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(cw: psychosis and descriptions of psychosis)

right here’s a post about shit you can do in psychosis to help yourself

shadow people/government/etc watching you and you’re too scared to get naked? shower in a swimsuit or your underwear. you’ll get clean and not be as vulnerable

find a safe place. my safe place is my bed; no matter what’s out there, nothing can get me while i’m in my bed

find safe people. when i was having really bad night terrors i could only trust people who hadn’t been in my dreams. look for people like that.

things living in your mirrors? wash them with salt water. it won’t get rid of them but it’ll trap them in there and they can’t get out

find phrases or words that make you feel safe. i’m not christian but i used to recite the lord’s prayer when i was scared and i found it helpful

pinch yourself. if you can feel it, you’re in reality and not dreaming

find things that only happen in dreams. in dreams i can’t smoke because my cigarette always turns to ash, so if i can smoke my cigarette regularly i’m not dreaming.

get rid of all weapons. when you’re in psychosis it’s scary as hell and it’s not uncommon to have weapons to protect yourself. i would sleep with a knife or pair of scissors in my bed at one point. but it’s easy to accidentally hurt yourself or others, or be accused of being a danger, so it’s best to get rid of them or have someone trusted hold onto them.

avoid enablers. this is super hard to do but it’s not good to have people around you who encourage your symptoms. it often feels like those are the only people who understand you, but they’re not good for you.

avoid substances. things like alcohol, weed, and other substances will only make your symptoms worse and are extremely difficult to control. do NOT do acid. trust me on this this will fuck you up hardcore.

give yourself space. what’s happening now is scary and overwhelming and you have to be gentle with yourself. it’s ok if you can’t do what you normally did, it’s ok if you struggle at work or school, it’s ok if you struggle with taking care of yourself. this is so hard! and so many people don’t understand. you are okay where you are.

anyway those’re my tips so i hope this helps and it’d be swell if yall could reblog this thanks

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