ok here's the lore in one post bc apparently im an "attention seeking bitch" - moms words not mine/🤣🤣✌️✌️🤞🤧
Uh uh uh honestly tw for everything tbh uh uh cutting, being groomed ig idk if it counts?? Uh ih marital sexual harassment uhm uh bullying i think thats all.
RELIGOUS TRAUMAAAAAA: at the time I was around 7 my dad would personally try and teach me how to read the quran and arabic but whenever I made a mistake he would yell and slam his hands on the table js bc he was mad which would make me cry and be one of the reasons why I absolutely hate islam 2day😘😘
In elementary school, I was one of the only muslim and black kids there so whenever I entered the bathroom someone would yell "oh no its a boy in the girls bathroom!" Also, these particular group of pretty white blonde girls would ALWAYS follow me in the bathroom and pull off my hijab and pull my hair when I was alone in there so thats cool!! 😝😝
Second grade of summer break, my d*d sent me to africa to go to religous all girls boarding school while the principal was a man😁😁 and basically while we were all asleep he would come into our rooms and touch up on us to see if our bodies were doing ok after a long day if reading and nobody questioned him, because we were 7 and brainwashed 🤣🤣
After boarding school, whenever my parents asked me to read in arabic or read the quran if I forgot or sm shi like that, my mom would bruise my body using a those thick ass charging cords and would lock me in my room for hours and if I wanted to get out, I couldn't until i actually got my shi correct😋😋
A little thing to add, if I ever forgot to pray or didn't on time they'd beat my ahh for that too 😉
ACADEMIC TRAUMA WAHHHH: let's get this shit straight, I was the stupidest kid ever. I constantly got zeros and fifties bc i was never focused either me and my undiagnosed ahh 😍😍 but I miraculously got a 100 once on a stupid assessment and my parents started to hold the bar so high, I consider killing my self if I fail a test🤣🤣
The bar was so godamn high that I got a 99 on science test and she (my mom) fricking asked me if I was stupid and took all my devices from and locked me up, AGAIN🤤🤤
Nvm that the high standards also affect my wants and needs for attention and praise sm1 call me a good girl 👀👀🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤pls.
NOW, I feel fucking useless when I can't get shit right and I believe that I always need to bring smth to any type of relationship or else the person won't need me anymore😉😉
FAMILIAL TRAUMAAA YIPPEEE: so basically in islam, a man is allowed to have more than 1 wife if he can take care if them which which my d*d has shown interest in from the very beginning of their pathetic arranged marriage but my mom absolutely would not allow it. so time skip 2013 all the way to 2022
In 2022, my mom, instead of living her life as a bummy tradwife, decided to start going to school to become an registered nurse.
Naturally, if you leave the home to pursue a career, your partner won't start getting stuff such as his designated breakfast and dinner and all his king complex wants.
Anywho, i basically start raising my 2 other siblings bc no one else is at home to take care of us but we survivedd🤧🤧
Now its 2024, my mother starts suspecting my d*d is talking to another lady. And guess what, she's right!! And she put me into the problem asking me to pirate their voicemails which I did, bc i wanted the praise 😋😋
By this time, there arguments start to get more aggressive as my dad buys a flight to go meet up with that woman and my mom hides his passport
On the night of May 23rd, 2025 I go to the bathroom during one of their arguments and hear a slap coming from the bathroom
Srsly I did not know what to to do as my d*d started attacking and beating up my mother as he yells out i dont even want these kids, they're all yours. So there goes my self esteem 🤣🤣🤣
Next thing yknow my mom is using us as a sheild from our dad and we have to face the beatings so fun am I right🤩🤩
I honestly forgot the rest of the details if that night just now he got his passport back and yada yada.
Uhh seemingly 2 months later they make the fuck up which i have no idea why and they plan a trip to Dubai for 2 weeks.
They come back from the trip, start tweaking again and my dad then announces in Feb 2026 that he has a new wife😲😲 and gives us thus fake ass speech on how he will never ever replace us with a new family. Liar.
NOW I have to deal with their bullshit again and start cutting again 😒
A good few weeks later. I come back from school earlier than both my siblings. Both my parents are at home. When I enter my bedroom, I start to hear my mom yelling to my d*d to get off of her body and stop touching her.
Me, thinking that my d*d can't absolutely be doing what I think he is, I go to the bedroom. WRONG GET FLASHED🫥🫥. I see my dad all up on my mother trying to force her into sexual intimacy, removing her clothes without consent as she yells and complains.
I wanna take this chance to say that marital rape is a thing and I've witnessed it firsthand so If you think its a stupid/untrue concept you can go fuck yourself and rot in hell for all my black ass can care about. And no i absolutely refuse to censor anything, censorship is the stupid concept here.
I takes me a whole ball of courage to scream at my dad and tell him to get the fuck off my mother but he tells me to get out and gives me the bs that im disrespecting him but yknow my reprimand did work.
After that I haven't had a single conversation with him nor do i ask him for anything. Truthfully, I feel sick to my stomach whenever I see him.
Thank god for lucile for being there for me at that time and letting me talk to her or else u dont know what I would've done. I love you alot lucile mwah 🤧❤️🩹❤️🩹
IHM UHM I PROBS HAVR ALOT MORE BUT THATS ALL I CAN CRAM IN ONE NIGHT IF MEMORIZATION THIS IS MIRE OF AN ANALYSIS ON ME AND IF IM TOO FORGIVING BTW IM A OK AS OF KNOW
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i don’t know 💙 i just like the colour blue and my account is blue themed💙💙💙💙💙and there’s a conveniently blue heart emoji 💙💙💙💙 same goes for nick we just like the colour
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