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Masterlist

OT8

8 makes 1 team ( ATEEZ X PSYCHIATRIST SERIES )

No matter how different , without one of us there’s no 8 makes 1 Team

Patients: Meeting HONGJOONG , Meeting WOOYOUNG,

Meeting SEONGHWA , Meeting MINGI , Meeting YEOSANG

Meeting SAN , Meeting YUNHO , Meeting JONGHO

CHAPTER’s : 1 , 2 , 3 (🟢)

Watch your back ( Poly!ATEEZ x Reader )

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

CHAPTER’s : 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 7 8. 9. 10 end

SAN : IM A DAD ?! ( Single dad series)

Just to be left with a baby all of the sudden when your just a growing teenager yourself isn’t easy

Chapters , 1 , 2 , 3

WOOYOUNG : SAY GOODBYE

Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you Girl, it's not you, it's me

Chapters : 1 , 2 , 3

These series are currently on hold

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WE FOUND LOVE

Intro

Both sweethearts in love with each other until she came into the picture , but was it really because of her ?

Sypnosis : Too Lovers that let things get in between their relatioship

Pairing : Boyfriend!Seonghwa x Girlfriend! Reader

Warnings : adult jokes , nudity

Word Count : 427

This is only an Intro

She looked at him smiling , her boyfriend looked so soft as he snored quietly hair covering his eyes

His black hair , eyebrows and braces where her favorite , It made him stand out more than other boys at their school and that's why she had chosen him

Ever since they met each other you could call them inseparable , never letting go of one another at any cost

" Done admiring my face ? "

He woke up yawning eyeing his girlfriend who had her palms rested on the side of her head starring at him

" I mean , why wouldn't I want to stare at my cute handsome boyfriend "

Seonghwa grabbed her waist closer to him as he smiled softly burying his head on her chest

" You love flustering me too much "

" Baby im stating facts, besides I know you love getting compliments from mel "

She smiled kissing his nose before standing up to go and take a shower

" How about we take a shower together ? "

" And for what is that needed? "

" Well , we'll be saving a lot more water dont you think baby ? "

He stood up scratching his bare chest

" Did you sleep in just your boxers ? "

The boy nodded as he pushed her inside their bathroom with him closing the door

" You know I like to sleep this way "

He smiled and kissed her cheek

" And that's why my body never gets sweaty "

She hoped in the shower after taking her clothes off

" Yeah now let me in there im starting to get cold out here ~ "

Y/n opened up the shower door pulling her lover inside who smirked looking at her

" Do you perhaps train your ass ? "

" No...  it's all natural Hwa , generation passed it down to me and so will i to my children "

He laughed amused seeing it jiggle after slapping it

" Come on boy I thought your here to shower "

" I am until I saw these melons here "

Seonghwa backed her against the wall making water fall on them washing away the soap that was sticking onto their bodies until now

" Your so perverted , I always thought you where shy and reserved "

" I am Shy and reserved baby , but  your my comfort zone I feel comfortable around you and the boys to express myself "

She smiled looking at him

" My personal comfort zone "

Both smiled at each other before going for a sweet yet rough kiss , he loved her to the deepest part of his heart and she showed him the same affection back

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WATCH YOUR BACK :

Final Chapter

Once you don’t value what you have it will Slip and never Return , and even if it does it’s not to stay

Sypnosis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : ex!girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warnings : this chapter contains lots of, regret , Smoking , Wooyoung’s being mentally unstable, sad memories, unexpected surprises , Late night talks

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @hcyaa , @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @tunaasandwiich , @riririyuhn , @vixensss

Word count : 2,9k

December 18th , 2021

" Rin's run away will start in a few  "

Jongho said as he looked at the time

" I don't think I'm going "

Seonghwa said as he was in the balcony smoking while looking at the blue purple sky

His slim fingers brushing his blond hair back as he sighed

" What about the others ? "

Jongho said as he looked at the elder

" Mingi despises her and you know that  Yeosang will go Yunho probably too , Hongjoong you know he can't "

" I don't even need to mention Wooyoung "

Seonghwa came back inside as he sat down next to the younger

" Have you visited him ? , did he talk to you? "

" Wooyoung is not making any progress, they said he attacked a nurse because she looked like Y/n "

" I really wonder were she went "

He sighed sad

" We all do Jongho , if I knew that meeting Rin would cause to this disaster I would've never got involved with her "

" I can't believe I let someone else blind me from making my own decisions , I should've known from the moment Y/n cried in the bathroom that night "

" What do you mean "

Yunho said as he went out his room

" She was crying because we brought Rin home without telling her , and she thought she wasn't enough "

Seonghwa sighed and groaned

" We just destroyed everything "

" I freaking miss her , the house has never been the same after San and her left "

Jongho felt his eyes sting but he quickly wiped them

" You're not the only person who does "

Hongjoong said as he came in looking tired , he had the big eye bags under his eyes that made him look like a Panda

" But what can we do about it ? she's probably better off without us "

Seonghwa  leaned back against the couch, his gaze unfocused, as he ran a hand through his hair, still feeling the weight of everything

"We've all been carrying this guilt, but I don't think any of us really understand what she's probably going through now , It's been five years and we're still stuck in this mess."

Jongho stared down at his hands, gripping the fabric of his jeans

"I still remember when she used to laugh so freely, like nothing could touch her. It's like that light it just vanished , And I can't even bring myself to apologize for how we all failed her , how do you even apologize for something like that?"

Yunho, who had been quiet up until now, shook his head

"You don't , Some things can't be fixed with words."

He looked at Seonghwa, his voice steady

"I didn't understand it at first, why you stayed distant, but now I see it she was the glue holding us together ,  Without her, we were just falling apart."

"Still"

Seonghwa muttered, his eyes growing distant again

"I should've done something. I should've noticed earlier maybe I could have kept her from leaving , I should've protected her"

Hongjoong sighed heavily, wiping his face with both hands before speaking softly.

"We all should have , But what's done is done maybe the best we can do now is try to learn from our mistakes, not repeat them."

" You told her to leave and never come back Hongjoong, "

They all sat in silence for a moment, the weight of their regrets hanging in the air like a storm cloud

"I think of the way she smiled at me,"

Jongho said quietly, breaking the silence

"It wasn't just a smile it was like she could see through me , Like she knew what I needed before I even knew."

Yunho nodded, eyes focused on the floor

"She had this way of making you feel like you mattered. She could light up the whole room with just one look."

"Yeah"

Seonghwa muttered, his voice a bit choked

"She made everything feel possible , even when things were bad"

The words hung heavy between them, thick with nostalgia and longing

  Hongjoong ,  ever the realist, looked between them

"But we can't change the past. We all lost her, in different ways , And now, all we have left are these memories"

He paused, a quiet resolve settling in

"We need to move forward , We need to fix ourselves"

Jongho swallowed hard

"But what if we can't? What if we can't fix anything? What if she's better off without us? I mean it's been five years already "

Seonghwa closed his eyes

"Then we'll live with that guilt forever , But we owe it to her to everything we had with her to try"

They all fell quiet again, the reality of their situation setting in like a cold chill , What had they really lost? More than just a person.

They had lost a part of themselves. And now, with no answers and no way to turn back the clock, they were left with memories that burned just as bright as the sky had the day she'd walked out of their lives

Seonghwa once again took a long drag from his cigarette, the ember glowing bright as the smoke curled up into the air.

His thoughts were elsewhere, tracing memories until Jongho started talking

"Remember that time we were supposed to meet her at that restaurant?"

Jongho suddenly asked, breaking the silence that had settled over them like a heavy fog

His voice was low, almost like he was afraid to bring it up, but the memory was too strong to ignore

Seonghwa's fingers tightened around his cigarette, the memory hitting him harder than he expected.

"Yeah,"

he muttered

"I remember"

They had all agreed to meet at that small, quiet place Y/n loved . The kind of restaurant with dim lighting and food that seemed to taste better just because of the company.

But Seonghwa had the boys attend Rins prom day.

He'd never forget the look on Y/n's face when she called him that night.

"Where are you?" she had asked, her voice tinged with confusion, maybe even a hint of hurt.

" I've been waiting for you."

But he hadn't shown up none of them did , and she'd stayed there, alone, the same way she'd always done when they let her down.

Jongho exhaled a heavy sigh, the memory clearly still haunting him as well.

"You know,"

he said, shaking his head

"I thought we had time , I kept thinking Oh she'll understand , but she didn't , And we never really made it right."

Yunho leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his gaze far off in the distance.

"She never really said anything about it, but I think that was the moment it all started to change. She stopped trusting us, stopped believing that we'd put her first. That was the point when we really lost her."

Seonghwa's heart tightened in his chest. He wanted to argue, wanted to say that it wasn't true, that they could've fixed it somehow. But deep down, he knew they couldn't go back.

He'd seen it in her eyes the last time she'd looked at him, so tired and defeated, like she'd already made up her mind.

"I shouldn't have stayed with Rin,"

Seonghwa muttered bitterly, the words tasting like ashes

"I should've been there for her. I should've known then that she needed me more than anyone else."

"She needed all of us"

Jongho replied, his voice barely above a whisper

"But I think we were too caught up in everything else to see that."

The weight of the conversation hung heavily in the air. They were all broken in different ways, mourning a person who had slipped through their fingers. And no matter how much they wanted to change the past, they couldn't.

Hongjoong, always the pragmatist, spoke up once more.

"We can't fix what's already broken. But if we don't at least try to move on then we'll just be left here with more regrets."

Seonghwa's gaze flickered over to the younger , seeing the same exhaustion in his eyes that mirrored his own.

They had tried Lord, how they had tried but time had slipped away, and now they were left with the consequences of their choices.

"I still don't understand why she didn't fight for us, though,"

Jongho murmured, frustration and hurt seeping into his words.

Yunho finally looked up, his eyes softening as he glanced at Jongho.

"Maybe she was tired of fighting. Tired of always being the one to hold things together, only for us to tear them apart , We never gave her the space to be weak, to have moments where she could fall apart without feeling like it was her responsibility to fix us too."

The silence that followed was deafening. They all knew the truth, but none of them wanted to accept it.

Seonghwa shifted uncomfortably, still staring out the window

"I should've never let Rin into this relationship , That's was my biggest mistake."

"Not just Rin,"

Hongjoong said, his voice quiet but firm

"All of us were at fault. We all pushed her away in our own ways."

Seonghwa's fingers clenched into fists, his nails digging into his palm.

"But I could've stopped it. I should've. I could've seen what she was going through—seen how it was tearing her apart."

"And maybe we could have helped,"

Jongho added softly, his voice heavy with regret.

"But we didn't."

Seonghwa closed his eyes, leaning back in his chair. The ache in his chest was unbearable, a reminder of the person they'd lost and the chances they'd missed. He could still hear her voice in his head, still feel the sting of her absence.

"I just wanted to fix it all,"

he whispered, more to himself than to anyone else.

"But I don't even know where to begin."

The words hung in the air like an unanswered prayer, a desperate wish that maybe just maybe they could find a way to make it right.

But the truth was that they all knew they couldn't. The only thing they had left was the hope that Y/n had found peace, even if it meant doing so without them.

And maybe, just maybe, that was the hardest part of all

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Seonghwa wasn't expecting anyone , and it wasn't like they ever got visitors

Not at that hour.

Not after the kind of day he'd had , exhausted with his mind running through the past .

The house was quiet—too quiet. The others were asleep, the world outside dimly lit by streetlamps.

He was rinsing dishes when the sudden knock echoed through the apartment.

Three knocks.

Soft... but urgent.

He frowned, drying his hands on a towel.

Visitors didn't come here not unannounced, not at night.

When he opened the door, he expected a neighbor, maybe someone that just wanted help

But instead—

He froze.

Y/N stood there.

She looked nothing like the woman he remembered years ago. Her hair was in a pixie cut , her face thinner, and her eyes carrying a weight he'd never seen in her before.

She held a small backpack over her shoulder... and beside her, gripping her hand tightly, stood a little boy.

A boy who couldn't have been older than five.

A boy with San's eyes

San's dimples

San's complete facial expressions ……..

Seonghwa's breath hitched.

He didn't move.

He couldn't.

Y/N swallowed, her voice trembling.

"Seonghwa... hi."

"H–...how?"

His voice cracked into the cold hallway

"Y/N... what... what is this?"

The boy peeked out from behind her leg, staring up at Seonghwa with wide, familiar eyes that sent a shock straight through his chest.

"I know it's late," Y/N murmured, glancing down at her son, "and you probably never wanted to see me again... but I didn't know if I should have left before trying to say goodbye ."

Seonghwa stepped out of the doorway instinctively, staring at the child like he was looking at a ghost wearing San's face.

"Y/N,"

He whispered barely able to breathe

"Who... who is he?"

She hesitated, voice breaking as she finally spoke the words she'd been holding for years.

"He's San's son."

The world tilted.

Seonghwa grabbed the doorframe to steady himself. His eyes filled—shock, grief, disbelief, and something deeper—relief? longing? He didn't know.

He only knew his heart felt like it was being pulled in every direction at once.

"I thought you lost the baby,"

he whispered confused

"So did I,"

Y/N said softly.

"The doctors told me it was a miscarriage. And that there was no way I could have kept the growing baby But it wasn't. I only found out a month later... when it was too late to come back without facing all the pain"

Her voice shook.

"And by then... we all had already lost San. I didn't know how to walk into that grief with a child who looked exactly like him."

The boy tugged at Y/n’s sleeve gently, his voice small.

"I'm thirsty "

Seonghwa closed his eyes as if the little voice physically hit him.

When he opened them again, tears blurred the hallway lights.

"He looks so much like him,"

Seonghwa whispered, his voice barely holding together.

"God... Y/N... he looks exactly like him."

"I know,"

she said, brushing a hand over her son's hair.

"That's why I came at night so nobody else would see him. and I'm glad you opened the door "

Seonghwa looked up sharply.

"Wait—why? Why are you hiding him?"

Y/N bit her lip.

