Cloud Strife - AU

Alternate Universe Cloud Strife. Mod has 13 years experience roleplaying. Will roleplay with any fandom or blog. All are welcome. For more information on the AU, please see links below. Some NSFW (will possibly be untagged) Mod and Muse are of age. Please feel free to send me any questions pertaining to this AU. Blog is multiship. Current Magic!Anons: None

[freelanceengineer]

"It's because I fucking love you!"

Jude froze at that, biting his lip. Their argument had been stupid, they both knew it, but it didn’t stop Jude from feeling slightly hurt. Well, more than hurt if he was packing himself an overnight bag to go stay at the new house they were building. Jude looked back over at him, his shoulders slumping in defeat before he let his eyes close.

"Alright. I’ll stay." He said quietly, his expression turning tired as he looked at Cloud. Clearly the stress of the past few months had caught up with him.

[freelanceengineer]

Jude still didn’t look at him. His eyes filled with tears as he stared unblinkingly at his lap, biting his lip. “Cloud…” He tried so hard to keep his voice steady but couldn’t help as it wavered. “I l-l-love you. So much… but it isnt fair for m-me to m-m-make you stay here when you want to be there to h-help..” He balled his hands, digging his nails into his palms.

"And its not fair for me… t-to have to sit here…" He brought a hand up, wiping at a tear that had fallen down his cheek. "Not knowing if you are going to come back dead or alive… N-not knowing if I’ll ever… see you… again…" His composure broke, eyes closing and tears falling down his cheeks.

[mako-infused]

Moving closer on shaky legs, the swordsman continued to shake his head. "N, no." A tear fell, leaving a wet trail as it slid down his cheek. Faced with this, Cloud wondered what was really important to him. Would he be selfish? Or would he always do as he'd always done and help those in need.

It was then he realized he never had a choice.

The man fell to his knees, body shaking as he spoke through his tears, sobbing as he dug his fingers into the carpet. "I, I can't li, live without you! Please! P, please Jude! I, I'll never go back!" Head hung, his blonde spikes hid his face, but one could still see the tears falling onto the floor. "I want to stay here with you....I n, need you....I n, nee, need you..."

[freelanceengineer]

"It's because I fucking love you!"

Jude froze at that, biting his lip. Their argument had been stupid, they both knew it, but it didn’t stop Jude from feeling slightly hurt. Well, more than hurt if he was packing himself an overnight bag to go stay at the new house they were building. Jude looked back over at him, his shoulders slumping in defeat before he let his eyes close.

"Alright. I’ll stay." He said quietly, his expression turning tired as he looked at Cloud. Clearly the stress of the past few months had caught up with him.

[freelanceengineer]

"I do… I understand perfectly well what goes on when you aren’t there…" He said quietly, eyes still focused on the hands in his lap. "You have reminded me multiple times of what happens when you aren’t there." Jude sighed, unsure what to say or do or even think. He leaned forward, rubbing his hands against his face before resting it there.

"Maybe… Maybe this isn’t working out anymore…" His voice is barely above a whisper. "They need you there… Maybe…" His chest tightened and his voice broke. He hated what he was saying, but a small part of him believed that maybe it was true. "Maybe you should move back there…"

[mako-infused]

Cloud wasn't sure he'd heard Jude correctly, slowly shaking his head over and over again. "Jude. Jude no..." His heart pounded inside his ribcage so loudly that he could hear it in his head. "You c, can't mean that." Suddenly his mouth was dry, palms sweaty. This wasn't happening. Those blue eyes glistened as tears filled them.

"Please, Jude...."

[freelanceengineer]

"It's because I fucking love you!"

Jude froze at that, biting his lip. Their argument had been stupid, they both knew it, but it didn’t stop Jude from feeling slightly hurt. Well, more than hurt if he was packing himself an overnight bag to go stay at the new house they were building. Jude looked back over at him, his shoulders slumping in defeat before he let his eyes close.

"Alright. I’ll stay." He said quietly, his expression turning tired as he looked at Cloud. Clearly the stress of the past few months had caught up with him.

