[mamapef]

Hello again :)

[brokendildo]

*wipes phone screen on breast*

[halloweenmonster]

[motherbambi-deactivated20170107]

I’d wear the spider part year round. Cute as heck.

[mathani]

[greeneyed-mama]

You're fat. Ew.

Lol and?

See there’s this thing that happened to my body. I had a baby!! Isn’t that neat?! Then I sustained that baby for almost a year with milk from my boobs!! Crazy right?!

Well, those things combined have changed my body. Does it make my body any less good or worthy of love? NOPE.

Fat is not equal to bad.

Sorry charlie but while I recognize that shedding a few pounds would be nice, I’m in no rush and have no ill feelings toward my body.

[kiraroland-deactivated20160311]

For you, my little one. I got the idea for this tattoo from the bracelet that was around my son’s ankle while we shared our only two days together in Boca Raton Hospital. I chose to get the nurse’s (who first handed him to me) handwriting, because it holds a more personal meaning. This same nurse came into my room at the end of her shift, after the adoption papers had been signed, and Merrick had left with his new family to give me a few items she thought I’d want to treasure. His bracelet, his hat, and his blanket from the nursery. So to that beautiful nurse who went above and beyond to make sure I wasn’t leaving the hospital with just the clothes on my back, I thank you for being so kind.

And to my little one, if ever you have doubts about the decision I made, I will be here to explain when you are old enough and willing to listen. I love you dearly, even if my last name no longer clings to your first.

- Birthmom.

[kiraroland-deactivated20160311]

This has gotten so much love.  Thank you.

[mamaandherbabybyrd]

This is BEAUTIFUL.

[beingamomisthebestjob]

Love this.

[pachipachiworld]

[tastefullyoffensive]

[camperjohn64]

[mamapef]

I've been on youtube all morning looking at makeup and hair tutorials. J and I have a date planned for this weekend and I want to look hot.  He's going to drop the kids off at his moms, (UGH..But I plan to be very stern with her regarding my children, or we'll plan another time when my mom is in town.) and he will come pick me up from the house. Like, you know..a date. heh. I'm really looking forward to it. A lot of bullshit has been going on and we're not doing too well. And it really is, bullshit. I'll go into that in another post.

Any tips on how to look smokin hot? What are your favorite make up tips? Hair styles? Products? Outfits? (plus size) I'm just use the basics but I want to wow him.

[greatestview]

AMBER ALERT: Police have issued an Amber Alert for Bryeon Hunter, a 1-year-old boy taken from 6th and Main in Maywood.

The child was apparently taken by three male Hispanics.

The African-American boy is two feet tall and 30 pounds. He was wearing a two-tone, blue stripe long-sleeved shirt, jeans, and brown Nike boots.

MAYWOOD IS A SUBURB IN ILLINOIS. PLEASE REBLOG IN CASE YOU HAVE FOLLOWERS FROM OR AROUND THIS AREA. 

[frank-e-sleep-no-more]

What date was this child taken? Today?

[angrybrownbaby-deactivated20150]

http://www.ksdk.com/news/article/375686/3/AMBER-Alert-issued-for-boy-taken-from-Chicago-area

According to this, the alert was issued today but was taken on Tuesday.

[cosmic-rebirth]

It disappoints me that I’ve not seen this more on my dash…

[cymlee]

This is not too far form where I grew up in Chicago. I hope he gets found and brought home soon!!

[chiefxali]

Lets help bring this Prince home! BOOOOOST!! 

[mamapef]

For those of you who wear false eyelashes

Eyeliner & shadow first or after you apply the lashes?

[rosesforrei]

I guess it’s all up to me. Make myself happy. Pick myself up. Love and accept myself. The first steps really begin with oneself.

Roses For Rei (via recoveryisbeautiful)

[oh-teen-posts]

[therelatablepost]

relatable gifs and quotes

[inbox-deactivated20131029]

man I ate so healthy today I think I’ll reward myself with a container of frosting

[mamapef]

Isaac's 1st Birthday

Eh, it sucked..I'll be honest.