"Because I'm not staying," 

she said quietly

"And I'm not ready for the others to know. Not yet. Maybe not ever."

Seonghwa stepped toward her, torn between disbelief and heartbreak.

"You came all this way..."

His voice cracked.

"Only to leave again?"

She nodded, tears finally spilling.

"I just needed to tell  San didn't leave the world without leaving something behind."

The boy looked up at both adults, confused by the tears but not frightened.

Seonghwa knelt down in front of him, his voice soft, reverent.

"Hi, little man,"

he whispered stroking his cheeks

The boy smiled—San's smile.

Bright. Gentle. Effortlessly warm.

Y/N pulled her son close, brushing her fingers through his soft hair.

"I'm not asking for anything,"

"I just... needed you to meet him. Needed one person to know the truth."

Seonghwa stood, wiping tears from his cheeks.

"What do you want me to do?"

he asked, voice trembling.

Y/N took a shaky breath.

"Don't tell the others. Please. I don't want them to hurt again... not because of me. Not because of him , it's better they just don't know that I still exist at all "

Seonghwa looked from her... to the child... to the memories flooding back.

He nodded slowly.

"I won't say a word,"

"But Y/N... I'm glad you came back. Even if it's only for tonight."

She smiled weakly stroking his cheek

"Thank you, Seonghwa."

And for a moment, the hallway was quiet—filled with grief, love, loss... and something that felt like healing.

" I've missed you so much you don't even know how much I've wanted to turn everything around so that we would be together again "

" It is what it is , I've forgotten about it and i don't resent you or the others "

Seonghwa looked at her with tears as he shook his head still in disbelief

" And you should let go too find something or even better someone that will keep you going "

Y/N adjusted Siah in her arms, the little boy now fully asleep, cheek pressed against her shoulder.

Seonghwa watched him with soft eyes, then looked back up at Y/N.

"You said you're not staying,"

he murmured.

"But... what will you do now?"

Y/N exhaled, her breath shaky.

"I've been thinking about that a lot,"

she said softly.

"I want to take him somewhere quiet. Somewhere nobody knows me, or him"

" Start fresh. He deserves a childhood that isn't shaped by grief."

Seonghwa nodded slowly, his brows pulling together in sympathy.

"Does he know his grandparents?"

he asked carefully.

"Not yet,"

she whispered.

"I couldn't bring myself to show up at their door with him. I didn't want to reopen their wounds. I didn't want them to see him and break all over again."

Seonghwa nodded slowly, understanding completely.

"They would love him,"

he said quietly.

"You know that, right?"

“ Yes I know , and that’s what scares me the most ”

She sighed and adjusted the sleeping child on her chest

"I don't know if I'm ready for that,"

she continued.

"I don't know if they're ready either. Maybe when he's older. Maybe when I'm stronger."

Seonghwa nodded.

"And your plan now?"

he asked, voice barely above a whisper making her take a deep breath

"I want to go somewhere peaceful,"

she said.

"Maybe a smaller city. Maybe by the ocean. Somewhere he can run, and play, and not feel like he's part of a story that ended in tragedy."

Seonghwa smiled faintly.

This wasn't just a goodbye — it was the last page of a chapter neither of them knew they were still reading.

"I should go,"

Seonghwa nodded, even though every part of him wished she could stay a few minutes longer.

"Okay,"

He replied as he prepared himself mental to depart from her once again

" Just... one  more thing."

"What?"

she asked gently , He smiled sadly.

" I'm sorry for ruining us , and every pain that I caused you Seonghwa ”

Y/N's throat tightened.

“ Hey , don’t you dare apologize for anything you didn’t do to me , all you ever did was love me ”

“ Promise me you won’t blame yourself for anything regarding us ever again ”

"I promise,"

she whispered.

Seonghwa closed his eyes for a moment, breathing in the promise like something sacred.

"Good," he said softly. "That's all I needed."

She adjusted Siah one last time, stepped toward the door, paused—

and looked back at him.

"Goodbye, Seonghwa."

He swallowed hard.

"Goodbye, Y/N. Take care of him...and yourself."

She nodded.

Then she walked out — into the quiet night — carrying her son and the relief she didn't know she had.

And Seonghwa watched the door close, knowing this was the last time he'd ever see the only piece of his heart .

The end .

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Hi , I know it’s been a long time but I’ll post the last part of the series soon stay tuned 😙

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Help i was Reading something called , Bridesmaid but Never the bride it’s about Ateez making Y/n their wife’s bridesmaid but they disrespect her etc

I wasn’t finished now I lost it and I don’t remember the username can someone help me out?

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Watch your back: chapter 10

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warning : this chapter contains mentions of Ateez being careless , lots of crying , Mingi lashing out on everyone, Seonghwa being a douche bag , Y/n destroying her room , Hongjoong manhandling Y/n , Y/n finally having enough , huge character death , heartbreak, Wooyoung and Yunho being emotional wrecked, Hongjoong being cruel , Huge huge Angst etc Please reminding me if I forgot something

Hold in your tears because this is the penultimate chapter of the Watch your back series :(

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea , @layzfeelit , @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon , @tunaasan , @riririyuhn , @vixensss

Word count: 3,6k

The fresh sheets made her feel like she could sleep forever and not get up

It smelled like freshly squeezed lemons and strawberries for some reason

Y/n stretched and opened her eyes slowly feeling herself pressed against someone

The memories from the night prior invaded her mind making her sigh and look at him

She admired his facial features as he slept peacefully with nothing bothering him at all

" See you later "

The girl whispered and kissed his cheek and stood up to collect her clothes before leaving his room carefully

It was time to go home , a place she didn't even want to go to

It was time to see everyone else , the people she didn't even want to see

Y/n grabbed her high heels and held them in her hands together with the plastic bag her dress was inside after Dawon had washed in and placed it in the living room for her to take

Unlocking the door to the boys door she went out and started walking home just to save time and prepare herself for the mental draining talk with whoever decided to gang up on her

She wanted to change and treat herself better , she wanted to be with someone who wanted her for her and not whenever they feel like they needed to love her all of the sudden

Her phone luckily survived since she didn't jump together with it into the water

Remembering the audio she send yesterday , she quickly checked if he had seen it but sighed in relief when the check marks where still grey and hadn't turned blue so she deleted them

It's not like she succeeded for it to still be there so it was kind of embarrassing for her

" Young Lady wait a minute ! "

Someone shouted and ran after her

" Can I have a moment please ? It's quick "

" Sure it's not like I have somewhere to be urgently, how can I help you "

The man smiled and took out a business card

" You look really beautiful and I would like to ask you if you had ever thought about modeling before? It's ok if you have no experience "

The girl chuckled and looked at the card and back at the man

" I have not thought about it before , I'll call if I'm interested in doing this "

" Take your time , I'm available until next Saturday before I have to leave for a business meeting in another city "

He bowed and left after thanking her

Walking for some minutes until she reached home her mind kept thinking about the offer but she didn't really pay mind to it

Punching in the code the door unlocked so she could walk in , Y/n removed her shoes and I walked into the kitchen to drink something

" Where have you been ? "

She continued to drink ignoring the said person who stood there eyes bloodshot starring at her sleep deprived

" I asked where you have been "

Y/n finally looked at the person and chuckled

" I don't know if I want to answer you or even look at your face so please let me be "

" Why are you behaving this way ? I'm worried and I couldn't sleep until I knew you where home and safe "

" Cut it out , if you cared you would add me to  the reservation list , but guess what I made a fool out of myself because I thought they did a mistake when in reality you never added me "

" Baby i forgot to , and I'm sorry "

" Don't baby me , im not about to take this apology and walk with it , the way you guys treated me yesterday was not it "

She opened the cabinets and scoffed

" And don't open my stuff when im not home "

He sighed and went closer to her

" My love im sorry I know how fed up you are but forgive me this once "

" Seonghwa I want to be fed up and I have the right to , I'm not doing well and it was just to much these past weeks and months "

Seonghwa looked at her rubbing his eyes

" Whatever I just wanted to make it up to you but you're being a bitch about it "

He stood up and left making her angry

" I'm being a bitch about people hurting me all the time ?! , do you even hear yourself! "

She yelled after him hitting his back

" Seonghwa do you realize who you've become? , you where literally trying to gaslight me into accepting your apology! "

He looked back and scoffed

" Darling that's not called gaslighting , don't say things out of context "

" I don't even care at this point, you know what hurts the most ? "

" What is it again , now you're home and I can go back to sle-"

" Having loved all of you was the hugest mistake i have ever committed , each day I discover more of your rotten personality "

Y/n stared at him and laughed

" You should be glad someone loved you in the first place , and if you're so tired leave "

Seonghwa scoffed once again and went into his room

" Oh so I need to leave now because you are a bad partner? "

" You're the ungrateful one , you have eight boyfriends and it's still not enough "

" Yeah exactly , look who's talking you literally found another girlfriend behind my back and not only that , she doesn't even pay rent but I have to ?  I still don't understand "

Seonghwa rolled his eyes and sighed once again wishing he had just went to sleep instead of waiting like a maniac

"  Y/n I'm starting to think that you're jealous of Rin lately, you always speak with so much hate about her it's never something good "

He turned around and looked at her in a weird type of way

" Me jealous of her ? , Seonghwa you clearly don't know the meaning between despising someone and their behavior and actually hating them as a person "

" Yeah you're clearly jealous, just because she's young and beautiful and carries herself like the beauty she is doesn't mean you have to always punch her around

The moment he said those words was when her tears started building up

" Maybe if you dressed up more and showed off your beauty we wouldn't have started dating her in the first place "

Y/n laughed smiling and left towards her room before she unpacked all her memories with Seonghwa and all his clothes to the ones he gifted her and started throwing them inside a bag and placed it out her room as she wiped her tears

All the dresses she had worn as , all the pictures and jewelry and not to forget the big frame she had once thrown on the ground was laying in front of her door with glass scattered around once again alarming nearly everyone

" What is wrong with you !

Yunho woke up and gasped as he saw her front door and the way she was trashing her room

" Y/n Stop this nonsense right now ! "

Hongjoong sprinted into the room furiously and grabbed her as he impulsively grabbed her hair

" Are you insane ?! , why are you trashing your room for in this morning "

" What is wrong with her lately?"

Yeosang whispered as he stared at Hongjoong manhandling Y/ln

" I was talking to you , what is your issue "

He said angrily starring deeply into her eyes

" I'm done with Seonghwa, I don't want anything to do with him anymore neither do I want his stuff anymore I hate him "

She cried before freeing herself from his grip

" And when have you two broken up for you to act this way? "

" Today right now , and matter of fact I'm breaking up with all of you "

" Y/n you can't do that "

" Oh I can and I just did , I'm done playing the punching bag in this relationship "

The girl watched as all their faces dropped making her laugh

" Shocked ? , i thought that's what y'all wanted the most to happen no ? "

Mingi looked at her with a frown as Wooyoung held his back because he knew he'd cry

" Y/n are you out of your mind? You can't just break up with us because you want to "

" Jongho , I'm sick of y'all neglecting me and treating me like trash I've done this already for four years and I'm tired , I lost my child and my passion for most of the things I loved , not only that but I was degraded by my now ex boyfriend who told me that if I dressed myself up or was prettier you guys wouldn't get together with Rin , and I just realized that this is not what I want anymore "

San looked at her and bawled his fists

" You're really throwing away all our battles and love even after we lost Sanie ? "

" No , you guys threw all the love away  "

Y/n grabbed her duffel bag and started packing her belongings and everything she needed to leave

" Baby please I'll change just don't leave me "

Mingi cried out and kneeled in front of her as he held her legs

" You can't just throw out our memories "

She chuckled and wiped her eyes

" I can't believe Mingi is the only one begging for mercy , it just shows show much he cares unlike you guys "

Packing her stuff she left the bag on her bed and started texting Rowoon to come pick her up

" Please don't leave Y/n , im begging you to not leave me for the sake of my love for you "

Mingi was a crying mess as everyone stared at him making a fool out of himself when she ignored his rants

" I-I wanted to propose to you yesterday but you weren't there so I couldn't "

He pulled out the red velvet box showing the beautiful golden ring with green diamonds on top as he wiped his runny nose with the back of his hand making her turn around

"Mingi you're not being for real now "

Yunho asked in disbelief as he looked at him

" I love her , and I wanted to propose to her yesterday in front of everyone else "

Y/n looked at Mingi with tears as he stared right back at her

" And you didn't discuss this with us first "

" I don't need to discuss anything with you , I loved her first before Seonghwa even pursued her even though he knew I had a crush on Y/n"

" But she's our girlfriend too so you had to at least tell us about the proposal "

" Besides did you consider Rins feelings ? "

Wooyoung sighed and looked at Rin that fiddled with her fingers

" Y/n is my number one priority and she knows how much I love her, I feel like an idiot for not standing up when you guys ganged up on her , have you guys forgotten about your vows when we first started dating her ? "

" You think you're better because you wanted to propose to her ? "

" See this is what I'm talking about! ever since you guys started dating that kid y'all have become so ignorant ! "

Mingi yelled and stood up and pushing Yunho out off pure rage

" We were a perfect family, but you Hongjoong you destroyed everything since the day you introduced us to Rin ! "

Y/n watched things unfold in front of her eyes as she had never seen Mingi that angry let alone push his best friend

" Mingi please calm down "

" No they have to listen, especially San who I still need to understand why he's defending the one that made  him loose his opportunity to become a first time dad "

" You can't blame her it was her friends that did it "

" She commanded them too hurt her ! are you that delusional Yeosang?! Stop making up things to justify her behavior "

He yelled at Yeosang frustrated who looked shocked and held his chest

" And Rin I've never loved you like the way I loved Y/n , I felt like I was forced to love you somehow "

The boys looked at Mingi surprised as he hovered over Rin who backed away

" I've seen your tricks and plays but never said anything for the sake of the others , I can't believe a woman can degrade herself and be so disgusting to her own kind "

He looked at her with pure disgust in his eyes as he watched her tear up in shock

