If you'd have asked me a year ago if I was ever going to have kids I would have laughed and said no, that 4 dogs were enough. Then a few days later those thin blue lines would show up at midnight after working 18 hours. A few weeks later the complications would start and after a few months the partial bed rest would begin. After two miscarriages I would cry when seeing his heartbeat for the first time on the ultrasound. My pregnancy was rough. The morning sickness, a miscarriage scare, the wreck, all the complications that followed. I spent about 15 weeks throwing up every single thing I'd eat or drink. At 20 weeks baby I was officially a boy and Jackson was the obvious choice for his name. Then at around 21 weeks it got better and I thought I'd get to enjoy pregnancy, I was finally feeling the flutters of Jackson moving then at 24 weeks we were hit by a careless driver. The air bag deployed, hitting my stomach. I didn't feel Jackson move for over an hour. That ambulance ride was the scariest time of my life. The stress and anxiety that came along with the possibility of an easy miscarriage after that night ruined the happiness of my first pregnancy. My OB required me to have a Csection due to complications. Not what I had planned for months. Then at 9:38am on Jan. 15th I heard the most beautiful sound; Jacksons cry. I was a mother. After delivery I only got to hold Jackson for maybe 10 minutes of the first 4 hours of his life. I took recovery like a boss. I refused any pain medication in fear that other would transfer to Jackson through breastmilk. Now, it's 445am on my very first Mother's Day, I am doing my every morning routine. I just finished pumping and getting Jackson back down for a nap. Jackson is truly my rainbow baby, my 9lb 2oz miracle. I've been blessed with a great baby, and I don't just say that because he's mine. Of you've ever spent much time with him you know how happy and content he is. I can't nor do I even want to imagine my life without Jackson. I wouldn't trade those 330 am pumping sessions or watching Moana 4 times a day for anything. I wouldn't mind Tyler having to take my leaking boobs and pumping sessions today though. 😂
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