A Toxic Narcissistic Abusive Discord “friend” group run by a Weeboo Woman I was in and got the hell out. (Part 1) “First Meeting with Her Group”
Just to let anyone who reads this know, (I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME, I KNOW NOW I DID THIS TO MYSELF IN THE END.) But I want anyone that see this to know to watch out for sickos like this online.
( JUST TO LET YOU KNOW IF MY SPELLING OR GARMMER IS OFF I’M SORRY, I HAVE A LEARNING DISABILITIES THAT I DIDN'T GET SUPPORT WITH IN LIFE )
I’m on the autistic spectrum as well so yeah my bad if you can’t understand what I have typed in this post.
This is the start of how it all happened, it was around 2017 I meet the leader of the discord on YouTube. Back then I used to go on live streamer's channels and you know, try chatting with the streamer. She which I will call now Ashlin was chilling on stream talking about stuff in her life. ( love life by the way)
I don’t remember too much about it besides her talking about leaving her partner. But as we talked she and her friends and I seem to get along quickly. As we chatted she told me she had a discord so I joined, and read the rules for it, and when I look back at it. It was like some weird cult-like role play thing going on with it, I wish I could remember what it was about but whatever. (Think back at it I should have saw this as a red flag.)
As I was chilling on Ashlin’s Discord I was getting to know everyone and they seemed cool some of them, there were people on there who talked about having to get rid of some people or the thought of them as not too good in the head. Which is when I think about it might have been their toxic behavior toward others they would meet and them getting off hating and hurting them in some way.
The main things that troubled me on there was how they would joke around at each other. The things they all would say would be disrespectful and degrading to each other. The first time I experienced this happen to me was in a chat with them. One of the guys there was so disrespectful to me over an opinion I had about someone being mean to me in the past, and he tried to play like he was joking. He was making fun of people with depression with it. Also talked over me, and wouldn't make me explain anything else about my situation I know I had experienced. Also, he didn't know what I was experiencing back then and did not have the right to be that rude to me I felt.
I tried to talk to the girls about this, but they didn't want to talk to him. They told me to just chat with him about it, so I did. When I messaged the guy on Discord about what he said to me was disrespectful he said that he thought I was being over dramatic and sensitive. (NOTE: Red flag of Narcissistic behavior, not taking a person's feelings seriously or just not caring about anyone's feelings. No empathy at all.)
He was the first one to give me a red flag. Also, the second toxic person I’ll chat about on Ashlin's discord I will call Elinor.
( I will stop it on here for now. I have to get some rest. )
Hopefully, whoever reads this post has a great day, and be good to yourself.
