Seen so many posts about mental health recently and thought that i would share how it effects me day to day. I have been feeling very low for the past 2 yrs or so due to alot of events that seem to be never ending one after another feels like wrestling a beast everyday just to get through to the next it was hard for me to admit to myself that i needed help and even harder was trying to explain to the doctor how i was feeling as ive never been a great talker anyway, but i finally went about 6 mths ago and was very surprised on how understanding and helpful they really are i was so scared of being told to get on with it theres nothing phisically wrong with you as you dont look any different than anyone who doesnt suffer from it but im glad that i did go as i dont think that i would be here anymore if i didnt. It makes me feel as if everyone is against me and doesnt distiguish friends and family and doesnt care how much stuff ppl and support you have it still manages to get in and effect you in day to day life sneaking up on you its hard to cope and deal with. It eats up my life and feels like it strips me of any feeling of myself and others close to me i find music helps me alot i have a thing for guutars in a big way just wish i could do them justice instead of just being occasional toys. This is just part of my story and if you are still reading this thank you for taking the time to read this and hope that if you do or dont suffer from mental illness that there is help out there if you are willing to ask for it and i know how hard it is for some ppl to admit or it may just be me. Keep fighting it has to get better eventually xx