@mahouxshoujoxme - Tumblr Blog

Its no wonder everyone gets sick of me I'm fucking sick of me lmfao

I just want to disappear rn I feel like such a shitty partner to the man who has made me happier than anyone ever has

I hate this I hate feeling like this constantly I hate having my trust in others just completely crushed I hate the thought of not being enough for you or being so annoying that I push you away but I literally have no one else left to even speak to about these things I hate that I'm just miserable when I'm home without you but I hate that I'm awful at making friends I hate this I hate this I hate this

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Once again fighting the urge to just delete all my social media accounts and be done with it

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I have literally only one person left that I can even carry on a legitimate conversation with

#personal #i used to think this was an exaggeration until i realized that every conversation i start lasts two replies at most

I'm just tired of trying to be close with anyone

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Me realizing im so fucking pathetic that I'm not even sad seeing ff posts bc I want to be at ff itself but just bc im jealous of those friendships/communities I used to have that I feel ill never have again. c':

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im just constantly torn between the deep desire for meaningful relationships and friendships and just being so tired of constantly being left behind and cut off from all the friendships ive poured my heart and soul into

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What do I do as an escape when the thing I have used for years to escape is the thing that is making me feel so empty

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