Between no one coming and my in laws, I about lost it. Okay, it was, my in law..lets be real here. First of all, Susan (SIL) rented the clubhouse for us cause my MIL couldn't do it because she was deer hunting. (But go fucking figure she's there for the party) Susan left about a half hour into it because CPS was coming over to her house (that's for another post) So MIL showed up, late because someone that lived in the community had to be there. Okay, no problem. She then goes on to say "I had no idea what time this things started, sorry.." REALLY?! I had only been texting you for the past month AND the last few days. Don't EVEN say you had no idea. 

I didn't say that, but I sure as hell thought it.

Then, as you know..Isaac is lactose sensitive so we bought him his own little cake and had great grandma make a cake for everyone else. She did, thank you, but pushed my cake out of the way so hers was the center of attention. She then gave him frosting from her cake, which has dairy in it and then tried giving him Coke. "You don't give him soda?" I looked at J like, "DID YOU EVER HAVE COKE AS A BABY?" And looked back at her and said, "NO, I never give my kids soda and the only time Lilly has it is if she sneaks it from me. DO NOT give my child soda or anything with dairy." She got all huffy at me.  She tried giving Lilly a giant piece of cake. I mean huge..she doesn't eat a lot of sugar. Ggma said, "it's a party..let her eat it." NO, too much sugar makes her sick. I was just so done with her.

Isaac was wearing down so I put him in the stroller with a bottle and MIL kept taking it from him like she was playing and it just pissed him off so I snapped at her to just let him eat. She got pissed off too..

AM I WRONG?! Honestly, tell me..am I wrong? My attitude wasn't the best but I was just so done.

My bestest friend tho, saved the day with balloons and table cloths. She also brought the coolest present. She got him a Vtech sit and stand train thing. It's pretty cool. If she hadn't kept me in check, I probably would have bitched, out loud and told them to gtfo. I'm just done with his family. They have no communication with each other and they just don't care to listen to me when it comes to MY children. I was up all night with Lilly cause her tummy hurt and Isaac had to be changed a thousand times during the night and had bubbles in his tummy. Thanks. Thank you very much for making my kids sick.

Maybe I'm just over protective or sensitive, I don't know but I'm just done. If I never had to see them again, I'd be okay with that.

[mamapef]

After Surgery/Update

Lilly's surgery for her tongue tie went really well. She was in and out within 10 minutes and we were home within the hour. It was still hard watching them take my baby away from me and do lord knows what to her..I knew she was safe but I was still uneasy about it all.

There has been no progress in her speech, at all. I'm calling a group called "Child Find" this next week to get her in so she can work on her speech. They specifically work on speech. She's still so difficult and bed time is the worst. We have a routine in place for her but she still panics when we put her to bed. Not sure if it's really panicking or if she's just upset she has to go to bed. I tell her I'm going to leave her door open but she has to stay in bed, but she doesn't listen. I'll shut the door and she screams her head off. The only thing that seems to work is laying with her until she falls asleep. Some nights, that's okay and I don't mind but when I'm alone and Isaac is screaming or needs to eat or be changed, I have to just let her scream until I come back. I tell her I'll be right back but it doesn't work. I love cuddling with her but when there are other things going on, it makes it that much harder.

She has learned more words and has almost completely stopped signing. She signs words she cannot say and makes a good effort to say other things. Her new word is "Princess" I think it's from all the movies she's been watching but it's not the worst thing she could be saying. She's also obsessed with "Elmo Goes to The Firehouse" We watch that at least twice a day. "Stay low and go!" Is her thing now. Again, not the worst thing she could be saying. She IS learning and she IS trying harder but her attitude is still so out of control. She's 2 going on 13 some days. She's hitting, pushing, pulling and talking back. She slapped Isaac the other day because she couldn't hear her movie over his crying. I just didn't know what to do so I sent her to her room to think about it.

I'm still so lost with her. I'm hoping Child Find can help us or at least give a new place to start because until she can speak properly, there isn't going to be any communication.

[mamapef]

Are you going to make a separate blog just for your posts on parenting and your kids? You used to post like that and I loved following but now its all self-help and kinda not into that but I still want to know whats going on in your life. I like you, just not your posts but I want to follow.

Sorry about that, I have a lot of people in recovery that are following me so I post stuff that can help them. I'm also in recovery, if you didn't know.

I haven't been online in a while..I'm dealing with issues at home. I do plan to write more about my life and parenting issues. I hope you stick around! :)