[freelanceengineer]

He nodded, grabbing the bag again before dropping it on the floor next to the bed since it currently wasn’t needed. He turned, sitting on the foot of the bed, his hands in his lap. There is a longer interval between his blinks as he stares at the floor before looking back up at Cloud.

"You haven’t." He agreed, sighing, bringing a hand up to rub his jaw. "Our agreement was that you wouldn’t go away for more than a few days at a time… But to be gone for nearly three weeks? And two months back you did the same thing. I love you so much, but do you realize how exhausting it gets worrying and hoping that you aren’t dead somewhere?"

[mako-infused]

His brow lowered at Jude's words, a frown forming on his lips. The engineer was right, of course, but that didn't make it any easier on him. With a slow inhale, Cloud took a moment to collect himself and calm down some.

"I know. I know how hard it must be for you here, but do you have any idea what goes on there when I'm gone? People die Jude. A lot." He held his hands out, feeling helpless. "I didn't mean to be gone that long but things happen that you can't even begin to understand. Your world is...soft. It doesn't have to deal with the things mine does."

[badassbarmaid]

The Past and Present Collide || @ mako-infused

[badassbarmaid]

She opened the door slowly, surprised to see him up and about at this hour, honestly. Tifa flashed him a smile as she walked inside, feeling proud that she could make him smile like that. “It’s really not that much…just a few things I thought you would like.” Or some of his favorites, actually. But she wouldn’t admit to that directly. 

Setting the food down at the nearby dresser, the barmaid held her arms at her lower back, rolling on the balls of her feet. “I trust you slept okay? I know that bed can’t be the greatest thing to sleep in. I’ve wanted to get a new one for a while.” But the Cloud from here didn’t want me spending money on something he’d barely use, she mused to herself bitterly. 

Glancing out the window. Tifa continued to smile. “It looks like today will be a nice day.”

[mako-infused]

Food really was a big change from where he'd come from. Packaged, freeze dried meals, dried meat, canned goods. To say the least, it was never any good. Anything hot was basic. Rice, noodles, sometimes potatoes if you were lucky. So the smell of the meal Tifa had cooked for him made his mouth water instantly.

"This bed is actually a lot better then what I'm used to. I slept just fine." He took note of her tone about wanting to get one for a while and wondered if it had been Cloud who had stopped her from it. "My bed at home is missing one of it's legs entirely so I have to stack books under it to prop it up. Needless to say, you have to climb on it carefully." He smiled, biting his bottom lip.

As the woman's dark eyes looked out the window, the swordsman hopped from the sill and made his way over to the dresser where she'd left the tray of food. As he moved passed her, he leaned closer and said with a smile. "I think it's already a nice day."

[badassbarmaid]

The Past and Present Collide || @ mako-infused

It had been a couple days since Cloud arrived at Seventh Heaven. Tifa had spent most of her free time while he rested up trying to figure out what to do about his arrival. The Cloud of this time hadn’t returned her calls — how typical — and she was worried about this future Cloud and what would happen with him here, in this time. 

Knowing his story and how alone he must feel, the barmaid had remind herself that he knew a different Tifa. His life with her had been different. Could she picture herself with the Cloud of this time? As much as she wished it, she worried that it was too late. 

But Cloud is still Cloud, right? He may be older, but..

She lightly smacked her cheeks, trying to get herself out of that train of thought. This was just her heart’s confusion trying to override her mind, that’s all. Even if this Cloud wanted to stay…why would he even think of being with her? She reminded him of what he lost, didn’t she?

Doing her best to ignore what she was feeling, Tifa carried the tray of food she prepared for him, arriving outside of the room. Gently knocking against the door, she chewed on the inside of her cheek. “Cloud..? Are you awake? I brought you some breakfast…”

[mako-infused]

Tifa had been far more accommodating than he'd been expecting while he was here, and although it was Tifa's nature, the woman of his own time had been very different in the last few years before her death. Lost in her own little world and sadly bitter towards everyone around her. Losing the baby had been a blow she had never recovered from. It was refreshing to see this Tifa was still the strong woman he'd always seen her as.