" The words must have hit home right ? You yourself know what you did "

" Mingi that's enough "

Seonghwa grabbed him and harshly looked at him

" Don't touch me Seonghwa, you out of everyone disappointed me the most "

Y/n just stood there in shock seeing everything unfold before her eyes

" I'm tired of you guys , and one thing I know is that I want to stay with her and I'll move out "

He grabbed her hand and left the house in a hurry

" Mingi slow down I'm gonna fall "

she panted and held onto his hand as he stopped on the sidewalk

" I-I I just couldn't bear it anymore , I was tired of them hurting you only  if you had  heard the things being said yesterday at the dinner "

Mingi teared up as he looked at her

" It's like you never existed to them , they just remember you when they need you or something "

She chuckled and looked into his glossy eyes

" thats why I am leaving, you don't need to worry about me being hurt anymore "

Mingi held onto her as he teared up once more

" I'm so sorry for treating you like trash , I can't believe I turned away from the person that helped me overcome my darkest times these past years "

The girl couldn't help but hug back as she snuggled onto his embrace

" I love you so much , I don't ever want to leave you so please stay with me "

" I-I want you to stay with me Y/n "

She remained silent as she held onto him unable to answer

" I'm begging you please stay with me , you don't need to get married with me now just stay "

Her eyes glossed up as she saw the familiar car pull up from the distance but she couldn't bring herself to let go of him

" Please Y/n say something anything "

He stuttered as he feared of her leaving him

" Mingi I-I can't right now I need some time "

She sniffed detaching herself from him as she saw Rowoon get out the car in his black hoodie and jeans leaning against the car door

" Please don't leave me "

He mumbled once again as she stepped back and looked at him as her heart shattered into million pieces

" Mingi I'll text you later "

She slowly grabbed her bag and started walking away towards Rowoon's car leaving Mingi sobbing to himself on the side of the road while he watched her leave

" Please drive I can't bear to see him like that please "

She mumbled looking away as she entered the car feeling her heart clench ten times harder that before

Rowoon didn't even dare ask as he just started driving past Mingi who yelled after the car as he ran to catch up with them

Y/n closed her eyes and lowered her head in shame

She felt like crap for breaking his heart that way , especially because she knew how sensitive and soft Mingi was

The thing that scared her the most was that he'd fall back into his old ways to coupe with reality

———

" Has she ate anything yet ? "

Jaeyoon came into the living room where the other boys sat down watching tv

" She hasn't been feeling like it since hours now , I tried giving her some bread at least but she remained unresponsive "

Rowoon sighed as he made himself comfortable on the couch

" I don't know what went down at they house but it seemed pretty ugly , she texted me suddenly asking me to pick her up "

" Do you think she broke up with them ? "

" That's what I have guessed by the way one of them chased us after I started driving off , he screamed and cried like crazy made me feel bad for him "

The boys all looked at each other as the atmosphere turned into a gloomy one

" Gosh look what love does to someone "

Inseong shook his head as he skipped trough the channels until he landed on a specific one

" Guys look at this "

They looked at the news headlines with frowns especially Rowoon as he froze

" Someone committed suicide by jumping of their home building not long ago "

Hwiyoung grimaced not wanting to imagine as he covered his eyes

" Now why would someone do that ? "

" Why are you looking so shocked? do you perhaps know the guy ? "

" That's one of her boyfriends , the one that we meet down town one day sitting at the bench "

" The undercut guy that worked at the convenience store , sharp jaw and cat like eyes "

" The guy from the dance studio we frequented Taeyang what's his name ?! "

" You mean San ? "

"Yeah that's him ! ,I never knew he was her boyfriend "

Rowoon lowered his head sighing as he felt bad especially for Y/n that had yet to receive the news

" But why did he do that ? , do you think it's because of their break up ? "

" Bro i can tell you from experience that I was depressive as well when  I broke up with Hana "

Zuho sighed and rubbed his head

" Love hurts man it really does "

The boys didn't notice that she stood there in tears accompanying the news together with them

her vision blurred as she felt her heart pump in pain

Not being able to continue listening she bolted out of their apartment bare feet making the boys look at each other before Rowoon ran out after

As much as it hurt running on the cold wet side walk it pained more losing someone who she once called the love of her life

Running and running which felt like hours as the rain poured on her soaking all her clothes until she reached the scene seeing the sirens of the ambulance and police cars in front of the building

Within each big breath she took as she approached the mass of people standing there watching she felt her hart shattering

" Let me pass please , I need to get to him "

Whispering as she tried to squeeze herself between the people to get to main scene

Her feet burned and ached from falling and stubbing her toes on the rocks along the way

Every single step she took she wished it wasn't true , every single breath she took she wished he could tell her that it was all a bad dream since the beginning

And that they could restart everything despite all the heart break in the past weeks and months

But that all would be a dream come true , because right in front of her two eyeballs  stood Wooyoung sobbing in a squat position as everyone else sobbed circling around him

" No No , please San please don't do this to me "

Her messy self ran after the men that carried the stretched into the ambulance

" Please don't take him away from me please "

Tears streamed down her face as she begged the man who looked at her feeling her pain

" Miss we need to carry the deceased away "

" Please let me see my boyfriend one last time "

Someone yanked her away from the stretched before pushing her to the ground

" How dare you show yourself after what you did to him ?! How heartless are you ! "

Yunho yelled at her in rage before pushing her back down as she tried to get up slowly

" You killed San ! You took him away from his family and us ! I hate you so much "

Wooyoung yelled as he charged towards her his rage the double of what everyone felt

" I have the right to be here , I love San "

She hiccuped out refusing to put him in the past tense

" You should be ashamed of yourself to show up here after today "

Jongho looked at her in disgust

" You didn't only take San away from us but you destroyed Mingi, he's locked inside his room with Hongjoong because he fell back into his old ways "

She shook her head sobbing loudly

" I n-never wanted this to happe-"

" Shut up ! You just wanted to be together with that other guy , you broke up with us because of him "

Yeosang scoffed as he looked down on her face while Seonghwa stood there his eyes glossy refusing to approach her

" You're a monster and you disgust me "

The strangers just watched and filmed the scene in front of them without butting in

" Stop This instant , stop filming ! "

Someone yelled with angry tears trying to shoo away the crowd

“ Stop filming her , please go away ”

Miss Cha hugged Y/n who hyperventilated clutching her face as the rain poured on her

“ How can you guys turn your back on her ! She lost someone too !”

She yelled hitting Yunho who sobbed as he looked at Y/n

Hongjoong came out after making sure Mingi slept soundly his eyes red and puffy

“ Guys get inside, I’ll drive to the hospital ”

Seonghwa slowly gathered everyone with Rin who looked at her in disgust

“ I don’t care about why you’re here , I’m just making it clear that I don’t want you around our house anymore after what you did today don’t even think about contacting Mingi or Sans family, don’t you even dare to appear on San’s funeral ”

Hongjoong looked at her with hatred before walking towards his car and driving away towards the hospital

The only thing that took it took for her heart to shatter fully without any way of turning back we’re his words and the heavy rain pouring onto her and Ms Cha who held her tightly against her chest

Love hurts , but this hurt a million times worser

[mangishiii]

Watch your back : Chapter 9

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warning : this chapter contains mentions of Ateez being careless , lots of crying , jumping off a cliff etc Please reminding me if I forgot something

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea , @layzfeelit , @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon @tunaasan , @riririyuhn , @vixensss

Word count: 1,5k

" Im so exhausted and my feet hurt "

Wooyoung sighed out as he plopped on the couch massaging his feet groaning

" It took a lot longer than expected "

Yeosang laughed and removed his suit

" I was scared your mom was not going to like me to be honest "

Rin sat beside Wooyoung who chuckled and held her softly planting a kiss on her temple

" My mom is cautious, but she'll grow to like you so don't worry about it "

Yunho who's hair was now messy scratched his chest as he came into the kitchen looking around

" Do we still have those mini crackers? "

He looked inside the cupboards humming

" Don't open them it's from Y/n "

Seonghwa came into the kitchen stressed

" Where is she even? wasn't she supposed to be with us earlier? "

" Yeah but you and Jongho forgot to add her "

" When was I even supposed to ? "

Yunho opened the crackers anyways eating them as Seonghwa looked at him in disbelief

" We clearly talked about this last week ? how could you forget? "

" Gosh Seonghwa chill can't someone forget stuff? And why didn't you add her ? "

The younger walked out the kitchen leaving the elder to himself

" Hwa just go to bed , she's a grown woman "

Mingi yawned coming into the kitchen

"I'm just worried a little since it's really late and her phone is going straight to voicemail "

" Maybe she's on her way home let's just go to sleep she's grown and capable of knowing her way home stop stressing over nothing "

Seonghwa looked at the younger as he sighed , he just couldn't go to sleep like that his heart told him something was wrong and it put a huge weight on him

But at the end he just locked the door and turned the lights off hoping for her to return home by the time he woke up

___

The cold water embracing her body slowly numbed every part of her making it unable to move even if she wanted too

The struggling with breathing wasn't kicking in yet much to her liking

All her thoughts ran out freely as she just let herself sink further into the water

Was this really the right choice?

Or stupid to give up everything she fought for to be here in the first place?

It felt like an eternity as Y/n continued to sink but what scared her was when something grabbed her making her struggle against whatever it was

The muffled underwater screams didn't seem to do anything against the mysterious thing that kept pulling her upwards towards the light  coming from the surface

Y/n kept fighting against the mysterious thing that kept swimming upward

She gasped and coughed as she was held against something rock hard

" Are you insane ? You could've died ! "

The person yelled at her as he panted in fear looking at her

" Why didn't you let me sink ! Nobody would have cared if I disappeared for once "

She cried coughing

" Wait Y/n ? Why the heck would you do such a dangerous thing ?! do you know how much you scared me to death when I saw you jump ? "

It took her a good moment to notice that the person who basically saved her was one of Rowoons friends

" D-Dawon , I- "

" Look we'll talk about this later let's just get out of here before we get sick "

He sighed and started swimming towards the dry part with her on his back

" I'm sorry you had to save someone like me "

" Let's not do this now , I just want you to go home safely with me so we can talk "

He shook his head trying to get the water out his ears before he took her hand and walked up towards the place he dropped his bag when he jumped in

" I'm just glad you're safe "

The boy sighed out trying to calm down since he was still under shock

" I don't want to go home "

" Don't worry I'm not taking you there "

She stood there shivering as she looked at her bare feet while he fished into his gym bag For his towel

" Did you eat anything? "

Dawon dried her hair as she just stood there not responding

" It's ok if you don't want to talk , let's just call a taxi to our dorm since you don't want to go home and I won't force you "

He pulled out his phone called a taxi

" Yes we are near the Han river, yeah exactly there thank you "

She looked at him with tears extremely ashamed and feeling pathetic since she couldn't even succeed in this one thing

" Why did you jump in ? It would've been better if I was gone "

Dawon looked at her as he closed his eyes sighing before hugging her

" I'd never let someone die before my eyes, even if I didn't know you and I'm so glad I did because you're so young and you have so much to achieve, and Rowoon would be so devastated if I hadn't saved you and I'm sure other people as well would be broken "

“ I can’t do this anymore , I’m a failure I can’t even defend myself anymore ”

The girl cried on his wet shirt ,it was a lot of weight on her shoulders and how could she forget about that one person who cared about her the most , who was willing to love her like nobody else ever loved her

" I'm so sorry, I don't know why I did this in the first place I'm so ungrateful "

" Y/n please , it must have been hard if it drove you to do this "

He grabbed her face and wiped her tears away with his thumb before guiding her towards the taxi that just arrived

" Please don't tell Rowoon about this I don't want to worry him more than I have by ignoring his texts lately "

Dawon nodded and shut the taxi door as they drove in silence

———

Both of them entered the dorm quietly careful not to make any noise

" But I don't have any clothes "

Y/n shivered as she hugged herself as Dawon went into his room and came back with some clothes and a towel

" These are new boxers that I just bought recently you can wear them "

She took them and went to change after taking a hot  shower , but most of the time found herself shedding tears or starring at herself at the mirror the boys had in their bathroom

Were did she fail ? , was it really a blessing to still be breathing after her selfish act ?

