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Dani chuckled, shaking her head. So, not everything about Marley had changed. That was surprisingly nice to see. But it also sucked. Because Marley still being so insecure and down on herself was sad. She was gorgeous and likely as amazing as she had been when they were younger and she couldn’t even see it. “You were never such a thing, Marley. And you certainly more than average.” She countered, eyeing Marley carefully. She opened her mouth to protest Marley thinking she hadn’t even gotten special treatment, but she stopped herself, thinking better of it.

“It’s certainly wild.” Dani smiled, just happy to listen to Marley talk. “Yeah, my ex was… She was bitch. I made time for her but she also never came and saw me perform and she’d get mad when I couldn’t do what she wanted because I had a gig. Like, honestly I should have left her before all that, but I was trying to make it work.” She sighed with a shrug. “I mean, not say ugh, men, but… ugh, men.” She chuckled. “I’m still sorry to hear he did that, that he thought that. Like, how can you not love music? Was he even human?” The news that her sister hadn’t spent much time in the family home hurt, but was in itself a different kind of comfort. “I’m glad you and your mom were there for her. I would have stayed in contact but I knew if my parents found out they’d take it out on her and I couldn’t do that to her. I’m sorry to hear about your mom’s health and as for the how, because she has to. That’s something I’ve learned over the years. You push through the worst of things because you have no other choice.” Dani nodded at Marley’s question. “Yeah, of course. And tell the bitch she doesn’t get my number until my nose stops feeling so dried out from the whiskey.”

Marley couldn’t even stop herself from smiling, though at this moment her reaction was coupled with her cheeks reddening in the process. “Oh, well, gosh..thank you.” The younger woman sputtered out with a laugh. “So are you, ya know. I mean, you’ve always been above average.” The words had slipped off her tongue before she knew to stop them.

Marley listened intently and intentionally to Dani’s responses, noting her reactions and giving her her full attention. “God, that’s awful. Music is a huge part of who you are, not supporting you doing what you love makes for an awful partner. No, you’re right. Men suck. I haven’t really dated much since, I just wanted to go back to the drawing board but now that I’m a senior, I’ve sort of given up. Everyone either has a partner or is just sleeping around. I don’t really want to waste my time if it’s not going to be something real. “I know Sav understands, I know it was really hard but once the whole whiskey situation is resolved, y’all can chat that out. And I’ll tell Mama Rose you said hello. I know she missed you too.”

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“There’s no guessing, Miss Rose. You certainly have.” Dani smiled, shrugging. “No, that just means I went into an extreme amount of debt, on purpose.” She chuckled at the joke, shaking her head a little before she frowned, face scrunching. Is that what Dani wanted? “It’s fine. I can be professional. Just, don’t expect special treatment and we’ll be good. Okay?”

It was the easiest route. Marley was a senior and there was no guarantee that she’d be able to use the add/drop period to get into another instance of this class. Dani didn’t want to be the reason Marley had to figure out how to take it later.

“More like eight or nine and… Mostly I’ve been a student. Worked as an elementary school music teacher, teach private lessons, got dumped because I decided I wanted to be a professor and a PhD student and apparently my now-ex didn’t like that idea?” Dani shrugged, making a face. “I don’t, have to sneak my whiskey anymore, you’re right. I also don’t have to hide my tattoos anymore, which is cool. What about you? What did you and my sister get up to?”

“Oh, well, thank you, Professor. I’m glad not to be gangly, awkward and as ugly-duckling like as I used to be that age. Not to say I’m all that, I’m average. But y’know. ” Marley quipped back with a chuckle and a blush. “ Cool. Hey, when have I ever gotten special permission from you? I don’t think I’ll be expecting any.” She teased, another laugh slipping from her lips. She was grateful, switching classes even if necessary would have been difficult. Plus, being around Dani again would be nice, even if it was professional.

“God, it really has been that long. That’s really hard to believe.” The brunette murmured. “Wow, well it sounds like you’ve been doing what you love and keeping busy which is important. I’m really glad you took off and ran with music, you inspired me in a lot of ways. And your tattoos are really cool. I’m sorry that your ex didn’t support your dreams. I unfortunately also know what its like. I’ve had very little dating luck except one crappy ex-boyfriend, said that music was a waste of time, energy and money. Broke up with me right after I declared my major. Savannah and I, I mean our usual shenanigans. I didn’t spend a lot of time at your house after you left, neither did she. High school, college, I study composition and she went into psychology. We’re still best friends, nothing has changed. My mom’s health is declining but she’s somehow still working. I don’t know how she does it.” Marley explained, rattling on about the last few years of her life. “Can I still, text you? Outside of class? I want to keep in touch this time.”

