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i fear no one will ever love me as intensely as a man written by emily henry loves

Star fantasy.

tbh it was probably dead the moment it had started. it couldn't have ever been anything, not while he had her.

i just wish i wasn't foolish enough that i thought i had meant something to him. not a lot even, just something.

i truly thought that we were on a similar wavelength and we understood each other well. and while that might be slightly true, it doesn't explain anything. we got close. "call me at night when you can't sleep" MY ASS. all those calls. me venting to him, him venting to me. talking about anything and everything. sharing small parts of our everyday lives. going to that secret place (which is probably not that much of a secret, but he might think it is) joking around and talking about life.

why act like that? why act like that when you have her? and then why stop all communication suddenly? what, you got back home and now you remembered you have a girlfriend? is your relationship with her truly that horrible or only in that moment it was and you were lonely? (almost wrote lovely... there was a time when he was.)

this is why i don't open up easily. this is why i try not to give "myself" away so soon and to anyone. my walls are up high for a reason. somehow, i seem to be a tool, a quite nice, funny, sparkling tool for others' loneliness. and i'd hate to not admit it, i, of course, also benefit from things like this, as a lonely person. i get some attention, some good laughs. i guess i always end up in the same loop. somehow, i'm always getting hurt by my own feelings, because i think someone might actually like me for me and i wouldn't have to hide who i am.

gosh. on one hand, i wanna tell him off so badly. SO BADLY. though, i don't even know what i would say, since he didn't promise me anything. so i would just be a fool for thinking this was going anywhere. on the other hand, i never wanna speak to him ever again. and, apparently i have a third hand (?) i also just wanna tell him i miss our chats but i can't in good conscious have chats with him while he is in a relationship, however, this would also suggest i thought more into this whatevership. oh, and also a fourth hand (????), i wanna tell him i miss him and we should meet and just talk there. i don't even know what we would talk about. (okay so the last two were my legs, i guess. i got all these limbs, and i wanna hit him with all of them)

#personal #just babbling #venting

squeakitties

how it feels to be very angry abt something petty that doesn’t matter

iheartsebstan

#oof this is so valid and so right #sebastian stan #chris evans #based on a few things chris had done like right after getting cap as a role i thought were good #but overall he's making terrible choices and in the longrun he wont even get a paycheck cos he's been so bad. SORRY it's the truth #seb on the other hand is using his marvel fame to make better films (the thread says the same) and im so glad!#it just shows what kind of a person he is imo and i love that he's heading in that direction

a7estrellas

PEDRO PASCAL 'Gladiator II' Cast Test How Well They Know Each Other | Vanity Fair

#pedro pascal #im WOOSH #he's so UGHHHHH

arcanegifs

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x09 - “The Dirt Under Your Nails.”

#arcane #tv #ch: jinx #MY LOVE

catchymemes

wholeheartedsuggestions

breathe. this will pass. breathe. you are okay. breathe.

kaiasky

its so sad when u have a headache from looking at a screen and wearing headphones all day. bc its like ewwww i feel bad i wanna crawl into a bed and put on headphones and look at a screen. but actually what will cure you is going outside and staring at the mountains or something. terrible. awful

matthewrhys

When Harry Met Sally... (1989), directed by Rob Reiner

#movies #when harry met sally #i love this film so much

kosmogrl

good morning guys. the horrors persist, the cold insists and so do we

recomvery

Romanticizing your life sounds so stupid but it will help you cope. Taking extra time to make a yummie coffee in the morning, sitting outide observing the wind in the trees, writing poems, going to old book stores, watching your childhood favourite movies, listening to romantic jazz, writing in a coffee shop, making sure you have moody lighting in your room, putting on asmr rooms as a background noise while you work. It's not a solution, but it makes things a bit better.

#important