After drying herself and blow drying her hair she stepped out of the bathroom and ran into one of the boys that was waiting so they could go to the toilet

" Oh I didn't know you were here "

" I myself didn't expect it either but it's good to see you again Jaeyoon "

He smiled and rubbed her head before dismissing himself to go to the toilet

" Hey you finished? "

Y/n nodded and looked around before fiddling with her fingers nervously

" Can you tell me were Rowoon's room is ? "

" He's probably asleep but go ahead it's the second door down the hall "

He smiled and said good night leaving her to herself in the semi dark hallway

Walking towards her best friends room she carefully opened the door and went inside , the room smelled so good it made her feel like home but yet so distant from it

She carefully went unter the covers but held her distance, it's like she felt it kinda being inappropriate being so close to him even thought they had watched films together in her room as he cuddled her

The moon made his face look so perfect and adorable as he slept soundless

How could someone as handsome like him like her let alone love her more than the best friend stage ? It was still a mystery to her

" Y/n is that you ? "

He asked without opening his eyes

" No it's not Y/n "

She changed her voice on purpose stiffening her laugh with tears

" Don't lie to me , it's smells like you "

He pulled the girl closer to him opening his eyes yawning

"Do I smell that good to be recognized ? "

" You always smell good and even from miles away I could tell that it's you "

She smiled softly letting him hold her , her worries long forgotten

“ I’m not even gonna ask you why you’re in my room this late at night , I’m just glad you’re alright and by my presence again ”

He smiled and softly yawned once again

“ Rowoon? ”

The boy hummed and kept yawning

“ Do you still love me ? ”

Rowoon opened his eyes meeting her glossy ones that stared back at him

“I do love you , but why are you asking me this ? Is everything alright? ”

“ How can you love someone as broken and insecure as me ? ”

She looked at him with lips in between her teeth due to her nerves playing with her

“ Because you deserve more , and you stole my heart with how sweet and caring not to forget how beautiful you are ”

The boy took her by the waist and smiled softly kissing her forehead

“These fools don’t know what they are missing out by not appreciating you enough and I just want a chance to show you how much you can be happy and appreciated ”

[mangishiii]

Watch your back: Chapter 8

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warning : this chapter contains mentions of, arguing with Rin , missing deceased parent , lots of crying , confessions ( at the end ) , miscarriage , uncontrolled drinking of alcohol, Hongjoong being a big liar , Y/n looking a mess , jumping off a cliff etc Please reminding me if I forgot something

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea, @layzfeelit, @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon

Word count: 2,2k

Y/n was currently at a Donation center where she'd be donating all the clothes she once had bought for her now lost child to the first time mommy's

It was nerve wrecking for her to see all the Young mothers and their babies while she wouldn't be able to hold hers anymore

" It's alright , you're doing the right thing "

The elder woman smiled rubbing her back encouraging her to deliver the box to the other ladies that where checking out the clothes conditions

" It's just that I felt overwhelmed kinda "

She smiled softly and finally got the courage to hand over her box and leave after saying goodbye

As the girl walked along side the road , tears suddenly fell from her eyes automatically making the ones passing her pity and ask themselves why she was crying on such a beautiful bright sunny day

They wouldn't understand if she tried to explain how hard it was to let go of the things she bought while being exited

Not the typical excitement because she was gonna be a mommy

But the excitement because she'd have someone to love dearly and nurse them until they left her to love someone else just like they where loved by her

Y/n wiped her tears chuckling at the thought that she probably looked insane crying and laughing at the same time

" Y/n ! i haven't seen you in a while my dear "

The market lady She frequently visited for her amazing fried chicken shouted waving her over as she smiled

" Oh my , I'm so sorry I haven't passed by lately I've been going through some thing's but I'm getting better now "

She smiled hugging the lady that immediately kissed jher cheek and stuffed her mouth with some chicken making her smile

" I've missed you too Mrs.Kim "

She chewed on the food before waving and left after they had a small talk

Going up the stairs she put in the code and walked inside her home taking off the shoes

" Where were you ? "

Hongjoong asked as he was sitting on the couch with San that didn't even look at her

“ I went to Donate the clothes I had bought for little Sanie to first time mommy's that couldn't afford to buy clothes or other stuff for their newborns "

She smiled softly and sat down beside him

" I'm proud of you for letting go "

Hongjoong said smiling sympathetically

"I had to do it sooner because I didn't want to create an unhealthy attachment with the things so I donated them "

She laid her head on his shoulder as he kissed her forehead

" Where are the others anyway? "

" They left to do groceries and Jongho went to get his teeth checked  with Mingi "

She grimaced just thinking about the pain

" Also we are having dinner with our parents to finally introduce Rin to them "

Y/n looked up at him with brows furrowed

" So get dressed up because Yeosang's Mom insists for you to come since she hasn't seen you in a long while "

The teen couldn't help but smile

" But don't overdress so that you don't steal Rin's spotlight tonight , it wouldn't be fair if the eyes were only on you tonight "

Hongjoong stood up and left towards his studio leaving both San and Y/n with an awkward silence

Not being able to handle sitting there she stood up and went to her room and look for an outfit

————

" Hwa ! do I look pretty ? "

Rin twirled as she came down showing off her dark blue dress with a cut on the back

" It's pretty "

He didn't even really look at her since he was on his phone texting his dad

" You didn't even look at me baby "

She pouted and grabbed him by his suit

" Where's Mingi ? "

" He's with Y/n helping her zip up her dress "

Wooyoung said as he sat on the couch fixing his hair

" I don't just think that they're simply fixing her dress it's been more than ten minutes "

Just as Yunho spoke both of them walked down the hall

" No need to rush , her other dress wouldn't zip up so she changed into this "

Mingi who was practically matching her in his black suit said as he held her by the waist and guided her towards the door as everyone got out

" You sure it was just a change of clothes? "

Hongjoong eyed him annoyed since he saw some her lip gloss on his lips shimmering

"Don't you see his lips? They've been making out while we waited she's trying to ruin my night with your parents "

The younger scoffed making Y/n look at her unbothered

" You're not that special for me to steal whatever night you think you own "

" Y/n enough "

" You're just Jealous  that they care more about me than they care about you "

Rin turned around her seat and glared at Y/n

" Oh please, these eight men were mine first , I have already claimed every single one of them and the little attention you're getting doesn't face me at all it's the bare minimum  compared to what they give me "

" Please if they oh so loved you why would they get a second girlfriend then ? "

She chuckled cocking her brows looking at the now burgundy haired Y/n who laughed

" My love I don't know what to tell you other than it's none of my concern "

" Girls enough this is supposed to be a happy night for all of us "

Seonghwa sighed as he glared through the front mirror

" a happy night for me ? What will I gain from this Park ? seeing you guys enjoy showing her off while I just sit there and smile pretty like daddy's girl ? Is that what you want me to be doing all night long ?  "

" Calm down you're killing the mood and we haven't even started yet "

Jongho squeezed her thighs glaring at her so she could stop

" I don't know about you guys but I'm just here because Yeosang's mom wants to see me "

Y/n sighed making Yeosang look at her funny

" When has my mom said that ? "

" I was told that your mom wanted to see me since we haven't met in a while "

" If she had said that I would've known but that's not the case , I don't know who told you that but don't lie on my moms name "

He looked at her kinda irritated

After Yeosang's words hit her she looked outside biting her lips to calm down

" You could've stayed at home I don't even know why you're here "

Jongho mumbled but forgot he was a bit loud

" Alright just get out and stop talking we're here and behave "

Everyone pilled out the car leaving Y/n sitting there as she continued to bite her inner lips with closed eyes

"When you get over your tantrum lock the car "

Seonghwa threw the car keys onto her lap and left going inside the restaurant

Tears of anger suddenly left her eyes as she bawled her fists and screamed loudly

Why would Hongjoong lie to her ?

What was the point of him telling her that Yeosang's mom wanted her to come when she clearly never said that  ?

The only things that angered her was that he made her look like a fool in front of everyone else but was glad that it didn't actually happen in front of Yeosang's family and everyone else's parents, because if that did happen she would die from embarrassed right there

The girl wiped her tears and sat there for another twenty minutes debating on if she wanted to go or not

On the end she decided to get off the car and walk in after fixing her make up

" Wait , miss do you have any reservations? "

" Yes I'm actually here to meet up with the family of my boyfriend's "

" Name please ?"

" Y/n , you'll find me under my boyfriend's name Choi Jongho or Jeong Yunho  "

The guard checked the list while looking up at he kinda suspicious

" These names are indeed on the list but im sorry I can't seem to find you on here "

He cleared his throat and waved for guards to come over

" No but , there must be a mistake can you please look again? "

" I'm not blind and neither do I have the time to handle  this madness I don't get payed enough for this crap "

He scoffed and signaled for them to wait as Y/n looked at him in disbelief

" I don't get enough love to be here either , you know what ? give The guy named Park Seonghwa his car keys and tell him that im off the map for tonight "

She threw the keys on the table and left

" Thank you this is just what I needed "

The girl groaned as the heavy rain started pouring on her making the dress stick to her body

She couldn't understand what their problem against her was

All she ever did was love them with all she had

But apparently that was all just a waste of her time

Y/n started to doubt that all the I love you's where real

Or anything that included them loving her

She felt limp and cold as the rain kept pouring down on her

Nothing hurt more than being lied to and made a fool of

Turning around the corner she walked into a a small store all messed up, her once beautiful makeup was ruined and so was her hair making the cashier look at her surprised

Y/n looked around and ended up at the liquor section sighing as she grabbed a big bottle off Vodka even though she hesitated for a good minute

Starring at the bottle she finally went to the cashier to pay

" Is everything ok miss ? "

The young girl who registered the things looked at her once again tilting her head

" Not really but that's how life is "

" Can I see your ID please "

She showed  her ID and payed for the stuff

" I don't know what you're going through but please cheer up everything is going to get better it will take time so please don't worry "

" Sweetheart, don't you ever enter a poly relationship it will slowly destroy you "

She grinned and left after making the young cashier confused

Wandering the streets of Seoul , Y/n didn't really know were she was going but one thing she knew was that she was going to keep walking until she couldn't anymore

Opening the strawberry flavored alcoholic drink she chugged on it carelessly as if it was juice even thought it was burning her throat

" What did I do wrong Mom ? "

She cried out as she sat down on a bench looking up at the sky

" Can't I just be with you again? "

Tears streamed down as she felt herself getting drunk because of the amount of alcohol she already consumed

" I wish I never left you , I wish I had spend more time with you on those sleepless nights "

Looking onto the water that glistened because of the moonlight made her feel like being hugged my someone but yet so empty at the same time

The Han river looked so pretty on night time which did comfort her for a little

" What did I do wrong ? Am I not pretty enough ? Am I getting fat ? "

She pulled out her phone and opened the camera seeing her face

A complete disaster  , Make up all smeared ,  her hair a mess , lips all smudged

It all make her bawl out more tears as she told herself how pathetic she looked and eventually stood up and laughed at her own misery

Walking up to the railing she stared down onto the cold looking water

A huge feeling of comfort but at the same time the loneliness always seemed to come back

Y/n climbed up the railing and sat on it taking a deep breath shaking

She wanted to give up , every single memory came flashing through her mind

Maybe the only way out for her was to leave completely

" Hey …. ,  I know you were probably mad at me earlier and I'm sorry , I just wanted to wish you all the best with Rin treat her better than you've ever treated me and give her lots of love , I've always wanted to be loved but it didn't seem like I could really get that from you guys lately and it's ok because I did get my fair share of happy moments these past four to five years , I myself admit that I am indeed a pathetic little baby like Yunho said that cries over everything and  I wish I could help it but just seeing how you love someone else more just hurts me , I felt so bad that night you guys had Rin move in with us I cried so hard for the first time while looking in the mirror , I just felt left out by you guys , I thought I've always held a special place in that house but it seems like I'm not the spark you need to function anymore , I didn't mean to talk for three minutes but I just wanted to give my last goodbyes before I leave, Thank you for the beautiful experience of being loved "

She pressed send and waited for the two check marks to appear  taking a deep breath

And finally jumped

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SAY GOODBYE : chapter 3

Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you Girl it’s not, you , it’s me

Synopsis: In which Wooyoung finds himself loving someone else other than his girlfriend

Pairing : Balletdancer! reader x dancer!Wooyoung

Warnings: this chapter includes mentions of , Wooyoung being in love , kissing, infidelity, cheating , teasing , rebounding, slight angst , deep talk with Yeosang, distress , bullying etc .

Word count : 1,8k

He starred down at his girlfriends sleeping figure  unable to see the love and sparks he once had  whenever he looked at her , it was just as if the love he kept inside for her  vanished

It all started when he saw her dancing so beautifully full of emotions

The way your light brown eyes and bright white teeth smile enchanted him was a memory to never forget , everytime he closed his eyes at night you appeared trapping the boy in his dreams unable to wake up even if he wanted to

Wooyoung was confused about everything after you invaded his heart and mind , it all just wanted to crave and think about you pushing the space he had in his for his girlfriend away

He felt hands roaming his chest making his breathing hitch , it was her  waking up 

" Bae why are you awake ...? "

She asked going for a kiss but he turned his head around not in the mood

" I just can't sleep anymore "

He sighed brushing his hair back frustrated

" You know we can always talk about everything that's concerning you "

The girl  took his hands into hers but it wasn't the right time for Wooyoung to be held and given any sort of comfort at that moment , so he placed them back on her lap making her confused

" It's ok just go back to sleetp "

He stood up and put on his slippers and hoodie on

" Baby , what is wrong where are you going ? "

He ignored her and left their apartment completely walking down the block

His heart ached so much to the point he couldn't breath or think properly

As we walked around the block more than he could count he saw Yeosang sitting by the football field

" What are you doing here late at night "

Yeosang looked back starlet as he sighed in relief after seeing it was just his friend

" My roommate locked us both out and now we can't go back in besides the student services is closed and just opens at seven "

" You could've crashed at Seonghwas since Joong is at his parents "

Wooyoung chuckled and sat down beside his buddy

" Seonghwa sleeps with music on there's no way he'd hear me knock "

" Yeah but he doesn't care he likes his peace "

Both let out a breathy laugh and looked at the stars

" Why are you here outside? "

Yeosang asked yawning

" I just had a lot in my head and it prevented me to keep sleeping "

" What happened? , also I haven't seen your girl best friend or whatever she is too you "

Wooyoung sighed and slowly looked at Yeosang

" Be honest with me Yeo , would I be a bad person to just initiate a kiss and just leave the person hanging and leave ? "

Yeosang cocked his brows and the moment he understood what his friend said his jaw dropped

" Wooyoung don't tell me you did that "

" Is it bad ? "

" Of course it is bro you've played her and now you're ghosting the poor girl let alone you cheated on your girlfriend "

Yeosang whisper shouted while slapping Wooyoung on the head

" What was that for ?! , and I just don't know what to do anymore "

He cried out and dropped his head

" Well do you have a thing for her ? "

" Yeosang if you could look inside my head you'd know how much she's invading my thoughts with her sweet smile and with her beauty that is just so breathtaking "

The boy sighed rubbing his face

"I knew this was going to happen after I saw the way you looked at her dancing two weeks ago , you fell for her "

" Yeosang I just can't forgive myself for kissing her and wanting more "

" Let alone you ghosted her while having a girlfriend, wait does she even know your taken by Seola ? You know what this means ? "

" No she doesn't know and I don't want her to know either "

" Wooyoung stop being selfish, you're hurting people with your choices "

" I know but I just can't help it "

" If anyone else finds out it's not only going to cause drama but people are going to start talking bad about her , you remember what happened to Byungwoo right ? "

" Yeah he left school because they bullied his girlfriend and him after he ….. "

Wooyoung sighed pausing as he saw that history was repeating itself

" Yeah and do you want people to recognise you for that all your life? "

" But what can I do if I like her ? "

" You already have a girlfriend let the girl go "

" Yeosang it's not that easy , I'm attached already it's like after we kissed our souls tied together and that we belong to each other "

" There's no such thing as soul ties what are you talking about "

Yeosang looked at him as if he was crazy

" Yeosang you're not being very helpful "

He looked at his friend frustrated

"Dude whatever just leave me out of this mess I don't want to be dragged down with you "

Wooyoung scoffed and stood up leaving

He was mad that his friend didn't understand in what situation he was in , or how hard it was to forget someone you liked

So he decided to call a Uber and do one thing that made him relax

dancing was one of the things that just helped and never judged him

He arrived at the studio he usually frequents so he could practice his dance

He took his hoodie off leaving his shirt on as he was about to open the door he heard faint music coming from the practice room

"Who would dance at this hour to sad music?"

