[maldostropicos]

[maldostropicos]

when stability and comfort suddenly seems like cowardice and erratic self destruction feels like the only thing that can possibly make you feel something again

[maldostropicos]

cw. mental health, mention of self harm, self destructive behavior

i don’t know how to explain this but sometimes i look back at my worst times of self harm and i think “wow at least i had courage back then to act so recklessly” and i don’t know what to think, like, i am at the best i could right now give the situation, i have a good relationship with my partner, i’m at the last year of the major i wanted but as an individual i feel like i will never experience something intense again by my own making — i’ve given up academic pretenses, i realized that no job would ever make me happy with expectations of never ending productivity and now i’m just trying to fit in what would potentially harm me less on the long run. which in a counterproductive way makes me want to engage in self destructive behaviors with no regards for myself. but as i said, i feel like a incapable coward now

[hellcatsandcars]

so if taotu was 1960s-inspired and eycte was 1970s-inspired, does that mean that tlsp3 is going to be 1980s-inspired?

[maldostropicos]

omg

[memedreamm]

i don’t care about straight actors playing queer people in media all i care about is if theyre going to put their whole pussy into it. tom hardy of course ive had gay sex im an actor. keanu reeves and river phoenix going to gay clubs in seattle and making out in public. heath ledger almost breaking jake gyllenhal’s nose because he kissed him too hard. when will actors do this again. 

[maldostropicos]

watched annihilation expecting to be really bad from the blockbuster poster i saw but it was pretty okay??? i liked it

[maldostropicos]

damn the lemon twigs really go fucking hard

[maldostropicos]

cw: body horror?

i am slightly obsessed with things growing inside the human body in ways they’re not supposed to. like teratomas, amorphous tumors with teeth, hair and nails. hair growing inside someone’s gums. things that happen due to our cells abilities to grow into almost any type of tissue. the human body alone is a complete subject of horror.

[maldostropicos]

can’t you see

that you’re only here to be torn apart

[tightredpants]

“I don’t mind it” (credit: shesturnerstorms on ig)

[maldostropicos]

guess i’m twenty now

[blvckphilip]

videodrome (1983), dir. david cronenberg

[sleepeys]

watching puppet history is so much fucking weird emotional whiplash. look at the earth it's wonderful and beautiful and there are things living there who love each other and help each other and hold each other and there are things in space who fly forever in darkness alone and sometimes get lucky enough to catch a brief glimpse of one of the single most marvelous things in the universe and even though its always devastating in the end the fact that it happened at all in the entropy of time is a miracle. then theres an immediate hard cut to a man in his 30s fighting a hand puppet

[maldostropicos]

i cried TWICE watching this and i don’t know how to articulate myself but. the optimistic nihilism, awe and wonder at life in face of the impending and certain end is something so fundamentally like shane but i simply wasn’t expecting it to make me cry like it did, so beautifully crafted like it was, i was expecting sweet grief to mourn and getting a unapologetically happy ending??? i feel so light and in peace 🥹

[i-m-a-leaf-on-the-wind]

[maldostropicos]

i am utterly absolutely completely OBSESSED with this moment. the way they look laughing at each other. like they’re sharing a secret. fuck it. you can’t tell me this don’t look like they’re making love

[maldostropicos]

saw these on instagram yesterday and he’s looking so much like young robert de niro

[maldostropicos]

god i miss tlsp so bad