Mackenzie Yes

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Science, now

Why the frig is the medical establishment still so body-negative? Will never be okay with the body-shaming that happens. Maybe people are getting cancer because if they are carrying 50 extra pounds they’re magnets for everyone’s psychic shame??? Just a theory. Thanks for coming to the rehearsal for my tedtalk. 

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Third Eye, 2017

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Untitled (early shape exploration), 2016

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The Empress, 2016

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Jade, 2015

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Gemelas, 2017 

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what’s the literal deal with nicholas cage?

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Facts

I don’t know what happens when the facts get to be too much. Only that it starts with my mouth. The snack becomes more compelling. You know the snack. the one you’re eating while reading documentation. A confrontation described as a conversation. A check-in described as rapport. A perfunctory smile logged as genuine connection.

Sometimes there is a burn and a numbness in each bone of each of my ancestors who had once been stifled. That sensation reaches all the way to the marrow.

There is opportunity in this moment. SEIZE IT. That’s how you heal. That’s how you thrive.

The antidote is to receive the extraordinary. To receive, provide. Speak to yourself from your wisest self. Why are we here today? Why are we here?

Not to block. Not to run not to hide. Not to pre-measure ‘too much’ from ‘not enough’. She Who Feels Into Marrow knows timing. Her intuition: a faultless metronome. Follow up with your mouth. you know the one. The one from which you fed, have always fed. The one that raised you. the one that loves you. THAT mouth. Believe in it. It always starts with the mouth.

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What the fuck is happening

The state of the world has become so absurd that questions have morphed into statements without punctuation. Grammar is always the first thing to go. My jaw is so tight and my chest is so tight and my shoulders are so tight. What do these things all have in common? 

An unhealthy pattern I’ve had is to focus on that which is uncomfortable, painful, and hard. My fear-brain recognizes these instances as huge blocks of concrete unaffected by time. In the Thereveda Buddhist tradition there is a chant which asserts; “ All things are impermanent/they arise and they pass away/to be in harmony with this truth/brings great happiness”. Hegemonic society’s messaging as it exists today seeks to cast this truth in the light of falsehood. Thus, when I am walking around at a deficit---in recovery-speak, HungryAngryLonelyTired a.k.a HALT---this messaging permeates what feels like each and every cell of mine with a quickness. 

From there I am an infected mess oozing self-loathing. To rebuild my capacity for resilience in the face of deep national change feels even more daunting once the patriarchy has raped my mind. 

Today I found myself crouched in front of my space heater scrolling through a social media app, effectively feeding the tripe and marrow of my peace-body to the hound of Hades. The act of scrolling, ripping, throwing, scrolling...was hypnotic. So that was a lesson. 

It is fascinating to be an ‘actual’ adult in this time. I feel a lot of the same feelings that I did when the 43rd president was in office. With those feelings come the narrative “but I’m just a kid!”. Back then the state of the world was also quite absurd. What was tight back then? My knees. My urethra. My hamstrings. What do these things all have in common? 

To self-victimize is an unhealthy pattern. I am interested, nay, fascinated, in the individual processes surrounding freeing oneself from self-victimization. I am riveted by the idea of creating a visual roadmap of the spiritual steps involved in developing what Jung referred to as the animus. I am open to both an evaluation of the shadow side and an embodiment of the lightness. 

The next trick, ladies and germs, is to be more attentive to these self-dictated interests than anything else. Freeing myself from victimhood and becoming intimately acquainted with my animus  is naturally inclined towards justice, peace, and social justice. It’s got to. 

And if not, well, all things are impermanent. 

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http://www.tate.org.uk/context-comment/blogs/z-paul-klee-c-cats

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Missed opportunity

To tag a stencils of Juan Gabriel’s face all over DF. 

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France is planning to open Syrian refugee camps about 5 years ?!?!?!?!?! arg. 

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LEMONADE | BEYONCÉ

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literally crying rn looking at the titles #LEMONADE 

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Marlon Brando on what James Baldwin taught him about white guilt and white responsibility:

“He made it very clear to me that all of us white liberals–guilty, well-meaning people–were merely a big flashlight cast upon the evil of racism, and the flashlight found some corners where it continued, and still continues, to live. ‘Throw the light,’ he told me, ‘and then get out of the way. This is our battle to win.’ He also told me that I expected a medal or a blowjob if I opened a door for a black woman or helped a black man get a job. ‘You are a white raindrop on the desert floor of America’s racism,’ he told me. He was right. But I kept showing up, being the flashlight, being the raindrop, and realizing how utterly hopeless our desire to expunge our guilt was. We deserve the guilt. The guilt stays with us. A cross, an anvil, to bear for eternity.”

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thanks Marlon Brando at least we’re in this together.

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Two years ago, mired in the twin fears of (a) being judged for recreational cannabis use and (b) of possibly finding myself wanting if further progression happened on my yoga journey, this tatted glittery human flexed into that ever-influential YouTube view. This video is still enchanting! Yay. 

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