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Dani didn’t know what she was supposed to feel when she’d realized the student she’d been texting with was none other than the Marley Rose that was best friends with her younger sister. Sure, she’d seen the name on her roster but it could have just been a coincidence. Which is what she’d told herself. What she’d convinced herself of until the proof had been staring her in the face. There were to many similarities. Then, to find out just how much of an impact she’d had on Marley’s life, Dani had hoped the younger girl wouldn’t have figured it out. Alas, she wasn’t that lucky, and what was a handful of hours anyway?

She’d had trouble getting out of bed that morning, because she’d had issues falling asleep, and not just because her nose kept bleeding intermittently after snorting whiskey out her nose over the ‘hot for teacher’ joke her sister had apparently made. Dani was trying to ignore the implications that had about the crush Marley had once had on her. Even still, she’d been at the door to the classroom at 8:15, getting everything she needed ready and settling in for what she knew was coming.

When Marley had come in, Dani was in a rolling chair, headphones in, and spinning slowly, head back, singing along to the song she was listening to. Catching sight of the younger woman, she was a woman now, wasn’t she, Dani stopped singing, sitting up in the chair. “Hi. You’ve certainly grown up, haven’t you?”

“I, uh, I guess I have.” A slight smile crossed her lips as Marley walked toward where Dani was sitting, her backpack slung around her shoulders. “You have too with your what, almost four degrees. You’ve certainly come a long way from the astronauts of Lima, Ohio.” The young brunette joked as she pulled up a nearby chair. “I know we talked a lot last night and I know that this is all, a lot. So, I decided if you’d be more comfortable, I can switch out of the class.” The young woman said, very matter-of-factly.

The last thing Marley wanted to do was to make Dani the slightest bit uncomfortable. She was nervous, a lot had changes, many years had passed and they weren’t in their hometown anymore. Marley worried that things wouldn’t be anything like they used to be, Dani’s guidance and support were incredibly influential to her back then, but could they be now? In this setting? Who knows. All she knew was that she didn’t want the other to hate her. Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear and now looking at Dani more directly, she took a deep breath, steadying herself for the conversation ahead. “So, how have you been? What’s been going on with you these past what five, six years now? At least you don’t have to sneak whiskey out of the basement anymore.”

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Marley didn’t know how she had gotten the courage to even be standing outside of the classroom right now. Reeling from last night, the tiny brunette wasn’t even sure how she wound up getting out of bed. She texted her professor, her music professor late yesterday afternoon and wound up reconnecting with the person who had shaped the better part of her life. Savannah, Dani’s younger sister was Marley’s best friend, from cradle to grave, fast friends in preschool, the pair shared an unbreakable bond. From kindergarten to college, to every moment in between, they were never apart. And wherever Savannah was, Dani was always there with a warm but critical eye, always looking out for the pair, especially Marley. Dani always made sure that Marley and her mom were taken care of, whether it was help with math homework or babysitting Marley after school, to leaving groceries on the front stoop For Marley, growing up in a single parent, low income household, Savannah was her sister, the Harpers, her family and Dani, her biggest supporter. When the Harpers disowned Dani, Marley, who was fourteen and a half at the time, cried for a month and stopped coming over. Not because Dani of course, but in silent protest to in support of the Harpers’ treatment. Savannah agreed and came over and that’s how it went. Marley moved away, Savannah did too and with their weekly FaceTime calls and visits for the holidays, not much had changed between them. But Marley had changed, the shy and awkward teenager was now a taller, slightly less awkward and shy, talented musician. She studied composition specifically, wrote her own songs and found solace in the notes and lyrics when words were hard. And she never stopped thinking about Dani. Savannah would tease you about how much you talked, wondered that you stoped And those thoughts, whether Marley was willing to acknowledge it or not, meant something; in the reasons why she had given herself a once over in the mirror or was now fidgeting awkwardly in the door jam of Dani’s classroom, waiting for the other to notice her, or not. “Um, hi.” she nearly squeaked, almost too stunned to make eye contact.

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“You had a sensitive nervous system. You had an enhanced reaction to reality. You were very affectionate. You appreciated things. You appreciated them more than other people. You practically went into trances of rapture. You wanted the world to be better than it was.”

— Margaret Atwood, from Moral Disorder and Other Stories; “The Headless Horseman,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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