He muttered to himself peaking inside seeing blue lights shining as someone danced beautifully without missing a beat

The way they moved so smoothly with a care in the world as they kept twirling

Wooyoung opened the door a little bit more so he could see better but his hearts stopped when he saw who was dancing

It was her the pretty girl that locked herself into his heart and mind

With each step she took or how she swayed beautifully made his heart beat more

The boy continued watching not even realising that he clapped after she finished making her jump in surprise

" How long have you been watching me ? "

He didn't say anything as he watched her sit down and massage her feet

" Wooyoung? Why are you so quiet? "

Wooyoung slowly entered the room and sighed

" Look Y/n I feel ashamed standing in front of you again after two weeks "

She smiled and shook her head

" I didn't take it personally so it's all good don't worry, but I was hurt when you ignored my messages even though I'm pretty sure you read them but decided not to click on them "

His heart sunk when she clearly described what he did but wasn't mad about it

" I'm so sorry I was just ashamed to even respond I thought you were mad at me "

He sat down beside her and sighed

" Hey I said it's ok don't worry "

She rubbed his hands and looked at him smiling

" Why did you leave so suddenly? "

" I was afraid of going further "

Y/n chuckled and pushed his shoulder

" Was I that bad of a kisser ? "

He looked at her letting out a pretty laugh as he smiled back at her

" No your kiss pretty good from what I recall "

She cocked her brow up with a smug grin on her face

" Oh yeah , did mister Wooyoung ignore me because I was a good kisser ? "

She joked to lighten the mood and Wooyoung couldn't help but smile

" Well if you want me to be honest with you, you've been invading mind way to much lately actually and it's driving me insane "

He locked eyes with her as she looked at him some type of way he couldn't describe

" Wooyoung, ever since we shared that kiss I've been feeling lost like what are we ? we just got to know each other but I feel like I've known you for ages and I can't help it  "

" I feel the same , I don't want to rush things but it just happened "

She came closer so that's she was kneeling in between his legs as she brushed his long hair back

"I couldn't help but let my heart do what it wanted ,and apparently it chose to fall for you "

He leaned back supporting himself with his hands as she came closer

" So tell me Wooyoung can I let my heart call you it's owner ? "

The way she leaned in slowly made his mouth dry so he just couldn't let a sound out

" Tell me do you want to be the owner of my heart Wooyoung? "

Y/n was just inches away from his lips making him gulp but not back out

" Yes , gosh please yes I want to "

He cried out desperately and captured her lips on his

Both of them kissed each other like there was no tomorrow, he had laid completely on the floor leaving her on top of him as they tangled their feet's together

" Can I make you mine ? "

The boy just nodded at this point he was just desperate to accept anything she asked him

" I couldn't hear you baby "

She kissed his neck softly making him whine

" Y-Yes I want to be yours "

" Goodness I've never seen someone so submissive before "

He chuckled and switched positions making her lay under him

" Don't get ahead of yourself little lady "

She grinned and pulled him again for a kiss which he gladly returned

Both laid there as Wooyoung slowly caressed her back

“ It’s so cold but I feel warm because of you”

Y/n smiled and snuggled onto him taking in his sweet scent

“ I could take a nap here with you but we have school tomorrow ”

“ Well if you want to nap with me we can go back to my place, i moved recently two blocks away from here and also I work at a boutique which means no free milkshake for you ”

Wooyoung laughed and kissed her forehead

“ If I get to kiss you every time than I can’t really complain about the milkshakes ”

“ Who told you that I’m gonna allow that ”

She teased him making Wooyoung kiss her softly so she would be quiet

“ because I said so darling "

Both smiled at each other before leaving to her place, Wooyoung’s mind felt at ease even though it really wasn’t a hundred percent

Yeosang’s words kept lingering in his mind , was he really that bad of a person?

Was he slowly turning into Byung-woo ?

But he couldn’t help loving someone else, was it forbidden to love now ?

He would never understand so he choose to let his worries wander around freely as he slept soundly with Y/n snuggled up to him in nothing but his hoodie

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SAY GOODBYE: chapter 2

Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you Girl it’s not, you , it’s me

Synopsis: In which Wooyoung finds himself loving someone else other than his girlfriend

Pairing : Balletdancer! reader x dancer!Wooyoung

Warnings: this chapter includes mentions of , illnesses, death , Wooyoung being in love , gifts, San and Mingi being goofy , kissing, infidelity, cheating ? , ballet , teasing

Word count : 2,5k

" Wooyoung why are we here again "

Seonghwa sighed as he watched the younger examine the different types of flowers

" What do you think about roses ? "

He smiled as he smelled on the white ones that smelled like a bit of vanilla

" I mean yeah they are  romantic and beautiful but it still doesn't answer my question "

" Just help me pick some flowers and stop complaining will you ? "

He chuckled and continued looking around

" Well just mix the pink roses with the white ones or whatever "

" You think that's a good idea ? "

" They do look good together maybe with a cute white ribbon wrapped around it "

The younger smiled and called the employee to help him put together everything Seonghwa suggested

" That will be 11$ if we wrap it up "

Seonghwa waited for his friend to pay so they could leave

" This is the first time I see you buying flowers and actually be happy about it "

" Can't a guy buy flowers now "

"Of course you can but what's the ocasion today for what I had to give up my own plans"

" There's a performance at school and I wanted you to tag along since you are a ballet student "

Seonghwa furrowed his brows

" There's a performance and how come I didn't know about this so called performance? "

" It's because they decided it on the last minute and not so many people signed up to watch "

Wooyoung walked down the street with his friend that grimaced confused

" They usually don't do that "

" That's why I said it was on last minute "

As they turned around the corner they saw their other friends San and Mingi waiting for them also dressed up casually unlike Wooyoung who dressed himself as if he was going on a date or something

" Wow never thought I'd see the Jung Wooyoung with blond black hair styled elegantly let alone in a leather jacket "

Mingi laughed punching his friend playfully

" Yeah but I mean it's like he's a bad boy or something , and why do you have flowers? "

Wooyoung shrugged as they continued walking

" Do I need to have a reason to buy flowers now or something ? What is wrong with y'all  "

" Chill out dude , it was just a question "

San lifted his hands in surrender

" Where is Yeosang? "

" He said he's waiting at the schools entrance "

Seonghwa replied checking his phone

" What are we going to watch anyways ? "

"Wooyoung's friend has a solo performance today and we are going for support since not so many people are coming to watch "

" That's actually sad , I'm glad I'm coming Ive always wanted to see a solo performance "

San smiled as he walked happily down the street

The boys kept talking about unnecessary things as Seonghwa had plugged in his earbuds to not get annoyed and be moody during the performance

As they slowly approached the school they saw Yeosang sitting at a bench quietly bouncing his feet as he waited patiently

" Took you guys long enough "

He scoffed and stood up as they approached him so they could in

"Wooyoung bought some flowers on the way "

" And don't ask him unless you want him to blow up on you speaking from experience "

San said as Wooyoung chuckled and apologised

" There's barely anyone here "

They went towards the big theatre and looked inside seeing five people at least sitting there patiently waiting for it to start

" Welcome , thank you so much for coming "

An old lady that seemed like the one who organised the event greeted them with a soft smile and smiled bigger after recognising Seonghwa who kept looking inside

" If this isn't my favourite student Park "

She grabbed his cheeks and patted them

" I'm glad you came , I really wanted you to watch this since it's based on what you did last year for the opening ceremony "

" Really ? Who's doing it ? "

" She's new so you probably don't know her , but her name is Y/n she transferred a month ago after our school gave her a scholarship "

Wooyoung who couldn't bare to listen anymore wandered back stage to search for her as he held the flowers nervously but gently so that he wouldn't end up crushing them

As he walked behind some curtains he saw her putting on her shoes and wrapping it around her feet

" Am I interrupting? "

She looked up startled as the sudden voice spoke in the once quiet room

" Wooyoung you came "

He smiled and approached her

" How could I miss this once in a lifetime opportunity to see you dance "

Wooyoung handed her the flowers making her gasp

" Are these for me ? You didn't have to just coming was enough for me "

Y/n took the flowers blushing as she smelled the vanilla scent radiating from the bouquet

They stood there without saying anything until Y/n chuckled and kissed his cheek

" Thank you Wooyoung you're so sweet "

The boy heated up after feeling her soft plump lips on his right cheek

" I'm looking forward to you liking the performance and even if you don't I'm still thankful for you taking your time to be here "

" Ay I'm sure me and my friends will like this , especially Seonghwa who's last year performance you’re actually covering "

" Really?! , I hope I don't embarrass myself in front of you guys "

Both chuckled before Wooyoung approached her and tucked a loose hair back up into her sleek bun

" Y/n are you ready?! "

One of the stage monitors whisper shouted

" This is my queue to leave , thank you so much again for coming "

The girl smiled and hurried towards her position while Wooyoung hurried to sit down besides friends

" where have you been ? "

San whispered as he looked at Wooyoung's smiling state

" Somewhere now be quiet it's about to start "

Just as he shushed San the red curtains have been lifted revealing Y/n curled into a ball in her beautiful baby blue tutu slowly rising as the music started to play

" She's so beautiful "

Mingi and San gawked as they watched the girl on stage dance on her toes while while twirling

" Wooyoung has taste in beautiful girls "

Mingi giggled before earning a hard pinching on his side by Seonghwa who glared at him

" Be quiet I'm trying to watch her dance "

The amount of emotions pilling out of her whenever she did specific moves that even had Seonghwa's mouth hang open

" That right there is called a perfect Grand Jete , im pretty amazed that she can even do that it's a pretty difficult move "

Seonghwa smiled and nodded approvingly

" What the heck is a Grand Jete ?"

" A Grand Jete is a jump in which a dancer springs from one foot to land on the other with one leg forward of their body and the other stretched backwards while in the air "

Yeosang explained as he kept watching quietly

Wooyoung was the only one that didn't say anything since he was mesmerised by the way her body moved so effortlessly

From every twirl to pirouettes his heart skipped a beat making him feel sick to his stomach but in a good way

His phone suddenly started vibrating with messages from girlfriend making him sigh and turn off the notifications

As the music slowed Y/n slowly twirled two times ending it with a Arabesque making everyone clap as tbd curtains closed

" That was so cool , how did she just stand on one feet while supporting her whole body with only her toes ?! ”

Mingi’s eyes widened from shook as he pictured himself trying and failing miserably to copy the move Y/n just did

“ I think this was the best solo I’ve ever seen ”

“ Me too but it seems like Wooyoung enjoyed it more than we all did ”

Yeosang teased his friend who’s mouth hung open as he continued to clap

“ Thank you so much for coming to watch our new team member do her amazing solo ”

The old lady bowed and thanked everyone before leaving

“ Guys you can leave without me ”

“ Are you staying with your friend ? ”

The boy nodded as he stared at someone that poked their head from behind the curtains

“ I’ll see you guys on Monday bye ! ”

He smiled patting everyone’s chest before running off to meet Y/n

“ Gosh what a friend he is ”

“ Wait doesn’t he have a girlfriend ? ”

“ He does and it looks like this is about to change really soon ”

Everyone looked at Yeosang who had a emotionless expression on as he walked out

“ What does he mean by that ”

“ Yeosang basically said that Wooyoung is falling for someone he just met ”

Seonghwa chuckled amused as they went out to

“ Does this mean we are witnessing a hot mess of a love triangle ? ”

San and Mingi giggled to themselves making Seonghwa sigh in exhaustion

“ You guys are so like these dumb and dumber duos and I’m tired of your baby like minds ”

He walked off leaving both boys giggling to themselves

“ You where amazing today ”

Wooyoung smiled as he waited for Y/n to finish putting on her sneaker’s

“ I saw when you clapped as everyone had already stop it was so funny ”

She giggled grabbing her backpack

“ Well it was just beautiful especially the ending pose even my friends were amazed”

He smiled looking down

“ Where are your friends? did they already leave? I wanted to thank them ”

She looked around but her and Wooyoung where literally the only ones left

“ I told them they could go since I wanted to stay and congratulate you again ”

“ Oh ok , well what should we do now ? ”

“ We could grab something to eat but I don’t really think you’d be hungry ”

“ You don’t know how hungry I am I haven’t ate anything the whole day only a small snack to boost the energy before performing ”

“ Than how about we grab something down town or we could go to the beach where they sell amazing street food "

She nodded as they walked out off school

“ You look so good with that hairstyle ”

He smiled flicking his hair back

“ I’ve always wanted to tried two different colours at once and I’m glad people like it ”

“ You kinda look a bad guy who’s in a biker gang the way you’re styled today ”

Y/n smiled covering her mouth to prevent her from laughing

“ A bad boy , gosh why does everyone say that ”

He bursted out laughing as he spot the beach just some miles away

“ But a good looking bad boy ”

“ You also looked beautiful today your costume was very beautiful ”

She smiled and looked down

“ My Grandma made it for me before I moved here from the country side , I wouldn’t be here if she didn’t pass away some months ago ”

