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Rivulette/River ♤ 26F ♡ she/they ♧ demi/bi ♢ college student ❀ my side blog for MaDD & ADHD-PI & hypophantasia

[maladaptive-daydreaming-aphant]

Blog Info Post!

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Welcome to my MaDD sideblog!

I'm Rivulette (aka River)! She/they, cis, queer, 26yo. Ex-barista, college student, psychiatric disaster. Incompetent [tumblr] mobile app user.

I mainly post about Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder (MaDD), but you may also see me post about ADHD-PI (ADD), depression (MDD? dysthymia?), anxiety (various kinds), and Hypophantasia, the less severe version of Aphantasia (lack of mind's eye).

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My icon is Holo from Spice and Wolf. I like/follow from a different blog.

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tbh I'm really bad at tagging things (sorry) but these ones are pretty consistent:

#Rivulette's thoughts – posts I made/wrote

#not madd – non-daydreaming stuff

#madd, #adhd inattentive, #depression, #anxiety, #aphantasia

If you follow me and I end up posting about any sensitive topics you'd like tagged, let me know and I'll do my best to tag all instances of it in the future! :) I've been on tumblr for quite a few years, but I never had enough followers for it to matter whether or not I tagged things lol

[kitkat-dreams]

the backrooms is about daydreaming. to me.

[kitkat-dreams]

a world that the longer you spend in the more it just repeats off itself. the people there arent people, just a badly remembered version that shifts slightly each time you remember them. you arent living, just rerunning ideas until they completely divorce from reality. every iteration is based on the idea that came before with no feedback. the people arent people, you can eat them (live off them). and clark never wants to leave

[krasnoarmeyets-deactivated191907]

i bet it feels good as fuck to intend to do something and then actually do it

[tomb-mold]

the problem is i really do love staying up until one billion o'clock. it just cant be helped

[vetchtibbles]

despite everything, it’s still you (derogatory)

[vetchtibbles]

wait hey man wait whoah hey

[nezu-mi]

can't wait for this stupid period of my life to end so the next stupid period of my life can start

[alisonzai]

[crimeronan]

sometimes i have strong opinions but they're also so inane that halfway through writing a post i'll be like "yeah, this is Absolutely not worth the energy it's taking" and delete everything. but then the opinion is still in my head. and i still want to share it. so within five minutes i go "you know, i bet i can phrase it more succinctly this time" and anyway. you all see where this is going. sometimes i do this four times in a row before i give up on the specific inane opinion and instead write a vague post about the concept of opinions as if that'll satisfy the urge to post the entirety of my inner monologue online. may or may not be relevant to what you're reading right now. and now all our lives have been enriched. you're welcome

[http-tempted]

when you listen to a song and it gives you inspiration to daydream an answer to the plot hole in the story building inside your head

[maladaptive-daydreaming-aphant]

compulsively daydreaming about a fictional romantic partner while u legit have a real life partner is so fucking guilt-inducing

like

you will never be as good as this person in my head

no one will ever be as good as this person in my head

i will never be as good as the "me" inside my head

our real-life love will never be as good as the love of these people in my head

if it was possible for anyone or anything to feel as good as "me" being with the person in my head, i wouldn't have escapism shackling me down in the dungeons under this stupid little mind palace

but here we are again i guess. every fucking day of the week, i guess

[earthwalkerr-deactivated2026052]

ill be unstoppable once I finally heal this gaping wound

[kosmogrl]

[just4g1rlyth1ngs777]

[sabertoothwalrus]

aughhhhh my head hurtds #mygrain

[tothechaos]

any tips for developing discipline? ive been going through life on a lackadaisical hedonist build but ive got a bunch of mysterious problems that i may or may not be at fault for

[ceruleanheaven]

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

[academia-lucifer]

@academia-lucifer