see good in all

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I guess that wound will just never heal. Which is crazy to me, maybe it’s because it was my first or maybe the closure I hoped for was not enough.

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I noticed myself constantly checking the 2series group hoping someone fixed you or has pieces of you.. Hopefully I’ll find another one like you to start over and work on especially since I’ve done better with money and got a stable job that pays well.

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And here I am, living my little 12 year old dreams having a PC all to myself. I very much neglected that part of me because loving kpop and pc games was not in and you would get bullied for it.

Plus I probably had the worse or second worse month this year and I went alittle too far spending money just because I was sad :-) yay me

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I know he only said those words to end it quickly, but those words still hurt me and haunt me to this day..

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To my surprise, he considered my feelings and I never knew it until I bug him about it. I wondering why he wasn’t going to his usual homie hang out night thing so he showed me the messages about how he did not want to go because he doesn’t want to associate himself with someone that talks bad about me and him (and he probably knew I would be overthinking/upset about it). SoooOoOoOo props to him for doing that, lub him

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Reminding myself it’s okay to cry it out, so I can move forward

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Two things that made my weekend amazing;

My boyfriend reminding me how he fell for me and telling me reasons why he loves me while looking like an adorable tomato head.

& his parents wanting to talk to me about everything then letting me know how blessed they and my boyfriend are to have me be a part of their family. They even asked me, “so when are you guys getting married?” 🥺

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Bunbun is finally gone and is on auction.. I’m still in denial about the whole situation. I’m not okay..

To a lot of people, it’s just a car but to me she was something that kept my mind from negative thoughts and I was always happy and calm when I drove her. I miss you Buns, hopefully things for you either help another 2series or another owner fixes you back to life.

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“I dreamed of an everlasting love once, but in the end.. people only love themselves”

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I’ve just been floating in my pool of depression, trying my best not to soak since Sundays accident. I’m trying my best not to show it or let it get the best of me.

Because anybody that knows me, KNOWS HOW MUCH I CARED ABOUT BUNBUN.

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I’ve been staying up/crying myself to sleep the past three nights after having a mental breakdown from remembering a childhood trauma. I really thought I was stronger than this.

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I hate comparing myself, I hate it so much and it’s such a toxic habit that I’ve been trying to get over for awhile now.

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I haven’t dated someone older than me since my first bf. It’s a weird adjustment having the guy babying me instead of me babying him.

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☺️

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i see why a lot of my friends tell me it’s different once you guys finally settle in. i’m glad to have experienced it even if it’s short and have someone that understands and can communicate things out

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what an amazing three weeks it has been, makes me excited to finally move in together

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One week so far, falling asleep being held and waking up still being held with morning kisses ☺️❤️