Wooyoung frowned as he stopped on his tracks

“ I’m so sorry to have brought such a sensitive topic up I didn’t mean to ”

“ It’s ok it’s not like you knew about it ”

The girl smiled and took of her shoes letting her feet sink into the warm sand

“ I hope you’re not feeling sad now ”

He also removed his shoes before following her as they took a walk along the beach watching as the sunset slowly

“ I feel better now that I’m seeing the sunset leaving us in this darkness full of stars and the beautiful moon as replacement ”

She sat down and looked to the sky

“ Yeah it’s really beautiful especially the way the different orange tones are turning into a beautiful dark blue one "

Wooyoung took a picture before posting it on his private story

“ How come you decided to be a dancer ? ”

Y/n looked at him surprised by the sudden question but smiled

“ Well I’ve always loved seeing people dance , and my dad used to be a dancer too but had to stop when he got lung cancer "

“ I’m sorry to hear that ”

“ It’s ok , I just enjoyed seeing him dance so I also practiced Hip hop for a couple years until I discovered my passion for ballet ”

“ Wait you also practiced Hip hop ? ”

“ Yeah it was so fun but I thought ballet suited me the most out off everything ”

Y/n looked at Wooyoung who was already looking at her

“ I also think it suits you well ”

He smiled and leaned closer to her , he himself didn’t know where that boldness was coming from  but one thing he knew was needed to control was what he was about to do

“ Wooyoung are you ? ”

Y/n stood still as she felt him get closer to her

“ Can I ? Can I please kiss you ? ”

His voice sounded so desperate that even he himself didn’t believe he just did that

“ You can only if I can as well ”

She leaned in closing her eyes as she felt his breath closer to her lips

He slowly moves in closer, closing his eyes, his lips slightly parted in anticipation when his lips met hers

Wooyoung let out a soft sigh, his body relaxing against Y/n’s as the kiss got tender and gentle, full of emotion but also confusion

He wanted to be selfish and enjoy this moment but no matter how much he pulled her body closer to him his guilt wouldn’t die down

“ I-Im so sorry but I need to leave ”

“ Wait Wooyoung- ”

He stood up in a hurry leaving the confused girl behind sitting on the sand

He tried forgetting what he just did but it was deeply engraved in his mind already

Even after he came home to his girlfriend waiting for him so they could go to sleep together

He kept thinking about Y/n , someone he barely knew only for some days

Already having his heart skip beats or making him buy flowers something he never did unless it was for his mom on Mother’s Day

“ Wooyoung why are you still awake? "

He looked beside him and sighed

“ It’s nothing I’ve been just thinking ”

The boy turned around facing the wall

“ We can talk if something is bothering you ”

She snuggled herself closer to him but got pushed back slowly

“ Im fine just go back to sleep ”

The girl shrugged and turned around letting Wooyoung think to himself

He didn’t know how he was going to face Y/n now the next time they see each other, what if he ended up ignoring her or hurt her even more than he already did today by leading her on

All these thoughts kept running until he fell asleep from exhaustion when he left his bedroom to sleep on the couch

Maybe he couldn’t sleep because it wasn’t Y/n dancing around his mind but the fact that he behaved so normal beside someone he just betrayed deeply by kissing someone else

[mangishiii]

SAY GOODBYE : chapter 1

Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you Girl, it's not you, it's me

Synopsis: In which Wooyoung finds himself loving someone else other than his girlfriend

Pairing : Balletdancer!reader x dancer!Wooyoung

Warning : This chapter contains mentions of , arguing, unhealthy eating habits , yelling , mad Wooyoung, drugs , crying , therapy etc please let me know if I forgot something

Word count: 1,8 k

He watched her dancing in front of him at the studio they rented for their second anniversary

They way her body moved would let anyone know she danced professionally

It was her passion and he himself also loved dancing , after all it was the thing that connected both

She suddenly dropped to the floor exhausted as he turned the music off

" That was intense "

The girl breathed out smiling with her eyes closed as her boyfriend grabbed her water bottle rolling it towards her body so she could drink and settle down her panting

" If you keep on dancing like that you might pass out one day "

He looked at her as she shook her head chuckling

" Don't worry I'll try to slow down "

Standing up from the cold comfortable floor she hugged him looking up

" You've been all grumpy lately what's wrong "

" It's nothing I've just been dealing with a lot lately don't worry about it "

He stared at her and brushed her hair back

" Let's go home and freshen up it's late "

" But we barely did anything other than dancing "

" I know but I'm just so tired "

"Than let's grab something before going home , I'm hungry I haven't ate anything this morning "

He sighed and grabbed his bag and hers

" I told you not to dance on a empty stomach "

" I just forgot before going out the house "

"But I asked you if you did and you replied with a yes which means you lied straight to my face and you know I despise when you do that "

Wooyoung brushed his hair back leaving the studio as she ran behind him trying to catch up

" Baby I'm sorry, I just didn't feel like eating anything this morning "

" You can't fool me , I heard you gag the dinner I made last week so you wouldn't gain weight "

He continued walking down the hall with a frown on his face

" Wooyoung, you know how I've been struggling with my body lately I just can't stop this disgusting habit of mine "

" And that's why I signed you up for therapy but you refused and I let you because you promised me that you'd control yourself !  "

He finally turned around to see her standing there with tears running down her face as she let the bag slightly slide off her shoulder

" You can't just expect me to control myself without these thoughts getting the best of me "

She wiped her tears and looked down

" And why do you think I recommended therapy sessions for you ? exactly because I knew you'd fail "

" So this means you never had a single faith in me ? Why would you encourage me then ?! "

" I did believe in you but I stopped the moment I saw the texts with your friend trying to sell you some pills for weight loss "

He stared at her emotionless

" Why would you go through my phone? "

She wiped her tears away angrily

" Because I was concerned my girlfriend  would turn and let herself fall into the bad habits of a junkie ?! Is that what you wanted to hear me say ? Or did you want me to turn  a blind eye and watch you kill your self by stuffing your body with different drugs you don't even know ? Huh tell me because I honestly don't even know myself at this point ! "

Wooyoung yelled at her making the girl flinch and tear up more

" I-I Wooyoung please "

She tried holding onto her boyfriend but he brushed her off angrily

" Save it , you can fool anyone else but me "

He pulled out his phone and typed in something before looking back at her

" I called a Uber for you to go home "

" Are you really leaving me on our anniversary? what type of boyfriend are you?! "

She yelled and dropped to the ground with tears

" Just don't stay here for to long and go straight home I'll be there soon "

Sighing he left his girlfriend there and walked out , he himself didn't know where he was going

All he wanted was to be away from everything and clear out his head

That's how he found himself inside a milkshake shop with no one inside

Wooyoung walked towards the end and sat down plugging in his head phones while looking outside

The boy was so unfocused and in another world that he didn't notice how aggressive the soft tap on his shoulder got so he looked to the side when someone poked his cheek taking off his earphones

" Sir , we're about to close will you order or ? "

" How long have I been sitting here ?  "

The girl chuckled and smiled

" I'd say like thirty minutes of starring outside plus sighing for a few more minutes "

" Goodness I'm so sorry , I'll just order anything from the menu please "

Wooyoung rubbed his face starring outside once again

" And what would that be ? "

She waited patiently with her hands crossed

" Do you have Strawberry Milkshake? "

" Is that it ? "

" Yeah , thank you "

He smiled and looked at his phone seeing more than twenty missed calls from his friends and girlfriend , sighing he turned off his phone completely

" Here you go one Strawberry milkshake "

The girl smiled and placed it in front of him as she sat down

" Rough day ? ”

" Yeah , just stressed lately but i'll be ok  "

He chuckled and took a sip

" Don't worry it will get better I promise "

" How can you guarantee someone you just met that it's going to be ok ?  "

Both smiled as she shrugged

" I just like to be positive and tell other people that it will be alright because I believe it  will"

" Oh so you're one of the happy go lucky "

" Yeah I guess you could say that , but may I ask what's got you so down ? "

She looked at him smiling when he twirled the straw around the shake

" Just fought with someone because they've been taking drugs behind my back after promising me something "

" I'm so sorry to hear that ,being lied to is definitely one of the most hurtful things I can think about especially when that persons is someone dear to you "

He chuckled as he eyed the girl in front of him

" Did I make you sad with my story "

" Yeah , it hurts me to know that people feel pain and I can't do anything about it "

" You don't need to feel bad for that I'll be fine , besides aren't you supposed to close up ? "

" And aren't you supposed to be finished with your shake by now ? "

Both Wooyoung and the girl bursted out laughing holding onto their stomachs

" I don't know why but this was funny "

Wiping away her tears she stood up and grabbed his cup leaving to the kitchen and wash it as he reminded there waiting for her

" How much was the shake again ?"

" Don't worry it's on me ! "

She yelled back from the kitchen before coming out in her normal clothes

The girl wore a big grey hoodie with green phrases on it and some baggy shorts with her hair tied up in a messy bun

" Are you going to keep staring at me or ? "

Wooyoung stopped staring and got up grabbing his bag to walk out with her

" Which way will you take back home ? "

He asked her fiddling with his bag

" I'll take the way that leads to the subway "

" You take the subway back home ? "

" Yeah what about you ? "

He smiled nodding his head

" Great we can go together then "

Both started walking slowly towards the subway in silence, Wooyoung kept stealing glances at her every now and then as she skipped steps by jumping, and for some reason she always landed on the top of her toes elegantly

" I have a question, do you dance ? ”

She turned to him and smiled

" I'm a dance major , but how did you know? "

" I don't know i just saw in the way that you kinda move and just jumped around that you perhaps are a ballet dancer "

He chuckled when her eyes went wide

" Really? People usually tell me that I'm a contemporary dancer but I major in ballet "

" Well there is a difference in between contemporary and ballet "

" How do you tell them apart ? "

He chuckled before looking forward

" My friends and I are Dance Majors , while me and the others practice hiphop or other types two of the rest do ballet and contemporary , so I know what is what when I see it just by looking at someone's movements or the way they stand and present themselves "

" That's so cool , i don't really pay attention to people's movements so I don't really know "

She smiled and chewed on her lip

" What's  your name ? I forgot to ask that how rude of me I'm so sorry "

" Don't worry, I'm Wooyoung and you ? "

He chuckled and shook his hand to reassure her that it was ok

" I'm Y/n you probably already read my tag "

"To be honest I didn't notice you had a tag on"

Both chuckled before going down the stairs to the subway

"  You said you where a Dance major right ? Which school do you go to "

" I study at Korea National University of arts "

" No way me too ?! How come I've never seen you there ? "

Y/n gasped trying to understand

" I guess it's because of how our groups are divided in different parts of the school "

" Ahh that makes sense "

She nodded and smiled before fiddling with her hoodie straps

“ May I ask you something Wooyoung? ”

“ It depends on what it is ”

“ I’m having a solo dance on Saturday and not so many people signed up to watch and I just want to ask if you’re interested ”

She looked at him waiting for an answer

“ This Saturday? Sure why not I’d like to see you dance as f I can even bring some friends ”

“ Really ? Thank you so much , if you ever happen to have a performance I’ll make sure to be the first to sign up to watch ”

“ Is that a promise? ”

“ Yeah i promise ”

She held up her pinky and smiled at him as he locked their pinkies together making him chuckle

“ Can I have your number ? It’s for performance purposes ”

Wooyoung asked smiling as she chuckled and handed him her phone

“ Yeah sure mister flirt ”

After letting her phone ring and saving the number they bid goodbye as her train arrived

“ Thank you Wooyoung see you on Saturday! ”

She yelled as she ran after her train making the boy chuckle and head the other way to wait for his train

He decided to turn on his phone again , and not even one minute after turning the phone on messages started blasting making him groan in annoyance

Well seems like he enjoyed his time with Y/n that he forgot about his own life

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Guys I’m so sorry to say that I am full on writers block for “ Watch you back ” I myself don’t like to jump from on work to another without it being finished so to not let you guys hanging I’d like to post on of my other series featuring Wooyoung called

“ Say Goodbye”

I’m so sorry for everyone that has been waiting but I just can’t continue for right now my mind is just blank 😭💔

[mangishiii]

Hi Bestie! How are you? I hope you are all well and fine and doing everything good in life. If you know me then guess it. Good Luck!

And can I be tagged in your fics? Pretty please👉👈

Yes you can but I’d need to know who you are , slip into the dms 😭💗

And I just wanted to know that I had lost my Phone in the train a week ago and just got it back today so I’m very sorry to everyone that has been waiting for updates 😭💗💗💗

[mangishiii]

Watch your back : chapter 7

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warning : this chapter contains mentions of, arguing with Yunho , yelling , mental broke down , lots of crying , confessions , unexpected kissing , miscarriage , etc Please reminding me if I forgot something

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea , @layzfeelit , @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon

Word count: 2,5k

What happened to the always happy Y/n ?

The one that always smiled despite any hardships ?

Nobody knew other than Y/n herself, because she chose to bury that small , sweet , sensitive delicate girl in other for her not to get hurt more than she already was

The questions roaming her hear were always the same

What if ?

What if she chose to stay at her mom's house nestled in her comfort ?

What if she chose to stay mommy's little princess forever for her to protect?

What if she never met them ?

What would her life look like now if she didn't push away all the other options

This is something she can only dream about, because it's already in the past

She allowed herself to explore and met these amazing people she today called her lovers

But to which extent should the hurting be excused in the name of love ?

