#EverydayMariel

Be still. Believe. Remain. Trust Him.  Psalms 139:14

[marielnieva]

IKAW AT AKO

Di ko alam kung anong ang nararamdaman mo

Di ko alam kung paano ko malalaman na mahal mo na ang isang tao

Ang alam ko lang sa'yo ang boses na gusto ko lang palaging pakinggan

At ang alam ko lang sa'yo ang mga kamay na kahit kelan ayoko ng bitawan  

Ngunit,

Mahirap mag hintay sa wala

Mahirap mag hintay sa parang meron

Pero mas mahirap mag hintay na akala ko meron.

Sa maya't maya mong tanong kamusta ako

Sa maya't maya mong sabing magpahinga ka na

Sa pag papakita ng interes sa kung ano ang aking pinagkakaabalahan

Nasanay ako,

Sa magdamag na usapan

Sa walang humpay na tawanan

Sa walang tigil na kwentohan

Nahihirapan na akong alamin kung alin ang katotohanan

Wag mong simulan kung pangsamantala lang din

Kung wala kang planong saluhin

Wag mo kong patawanin

Kung iyo ring paiiyakin

Wag mo kong mahalin

Kung iyo lang paaasahin.

Lalo na kung hindi mo naman kayang gawin hanggang dulo.

Dahil sa paglipas ng panahon, ito'y magbabago

Dahil sa huli, ministerio lang pala ang lahat ng ito.

Sa muling pagkakataon,

Hindi ko na kailangan ipilit ang sarili ko

Hahayan ang oras dumaloy

Hahayan dumating ang panibagong bukas

Mas mabuti pang umiwas

Mas mabuti pang lumayo

Dahil sa bawat minuto

Ako'y di na natuto

Dahil ang puso ko'y

Patuloy masasaktan

Kaya Ikaw,

Salamat sa ilang araw, buwan at taon,

Simula ngayon

Sarili ko muna ang uunahin

Ikaw si Jec at ako si Yan

Pinag-tagpo ngunit hindi itinadhana.

by EverydayMariel

[marielnieva]

Dear God,

Today, I'm tired.

I'm tired of faking my smile and pretending that I'm fine all the time. I'm tired of holding back my tears each day. I'm tired of hiding all and telling everyone that I'm strong enough to handle everything by myself. I'm tired of struggling on this bottle field which I don't know how to win. I'm tired of facing those heartache, rejections and disappointments. I'm tired of having a heart which always needs mending.

God, please help me to go through this. You know me better than I do. You know my deepest secrets, you hear my whispers and you listen to my prayers even if I can't say them out loud. You know the brokenness of my hearts, the scars left by people and the disappointments by expectations.

God, I hope you'll make me understand why you put me in hard situation. I hope you'll make me realize that these storms are one of the signs that you love me and you only want the best of me. God, whatever you give me in this world, I hope that you'll always guide and bless me, may I always believe in You.

“I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:18‬ ‭

by EverydayMariel

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Facts: Clio, Genrev and I started from kinder now we’re here with their girlfriends except Clio (single si kuya, PM for more details. HAHAHA JOKE) Hahaha Unplanned moments are always better than planned ones. So happy we pushed through.

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Not everyone will understand this, but for once, allow me to say that for the past months people keep asking me if I am okay, I got tired convincing myself that I am okay. I’ve been ignoring everyone, I don’t feel to involve in everything, I’ve lost my interest to the things that kept me alive, where I could no longer feel the enthusiasm to do the things I used to be passionate about because I just lost my motivation. It’s been a long and tiring, yet I’m still here, feeling grateful for the people who never thought of leaving me after-all. Luv u all 😘 ❣ And God’s been with me through it all. Every time i’m lost i’m in pain He’s always been there for me. He helped me pick myself up. God has everything in control. Putting my full faith in Him. God is so perfect that He loves me even more in my struggles. God is so good. ❣ “God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.”‭‭ Psalm‬ ‭46:5‬ ‭ ‬‬ by EverydayMariel

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Team Drawing goes to Mt. Maculot! Some of us don’t have enough sleep but we made it.

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The Dessert Museum ❤️ 

[marielnieva]

I'm the girl you never noticed

I'm the girl who loved you without question. The girl who liked to watch you from afar. 

I like to steal stares from you and when you turn to me, i instantly swerves away.  I don't want to be found out. 

I'm not the girl your eyes go to in a crowd. I will not take your breath away. I will never be the apple of your eye. 

And i'll never be the girl in the center. I was meant for the sidelines. Your eyes were always focused on the center, on what was in front of you. 

I'm not the girl who will impress you with the way i looks. But i will blow your mind with the way i talk, with my opinions about love and life, whether pineapple goes with pizza or not.

I may look boring at first, but it takes time to really get know me. And it's not cliche, because unlike in the movies, i'm the girl still the invisible girl. No makeovers. No revisions.

I'm simply be the girl subjected to people's stares. Not because I'm pretty, but because of what i wear.

