Cw/Cg

Cw:90.8 GW:80 (Ugw:74)

[markeli]

The feeling you get when you don’t eat for days, you can feel like you’re gonna fall any moment, is nice✨

[markeli]

Do you realize that if we were “our dream skinny body” we’d be so happy with ourselves but then we would not like something else for exemple your other insecurities…..We really are never and probably will never be happy with ourselves I think no human will ever be fully happy with themselves even if they say they are well I might be wrong or because of my depressive mindset I might think like that but idk are we all ever REALLY gonna be happy with life or ourselves….?………?……..?…….?

[markeli]

Binged for so long….. I was at my lowest weight which was 88lbs…. I wanna cry so much I feel disgusting for gaining so much weight back I’m 95lbs now…..BUT this is the last day tomorrow I start my diet and I will lose even more weight I don’t care what it takes.. I will do it like I did it before…….I’m so ashamed and embarrassed you don’t even understand how DISGUSTING I fkg feel…………….

[markeli]

All the starving it took just so I can be skinny…..I’m tired…..

[markeli]

I see the numbers on the scale drop but my body still looks the same…...

[markeli]

The tiredness is really getting to me I am super tired I slept for like 10h and when I woke up I couldn’t do it I can’t wake up oh god i don’t know what I should do…..

[markeli]

I saw a post that said “ in a sense I’m the one who ruined me” and I did…. I really fucking did… I could’ve done so much stuff now but no I decided to be a lazy bitch who thinks ignoring her problems will make them go away… I really could’ve done so much more hell I could be skinny by now , i could be what I wanted to be right now, I could have better grades , I could be nicer , I could be less annoying to my family, I could just be A BETTER me…. Why does this have to happen to me.….??????

[markeli]

I am still that ugly girl that everyone used to make fun of because of her body and her looks….

[markeli]

Why do my legs get bigger when I stare in the mirror for to long..? Is there a problem with my mirror …??no seriously is there a problem with my mirror?

[markeli]

Why am I so fatttttttt….????

[markeli]

“Why must humans socialize with each other?”

-Koo Ae Jin

[markeli]

I started not liking my body at 11 I remember not eating anything before school so my stomach would be flat. Now that I think about it I find it so sad that I did that at such a young age. I was a child why should a child worry about her weight when she should be having fun instead…….

[markeli]

Let’s go! Not eating anything today 💪🥲

[markeli]

Starving starving starving when will it ever end…..

[markeli]

I can’t wait to be skinny…..but will I ever be..?

[markeli]

Being in class helps your mind forget about eating but the chair really hurts my ass…and at the same time I’m so tired I wanna go home and sleep….

[markeli]

I am so tired……