That was another thing she herself didn't know the answer to

The only thing she knew now was that she tried and wanted to be the better version of herself

She wanted to know what love was again

She wanted to experience more of this undying love people had for their significant others

" You good to go darling "

The receptionist smiled and bid her goodbye after she payed her hospital bills for staying some extra weeks there to get herself back in the right place

Her head kinda pained from the thoughts of being back at home

As she turned to the corner her phone dinged letting her know she just got a message

It was one of the boys telling her that they where waiting down the hall

Walking down the hallway she saw someone familiar waiting for her with their hands in their pockets making her smile as she hugged him

" Hey , how do you feel? "

" I'm alright, but my head hurts "

He smelled like freshness everyone needed in their lives , so she was glad to be able to call him her man

" I think Yunho would have some meds in the car , and some water bottles "

She shifted at the mention of his name but tried playing it off by smiling and nodding her head

" I know you and Yunho haven't talked since the incident but I'm here so don't feel nervous "

He rubbed her hands soft for reinsurance before grabbing the big baby blue bag and her hand and started going towards the exit

" H-How have the boys been doing ? "

She cleared her throat and clutched her dress nervously as she saw the red Hyundai car outside

Mingi sighed and rubbed his thumb on the back of her palm

" They found out that Rin assaulted you that day with her friends after San payed you a visit, everyone is doing good but San honestly is keeping himself locked inside his room "

Y/n's heart dropped after hearing that , this was exactly what she didn't want when she told San the news

" Has he refused eating as well ? "

" Seonghwa and Yeosang made sure he ate his meals don't worry about him , he'll be fine "

" I mean I took his rights as a father away by not telling him about my pregnancy "

Mingi stopped in front of the car turning to face her with his whole body

" I know you where scared , a pregnancy is not something someone has the sudden courage to tell I'm sure he knows that himself "

Yunho unlocked the doors avoiding to look at her as he fiddled with his ring while she got in and sat at the back

" What did they say ? "

He cleared his throat looking at Mingi

" They said I was good to go , and that I shouldn't be put under stress "

" That's good to hear "

Yunho started the engine and focused on the road

" You guys are making me uncomfortable with this awkward silence just talk it out "

Mingi scoffed and laid his head against the window closing his eyes

" I don't have anything to say to him and I guess he doesn't either since I can feel the avoidance radiating from him "

Y/n looked out the window and crossed her arms making Yunho scoff

" I'm not avoiding you im focusing on the road if you're to blind to see that "

" I'm not blind , I'm just talking about the minute you saw me and Mingi walk out you literally rolled your eyes for whatever reason "

" Y/n Stop it , you just got discharged "

Mingi turned around and shook his head for her to stop because he knew she could cry at any minute if this escalated

" Than tell him to stop looking at me as if I'm some type of bacteria! I didn't even do anything to him but he's just-"

She stopped mid sentence trying to catch her breath already feeling the whole anxiety take over

" All I wanted was to make amends with you but you don't seem to want that , now stop the car I'm going home  by bus "

She started grabbing her stuff in a hurry and wiped her tears

" I said stop the c-car ! "

Mingi signaled Yunho to stop on the side of

the road as he went after the girl that stormed out after he pulled over

" Y/n ! Stop walking so fast and calm down will you ? You're not supposed to be stressing "

He grabbed her and holding her shoulders so she could focus on him

" I don't know what's wrong with Yunho right now but forget about him don't let his childish behaviour get to you "

" But it already did , I just want to go home  and my patience ran out today let me go "

She wiggled out of his grip and walked back to bus stop

" At this point you're being childish and not him , you can't keep running away from your problems like you always do ! "

Mingi yelled after her frustrated , but she kept walking with her bag propped tightly under her arm as tears dropped onto her dress

How was she being childish for pointing out her discomfort?

All she wanted was to be home and make sure that she could relax in peace , but that was long gone from her to-do list

———

" What is bothering you sweet girl ? "

He smiled handing her the strawberry lemonade drink while he wiped the counter

" I'm just tired of everything Rowoon , I just can't find my inner peace anymore I feel like it just vanished completely "

She wiped her puffy face after taking a sip

" I've already told you take sometime for yourself, or come and stay with me "

He sighed as he stared at the distressed girl that wiped away the stray tears that kept running despite her wiping them

" What about school ? I just feel alone and it makes me more depressed "

"Than transfer schools ,if you  start fresh  you may find friends that will be there for you other than me and the cat lady   "

He chuckled and served her a plate of cake making her choke out a laugh

" Not the cat lady , she actually gives pretty good advice every time I meet her outside "

She smiled and leaned on the counter as she watched him take people's orders

" She told me I'd find my dream girl , and I think I found her "

" Really?! , how did you find her ? "

" We met under pretty weird circumstances "

He chuckled and handed the customer their order

" Is she cute ? , what's her name "

" She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my entire life , the way she smiles and the way my heart flutters when I hear her voice is just something I can't explain "

" Ohh someone is in-love , come on do I know the lucky girl ? "

Y/n smiled as she saw her best friend blush

" You actually do but I'm not telling you anything further "

" Come on , how will I be able to play as your wing man if I you don't tell me? "

He chuckled and removed his apron before clocking out his shift

" Wait here I'll grab my stuff and then I'll walk you home "

" I'll wait here "

She yawned and watched him go inside the personal staff room at the back

After arguing with Yunho and leaving ,  Y/n found herself walking into her best friends workplace all teared up  with painful shoulders from carrying the heavy bags

It took him by surprise because he didn't understand why she was that upset, after telling him everything that happened the past weeks Rowoon grew angry

And specially upset because he was the first one to find out about her pregnancy a month ago by accident when they went to fit clothes

So it broke him to know that she lost her baby in such a cruel way

" Come on Aurora don't doze off "

He chuckled and tapped her cheek

" You took a little bit longer than I expected, gosh I'm so tired "

She stood up and stretched herself

" Sorry about that I was searching for my phone  I had put it to charge , let's go than "

He grabbed her bags and walked out after saying goodbye to his fellow colleagues

" Are you sure the cake was enough ? I mean we can grab something since you probably haven't ate anything else other than the cake "

She shook her head and yawned again

"I'll eat at home Wooyoung probably cooked something and left it there ,well if not I'll just eat a bread I can't spend the little money I have since it's my turn to pay the rent let alone after being fired because I stayed an extra  week at the hospital since I didn't feel well "

Y/n sighed and swayed her hands around

" Why didn't you call me ? I'd be there to help "

" I'm so sorry , I was just to sad and depressed that it wasn't even an option for me "

Rowoon stopped her and wiped her tears away

“ You know that’s what friends are here for , especially someone you consider your best friend and I’ve told you I’ll be the shoulder you can cry on when you need to ”

“ You have your own issues and I didn’t want to bother you with my own ”

She looked away and continued walking slowly towards her house

“ Your problems are mine too , I’m here to walk you through every single one of them ”

He held her hand and caressed it softly as she looked at him with her brows furrowed

“Why do you always say these things ? literally sounding like you’re my boyfriend ”

Y/n chuckled and hit his shoulder playfully bumping into him

“ Y/n , I mean what I am saying I want to be the one you can come and vent to , I want to be more than just your best friend let me make you happy I can’t stand seeing you like this all the time, their hurting you ”

He made sure that the look on his face made her know he was being dead serious

“ Rowoon I-I- ”

“ Please Y/n , all I’m asking is for a chance "

He approached her pulling the girl by the waist towards him

“ I realised that I liked you since the day we crossed paths again at the amusement park , the amount of fun we had made me crave for more of your presence ”

“ T-This is wrong and you know that ”

“ The only thing that’s wrong is your relationship with these emotional abusers you call your boyfriends ”

He scoffed and looked at her with a pained expression

“ Rowoon , I may have issues with them but I’m happy nether less ”

“ You’re blind , you’re on the love stage where you just keep brushing away and ignoring things that are not ok at all ”

“ They’ll change I know that I’ll just have to wait a little more ”

“ Y/n ! You don’t need to wait for anyone let alone for someone to change that isn’t even trying neither for you or themselves ! ”

He raised his voice a little after hearing that

“ Rowoon but how will I know that you’re genuine about what you’re saying ”

She teared up and looked at him as he pulled her closer towards him

“ I want you to trust me when I say that I’d like to be the one that commits to you fully ”

Rowoon suddenly leaned down and pressed his lips with hers slowly as he grabbed her waist

Y/n’s head was spinning so hard that she didn’t even realise how her hands traveled to his chest and kissed back

“ Let me love you ”

He whispered against her once again but was pushed off suddenly

“ N-No this was a mistake , I-I think I’ll walk home on my own now ”

The girl grabbed her bag and ran towards her apartment complex leaving the boy standing there , his shoulders hanging limp as tears started building in his eyes

She fiddled with her keys and opened the door hurriedly taking off her shoes and ignoring the ones sitting in the living room

Her heart was beating uncontrollably as she sobbed and locked her door

“ What is wrong with her ? ”

Jongho asked as he stood up to go and check but was held back

“ She and Yunho fought some hours ago ”

“ That doesn’t make any sense, why would she cry now about something that happened some hours ago between her and him ”

“ Maybe it’s because she’s back at home , if you know what I mean by that ”

Wooyoung who was currently spread out on the floor yawned as everyone looked at him

“ Goodness stop looking at me , she probably has a trauma from the kitchen which used to be her all time favourite place ”

“ Now that could be it , let me go and check up on her real quick ”

Seonghwa stood up and went towards her room trying to open it but it was locked

“ Y/n ? Open the door ”

He knocked but only sobbing sounds where heard on the other side of the door

“ Come on baby open the door , tell me what happened that made you so upset ”

Seonghwa sighed and leaned his forehead on the door waiting for her to open the door

“ L-Leave , go away Hwa ”

The raised her voice and wiped her tears

“ What happened? , I’m gonna stay here until you open the door ”

Y/n stopped answering him after he said that , the only thing that concerned her was her friendship with Rowoon

What would happen now that she knew about his feelings towards her

How would she face the boys after kissing someone else and melting into their arms

Would they still be friends despite the awkwardness that would build up between them ?

Or would they just pretend like nothing happened?

As she was about to open the door her phone dinged making her look at her screen

It was Rowoon texting her , it made her feel bad that he wanted to push down his feelings in other for him not to loose her or their friendship

She unlocked her phone and texted him back in hopes to make him feel at ease

She sighed and plopped on her bed clutching the sheets tightly closing her eyes

What would happen , was the only question that was number one priority in her mind

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Watch your back: chapter 6

Once you don’t value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours

Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason

Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !

Warnings : this chapter contains mentions of, arguing with San , yelling , San blaming reader , lots of crying , Rin being exposed , assault , miscarriage , panic attacks , fake tears , etc Please reminding me if I forgot something

Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea , @layzfeelit , @loverlele, @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon

This series is going to be posted together with the Psychiatric series, which means one chapter after another

I decided that this series will be posted every Wednesdays from now on but I may also post chapters again even if it’s not on these days

Word count: 2,2k

" No , She's sleeping peacefully "

The boy looked at the girl that rested her cheek on his chest while clutching onto his shirt

' is she sleeping fine , did they give her the sleeping meds like yesterday ? '

" Yeah they had her take the pills before putting her to sleep so I've been laying down with her for a while now "

San brushed her hair back and he caressed her face softly while Seonghwa talked on the phone with him

' When are you coming home Rin has been impatiently waiting for you to return'

" You know that whenever we leave she's going to cry again and have these panic attacks "

He sighed and shook his head

' She just went trough so much San you need to understand that '

" At first I always felt bad but now it's getting too overwhelming , I can't barely leave without her starting to wail my name like a kid "

' Maybe she feels lonely that's all '

" I know , but this constant crying is tiring me out , I don't always want to hear cry whenever I walk in "

She stirred and clung tightly onto his shirt making him sigh

' I don't know why she does that, but try not to make her feel bad'

" Seonghwa, I'm literally the only one she's always shedding tears with at this point I don't think it's normal anymore "

He heard Seonghwa sigh on the other line, he himself couldn't understand what was bothering Y/n so much lately, the first week of her being at the hospital were calm since she pretty much just didn't talk or just slept in their embrace

" I need to leave in a minute anyways so I can take a bath and relax at home, look this bed is uncomfortable and I'm tired of being here you know how much I despise hospitals "

' Just stay a little more '

" No Seonghwa, I'm tired I have a life too I can't just stay the whole day here and doing nothing other than cuddle her "

Y/n opened her eyes slowly and her lips already started wobbling

" I need to hang up she woke up and it started again , yes you know what I mean bye "

He ended the call and looked at her as she sobbed quietly

" A-Am I holding you back from living your life right now San ? am I that much of a bother?"

She looked up to him with her teary eyes as he wiped the tears away and kissed her nose

" No baby listen-"

" I-I don't want you to always complain whenever you're here "

" What do you even mean "

He looked up at her with his brows furrowed as he detached himself off her so he could put on his shoes and jacket

" I hear how you always complain to the others about me whenever you stay here for some hours , I never asked you to do this other than stay with me especially because it was our child that I lost recently "

She wiped her face and sniffed as he looked at her with a scowl

" And you're only telling me that now ?! "

He yelled in disbelief making her flinch

" I didn't tell you that I missed my period because you didn't care and just brushed it off the last time we had a pregnancy scare "

The boy groaned and approached her

" Do you know what you just did ?! You prevented me from protecting my first child , my first joy and happiness as a father don't you feel ashamed of keeping something like this away from me ? all of us "

" This is not my fault that I got assaulted having it cost my child's life! "

" If you had told me we'd make sure you were doing fine always! "

He raised his voice as she sat there with tears unable to make them stop

" Do you know how much it hurts to know I lost my first child and everything a first time dad could do because you were so stupid to not close the door properly ? "

" I never left the damn door open! I don't know what they told you but it's not true "

" You're trying to deny it now ? , if it weren't for Rin that cared so much about you even though you're always mean to her and call ambulance you'd be dead from how beaten up you were "

She chuckled and starred at him in disbelief

" So it was her that fabricated all this madness of stories so she could look good "

" Don't try to blame her when she literally saved your ungrateful ass ! "

San approached Y/n and grabbed her shoulders forcefully as he shook her

" Why should I be grateful for someone who did this in the first place! She's the one you should blame for our child not making it "

She cried out pushing his hands away from her

" Your princess and her friends did this to me , you should be glad that I didn't sue her for attempted murder and tort ! "

" Stop blaming others for your own actions , you left the door open that's why someone came in and hurt you "

" Are you acting dumb or are you genuinely dumb Choi San ? , why would someone assault me for leaving my own house door open if that where the case ? This is the most unrealistic thing someone could ever tell "

" You know what's strange ?, the way you always despised her since day one now it makes sense you're just trying to get us to break up with her "

He chuckled and brushed his hair back as he looked at her in disappointment

" Why would I get along with someone that has been doing nothing but hurt me this whole time? , I've endured so much already I just can't hurt my discomfort anymore "

" It's not our fault we fell in love with her and you know that , that's just how humans are "

" I've been through thick and thin already and I think it's time for a change , I've had so many people willing to give me their love but I've always been so blindly stupid to realize that how you guys treat me is just not how someone should be treated in a relationship "

She slowly stood up and clutched her hospital gown while walking towards San who looked at her speechless

" I won't tell myself anymore that I am the issue every single day I wake up , I'm tired of shedding tears and feeling insecure about myself even though I shouldn't "

With tears she tried pushing him out towards the door but he grabbed her arms and made her look at him

" Do you think I'll just let you leave?"

