he also met this girl that he seemed to have a crush on but she seemed to have disappeared? After i was found everything went back to mostly normal for almost a year until halloween, when i had a ptsd attack (cuz he can’t talk ab the upside down obviously). He immediately wrapped his arms around me and didn’t let our other friends touch me. He said he would take me home then took me to his basement. We had sort of a heart to heart and i said i feel like im going crazy, and he looked at me and said “if we’re going crazy, we’ll go crazy together right?” and OF COURSE MY BABY GAY ASS AGREED?! Anyways after that i have a really bad time with my ptsd and he stays by my side, even telling me about how asking me to be his friend was the best thing he’s ever done.
Then the girl he liked came back. Some more stuff happened but we all went to the snowball dance and that’s where him and her started dating. Ever since then he was acting completely different, he was hiding away with his girlfriend, ignoring our friends, but mainly he was ignoring ME. His gf dumped him and I thought we could all play dnd to cheer him up, but he just mocked and made fun of me the whole time. When i finally stormed out of his place we got in an argument, i called his ex stupid and he shot back “It’s not my fault you don’t like girls” which is like, woah man. he knows i’ve been called slurs before, he doesn’t know i’m gay for sure but he should have an inkling on it. So i ran away, but he ran after me. We didn’t actually get to reconcile correctly because something came up again, and by the end of everything i was moving away. oh and he got back with his girlfriend who now became my adopted sister and had to move with me.
Now this is where it gets super interesting. He didn’t write me ONE letter. He called a couple of times. He sent multiple letters to my sister, though. So i was very much upset. He came to visit during spring break and at first it looked like they were a perfect happy couple, until i realized my sister was lying to him. why was she lying? anyways we all went skating and my sister got thoroughly humiliated in front of everyone, and my best friend was arguing with ME? He was yelling at ME for not telling him she was lying? He was pointing out how I sabotaged the day?? As if his GIRLFRIEND didn’t get humiliated? Then we found my sister and she had hit the bitch in the face with a roller skate, which was such a serve. girlboss. but Mike acted like a DICK. Ever since there relationship was hella off? they got in a big fight and then she ran off. After she was gone he turned into the person he was before?? Like during the ptsd attacks and everything. He apologized to me, told me that home isn’t the same without me, even with our other friends still there. He also told me that my sister was mad at him because he couldn’t tell her something?? We had to go look for my sister, and He was awfully close to me again. He was staring a lot. He seemed worried about his girlfriend so i tried to reassure him but he went on a weird rant?? Like he kinda compared her to superman and him to lois lane. And said meeting her was dumb luck. So i chucked it up to him being afraid of losing her, and i decided to give him this painting i made him but tell him it was from her. He looked super happy when he saw the painting but his smile faltered when i said it was commissioned by my sister. I kinda confessed my feelings for him under her name, and he looked absolutely mesmerized by me?? but we didn’t talk much after that.
Anyways after we found her another big thing happened and she was in danger, and my best friend was freaking out. I told him he had to be the heart, so he goes to confess his love to her. apparently he’s never told her he loves her?!? anyways he says all this bullshit that contradicts what he said to me about how asking me to be his friend was the best thing he’s done. He also says a lot of shit that doesn’t make sense to me because he literally said meeting her was dumb luck but told her he knew he loved her the moment he saw her?? that’s when i got kinda suspicious. Now we’re back in our hometown because the big deal that had my sister in danger originated in our home town. My sister broke up with my best friend and she won’t tell me why, only that she’s perfectly okay and so is he but he might need comfort on something else. So i hung out with him and he was really touchy and clingy and now i’m super fucking confused help me??

















