Making Myself Better @makingmyselfbetter - Tumblr Blog

Happy birthday to me!

We moved here right after I was released from the hospital, right in time for summer... and I immediately found my peace.

#missing summer #colorista #adult coloring book #mental health #fighting depression #finding peace

These are the things I finished during my almost one month of stay in the clinic as a severely depressed patient. I am allowed to go home this Friday. My doc trusts that I am no longer a danger for myself. But the fight doesn't end this Friday, I am still in the process of accepting and learning how to live this life that I have. It is not my dream life, not my ideal kind of life. It will always be sad and difficult, but it doesn't mean I am allowed to kill myself. I hope I can do it.

I don't want to stay in clinic like this ever again.

#fighting depression #acceptance #mental health #self awareness

It's been a while since I was here on tumblr. I managed to finish another virtual challenge but this one was really difficult! I thought I won’t make it before it expires.

I had lots of pain recently which makes it difficult for me to workout and walk a lot. I admit, I cheated here, and I still do on my current challenge. The kilometers are not just for real distances I covered. Since I am also dealing with depression, I add kilometers simply for being alive.

I started this 2025 virtual challenge after I got admitted in the clinic due to depression with suicidal tendencies. After about three weeks, I am already halfway on this challenge... and I am also feeling much better than the day I was admitted.

Mental health is important. Don't ignore the signs. Seek help from the outside when you feel like the world is falling apart and you can't handle it on your own anymore. That was my failure. I thought I can manage everything on my own until everything felt too much and decided to take my own life.

#fighting depression #the conqueror virtual challenge #trying to stay sane #mental health

The Conqueror - Virtual Challenges is really life-changing! I started with this October last year when my Hamburg friends gifted me a LOTR code (first picture). Since then, I got motivated to move more and not just lie in bed, something that is really good for my physical and mental health ❤️.

The medals are just one of the motivating factor, what made me love this more is that at every 20% finished distance, I get the chance to do something for Mother Nature as well. I chose planting a tree under my name for every 20% finished distance. So far I have 10 trees planted already (I have recently just reached 40% on my third challenge).

If you want to try it too, use my link and get 10% discount on your first event:

https://www.theconqueror.events/r/CW33884

#the conqueror virtual challenge #making myself better #journey to a healthier me

what-iz-life

The deeper you heal, the higher you raise the bar on who has access to you. And, it's not out of arrogance, it's about protecting the peaceful, calm, drama-free life you've worked so hard to elevate. This new chapter requires you to be less accessible to any type of toxicity.