noise

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Allowing the static to settle

A world almost remembered

The boundaries feel

Like a dream

The forest withers to desert

The sun will always disappear

But it's high in the sky

I am painted with shadows

The warmth is a kiss on the mouth

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It all boils down to

My head is always so full

My hands are empty

I'm embroidering ideas

Just to keep me occupied

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I quantify pigment

Crimson petals leaking

From a Robin's egg sky

An exhale into ebony

I fold gently

All torn skin

All nervous hands

All bitten lip

The frantic dance

Of clock hands circling

The way the stars

Fall out of sight

I know how it feels

To fade

Watercolors &

A river wound

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We can't go into the water

Cause amoebas are all breeding

And our brains will be a slaughter

If we give them for the feeding

And sometimes our air

Is too toxic for us too

And it's easy to despair

It's the natural thing to do

We are the monster that fell out of the trees

An ape with a desk job, eaten with greed

Sometimes the people are just a disease

Sometimes an ending is just what we need

We built the fire and now everything burns

We are the bullet placed in the gun

The smartest beast that never learns

We're the sickness that can't be undone

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Glittering nostalgia

Dancing in the gold dust

At least it seemed so then

Every star was a wish

I was roses and trust

Just glittering rust

In a wayward storm cloud

Those gossamer wings

My honey drunk heart

The bees still find

Blossoms in the dark

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Incandescent dream

Flickered gently in the wind

The trees told secrets

The moon kept counsel

Her eyes scraping the shoreline

Like some salty prayer

I am trundling earthbound

Still trapped here in the middle

My words have no wings

But I have wishes

That glow gently in starlight

The light still survives

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I know that life has

A mean right hook but I am

Learning how to duck

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The leaving never

Really leaves me, a castoff

Another discard

A child just counting

The tail lights, those scorpions

Painted red with want

The poison settled

In my bloodstream and now

I'll always be sick

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& the tumbleweeds

Have taken hold, this desert

The corpse of desire

I'm massaging calluses

Waiting for pink skin to bloom

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I want to be wine

Moscato sweet and sun drenched

To grow ripe in the dirt

Not this vinegar bitter

All the burn and the pucker

Or a peony

Fragrant with the morning dew

A butterfly's home

No thorns, only soft welcome

A bright, blooming sort of dream

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The pale pastel of grief

Watercolor thread

Throwing splotches

At tepid light

Malnourished

At the root

A gentle moan

A bitten wrist

I will wander

Under elm and spruce

I will wrap myself

In never was

These fruiting bodies

Taste like wishes

The river stinks

Of my despair

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Restless as spring soil

Full of seeds, worms, and secrets

Aching to erupt

Somewhere inside all this mess

True beauty waits, wriggling

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Saguaro stuck

These desert dreams

Languish

Mirage before oasis

And the sapphires

Sparkle behind jagged hills

I am thirsty

Suspended somewhere else

Once the willow

Kissed the oak

And the honeysuckle swam

But the minutes march on

Just me and the lizards

In this sweltering echo

The sand a blister

My smile a wound

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I plant a seed into the dirt

I anticipate the bloom

I am burying the hurt

I illuminate the gloom

I will water, I will wait

I will cherish, soft, the light

But in the end its fate

Is not something I can fight

& I know the bugs are hungry

That the rain may never fall

But l know I'll never see

If I never try at all

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White noise roars beneath

My noise suppressing headphones

Yearning for quiet

Every decibel a bruise

I am desperate for peace

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Search the words for weight

A restless wind will arrive

Dandelions, dance away

Plant your wishes somewhere else