and the multitude with one voice spoke

22 | the earth has music for those who listen

[manymanymultitudes]

I know that it is just a scream into the void, but I have always loved you, since you chased me around the fields of grass at sunset as children, and I have been done for ever since.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

All of it motion,

Lights on car move this way,

Lights on planes move that.

The dew on the spider's web reflects the stars, rotating

Slowly,

And by daybreak,

I will rise to meet you.

For now, I will sit under this tree and gaze curiously.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

Now I only feel shivers down my spine

In place of exploding nebulas

Where stars used to coalesce,

Come together and radiate and sparkle with blinding light,

There are only faint whisps of energy and material left

Light-years after the supernovae.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

I am becoming more and more unapologetically myself. As the sea swirls I sit here in my swirling thoughts, I find them becoming less and less prominent. They are more filled by the fuzzy carpet I am placed upon and the ideas I am being read from an indie novel after realizing, months ago, you do not care. I had imagined I was the one that did not. I was mistaken, and after being ready to start living, I unconsciously built my castle.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

I do not know how to forget you. It is clear to me now that I never will, even thought I have tried, and you will always be a part of me.

Not like those I held for a couple years at a time, kissed goodnight, and promised forever to. I do not miss you at night, I never have, I have loved you from afar and yet the closest I've known how.

But you have always been there. When you stopped making up my biggest moments, you still existed quietly between them. Between other lovers, you remained. Today I recognize that you will always remain. You are at the core of who I have always been, I will always love you, and it will never be any different. It has been this way for a decade and a half, and it will go on for centuries more.

I am lucky to know what this is like even though I will watch you love someone else.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

"He loved mountains, or he had loved the thought of them marching on the edge of stories" LOTR

@ Islay, Scotland

[manymanymultitudes]

"my love is like a storybook story"

@ Neuschwanstein, Füssen, Germany

[manymanymultitudes]

Bus Ride East

@ Trossachs, Scotland

[manymanymultitudes]

The Lady In The Far Lighthouse

@ Singing Sands, Islay, Scotland

[manymanymultitudes]

haunted by thoughts of a sun-drenched elsewhere @ Grand Canyon National Park

[manymanymultitudes]

And then you get out of bed. And, somehow, it's easier.

15:00, 2.18.18

[manymanymultitudes]

Too Tired To Fall Asleep

Inspired by Owl City’s “The Real World”

The snow silences the sound While the moon incites soft piano Melodies, and in thought of you I am Lost, irreconcilably.

You sweep over me like the ocean tide And you sing to me like seashells. You hold me like in your gaze like Venus, And fill me up like a water well.

You keep me tethered to Earth, And lift me high in the sky. Hold my hand and be crazy with me, Soar beyond the sea, let’s fly.

We may not see the same stars, But we share the same dreamcloud-- It’s out my window, and out your stereo, Playing perfectly loud.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

The Golden Rule

Mother taught me to teach by example, Dad taught me the Golden Rule, So I loved you really hardly, so you’d love me, Until tears in my eyes pooled.

I told you things I admire, From stars to galaxies in your eyes; To the way you say good morning... But even stars die.

I told you I love your intent. I told you I love your smile. I told you I love your soft, warm skin-- I hoped it was all worthwhile.

But you took it all and it grew, Your sense of self inside; Will you question these things when I’m gone? Or Will my flowery words wither on mountainside?

You gave me one thing, yes: You said you love how I say words. All I wanted was for you to love something Unintentional. It hurts

It hurts that all you see is what I calculate; All I wanted was for you to love my scars. Not the flowers peeking out. I must depart.

s.s.

[manymanymultitudes]

“Weighed down by heavy lids and lunar lullabies, I knew you were wide awake because you smile with your eyes.”

[manymanymultitudes]

Coursing through my veins - Stadion tunnelbana station, Stockholm, Sweden 

[manymanymultitudes]

naturnostalgi 

[manymanymultitudes]

Tossing and Turning

I’ve heard girls go out in the dark For the cover hides their flaws;

The satiny silk falls over the city, And them, out, it draws.

I guess I’m different-- Daylight is innocent; Daylight shines on only you and I.

Daylight does not keep me cozy And invite intrusives in;

Daylight does not greet monsters That want to meet your ears by way of my lips, and sin.

Daylight does not have me tossing and turning Alone on dark blue sheets.

Daylight does not cast darkness over us, And all we hear is our heartbeats.

Daylight does not brew the broth inside me Of your past and pretty girls...

Daylight shines bright on the here and now And no other songs are heard.

So me, I’d rather not live in cold shadows. I’d rather live in the bright, hot sun, And bask in the present, which I love... Too bad I’m the only one.