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you've just entered a life messed up est. 1997

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Film takes in Liwa, Zambales 🎞️

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Where home is.

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Tumblr will always be home.

The platform has seen us grow like a parent looking after its children. It has seen all our beauty, including the late-bloom we've had. A decade ago, we've made a lot of friends -- did blog descriptions, teased on each other's content, attended grand meet ups. We would usually spend our time hanging out here which made us the creative people that we are today. Writers. Photographers. Journalists. Simply put, more responsibilities came upon us. And that's when most of us almost left the platform, like an airport lounge where people came and eventually left to catch their scheduled flights. Even then, we would still think of the memories we've made here. And so we will log in again, and maybe post something. Things that we cannot tweet or post on Facebook publicly. Fast forward to today, we may not log in as usual as we did a decade ago but this platform will always be home to many of us. To our memories. To our thoughts. Much to our feelings.

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Back on tumblr after all these twitter shenanigans. Following new blogs that hopefully could spice up my content feed. How’s everyone?

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How calming it would be to be by the bay, alone, holding a can of beer, having thoughts between life and death.

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I felt like the play was really my story. Except mine happened on the 21st century.

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I want you to know that I am so proud of you. I can’t wait to see where this gets you and see how far you go in life. Remember that I will always be by your side every step of the way.

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I like writing in Filipino simply because you don’t have to be gender-specific when using it. Our language is very gender-neutral. You could actually write about someone and people wouldn’t know if it’s a he or a she until you give specific descriptions.

[markanicas]

Alam kong sawa ka nang makinig sa mga kwento kong maiuugnay sa salitang lumbay. Alam ko ring suko ka na sa aking hindi matapos tapos na pagsubok upang maging karapatdapat sa pag-ibig mong taglay. Kung ang aking pagpapalaya ang sayo'y makakapagpaligaya, kahit pa hindi mo hilingin basta sagutin mo lang ng oo, ibibigay ko. Kahit pa ang kapalit nito ay ang pansarili kong kaligayahan.

Wala ka namang ipapag-alala. Magiging malungkot ako nang sobra, sigurado ako ngunit hindi na iyon ang mahalaga kun'di ang iyong pagiging maligaya. Sa mga oras na ako'y labis mong minahal at pinasaya, ako'y nagpapasalamat. Hindi mo alam kung paano mo binago ang aking mundo. Hindi mo alam kung paano mo binuo ang aking mundo. Ngunit alam ko kung paano ko sinira ang iyong mundo. Panahon naman upang pagbayaran ko ito, kahit pa ang katumbas nito ay ang muling pagkawasak ko. Hindi ito ang ating huli. Dahil maghihintay ako. At kung darating man ang panahon na maiisip mong bumalik, higit pa sa pagtanggap ang gagawin ko upang mayakap ka lamang muli.

Mahal, patawad sa hindi ko pagpuno sa pag-ibig kong labis ang pagkukulang. Patawad kung nabigo kita. Patawad.

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