The other night he'd heard her calling the Cloud of this world, and of course he didn't answer, leaving the woman to sigh heavily and chew on the inside of her cheek. He could see the worry and hurt clear on her face and although he'd wanted to go to her, he'd went back to his room to rest again.

Sitting on the window sill, the swordsman looked out at the small view it offered. It was strange to see this part of the city not in decay. Today he would tend to the repairs that the bar had needed in god knows how long. It was the least he could do for Tifa. The knock at the door brought him from his thoughts. He hadn't expected her to be up this early. "Door's open, Tifa." Looking to the doorway, a smile pulled across his lips. "Wow, thank you so much. It smells...absolutely amazing."

[mako-infused]

/ / OoC \ \

*Told everyone I was back. Proceeded to not be....* >_>;

[wereclockinoutearly]

mako-infused replied to your post:        “It’s too damn hot.”

"Well that’s only because you’re in the room~"

[ … how’s he supposed to be irritated at the heat when his boyfriend is being so cute? ]

        "Yeah~?”

[mako-infused]

"Yeah..."

A little smirk slowly pulls over the blonde's lips.

[freelanceengineer]

"It's because I fucking love you!"

Jude froze at that, biting his lip. Their argument had been stupid, they both knew it, but it didn’t stop Jude from feeling slightly hurt. Well, more than hurt if he was packing himself an overnight bag to go stay at the new house they were building. Jude looked back over at him, his shoulders slumping in defeat before he let his eyes close.

"Alright. I’ll stay." He said quietly, his expression turning tired as he looked at Cloud. Clearly the stress of the past few months had caught up with him.

[mako-infused]

The blonde slumped, relieved when Jude said that he would stay. Straightening himself, Cloud ran a hand through his hair and looked away. "Good. Now let's try to work this out." He bit his lips for a moment before forcing himself to look at Jude. "I haven't been around a lot, I know."

[mako-infused]

[Heading to bed now guys, thanks for the awesome RP! Will respond to threads tomorrow!]

[duskengineer-deactivated2014092]

He blinked, staring right back. Bright eyes indeed. Almost like a robot. He was use to having something in his hands-something occupying himself.

"Sure. Okay. I’d love to leave you be with your denial and complexities, but portals tend to reappear where they first spawned." If they reappear. He frowned in thought.

[mako-infused]

Giving a small nod, Cloud silently agreed with the other man. Even his portal materia worked in a similar fashion. Spitting him out in random places, but still showing up later in the exact spot as before.

"I do have the means to travel to different verses, but it's not exactly trustworthy. It likes to send me to where ever it likes, so I wouldn't suggest using it."

[purpuravulpi-blog]

[ the fingers brushing along her tail melt some of the tension from kelsey’s shoulders ——— an instinctive reaction that the fox couldn’t control. bright blues flicker back over to the blond when he speaks, unable to keep the smile that curls the corners of her lips. ]

        “I couldn’t trouble you like that, Cloud.”

[mako-infused]

Cloud continued to pet along the one tail of hers that he could reach, fingers slowly moving through the fur. Seeing her relax had a smile quickly moving across his lips, leaning in to grin at the Kitsune.

"You know it's no trouble at all. Not for you."

[purpuravulpi-blog]

[ at his question, her gaze flickers away. she’s fairly certain she’s still being tailed, but she doesn’t want to bring danger to cloud. he’s so caring, and she’s certainly come to be fond of the swordsman. a low breath exudes kelsey, ears flicking back just a bit. ]

        “Possibly. I shook most of them          off,  but a  few  of  them  definitely          had technology they could use to          keep               tracking               me.”

[mako-infused]

His hand moved down to slowly feel one of the Kitsune's tails, feeling the soft fur as he let out an almost silent sigh. Worry crept through him like a bad weed, and he couldn't stop now. He cared for her too much.

"Stay here a while. I'll keep you safe if anything does happen."