" Stop trying to gaslight me with your sweet talk San , you know how much I don't like that now go just like how you wanted to a few minutes ago since I wail to much like a baby "

" You can't just drop these bomb news on me and expect me to leave "

" I don't care I'm to fed up right now to even make you believe me "

" How will I believe something without proof ? What do you want me to do ?! Go and beat up Rin until she tells something she didn't do ? "

The girl teared up and pushed him away from her once again

" I just told you that in despair for you just to believe me once in a life time maybe watch out because of how fake she is San ! "

" Stop talking about her like that , she's the most sweetest person I have ever seen and the most fragile one too she'd never be capable of beating someone like this "

He sighed loudly and looked around trying to calm himself, since he didn't want to yell again

" She had her two friends beat me up as she laughed and filme-"

" Enough ! Y/n stop making up things you don't even sound like you know what you're talking about at this point you're doing to much ,j-just stop ok ? I get it you don't like her the tiniest bit but just don't blame her for your mistakes , you're just saying anything at this point, I wish I could believe you baby I do but I can't seem to wrap my head around this "

" Fuck San what do you mean my mistakes?! Is me losing our baby my mistake? "

" I can't stand looking at you right now, I'll tell Seonghwa to come and stay with you "

San stared at her apologetic and left the room letting her cry to yourself

The girl sighed as the violent sharp pain rushed through her chest as she cried making her feel nauseous and hold on onto the bed rails

She was so tired of the whole situation , it made her question if she was really the one at fault , because if she didn't smash Rin's face into that damn  cake she'd be at home now

Watching first time mom vlogs and secretly buying neutral baby clothes while building up the courage to tell San that she was expecting

But now everything was gone  because she was stupid enough to let them provoke her

———

" How about we have dinner outside today "

Rin back hugged Jongho who was currently washing the dishes because Seonghwa went out to stay with Y/n

" We'll have to wait for San to come back home , and speaking of him it's been like three hours since  he had to be home already "

" Maybe he needs sometime for himself? I mean he's been having it hard because of what happened to Y/n lately "

He sighed and nodded before drying his hands and smiling at her

" I'm thankful that you arrived home and called the ambulance on time "

The girl smiled nervously gulping

" I-I'm glad I found her , I was so scared  "

" Everything is ok now don't worry "

She felt him hug and rub her back , it was to much she honestly cursed herself for even telling Yeongja and Iseul to deal with her

What would happen if the boys found out ? She be definitely done for

Her whole dream of being a model would literally shatter if Y/n decides to sue her , the boys could break up with her or kick her out

“ Ay is everything alright ? Ive been talking to you for about five minutes ”

Jongho looked at her concerned

“ A-Ah I’m sorry I’ve been thinking about Y/n and how much pain she must be in no- ”

The front door suddenly opened revealing a distressed San

“ Rin ! ”

He removed his shoes and stormed towards the kitchen to look inside

“ W-Why would you do that to her ? ”

“ What are you talking about San ”

Jongho asked confused as San approached them shaking

“ Rin and her friends assaulted Y/n making her loose our child that day ”

The younger immediately let go of her and frowned

“ San do you know how big this accusation is ?”

“ I just met Iseul outside her workplace and she told me , I just don’t understand why you would do that ”

Rin bit her inner cheek as the other guys started crowding the kitchen looking just as confused as Jongho was when San walked in

“ What is going on here , why is he yelling? ”

Mingi went closer and looked at San that was shedding tears of disappointment

“ Rin and her friends where the ones that did that to Y/n , because of whatever happened between them that day I lost my first child and even blamed it on her for allegedly leaving the door open even though she didn’t ! ”

“ Rin is what San is saying the truth? ”

They all stared at her waiting for an answer

“ I just got mad because she said that you will never love me like you love her , a-and I didn’t hit her it was Yeongja and Iseul who said they where going to deal with her for being rude , I never wanted them to do it ! I never wanted this to happen”

She stuttered and teared up

“ Still you should’ve told us and not lie ”

San hissed and left towards his room and slammed the door shut

“ What you did was really dangerous , what if she died that day from how intense you guys beat her to the point she also had a miscarriage? I’m so disappointed in you Rin ”

“ Yeosang I’m sorry ”

Wooyoung and Yunho left the room without saying anything further other than saying how disappointed they were

“ You’re glad Hongjoong and Seonghwa are not here because they would be so mad at you ”

Everyone else left leaving Mingi with the crying girl that didn’t even look at him

“ Look , it will take a while for San to even look at you but I’ll talk to the boys so they won’t tell Hwa and Joong about this , promise you will apologize to Y/n as soon as she’s discharged ”

“ I-I promise , do they hate me ? ”

“ No don’t worry about it I got this ”

He sighed and left , making Rin stop crying and muffle her screaming

“ Wait until I see you tomorrow Iseul "

Rin scoffed and stormed into her room angrily

Now that San was mad at her imagine how Seonghwa would react she didn’t even want to think about Hongjoong’s reaction

They would fry her alive if they found out

She frustratedly searched for her pack of cigarettes and opened her window after locking her door

“ I’ll just need to make Y/n shut up I can’t afford the agency bawling out on me ”

Blowing off the smoke in the air she tapped her feet angrily

One thing she was sure was that she never expected it to come to light this fast or how fast her friend would rat her out

[mangishiii]

Hey guys it’s been a while right? , I was About to post a double update for

„ Watch your back“

since I’ve kept you guys waiting for a long time and I’m truly sorry for that

But since the news came out that our Beloved

Moon- bin a fellow member of the amazing group called Astro has passed away today , I’d like to not post anything for two days out of respect 🕊️💔

I Hope you guys understand - Mangishii

[mangishiii]

8 makes 1 Team

No matter how different, without one of us there is no 8 makes 1 Team

Synopsis : In which 8 boys build a friendship despise of their differences with the help of a psychiatrist

Pairing : psychiatrist! Reader x Ateez (for now )

Warnings : this chapter includes mentions of , depression , crying , yelling , break downs, slapping , secrets being revealed, influential parents , threatening , talks of suicide, arguing , overworking, please tell me if I forget something , and I’m not romanticizing disorders in anyway and this is pure fiction meaning this doesn’t represent Ateez or their families in any type of way

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Word count : 1,5k

San’s backstory

Evening sky deepened into blue and purple as the wind swayed together with the leaves leaving a calm but breezy feeling against his skin

He had just finished his night self-learning classes and was on the way home

The thing is San didn't want to go home yet , he never wanted to return home and have to hear his dad's rambling about his business meetings

Or his parents praising his sister for being a top student and winning all sorts of awards

The boy was tired already, not only were his parents pushy but everyone and everything was to much for him to handle

His mental health hasn't been improving like how he wanted too , and it wasn't easier to get it to improve with many people expecting him to follow their commands

Crying at night to relieve stress wasn't a thing anymore , after being giving a lecture of how he didn't have the right to cry if everything is being provided to him without hesitation by his parents

Never understood why crying and feeling down was basically taboo in his household , he admitted to being weak sometimes but in the eyes of others it was seen as unacceptable

You can't always expect someone to be always on their best , there a good days just as there are bad days

It's been a long time he's been depressed, nobody knew but himself about his condition

He even had a therapist that he had sessions with secretly behind his parents backs

They'd faint if they found out that their so perfect son was crumbling onto pieces each day , having unpleasant thoughts he didn't wish to have

Grabbing the keys he unlocked the front door seeing everyone at the  dinner table enjoying themselves chitchatting

" Ah San you're home , how was school? "

His mother asked without even looking at him making him feel invisible in his own house

" I-It was alright "

He removed his shoes and made his way toward his room but was stopped

" Your sister won a award today for the math championship that was held at your school why didn't you participate? "

Unpleasant stares fixed themselves on him

" It was for the advanced class and I'm not advanced in the math area "

" You should've tried, your sister always gets awards for things while your useless sel-"

" Honey , let him be "

San's dad scoffed as he set his utensils down

" How his he going to take care of the family business if he's useless ?! "

" But he's still just a kid honey "

His mom tried calming down her husband that grew angrier the more he looked at his son

" Haneul started since she was little ! There is no exception for him ! "

The boy teared up as he stood there in his uniform listening as his dad badmouthed him

" I-I'm sorry , but I don't want to be like her , all she does is study all the time and it's tiring "

" How will you get successful one day if you don’t work for it ?”

A loud banging against the table was heard

" I want to be able to enjoy my own life and not be bossed around like Haneul "

He teared up looking into his moms eyes who looked away

" I didn't raise you to do some silly job , you will never archive something in life that way ! "

A glass got thrown towards San making him dodge it in shock

" Honey ! Stop this nonsense "

"Dad , leave him alone he'll study I'll help him "

Haneul stuttered rushing towards her brother that clutched his shirt crying

" He's a disgrace! how will I ever trust yo-"

" I don't want to be fucking trusted with something I don't even want to do Dad ! I can't take it anymore seeing your face every day and having to hear this bullshit you call discipline!"

San yelled cutting off his Dad that widened his eyes since he never expected him to yell

" I'm fucking tired of you Dad , I'm depressed and your not helping my mental health the slightest! all you talk about is your dumb ass business that Haneul doesn't even want to take over as well ! Your egoism is making me sick "

" Look how your talking to me boy ! "

" I won't ! , I'm tired I wish I could've jumped from that building that night but I'm weak like you said I'm that dumb useless child right ? "

Tears burned the boys eyes as his Dad stood up angrily

" But do you know who's the useless one between us Dad ? It's you your weak an- "

" I told you to watch the way your speaking to me boy I'm your Dad ! "

His dad charged towards him landing a hard slap across his face

" Dad ? do you call yourself that ? "

San held his throbbing cheek chuckling

" You're just a sad nobody that takes out his anger on his children because they don't seem to keep up with his stupid morals and standards! "

His sister sobbed silently as her mom looked at her

" You make me sick ! Don't you see that everyone else here is tired of you ? Especially mom and haneul who have been keeping up to you like hungry  dogs "

" San honey let's stop ok ? "

His mom tried calming him down but was brushed off him

" I don't want to play the little obedient boy anymore I'm done with this game "

" You must have been out of  your mind "

" Yeah I'm out of my mind , I'm mentally unstable because of the type of a Dad I have "

The boy laughed and clapped his hands

" I wish I could've jumped that day and give your little business buddies a show on your birthday , how would the news be I ask myself "

" San stop it please "

" The Son of Choi enterprise jumps from roof because of his Dad , doesn't that sound amazing ? "

" Choi San I'm warning you "

" Maybe I'll jump today to ease your pockets about my education since I'm such a failure right ? "

His Dad grabbed him forcefully and shook him

" Honey let him go ! "

His mom teared up while his sister stood up and grabbed San

" Why are you doing this ! I told you I'd handle Dad so you can get out of this "

“ You didn’t handle anything, you just sat there and watched me crumble in his hands "

A harsh slap was landed on his face making everyone look at her as she cried uncontrollably

" Enough San , you will go get help I'm tired to clean after your mess I have my own issues "

The younger laughed and composed himself

" Oh you mean Dad's rival son you've been sneaking around with ? And that you got k- "

" Don't you dare "

She looked at him in disbelief as he approached her again

" Why don't you tell them that their little princess got knocked up and has been threatening me to keep it a secret huh ? Oops now they know "

" Haneul , what is he talking about ? "

“ Yeah Haneul what am I talking about , want me to show them ? ”

San scoffed and went upstairs towards his room as she yelled after him

“ Why are you doing this to me ? ”

“ What is going on here ?! "

Their Dad entered San’s room looking at him as he retrieved a box from his closet before dumping everything on the floor

“ As you guys can see with the both healthy eyes you guys have , Haneul is pregnant "

“ Tell me this is not true ”

His mother trembled in disbelief as she eyed the tests , sonograms and baby shoes on the floor

“ Not only that but when you guys went on business trips , she used to drug me so I could sleep while she threw a huge ass party here at home "

Haneul clenched her teeth as angry tears left her eyes

“ Is it true ? Is what San is saying true ! ”

“ N-No Dad he’s just making bad jokes , tell him it’s not true San ”

She approached the younger as she pleaded with her eyes for him to reconsider

“ You know I’m tired of repeating the same cycle everyday, I’m tired off feeling empty every single time and moment , I just want to be away from you guys a hot minute without having to worry about anything other than myself ”

Everyone looked at him as he pulled up his shirt showing bruises

“ This is what is been done to me because I’m weak , lock me up somewhere or put me in a mental hospital for all I care I just want to be away from you guys I’m tired I can’t anymore "

He fell to his knees begging

“ Please I’m begging you mom "

Mr Choi looked around in disbelief as he clenched his jaw before pointing at his son

“ I’m telling you this , if I put you in a mental hospital you will never be seen as my son again do you understand ? don’t talk to me , don’t even call me the word dad anymore because I didn’t raise a wimpy child in my house mark my words "

His mom teared up following after her husband that shed tears of frustration

“ I despise you , I hope you rot in there ”

Haneul slammed his door leaving him all alone to himself again , but this time with no one to lean on