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by Felmya

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“If you lose someone, but find yourself, you won.”

— Unknown

project-helix

I miss Jenna Marbles. I want her back on YouTube.

If you’re sitting out here lumping Jenna in with people like Pewdiepie and Shane Dawson, then you don’t really care about racism and are just stirring the pot. After a certain point, you do have to expend some energy parsing the malicious from the genuinely ignorant, especially if the ignorance was 9 years prior.

Yes, we’re all aware that bigots like to claim it was “forever ago” when they did something that has people upset now and that they’re a “totally different person” (and it’s often like, a year and a half ago and they haven’t changed a bit), but there are genuine cases where you have to remember how much can happen over a decade. YouTube was an extremely white place up until like, 2015.

This isn’t to say that the Nicki Minaj video wasn’t racist or “became” racist because “something something PC culture”, but at the time, no one thought it was. Early Youtube and the creators on it probably would’ve heard the term “blackface” and thought of some incredibly racist theater practice from the 1800s that could not possibly reoccur in the modern world for any reason. And if you’re young enough to not remember that, you’re young enough not claim authority on it in the first place.

9 years ago, I thought Pewdiepie was cool and fun. Imagine what a train wreck that could’ve turned out to be.

I’ll be the first to say that I really don’t prefer Jenna’s content after 2016 or so, not fond of all the ridiculous skits and krazy antics, but she’s having fun and being positive and I respect that. Nobody who actually watched Jenna’s content on a regular basis would would find much to complain about, and I’ll stab myself in the brain if someone was ever legitimately upset by a 12-minute rant about the over-prevalence of avocado in Californian restaurants.

before-life

by licoriceroot

do you have a certain movie you only tend to watch when your depressed?

what is it?

#depression #personal #text #question

our-sinister-night

Thankful for these stinky murder men

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I’m a simple person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile.

Unknown (via thoughtkick)

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Stand up for what you believe in - even if it means standing alone.

Kim Hanks (via thoughtkick)

WE ARE THE MEN: PART III

WE ARE THE MEN WHO HELD YOUR HOPES, IN VELVET ROPES.

WE ARE THE MEN THAT TOLD YOU WE’D PUT YOU BACK TOGETHER, AND LIED.

WE ARE THE MEN THAT WOULD BUILD YOU UP, AND TEAR YOU DOWN.

WE ARE THE MEN WHO WOULD SHATTER YOU, AND WATCH YOU STRUGGLE.

IT’S BEEN AWHILE, AWHILE ON TUMBLR, AND AWHILE SINCE I WAS SUPPOSED TO FINISH THIS LINE OF STORIES.

I AM THE THIRD OF THREE.

NEW APP, NEW GAMES.

I DIDN’T HIT YOU WITH THE “HEY” THE “HI” THE “WHAT’S UP”

I READ YOUR PROFILE, SAW YOU WERE A HORROR FAN, JUST LIKE ME.

I ASKED, “IN COMPARISON TO EACH OTHER, BETWEEN THE COLLECTOR AND JIGSAW, WHO WINS?”

YOU GAVE A LONG WINDED RESPONSE ON THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO, MUCH MORE OF AN ANSWER THAN I EXPECTED.

YOU IMPRESSED ME.

I ASKED ABOUT YOUR TATTOOS, YOU GAVE ME YOUR PHONE NUMBER TO SHOW ME. AND I SHOWED YOU MINE.

I SHOWED YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SMILE, THAT’S WHERE IT STARTED.

WE STARTED TALKING DAILY, I TOLD YOU EVERYTHING YOU SEEMED TO WANT TO HEAR. WE WOULD HAVE BEEN PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER.

I LIVE FAR AWAY FROM YOU THOUGH, COME MEET ME.

YOU DID.

YOU IGNORED A LOT OF RED FLAGS, SO MANY THAT I WAS IMPRESSED WHAT YOU’D LOOK OVER.

BUT, I DAZZLED YOU WITH THAT HEART STOPPING SMILE I HAVE.

I FUCKED YOU IN THE BACK SEAT OF MY CAR, WITH PURE AGGRESSION AND DESIRE, WHICH ONLY MADE YOU FALL QUICKER.

I MISS YOU, AND CONVINCED YOU TO COME SEE ME AGAIN, EXCEPT WITH YOUR FRIEND.

WE MET AT THE SAME BAR, AND I IMPRESSED YOUR FRIEND TOO, WHICH REALLY SEALED THE DEAL FOR YOU.

WE HAD SO MUCH FUN DIDN’T WE?

YOU WENT TO LEAVE AGAIN, WHILE SAYING GOODBYE, I ACCIDENTALLY SAID “I LOVE YOU”.

BUT I ALREADY KNEW YOU LOVED ME TOO.

WEEKS GO BY, TALKING EVERYDAY ABOUT EVERYTHING. SHOWING YOU MUSIC I WAS INTO, YOU MADE A PLAYLIST AND LISTENING TO EVERYTHING I TOLD YOU TO.

YOU WANTED ME TO MEET YOUR PARENTS, AND I SAID I WOULD. BUT I KNEW I WASN’T GOING TO. I GAVE YOU EXCUSE AFTER EXCUSE SAYING WORK RAN LATE, BUT I STILL MET YOU AT THE HOTEL YOU WANTED.

AND I KNOW YOU REMEMBER.

YOU DROVE ME AROUND TO SHOW ME YOUR HOMETOWN, I WASN’T INVESTED. BUT YOU JUST TOOK IT AS ME BEING TIRED.

YOU WERE SO BLIND.

WE HAD A CONVERSATION ONE NIGHT ON THE PHONE, ABOUT HOW I GHOSTED ANOTHER GIRL PREVIOUSLY WHEN I GOT TOO SCARED. I PROMISED I WOULDN’T DO THAT TO YOU.

I LIED.

YOU ASKED TO MAKE US OFFICIAL AND I AGREED. UNTIL I SAW IT POSTED ON A NEWS FEED. IT TERRIFIED ME. YOU KEPT TRYING TO MAKE PLANS WITH ME AND I SLOWLY DISAPPEARED.

I TOLD YOU TO COME UP THAT WEEKEND.

YOU PACKED YOUR BAG AND ASKED WHICH HOTEL,

I BLOCKED YOU ON EVERYTHING, AND VANISHED.

YOUR HEART DROPPED WHEN THE GRAY ARROW ON SNAPCHAT APPEARED.

I WOULDN’T ANSWER YOUR CALLS.

I RIPPED YOUR HEART OUT FOR SUCH A SHORT TERM “FLING”.

AND YOU WOULD NEVER HEAR FROM ME AGAIN.

#personal