Naamloos

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[gaysamurai]

some Shiro Kasamatsu (1898-1991) favorites

[marouss3]

Just strolled through my neighbourhood yesterday with some jazz music on

[stargazerinmoksha]

nowadays i feel so numb that i can’t even cry

1. write down or talk to yourself about why you may feel numb

2. let yourself cry, you’ll feel much better. when a cloud is full, that’s how we get rain— that’s how the plants grow, after a day of rain, it’s like the earth is smiling

3. accept those feelings, accept the lostness, accept the defeat, accept the longing, accept it all at face value— if everything was perfect all of the time, happiness and peace would have less value. you’re going to feel these things, all of the time. some people feel this more than others, but that’s okay. it gives you more of a reason to snuff out the pain, if you never give yourself the proper positive support and reinforce your mind with a goal or a dream that can be turned into an action, it’s going to slip away. you have to just keep going because no one’s going to love you like you want unless you love yourself like how you’d want someone to love you. you have to give yourself that level of self-respect. your thoughts, your emotions will gravitate success or they can pull more bullshit into your life. the laws of nature deem it as such. you reap what you sow has never been more true for your case

4. it is what it is, and the only thing you can control is your reaction to life. your perception of life is the key to your survival and growth

[marouss3]

[marouss3]

Honestly, I never expected it would happen like this. I never believed romantic songs, movies or stories, but with you I lived through some chapters that are the most beautiful moments in my life. So thank you, whatever happens, I am thankful for this beautiful gift you gave me.

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[drearydaffodil]

Sun and snow and softness, I

Melt inside this tenderness

The gentle hum of what

Will be and what’s already

Come to pass, I read you

Like my favorite book and

Your smile is my favorite

Chapter, my hands dream

Of creasing your spine

Until I reach the climax

You are everything I never

Knew I needed and every

Wish I never thought to

Make beneath a sky

Swarming with stars

I pick the brightest one

I close my eyes, now

You are here with me

[stargazerinmoksha]

i know that i can get pretty insecure, these things don’t change. i’m trying to be more open and vulnerable with you. i’m trying to support you. i believe in everything that you are and i want us to be aware. because truth be told, it doesn’t matter anymore. i’m always going to be around. it has always been a deep seated fear of mine that you’ll find someone better or that person will find you. i’m trying to embrace free love and i’m trying to understand myself. your eyes are full of life and sometimes it feels like i can drag you down with my mood. but this is important. we have to have our ups and downs. but you know something? it’s nice to know that our sad moments aren’t too bad. i can live with that. i know that i can be difficult to love, but if it was easy to love me, would you still love me?

[marouss3]

И скучно и грустно

И скучно и грустно, и некому руку подать

В минуту душевной невзгоды...

Желанья!.. что пользы напрасно и вечно желать?..

А годы проходят — все лучшие годы!

Любить... но кого же?.. на время — не стоит труда,

А вечно любить невозможно.

В себя ли заглянешь? — там прошлого нет и следа:

И радость, и муки, и все там ничтожно...

Что страсти? — ведь рано иль поздно их сладкий недуг

Исчезнет при слове рассудка;

И жизнь, как посмотришь с холодным вниманьем вокруг, —

Такая пустая и глупая шутка...

-1840, Лермонтов

[ex0skeletal]

The Demon Seated by Mikhail Vrubel