I'm the girl who's not easy to love. I overthink a lot. I'm a ticking time bomb.

I may not have the prettiest face, but I'm the girl who will make you realize that not all beauty comes with perfection. .

I'll be the reason behind your hang over for weeks.

You though that i was replaceable. You will try to find me in other people but you can't. Because i'm one of a kind.

And maybe that's where i belongs far away. Because, like stars, i shines bright, even when i'm a million light years away. I'm not easy to reach, but i burns bright.

I'm the girl you never noticed, but should have fallen for.

By EverydayMariel

[marielnieva]

Mula noon hanggang ngayon, siya parin ang nilalaman ng puso ko

Ikaw pala yung mahal ng mahal ko 

Ikaw pala yung pinili nya sa halip na ako. 

Sya at ako, 

nauna na kaming nagkatagpo bago kayo, 

nauna muna kaming magkwentohan bago kayo nagkahulugan, 

nauna niya akong sinabihan ng "mahal kita", 

bago ka nya sabihan ng "gusto kita" 

Sa madaling salita, 

ako muna ang minahal niya bago ka. 

Yun nga lang, 

noon pa. 

Bago pa magkahiwalay ang mundo naming dalawa, 

bago pa kami pagbukodin ng tadhana. 

Natanggap ko na rin naman yon. 

Sabi ko "baka wala lang sa tamang tyempo" 

Pero hinding hindi sumagi sa isip ko na "baka naman maling tao" 

Dahil mula noon hanggang ngayon, 

siya pa rin ang nilalaman ng puso ko. 

Kaso nagtagpo kayo, 

at dahil mahal ko, 

hinayaan ko. 

Ginawa kong maging masaya para sainyo. 

Maaga pa naman siguro. 

Inisip ko na baka sa dulo, 

siya rin at ako. 

Naghintay lang ako kahit pa masaktan. 

Naghintay ako kahit walang kasiguraduhan. 

Pero para sabihin ko sayo, 

hindi ko kailanman ipinilit sakanya ang sarili ko. 

Hinayaan kong dumaloy ang oras, 

Hinayaang dumating ang bukas. 

Hindi ko akalaing kakayanin ko ang tuluyang syang nasayo. 

Pero mas hindi ko inakalang sabihin nyang 

ayaw na niyang ikaw mawala sakanya. 

Unti-unti 

Dahan dahan. 

Paisa-isa nang lumalabas ang mga ebidensya na, 

ikaw ang mahal nya. 

Kaya't hindi na ako nabigla 

nang sabihin niya sa akin na 

ikaw ang gusto nyang makasama habang buhay. 

"Pasensiya na kung nasaktan kita" 

Sa muling pagkakataon, 

ako nanaman ang dakilang martyr ng taon, 

Ang sagot ko? 

"okay lang ako" 

"basta dahan dahan muna sa bawat decision" 

Wala eh 

ganon talaga siguro

dahil mahal ko. 

Kaya ikaw, 

Ikaw na pinili nya, 

Ikaw na minahal nya, 

Sana wag mo syang sasaktan. 

Wag mong pag dudahan ang nararamdaman nya. 

Iparamdam mo sakanya na mahal mo sya, 

at hindi sya magsisisi na ikaw ang pinili nya. 

Pahalagahan mo sya gaya ng ginagawa niyang pagpapahalaga. 

Wag mong pagsawaan ang mga korni nyang biro, 

dahil ang nais lang niya ay makapagbigay ng saya at ngiti sa mga labi mo. 

At sa muling pagkakataon, 

nagpatangay ako sa alon, 

hinayaan kung saan ipaparoon. 

Para lang makalayo 

sainyo ng mahal ko. 

Hinayaan ko kayo, 

Kahit masakit para sa akin 'to. 

Pero tandaan mo, 

Pahalagaan mo siya, 

Protektahan, 

At ang pag-ibig na bigay niya sayo'y suklian. 

Wag mo syang pakawalan. 

Dahil kapag nagkaroon ng panibagong pagkakataon, 

hindi ko na maipapangako na siya sayo'y maibabalik ko. 

By EverydyMariel

[marielnieva]

A perfect way to end our busy day, Dinner with my girlfriend’s at Wingstop Fairview Terraces. 💋❤️️👯

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POTPOTS! 👅😍

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Praise God for having another reason to fellowship and attending the Discipleship Revolution. 😇❤️️

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My first ever youth camp! Thank you, Lord! You're my king ❤️ Haggai 1:5 😇

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My happy place ❤️️

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Where do happy hearts go 💕💕

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Confidence in Christ and Confidence in the riches which Christ will give.

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It’s roadtrip time with my friends. Bound to Tagaytay ft. Batangas trip! I LOVE THE PLACE 💕 PS: We don’t have any plan to go to the Batangas. So much fun with my girls ❤️️

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We craved for an adventure, we made it happen. Travel plus Tent life with the squad! 🍸🏝 Surely gonna do this again. 🍃