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! tw ed and mental illness ! read my pinned post byf

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^ pathetic woman thing

this is my online diary. i mainly talk about my struggles with ed’s as well as mental illness. i talk about the later more often lately. I have dealt with both for many years. I used to be on ed tumblr when I was younger, and somehow I always find myself back here. I'm not pro anything.

please dont report just block

minors and general creeps (you know who you are) dni

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maturing is realizing that i am a woman of wrath and i am perfectly fine with that.

i will be a hateful bitch until the sun explodes

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i wish i could just run.

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i need to be an island.

i wish i could be an island.

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i’m touch starved (gross)

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i wonder if they ever think i’ll be more at peace if i were dead

everytime i get like this

it just feels like they’re watching me implode

because what can you do really

i wish i knew.

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so dramatic

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i always wonder if people read these

i’ve had this blog for like 3-4 years i think?

i don’t know if anyone pays attention though

not that anyone has to listen to my insane ramblings

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please let it get better

i’m tired

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it has to get better

it hasn’t ever

my life has just been a slow decline, with some very brief ups and then just tumbling further down

it has to get better right

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it’s so weird how much i love love, yet every single partner i’ve had has hurt me

they’ve screamed and threatened me and made me do things i never wanted to do

i’ve never been loved

how pathetic is that

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i’ve never been loved before

and i’ve never loved someone

i don’t want to die without having experienced either

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i wish someone would care

i wish i was someone’s favorite

i’m so lonely

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i’m gonna die alone

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I’m irrationally mad at my ex and I know it.

How could you say you love me, let me move to your state where I’m away from my family, I can’t drive, I am solely reliant on you, and you let me fucking spiral out into insanity and you fucking sat there and did nothing. You enabled me. What the fuck. I wish I woke up sooner, I wish I never came to this hell state.

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was not irrational anger btw that guy fucking sucks i hope he rots xp

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Need pain.

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I don’t have anything sharp enough in my house , and I’m seeing a lot of people for Christmas and I don’t want them to see that