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| cw: 230 lbs. | cgw: 220 lbs. | ugw: 160 lbs. | | a minor | Michigan | DMs open |

[malleablebrainmush]

My boyfriend is so thin and scrawny and I'm so fucking obese.

[malleablebrainmush]

no one cares but I'm gonna write this anyway

I binged so fucking badly last night, I hate myself so fucking much now. I'm not eating until 4 PM tomorrow. I'm so fucking awful.

[malleablebrainmush]

Day 1/10

Calorie limit: 250 cals.

Calories consumed: approx. 121 cals.

I've been awake since 5 PM yesterday, I cleaned my room up a bit today. I hope I'll start getting pretty.

[wannabedanity]

not me disappearing because i gained weight and only reappearing when i lose it✋😀

[malleablebrainmush]

i keep fucking failing.

i keep fucking failing.

i keep fucking failing.

i keep fucking failing.

i keep fucking failing.

i keep fucking failing.

I am a fucking failure.

[malleablebrainmush]

I think I'm gonna start taking my ADD meds again. I'll take them tonight and go to bed early, and try to wake up before noon. I'll clean for a little bit, eat something and then workout. Tomorrow is going to be good. I promise.

[malleablebrainmush]

My boyfriend is super skinny and pretty and I'm a fat fucking obese pig. I need to be thinner before I see him next year. I just need to.

[malleablebrainmush]

I want to be a pretty boy like you

Maybe you'll love me more then.

I'm doing this for you but I won't ever tell you that.

[malleablebrainmush]

everything will be okay after Monday.

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im such a fucking failure.

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I was doing really good on monday. I woke up before noon I walked to and from the post office, walked to my great grandmas with her lunch and then did yard work , consumed 160 cals. via a protein shake, then I mowed the front lawn. I was doing amazing. And then my mom brought home pizza and she pressured me into eating it and also pressured me today into eating leftovers so none of it went to waste. Sigh. Tomorrow I'm going to restart the diet I picked out. If I start tomorrow I'll be able to do all 10 days. Good luck future me.

[malleablebrainmush]

Im gonna try this starting tomorrow, I probably will only be able to do 5 days since I'm going to my dad's Friday night. For now I'm going to get some sleep. Tomorrow I'll post my day 1 update and everything I ate that day. Goodnight

[malleablebrainmush]

I want to be a pretty boy too..

[justwannalosetherolls]

No one:

Me: *plays video games all day to avoid eating*

[malleablebrainmush]

today I went to alot of garage sales and thrift stores, I bought clothes one size smaller than what I'm currently wearing. i hope this will motivate me to lose more weight so I can wear the clothes I just bought. im slowly gonna get rid of the clothes that currently fit me rn so I have no other choice.

[thinhip]

only reblog this if you WILL lose weight. lets see who really has their priorities in order.

[malleablebrainmush]

my lovely boyfriend is really skinny and I'm really fat and I feel like it's not fair to him :(