mandy.

[mandyraeinsanity]

flecks of gold

just as a flame’s flicker differs with each lick so too the shivers delivered with each press of lips on flesh and silken skin,

mine entwine with cobalt eyes, freckled with rays of golden lines, and i let out a carnal requiem for reticence,

flushed and spent i’m left freed of linen and restraint, to lay bare in truth

and you- with those flecks of gold written: feb 22 - march 3, 2017

[mandyraeinsanity]

flecks of gold {cont.}

the truth is should i think about that night it’s dead weight in my mind

i can’t extract the words you said the way they singed inside my head, or how it ushered in the rest and yet, the closer that i get the more it swelters in my chest

sharpened between lash and lid i saw not eyes but where they’d lived and then revived now cobalt knives and if the divide was yours or mine i can’t decide or if it bore from gutted skin sheathed beneath the narratives you spin

what’s left still remains unsaid between dampened discourse we’ve embed a rooted ache, our wounds not only bleed the same they can neither be erased even if we stitch each other in their place

so it wasn’t you or me, we chose only who we wanted to see ourselves      - but clearer the muse and the mirror until inevitably it splintered away too

the truth is; you’re right

i lied

and so did you.

written: feb 26, 2020 - march 9, 2020

[just-shower-thoughts]

The Incredibles establishes Mr. Incredible’s character better in 10 minutes than most superhero movies do in their entire film

[just-shower-thoughts]

Sloths deserve more credit for surviving as a species

[just-shower-thoughts]

Imagine how easy it must’ve been for Elastigirl from The Incredibles to give birth

[mandyraeinsanity]

the art of detachment.

“Take any emotion—love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what I’m going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions—if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them—you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. “But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, ‘All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment’.” ― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

[mandyrae]

it's been three years since our first Christmas away. I feel more myself than ever before. Bless. ‪Three years of holiday cheerz, ‪here's to it only getting better from here 🥂‬

[mandyrae]

[just-shower-thoughts]

If both the man and woman had to climax in order to achieve pregnancy, there’d be a lot less people in the world..

[just-shower-thoughts]

December 31, 2017 is the only day where every adult was born in the 1900’s and everyone else under 18 was born in the 2000’s

[mandyraeinsanity]

wasted s p a c e s (in time and place).

i found it in rosy cheeks against a sharp late autumn breeze, in skin that crisped instead with heat, as you spoke  to me, i heard it wedged in slanted reminisce in words that might’ve wished for this, in secret spite of she, i felt it - thrice on summer nights, cloaked in pulsing crooked stripes of moonlit windows’ angled light, not once  though have you used your tongue, in time to face or trace my own, and i fear, i’ve left  too much wasted space to wait, for another time and  place.

written: november 15-27th, 2017

[just-shower-thoughts]

A bra is a type of booby trap.

[just-shower-thoughts]

When you’re tired at night, everything’s funny. When you’re tired in the morning, nothing’s funny.

[just-shower-thoughts]

December 31, 2017 is the only day where every adult was born in the 1900’s and everyone else under 18 was born in the 2000’s

[just-shower-thoughts]

Universities should have a soundproof scream room where you can scream your stress away because this is fucking bullshit.

[akapapifresh-deactivated2019053]

[just-shower-thoughts]

Do you know that tingly sensation you get when you really like someone? That is common sense, leaving your body.