[duskengineer-deactivated2014092]

He relaxed, letting his hands dropped. Great. No stabbing.

Probably.

The stumble was not lost on him and he goofily took a step forward. Then stopped saws when the blonde caught himself.

“…No. Say, where is here? Does everyone have swords?…Are they all big? If not, are you compensating or do you just cut big things? Or none of the above-you’re just really into roleplaying?” Good thing Cloud had a beer before dealing with him. He paused. Brows furrowing. “Hey, are you alright?”

He tilted his head, spotting biomech. Funny.

[mako-infused]

Eyes so bright that they almost seemed to glow looked at the engineer again, trying to analyse the man, unable to as the painkillers fogged up every inch of his brain.

"Not usually. And no. No I'm not compensating...I -- "

Cloud gave a slightly annoyed look at the rush of questions, moving over to fall back on the couch with a groan. He didn't feel alright, not by a long shot.

"I'll be fine."

[freelanceengineer]

A small smile formed on his lips as he reached for the beer bottle, setting it to the side before reaching for Cloud’s hands.

"Will you be okay to walk?" He asked softly, an arm wrapping as gently as it could around Cloud’s waist, trying not to bump against the implant. Once Cloud started walking, Jude moved with him, letting him use him for support. Once in the lab, Jude removed his shirt as gently as he could, before he helped him up onto the special table Jude had bought solely for the purpose of Cloud’s comfort when he fixed him.

"Which part is bothering you? I’ll start there, see if I can relieve you of some pain before I inspect it all."

[mako-infused]

Cloud accepted Jude's help, grunting and grimacing all the way as he was moved onto the table. He knew the engineer was being as careful as he could, and for that he was grateful, but every movement sent pain through his body. He tried to rest against the table, but couldn't, finally accepting the uncomfortable nature of his pain.

"Between the shoulders, I think."

[purpuravulpi-blog]

[ moving after the swordsman, the kitsune settles beside him ——— one tail folded under her like a cushion, the other curling against her side. turning so she’s facing him, she leans her shoulder against the back of the couch. ]

        “I  had   to lay   low   for a  bit.  Had          hunters  on  my  trail.  Dangerous          ones, too ——— Since they actually          know  how  to   poison  a  Kitsune.”

[mako-infused]

Those piercing blue eyes stayed trained on the Kitsune beside him, a concerned look passing over his features. He wished he had known, be there for her in some way. Of course he knew that there was no way that could have happened.

"Are you still in danger? I'll do anything to help you, you know that."

[freelanceengineer]

Jude’s brows raised in concern as he watched the man flinch and he reached out for him. His hands came to rest on Cloud’s knee, hoping that touching him there wouldn’t jostle his back at all.

"Well, how long ago did you take meds?" He asked, tilting his head to the side as he tried to recall the last time he had worked on Cloud’s back. He knew it had to have been months, which was so unlike him. He liked to check the implant every few weeks, just to make sure everything was running properly since he wasnt able to replace the entire thing. But things had been a little crazy for him recently and he knew he had let this slide.

"I want to look at it."

[mako-infused]

The swordsman watched as Jude came closer, wanting more than the touch to his knee from the other man. All he wanted to do was to curl up in the man's arms until the pain went away.

"Thirty minutes ago, I think?"

He shook his head, bringing a hand up to rub at his forehead, feeling dizzy and euphoric. Cloud knew he probably took too many. Jude's statement wasn't a question and he knew that. Even if he said no the engineer would get his way anyway.

"Okay, love. Okay."

[purpuravulpi-blog]

        “You’re welcome.”

[ she enjoys helping others when she can, and honestly, cloud deserves it ——— in her opinion. the fox tips her head to the side for a moment, bright blues flickering to cloud’s. ]

        “How’ve you been since I saw you last?”

[mako-infused]

Grabbing his beer, the blonde took another sip as he moved over to the couch, the room around him starting to spin as the painkillers took effect. Maybe he shouldn't have taken so many. After sitting back, he gave a long exhale.

"Things haven't been too exciting, which is always good. How about you? Why were you gone for so long?"